Chapter 24 carve the world twenty

Carve the world twenty (1) Old Jesus, old Jesus, Both eyes are blue. What do you love about me? Love my silver money. ——Yunnan folk songs After bidding farewell to An Ye and Chieftain Bai Mo, Gao Shimei walked straight forward, feeling light and light, as if she was about to fly.After walking for an unknown number of hours, he came to the foot of a mountain.In his consciousness, he was getting farther and farther away from Gejiu City, and many life fragments naturally appeared in his brain.He slowed down, looking down at the hooves in the road like a hound on the trail.He loves this old city, and in his heart, that small mountain city is like a motionless millstone, and he always revolves around it.As long as that small mountain city is still there, he will not lose his way.Now, the road is about to turn into a deep mountain valley.There is a foreign church at the bottom of the valley, and the singing of the choir floats into Gao Shimei's ears from afar.Gao Shimei knows that today, there are more and more churches in this land, even in the most remote places, as long as the shepherds go there, there will be a small church there.In Gao Shimei's consciousness, he hates that kind of architecture, and is especially afraid of that white color.He particularly hated the missionaries there because they were lying.Gao Shimei remembers that when the missionaries first arrived here, they told the people here that God is the great father and mother of all people. He has the strength and courage of a father, and also has the love, compassion and infinite tolerance of a mother. Heart.The common people here don't believe their way, stay away from them, they are lonely.So they changed tack, carrying small vials with them and helping people treat common ailments like intestinal worms and malaria for free wherever they went.Strangely enough, many patients' symptoms disappeared after taking their medicine.Especially for some children, their eyes were blood red, filled with eye mucus, and cried out in pain.As soon as they saw them, they grabbed the children and applied some medicine on the eyes of the children. After a while, the eyes of the children did not hurt, and they could clearly see things in the distance.The common people get benefits, of course they think their meritorious deeds are immeasurable, and of course welcome them.They continued to preach about Jesus and the kingdom of heaven to the common people, but the common people could not understand them.They feel as if there is a huge wall between themselves and the people.Later, missionaries discovered that the common people here hung plaques saying "Three Religions of the Same Origin" in their own temples, and most of them believed in the Jade Emperor, Sakyamuni and Confucius.The missionaries said: "The Jade Emperor, Sakyamuni, Confucius, and Jesus are four brothers, and Jesus is the younger brother. Now, the Jade Emperor, Sakyamuni, and Confucius are all dead, and it is Jesus' younger brother who rules the world. Do you believe in Those three big brothers should also believe in their younger brothers." When the missionary said this, many ordinary people began to walk into those foreign churches, their hearts were stirred, their imaginations were also stimulated, and a new vocabulary was added to their daily life. "Jasso (Jesus)".Hundreds of them met in foreign churches, sang hymns, prayed, confessed, and received tea and bread.They will say, "Jasso loves me," and they will say, "Oh, die like our Christ."

Thinking of this, Gao Shimei's heart was disturbed.He changed the direction of his walk, avoided the church, and walked up the hill with difficulty.On the mountainside, the sky became high and bright, and many yellow-brown stones were exposed in the grass, with a few wild grapes occasionally climbing on them.It was undoubtedly a picture he liked.He continued to walk forward and unknowingly entered a desolate cemetery. The cemetery is not big, only four or five tall and short graves.Among them was a new grave with a bouquet of wild flowers on it.Gao Shimei was horrified to find that there was an old woman holding the Bible sitting in front of the grave.She bit her lower lip and focused her eyes on the distance, as if something earth-shattering was about to happen in the sky.A strange thing happened at this time, a flying crow suddenly fell from the sky and died suddenly in front of the old woman.The old woman didn't know what happened. After hearing the noise, she instinctively put the Bible aside, bent down, and groped the ground with her hands.She finally touched the crow.She said, "O sin! I am a sinner, and I can no longer defend myself. Now, I repent, and all my sins will be forgiven in the name of Jesus." She buried the crow beside the new grave, and then, She said inexplicably again: "Christ died to save me."

