Chapter 41 Poems buried under the dam: "Autumn in Tuanbowa", "Autumn Songs"

After a long period of self-torture thinking and introspection... Guo Xiaochuan began to enter a period of painful transformation.He finally broke the cage of his mind with one punch, and was liberated from the "Heart Prison".In the autumn of 1975, he wrote the most famous underground poems in the ten years of the "Cultural Revolution": "Autumn in Tuanbowa" and "Autumn Songs". Guo Xiaochuan subtly expressed the very complicated mentality of the people across the country in his poem "Tuanbowa". In the autumn of 1975, Mao Zedong commented on the film "Entrepreneurship": "There is nothing wrong with this film."The struggle situation at that time was very delicate, and almost everyone formed a heart alliance to fight against the ultra-left line of the "Gang of Four".However, from the outside, everything is quiet.The poet sensitively foretells what lies behind this silence, like the light before the flame of life is extinguished, Guo Xiaochuan's poetic spirit suddenly enters an unprecedented realm.The verses become more proficient, sophisticated, and swaying.

The autumn wind is like a flexible comb, combing the quiet Tuanbowa; The autumn light is like shining beads of sweat, fluttering on the flat beach. Sorghum is like a team of "red scarves", quietly observing the surrounding roads, Sunflower shook her head and smiled, unable to see the red horizon where the sun rises. The comfort, wisdom and calm expressed here are precisely the experiences shared by many people who were liberated from the "inner prison" in the autumn of 1975.As far as his poetry is concerned, it is also an outstanding poem that has entered the classics since the May Fourth New Poems.

Tuanbowa, Tuanbowa, are you really that quiet? Guo Xiaochuan experienced beauty, joy and confidence in this "quietness".For many people in 1975, the autumn of this year was indeed beautiful, because the road gradually became clear. "Autumn Song" is Guo Xiaochuan's "Song of the Swan".Maybe the tragic era limited Guo Xiaochuan, but this swan song before his death really took people to the realm of nine heavens. More than once, the refreshing autumn wind woke me up from my lethargy; More than once, the festival fireworks ignited the fire in my heart. Guo Xiaochuan's tempering of poetry and his cultivation of classical poetry in his whole life have been melted into these short lines of poetry at this time.It is truly a masterpiece, a model:

Listen, the ice and snow Liaohe River, the wind and rain Yangtze River, turbulent sound day and night; Listen, the bamboo formations in the south and the pines in the north are still shouting. Look, the grain transport convoy and the tractor group are always booming; Look, countless horses and millions of soldiers are always running forward. The refreshing autumn wind has blown my body into the clear sky; The festive fireworks have already set my heart on fire. Guo Xiaochuan noted after the poem "Autumn in Tuanbowa": "The first draft of the first draft still needs to be revised many times, and it belongs to the category of "Reference News". Do not spread it outside."

At that time, the author was still under censorship and determined to "bury the poem under the dam" because he knew it could not be published. "Anyway, let's bury this contradictory poem under the dam. It may not suit your autumn season, but it will definitely take root in next spring..." Therefore, "Autumn in Tuanbowa" and "Autumn Songs" are only circulated in the small circle of friends. When Guo Xiaolin saw these two poems for the first time on his father's desk in Lin County, he always felt: good, but not very good.What impressed Guo Xiaolin deeply was this sentence in "Autumn Songs":

I know that one day, I will melt into smoke and the smoke will rise to the sky. Guo Xiaolin couldn't help but secretly startled.After many exercises, my father is now like an old man in his dying years. He suffers from cerebral arteriosclerosis and coronary heart disease. All his teeth have been pulled out, and the dentures inlaid are not suitable. Use your tongue to push the dentures down with a "click" and then roll them back into place.He relies on sleeping pills for sleep, and sometimes the strength of the medicine kicks in before he finishes his meal, and the hand holding the spoon trembles, so his daughter-in-law Yang Guixiang has to rush him to bed.

During his days in Lin County, Guo Xiaolin could no longer write high-pitched political lyric poems, because China at the end of 1975 had been tossed to the brink of collapse.Guo Xiaolin and his wife took their one-year-old daughter, Ainong, to live in a hospital bed for half a year in order to take care of her father.They often need to change beds three times a day.Once, little Ainong wet the hospital bed and was scolded by the nurse, so he had no choice but to rent a farmhouse near the hospital.The little family atmosphere brought by this temporary small home warmed Guo Xiaochuan's tormented heart, and his one-year-old granddaughter Ainong also brought him family happiness.

Guo Xiaochuan showed rare interest, and he asked Guo Xiaolin and his wife to make him dumplings every day.This is actually the longing for family atmosphere and human nature when people are in an abnormal environment that lacks family affection for a long time. After Guo Xiaolin arrived in Henan, his father mentioned on the first day that Guo Xiaolin and his sister rarely wrote to him during the one year period since he was censored for the second time.During the segregation inspection period when he lost his personal freedom, only the interrogation of his relatives on the thin letter paper could bring him a little spiritual comfort.He said: "At that time, I needed your understanding very much, but you didn't even come to a letter." How much sadness was hidden in the deep words!At that time, people spoke with twists and turns, and their real intentions were often hidden deeply.If you show homesickness, longing for your loved ones, or boredom with the endless "fighting, fighting," you will be considered not revolutionary and will be criticized outrageously.So Guo Xiaolin didn't realize all the true thoughts deep in his father's heart.

After observing Guo Xiaolin for a few days, Guo Xiaochuan told him that there was a "Gang of Four" in the party, and the struggle was very sharp. , because Guo Xiaolin cannot mature overnight, so the gap between father and son not only continues to exist, but is even deepening. People could have believed that with the passage of time, Guo Xiaochuan, Guo Xiaolin and his son's "night rain in the opposite bed" could finally eliminate the barrier between them, but after all, God did not give this opportunity, but destroyed this hope. The image Guo Xiaochuan left for people is: warrior and poet.He was singing and advancing, and suddenly fell down.

Guo Xiaochuan's collection of poems is known as the "Clarion of the Times", which records the steps of the various historical eras of the Republic.He always walks ahead of the trend of history, playing a high-pitched and exciting trumpet.But the "Cultural Revolution" threw him down and into the abyss of the times.Under the violent impact of the "Cultural Revolution" movement, after painful thinking and paying a high price, he broke free from the "Heart Prison", gained the initial germination of personality, and a kind of independent consciousness and independent personality began to wake up. Boldly sang the song of rebellion, which is also a "swan song". "Autumn in Tuanbowa" and "Autumn Songs" have become immortal poems in the contemporary Chinese poetry circle.