Chapter 12 Chapter One
Ying Zheng was born in Handan, the capital of Zhao State, and his first long cry seemed destined to form an indissoluble bond with Zhao State in his life.Yingzheng's life sprouted in the state of Zhao, and when he grew up to a certain point, he went westward to the state of Qin and became king; then he turned around and swept the six countries eastward with a majestic posture overlooking the world, and stepped on the throne many times as Qin Shihuang who ruled the world. On the long road of patrolling; he traveled all over the vast land of Qin State as he wished and wherever he wanted, but he became seriously ill during the fifth tour and died in Zhao State.Yingzheng started with Zhao Guo, after a long struggle and struggle, finally returned to the starting point of life, quietly but meaningfully drew a full stop like a strange circle.
In the article "Eternal Strange Merchant Lu Buwei", readers have already learned about Ying Zheng's peculiar life experience, childhood life, growth process and other conditions.Next, we will describe and discuss the formation of Yingzheng's personal character and its profound influence on the Qin State and even the Chinese nation following the outline in the previous article.
Yingzheng's surname was originally Zhao, but it was changed to Ying after arriving in Qin.Before he was born, he was tortured and abused unspeakably by Zi Chu in his mother's womb, and he was congenitally cast with the shadow of incompleteness and depression.
After the severe pain of pregnancy, when Zhao Ji looked at her first son in her life for the first time, she found that he had a sharp mouth and monkey cheeks. He was extremely ugly, and the excitement and joy faded away. It becomes quite complicated.
Until the time of the crowning ceremony at the age of twenty-two, the appearance of this veritable king of Qin, China's future first emperor, had not developed to the point where he deserved the slightest compliment.According to "Historical Records Benji", Wei Liaozi described Ying Zheng's image and character as follows:
It has a bee-shaped saddle nose, slender eyes like a horse's eyes showing strange gazes, a flat and thin chest like a bird—that is, what people call chicken breasts now, and a hoarse voice like a jackal when it speaks unevenly.This is Ying Zheng's portrait of youth, so how strong was his childhood?
The ugly image is one of the main reasons for Yingzheng's eccentric personality and psychological defects such as "less kindness but a tiger's heart", "successful cannibalism".
Zhao Ji later persuaded Lu Buwei to kick Yingzheng to become king in Qin State, and then used Queen Mother Yuxi to mobilize troops to help Lai Ai seize the throne, which shows that she has never liked Yingzheng very much.The fact that her son's unclear life experience made her feel at a loss was one reason, but the more important reason was Ying Zheng's ugliness.Zhao Ji didn't understand why, she was as beautiful as a flower, and Lu Buwei was also tall and handsome, how could she become an ugly monster after getting a son?In fact, just think about Zichu lying on her stomach tirelessly and "working" over and over all day when she was pregnant, she should be clear about it.However, Zhao Ji, who only knows about sensual pleasures and only wants to live a flat life, would never think so deeply.A young and beautiful mother has a son with a crooked nose and slanted eyes. The mother and son will definitely be talked about in good faith or ridiculed maliciously by the people around them.As a result, Zhao Ji's heart would surge up with an instinctive dislike from time to time. Of course, the reason for this dislike was Ying Zheng's eccentric personality since he was a child.
With an ugly appearance, Ying Zheng must have had a low self-esteem.In addition, his father and son Chu fled back to Qin State, leaving him and his mother in a remote place in Handan City of Zhao State. His childhood lacked not only maternal love, but also fatherly love.Then, go and play with the friends around you.However, not only did Ying Zheng not get fun and pleasure from being with them, but it brought pain and humiliation again and again.Not only did they laugh at him for being an ugly monkey, but they also called him a bastard without a father, and arranged a song to sing with gusto:
Ying Zheng must have been very angry, so it developed to the point of scolding and even fighting.Ying Zheng was weak and thin, so he was naturally not their opponent, and would often be beaten with black nose and swollen face.Back home, when his mother saw this, she knew that someone else had bullied him, and the orphan and widow had no choice but to swallow her anger. In addition, Zhao Ji didn't love him very much, so she ignored him after asking a few words.It is very likely that Lu Buwei also knew about his being bullied.However, no matter how rich a businessman is, he is still at the bottom of the society and has no power or power. It is the eyes and ears of others, so how can you flaunt and act rashly and "burn yourself"?So, I had to use this to warn Ying Zheng again and again, asking him to learn his skills well so that he will not be bullied by others when he grows up, so that he can avenge his hatred.
Revenge? !Yes, in Ying Zheng's heart, there has been a strong potential for revenge since he was a child.He seems to have an insoluble hatred for everything in the world.He hates his friends and never plays with them anymore; he hates his father who only cares about leaving him in Zhao Guo; She made weird noises; Zhao Ji didn't love him, and he didn't have that kind of unforgettable affection for his mother... So, in a world lacking affection and care, Ying Zheng became more closed and lonely , the gaze that looked at the world was also full of a deep hatred that wanted to destroy everything.Several times, Zhao Ji couldn't help being terrified when she saw her son's ferocious gaze.
Ugliness leads to his low self-esteem, and people's contempt and bullying lead to his hatred.Inferiority and hatred have been accumulated and suppressed in his heart for a long time, which will inevitably lead to a surly and rough personality.He is not willing to live in this environment and this position for a long time, the only way is to surpass.How could he rise above all this?Only by making yourself superior and gaining unparalleled dignity can you overcome inferiority complex, and only by taking revenge can you overcome the unstoppable hatred in your heart!He didn't know the specific way to achieve his goal, but he kept swearing in his heart that I would surpass you, I would take revenge, and I would make those who looked down on me kneel down at my feet.As time goes by, this continuous tempering becomes Xiao Yingzheng's daily homework, and it is also the life force for him to be able to tenaciously hold on to continuous growth.
As Ying Zheng grew up, he once learned about his special relationship with Qin from his mother (or Lu Buwei).Heh, I never expected that my great-grandfather turned out to be King Zhaoxiang of Qin who was so famous that other six kingdoms, especially Zhao, were frightened. His grandfather An Guojun was the prince of Zhaoxiang King, and his father, Zi Chu, was the prince of An Guojun. It's the prince's prince.In other words, when he grows up, he will be a king of Qin.Ah, king, that is a man!As a result, there was hope in Ying Zheng's heart, and the abstract and hazy ambitions in the past became concrete and clear, as if they could be touched.Hmph, just wait and see, when the time comes, I will flatten the country of Zhao, and I want you to lie under my feet one by one. I want your heads and your lives. I will do whatever I want, and see if you dare to despise me. I mocked me, insulted me and bullied me!
It was in this environment and mentality that Ying Zheng spent his childhood that determined his future life development.