For some reason, Gao Shimei didn't avoid the old woman, but walked straight to her.The old woman asked him, "Who are you?" "Carpenter Takashimi." "Oh, Gao Shimei?" the old woman murmured, "I hear you clearly, I hear you clearly, are you the Gao Shimei who carved the lattice door?" Carving the world twenty (2) "Yes, I am. But I want to ask, do you know me?" The old woman didn't answer, she said, "Come here, let me touch your face!" "Can't you see me?" Gao Shimei asked, "What happened to your eyes?"

The old woman didn't answer directly, she said again: "Come here, let me touch your face!" The tone was obviously aggravated, like an order, which made Gao Shimei at a loss and in a dilemma.He hesitated for a moment, then took a few steps forward and stood in front of the old woman.The old woman stood up immediately, stretched out her palms, and touched his shoulders to the top of his head. "It's Master Gao, it's Master Gao," said the old woman, "with a shaggy beard, and ears that are as smooth as wax. Yes, it's Master Gao. Let me touch your hand again! Oh, yes, Yes, it’s warm, and there’s a force in it that can suck people.”

Gao Shimei retracted her hand embarrassingly. "Master Gao, can't you see who I am?" "I can't see it, I can't see it. My eyes are not good, I'm going blind." "Won't you touch me? You are very familiar with my body. Although I am a sinner, I won't stain your hands." Gao Shimei suddenly became nervous. "When did I touch your body?" The old woman said: "In my life, five men have touched me. You are the fourth and the one I can't tell. Maybe, you are a saint. Am I right?" Gao Shimei took a closer look, and the old woman's eyes lacked the brilliance they should have.But her calm, pained facial expression seemed to be asking a desperate and sublime question.Gao Shimei is too familiar with this expression. "Are you Mrs. Bai?" Gao Shimei asked, "Why are you here? What happened to you?" Gao Shimei felt her heart beating violently, "Didn't you marry that 'La Yang Movie'? Is there anyone?"

The old woman seemed sensible.She said: "Yes, I am Mrs. Bai. You only recognize me now? Have I changed? What do I look like now?" "We are all old now," Gao Shimei said with emotion, "but you haven't changed much. You are still as beautiful and indifferent as before." "I'm a blind man, how can I talk about being beautiful and indifferent?" "You are beautiful at any time, but also very cold. To be honest, I am a little afraid of you." "I'm a cold widow. Of course you're afraid of me. I know you're afraid I'll eat you, aren't you?"

"When was I afraid that you would eat me?" "You are not timid, but why are you always afraid of me?" "I don't know either. I'm just a little afraid of you, but not that you'll eat me." "As I said, you are a saint. You don't think much of me, that's why you are afraid of me." "Stop talking nonsense! To be honest, aren't you married again? How did that 'pull foreign film' person treat you?" "He's dead! Here's his grave. I'm a widow again..." There was another burst of singing from the church. Although the music was ethereal, the lyrics floated into the ears of Mrs. Bai and Gao Shimei very clearly:

I am willing to follow Jesus on a smooth road...or where the flowers and trees are lush and the water is flowing...Since the Savior is leading me...I am willing to follow the Lord...all the way to heaven...follow the Lord's footsteps...follow ...Follow... I will follow Jesus...Wherever I go... The singing voice covered Mrs. Bai's low voice.Mrs. Bai fell silent suddenly.Then the singing stopped.But the lingering sound has been lingering in their ears, it doesn't sound like a human voice singing, but it seems to come from the sky, it has been floating here for so many years, it has been here to accompany them and welcome them for so many years .Gao Shimei suddenly developed a feeling of affection and intimacy for the white church.

Mrs. Bai began to talk about the person who "pulls foreign movies".This is what Gao Shimei is most interested in, so he listens very attentively.Mrs. Bai said that he was the most unforgettable man in her life.After she lost her silly son, she married him.He loves her, and she loves him very much.She had no doubt that that was the man she had been looking for for many years.He gave her all his love.He doesn't dislike her for being blind, and the love between them is passionate, sincere, cautious and serious.His eyes are very pure, he can clearly see her inner world, and he can give her everything she needs.She is very intoxicated, very contented, forgetting the trauma of the soul, forgetting the pain.The days passed slowly and peacefully, with taste and joy, bitterness and joy.However, she never dreamed that he turned out to be a "revolutionary party" who secretly did a lot of "revolutionary work".She didn't know that his real name was Yang Sen until the people from the government came to arrest him, and that he had secretly organized some kind of uprising.Later, he was beheaded and his body was thrown in the wilderness.His brothers and sisters were worried that they would be troubled by him, so they didn't dare to come to collect his body, so she came to the wilderness to collect and wash his body.After that, he was asked to carry him to be buried here.Now, she has nothing, and she has become a widow with nothing.

Carving the world twenty (3) She said: "He was decapitated. It's unbelievable, but he is no longer in this world. I believe in him, he did nothing wrong, he is not the kind of man who does bad things. So, even though I crawled, kneeled Come here to see him if you scratch your fingers and knees." As she spoke, Mrs. Bai's hands were shaking violently, as if trying to grab something.Gao Shimei immediately put her hands on her body, and she calmed down a little. "You're a good man too," said Mrs. Bai. "Your hands washed the dog shit on my body. Do you remember the scene back then? I escaped from the bandits, and my whole body was covered in dog shit, which stinks to the sky. People Everyone sympathizes with me, but everyone stays away from me, they feel sick, no one is willing to stretch out a hand to help me. You waited for everyone to leave, helped me take off my clothes, and washed me with hot water, but no matter what I can’t wash it clean, so you have to clean it with your hands. I can’t see you, but you can see me! I’m sitting naked, pretending to be asleep, calmly and submissively letting your hand freely touch me Sliding on my head, face, body, and thighs. Do you remember? I said that my body is yours from now on. I am not kidding, I am telling the truth. At that time, I closed my eyes tightly , open the window of your soul to you, give your body completely to you, you can do whatever you want, and I'm happy with what you do. But, you didn't do anything. I can feel that your demeanor is very calm , very calm, very gentle, you really helped me, without any wrongdoing. At that time, I said in my heart, if I hadn’t experienced it myself, I couldn’t believe that there are such good men like you in the world. However, since then, my heart has never been peaceful for a day. Although I am not worthy of you, I still fall in love with you. People in the village also think that you are in love with me. You care about me and protect me all the time, it seems You can’t live without me. To be honest, during that time, I was very happy and felt that I would never lose the courage to live. However, when I arrived in an old city, I felt that you covered up everything in your heart. Your heart seemed to be Sometimes I'm there, sometimes I'm not. I'm looking forward to the day when I'll be in your heart completely. But the truth is, the wood has been in your heart before me, and there's nothing in your heart but a lattice carving. You're just Sympathize with me, help me, I can only meet and talk with you cautiously. To you, I am just a poor widow."

"Sister-in-law Bai, don't talk about it. I didn't feel cowardly until now." Gao Shimei said, "When the brilliance and strong spirit given to me by the wood gradually disappeared, I have nothing. I am light and light, I don't know What should I look for?" Mrs. Bai calmly made a sign of the cross on her forehead and chest.She said: "You have no sin, you are a lattice statue, a wooden saint, and God is calling you to go forward." Her voice seemed to come from some cold corner of her heart, through her throat. , came out of his mouth, and entered Gao Shimei's ears with a strange whistling sound like a wind. "I'm afraid, I'm a coward," Gao Shimei said, "Sister-in-law Bai, why do you keep talking about God, God?" "Are you afraid of me? I am indeed a sinner, a murderer. I killed a man. Do you know that? No, you can't know, and only I know, except God." Gao Shimei was shocked. "No, no, you can't kill someone." Mrs. Bai said: "Because you don't really love me, so you don't really understand me. I killed my second man. For this, I suffered retribution and gave birth to a stupid son. Not to your true love, and finally lost that man who 'pulls'. Now, I repent every day. Good thing God has accepted all my sins and all my sins will be forgiven in Jesus name. Ah, God is just, and justice is a gift from God to each of us. God has arranged for me to meet you here today, to tell you about my sins and my story.” Gao Shimei said: "It's getting late. I should go." Sister-in-law Bai said: "I don't want to hide myself from you. This may be the last chance. I will hold on to it. You must sit down and listen to me before leaving." Mrs. Bai said: "You have never found out who I am? I am not what you see as Mrs. Bai or Mrs. Black. I am Yula, Yula from Baixinzhai, your sister Yula. Do you remember me? You You must think that 'Yula' is no longer in this world? Yes, I shouldn't be alive. I have always been a pipa ghost and have been harming others. I have survived countless times of wind and rain. How many times have I survived? Ten years, maybe you thought I was dead? Let me tell you a secret, a secret that surprised you. That year, after you, Jack and Su Helin came to Baixinzhai, Su Helin wrote me a letter secretly He said that because of his concern for me, he was often irritable and restless. Even if he turned off the lights and lay on the bed, he could not fall asleep. My shadow was always swaying in front of his eyes. He was worried about my fate and that I would be killed by some force Completely devoured. He missed me very much, like a thousand miles long silk thread from my heart, firmly tied to his heart. That silk thread made him inexplicably sad, but also inexplicably excited. For me, he is willing to seize everything and give up everything. He doesn't know what he should do in the future? Carving the world twenty (4) "Later, misfortunes happened one after another in my family. My elder brother, elder sister, and younger brother all died, and I was helpless and desperate. At that time, I was secretly sent by Su Helin to the chieftain's house to hide. You all left, Su Helin He also returned to Kunming, but he did not forget me. He managed to ask a familiar horse driver to bring me travel expenses and told me to rush to Kunming, where he waited for me. I have never traveled far, and my family has to go to Kunming For more than a month, how many high mountains and valleys, bad waters and dangerous shoals have to be passed on the way, how can I get to Kunming as a little girl? The horse driver saw my difficulty, and he entrusted another caravan to take me to Kunming and hand it over to Kunming. Su Helin. At that time, Su Helin said that he had resigned from Jack’s job and would not return to the United States. He was going to take me to Beijing. Su Helin took me to play in Kunming for a few days and bought me some beautiful new clothes. Then , we set off from Kunming, sometimes by car, sometimes by horse-drawn carriage, and sometimes on foot. We arrived in Guiyang after 7 days. Then we took a car to Wuhan and took the train to Beijing. In those days, Su Helin was full of boundless passion for me And trust, he made my every day and even every hour full of surprises and accidents. We laughed constantly and were extremely happy. After arriving in Beijing, Su Helin successfully found a job, first teaching in a middle school, and soon Enter a university to become a professor. What should I do? Su Helin first sent me to a girls' middle school. But because I am unfamiliar with books, teachers and classmates, I fear them (them), just like our Baixinzhai People are afraid of pipa ghosts. Su Helin had nothing to do with me, so he had to drop me out of school and let him be my teacher, teaching me to read and write every night. Soon, we got married. A year later, I gave birth to a very cute baby Su Helin loves us even more. In order to make my children and I live a better life, he works desperately. In addition to teaching at the university, he also takes part-time classes in middle schools, and at the same time writes articles against time to earn royalties. We are happy and happy Four years passed. The child was 4 years old, more lively and lovely. But at that time, disaster struck. One day at noon, Su Helin had a stomachache and rolled on the bed in pain. He said it might be acute gastroenteritis or appendicitis When I arrived at the hospital, the doctor said that it was neither acute gastroenteritis nor appendicitis. What exactly was it? After two days of observation and treatment, the doctor thought that there was nothing wrong with it. The strange thing is that when the doctor spoke, Su Helin’s stomach was not sick. Pain, like a very healthy person, with a rosy face and full of energy. But when we got home, he fell ill again, lying on the bed and screaming that his stomach hurts. I touched his belly and it seemed to be beating. He Said that there was indeed something moving through it, and it hurt to death. I sent him to the hospital again, and the pain disappeared inexplicably. After a day or two, he said, nothing happened, he could eat and drink, Can dance, how can he look like a patient? We had to leave the hospital again. But within three days, he complained of stomach pain again. This time, Su Helin did not ask me to send him to the hospital, but sent him to a very famous old Chinese doctor The old doctor prescribed a pair of Chinese herbal medicine for him. After taking Suhelin decoction, his condition still did not improve.This time, Su Helin has become sluggish, and his spiritual pillar seems to be completely collapsed.The old Chinese doctor kept changing the prescription for him, and promised to cure his disease.One day, the old Chinese doctor learned that I was from Yunnan, so he sent me away with an excuse, and told Su Helin that there used to be people in Yunnan who raised Gu, and the person who was infected by Gu was your current symptoms.Su Helin was startled, and said to the old Chinese doctor, ah, it turned out that my wife put a poison on me.When the old Chinese doctor heard this, he told him not to panic, but to speak slowly.Afterwards, Su Helin told the old doctor about his trip to Yunnan and the experience of our family.The old Chinese doctor said, you have been poisoned, but don't be afraid, as long as you take the right medicine, you will be fine in a few days.The old Chinese doctor also told him not to disturb me, so as not to affect the curative effect.The old Chinese doctor prescribed a prescription for him. When I took it back, I saw that it was 1 grass fruit, 1 pinch of Qilixiang, 7 new needles, 1 piece of plowshare iron, plus chamaejasma root, croton, realgar, white fan, etc. .After frying and eating, Su Helin was writhing on the bed, vomiting and vomiting, unable to live or die.He yelled at me as a pipa ghost and a pest.I was stunned because he never scolded me and I didn't know what to do, I just cried and kept crying.Su Helin got up from the bed and suddenly grabbed my clothes and hair like crazy, tearing and biting.Afterwards, I let him grab me in the house, punch and kick me.Ten minutes later, I was covered in cuts and bruises, and I was in a bad shape.And Su Helin was also out of breath and couldn't stand up.I put him on the bed, and he spit all over my face. "During those days, my life was worse than death, and every moment I hoped that time would pass quickly so that my life would come to an end as soon as possible. I envied those who died, and I even thought of using a beautiful way of suicide to make my life come to an end. I died peacefully. But as soon as I saw that child, I felt like I was being illuminated by a ray of sunshine, and my heart was filled with vitality. Carving the world twenty (5) "Su Helin regarded me as an enemy and a demon. He said that he must use his knowledge and power to defeat my witchcraft. He visited the most famous old Chinese medicine doctor in Beijing at that time, and used dozens of secret recipes to cure Gu. Those Sometimes the secret recipe is effective, sometimes it is not. He also dances with joy and sometimes despairs. Due to taking too much medicine, he loses energy, loses vitality, and looks like an old man who is dying of illness. Looking at the scene, I couldn't help advising him, saying that I don't know how to raise or release Gu, let alone treat you like this. How could I have the heart to make you sick and make you hurt? Of course Su Helin didn't listen to my advice. He said, if it wasn't for the original I put Gu worms on him, how could he be obsessed with ghosts? After returning to Kunming, he didn’t think about tea or food, but only thought about me? Su Helin also said that at that time, he had already been bewitched by the Gu, and he was fascinated by me. Into the vortex of love, it is difficult to get out. So he resigned from Jack's good post in his mind, took me to Beijing, and couldn't wait to marry me. If he hadn't done so at that time, he would still have followed Jack back to the United States, then I will let the Gu worms on his body explode, bleeding from seven holes in the light, and violent death in the severe. I call him nonsense, and he beats me. The old wounds are still there, and the new wounds come again. I can’t convince He had no choice but to let nature take its course and let him frantically seek medical advice everywhere. "Later, a friend introduced him to a temple, where he found a very clever sorcerer. It is said that the sorcerer is a master at curing Gu, and his spells are very fierce. As long as he recites the mantra, the person who releases the Gu will surely die. Su Helin doesn't quite believe it, It is said that he is a professor at a university in Beijing. He can talk about medicine, medicine, astronomy, geography, psychological suggestion, sociology and anthropology, but you can’t talk about deception. The apprentice caught a majestic little rooster and put it on the altar. The mage began to chant the mantra. After a few minutes, the little rooster was dying, as if he had died. Facing the facts, Su Helin had to believe that the mage was a strange person. Master. Therefore, Su Helin hesitated for a moment, and said that it is enough to kill the Gu worm in his chest. As for the fan of the Gu, there is no need to worry about it. So the mage recited a spell for him, and his body immediately relaxed a lot. He continued to chant mantras for him, and he felt that the Gu worms in his chest gradually disappeared, and his stomach pain disappeared. All this was told by his friend. "From then on, Su Helin was no longer suspicious of me. He said to me with a victor's attitude, quickly hand over the secret recipe of raising Gu and making "love potion"! After the research of experts and scholars, it can be developed and utilized. It can be used for war or to punish bad people. I said, I don’t have that kind of thing at all. Even though my mother could raise Gu and release medicine when she was alive, she didn’t teach it to me. Su Helin said, I know, because of your national characteristics, you are ignorant. You are stubborn, and you will never easily tell your secret recipes to foreigners. It doesn’t matter if you don’t tell them, I will discover and research by myself. "Su Helin no longer cares about the lives of our mother and son, and concentrates on studying his witchcraft and "love medicine" secret recipe. He said that he once tried the first generation of drug he developed on me, and it turned out to be I was confused, and I just looked at him with a silly smile. I asked him what formula he used, but he didn’t say anything. But one day, he suddenly told me that the drug he was researching had already produced a second-generation product, so The formula of the first generation of ecstasy can be released to me. He handed me a piece of paper with the testicles of a mouse, the menstrual blood of a sow, the lungs of a pigeon, the bark of two crossed trees, etc. on it. For Looking for those messy things, he not only lost his job, but also sold out all the valuable things in my house. My children and I were poor and sick, and the days were like years. In the end, I had to bid farewell to Su Helin quietly and work as a nanny in a wealthy family. It didn’t take long , my child starved to death in the hands of Su Helin. When I heard the news, I was so heartbroken that I couldn't bear the pain. Immediately afterwards, Su Helin's friend sent him to a mental hospital, and I continued to work as a nanny in that wealthy family, living a humiliating life. I have visited Su Helin several times in a mental hospital, but his condition has completely deteriorated, he has lost his memory, lost his reason, and completely turned into a madman. After that, I no longer have the desire to see him. Years later, I received a notice from the hospital that Su Helin had died of illness. "Master Gao, has my life been too miserable? I lived peacefully in that rich family for two or three years. Later, I found out that there were still people talking about my life behind my back, saying that I was a Gu from the barren land of Yunnan. Female, terrible, once confused a university professor, made that university professor go crazy until he died of illness, and at the same time killed his own son. I feel that the air is so tense every day, almost no one talks to me, I am lonely Alone, without direction, without a soul, and unable to feel the true taste of life. I think witches are scary, but living people are equally scary. Are you right? I am most afraid of seeing people, and others are also afraid of seeing me. In the eyes of many people, I was still a pipa ghost in Yunnan. Later, that wealthy family fired me, and I could no longer live in Beijing, so I had to go through untold hardships and beg for food before returning to Yunnan.” Carving the world twenty (6) Mrs. Bai paused for a while, weeping secretly.Gao Shimei didn't know how to comfort her, and kept a rare silence.Mrs. Bai went on to say that after she returned to Yunnan, she thought she would never marry for the rest of her life.But it is dangerous and impossible for a woman to live among men.Not long after, she was tricked into Zheng Ying and married a cruel and shameless old man named Zhou Chaolong.Zhou Chaolong is like a devil who came out of hell. He often goes outside to burn, kill, kidnap, and wreak havoc on other people's beautiful lives.Even if she stayed at home, Zhou Chaolong still blindly created a terrifying atmosphere, which made her feel anxious and restless for a moment.Mrs. Bai said that every day of her life was like living in hell.She would rather die than live a life like this.So, one dark night not long after, while Zhou Chaolong was not at home, she boarded a man's boat and fled to the other side of Yilong Lake.She said: "Do you know why I took a man's boat? It's just because that man's face is very similar to yours, his figure is also very well-proportioned, and he is full of strength. He is also a craftsman, a blacksmith. In Zhou Dynasty, the dragon bullied me. Sometimes, I will think of you, and when I think of you, I will think of that blacksmith. More importantly, that blacksmith is as smart and kind as you, and he will give people a good impression when they meet. Many times, I completely imagine him as you. I have suffered enough, I need you, I need a man like you to support me. Unexpectedly, this blacksmith loves me very much, but he is afraid of Zhou Chaolong. I give him courage, and I say what is so terrible about Zhou Chaolong? He actually He is a thief. But the blacksmith still didn’t dare to take risks for me. He promised to protect me secretly and communicate with me secretly. But this kind of behavior is tantamount to a woman betraying her husband quietly and lying on another man’s bed. It’s no different Yu wiped out Zhou Chaolong's masculinity and made him a dwarf among men. After Zhou Chaolong found out about our behavior, he didn't feel that he had lost me. He thought about how to wash away the shame I brought him. He thought, only revenge I, a lowly woman, is his future. He has never dared to do anything and is not afraid of death. Adventures are the most attractive to him. I know that he is not a good person. He once went to the Qujiang River to snatch women, and after playing with them, he gave them to his pig and dog friends. As a result, the men and women in Zhengying were afraid of him and regarded him as a devil. But in many cases, Some people praised him face to face and expressed awe of him. This actually increased his social status and made his prestige more powerful day by day. I know the essence of Zhou Chaolong, and I have no illusions about him at all. From the time I was From the day I cheated into Zhou's house, I regarded him as a devil. I tried my best not to have sex with him, and cursed him as "Erlang God". But Zhou Chaolong didn't care about me, and let me go wild. Maybe he was thinking, a woman! Let me go After a few days of messing around with her, she will be good. But he didn't expect that after a few months, I would 'fly' and escape to the other side of the lake with a beautiful blacksmith. So Zhou Chaolong rushed to the lake. With the cooperation of Zhou Chaolong, they caught me in just one day. At that time, I was fleeing with that beautiful blacksmith to a fishing village to beg for food. I knew that Zhou Chaolong was coming, so I took the beautiful blacksmith from the entrance of the village and fled separately. But I ran I was not going fast, and the road was difficult. So, I was quickly captured by Zhou Chaolong. And that beautiful blacksmith fled far away, and there has been little news since then. Only then did I know that he is a coward, a real coward. He is also completely desperate. I have no one to rely on. I have no parents, no brothers and sisters, and I am homeless. It is Zhou Chaolong's business to beat and scold me. Other villagers have no right to interfere. Tears. On the same day, Zhou Chaolong snatched a wooden boat and tied me to the stern. He happily rowed the boat to Zhengying on the south bank. But when he reached the middle of the lake, an episode suddenly happened: I don’t want to live anymore, I bravely jumped Into the lake. Zhou Chaolong was indifferent to this. He said: "Let you jump, there is a long rope tied to you." I was like a big fish that was hooked.Boat.Zhou Chaolong did his trick, braided my hair and tied it to the stern of the boat, so that my belly was turned upside down, my lips just came out of the water, and my body floated on the water.He was rowing a boat, looking at the distant villages and hills leisurely and happily, but he didn't look at me who was choked to death by the water.I know.He was gnashing his teeth for revenge on me, a helpless little woman.He wants me to know how powerful the Zhou family is.He desperately hopes that more people can see that wonderful scene.He even tried to choke me to death and throw me in the lake by the way.The boat docked.Many people saw that scene and were shocked by it.At that time, I had closed my eyes, my clothes were tightly attached to my big belly, and the embroidered shoes on my feet had disappeared, revealing a pair of dead white feet.But I didn't die.In the middle of the night, I was miraculously revived.At that time, I made up my mind to take revenge on this man.Otherwise, one day, I will be tortured to death by him.It didn't take long, about half a month later, the opportunity came, he drank outside, got drunk, and came back madly late at night.He said he had found out the whereabouts of the handsome blacksmith with whom I had an affair, who seemed to be a clerk in a drug store, and that some day he would send for his murder.Then, he lay on the bed like a dead pig, clamoring for foreign cigarettes (opium).When he was in a daze, I took out a large ball of foreign cigarettes from the can, kneaded them into some small glutinous rice balls, stuffed one in his mouth, and poured him a sip of wine.Until let him eat all those foreign cigarettes.Thinking about it later, those foreign cigarettes were enough to poison two cows.Sure enough, he fell into a deep sleep and died in an orderly manner. " Carving the world twenty (7) Gao Shimei stroked her thin cheeks and curly beard and said, "Sister-in-law Bai, are you making up a story to lie to me? I only heard from you before that your husband Zhou Chaolong died of illness. Why didn't you tell me about the relationship with Su Helin?" Are you really Yula? An Ye said, you live a happy life in Beijing, how can you have so many suffering experiences? All these stories are impossible to happen to you, right? " "Back then, how could I tell you these stories? Even today, I only tell you when I confess and now. I have too many stories, how can I tell them all? I don't quite understand , why do you still remember all the experiences of those years clearly now? Moreover, as soon as I tell you, I can’t stop talking about it, and all the past events come to my mind.” The cemetery was silent, and time seemed to freeze.In this time and space, it seems that nothing will happen. "What happened later?" Gao Shimei asked, "Didn't you have another child? Is that fool?" "Yes, I gave birth to a son. It was born eight or nine months after Zhou Chaolong's death. I didn't know whose offspring it was, anyway, it was either Zhou Chaolong's or that beautiful blacksmith's. When my son was two years old, The longer I grow, the more I look like that beautiful blacksmith. Although there is a trace of uneasiness in my heart, I am very happy. I often look at my son with a smile, and it feels like I am dreaming. Later, I found that this son’s brain was very abnormal until he was 5 years old. He can only talk, he is a fool. The neighbors call him the foolish son." "Then what happened next?" Gao Shimei asked again. "Later, I took my stupid son and raised ducks for a living. At that time, I didn't have the time and energy to fabricate and imagine my future life. I only had a vague consciousness: raising my stupid son to adulthood, then是我唯一的希望。但是，周朝龙的4个胞兄胞弟，硬是要把我的这个意识抹去。他们要让我尽快改嫁，远远地离开周家。一天中午，我的住处被周家的58个男人包围。他们下决心，要用武力把我撵出周家大门。因为，我的存在，对于周家来说是个祸患，不仅侵占了他们周家的房产，而且由于我是个年轻漂亮的寡妇，必定会招来更大的是非。我对此并不瑟缩。我突然想到周朝龙有一支五响枪和十几发子弹。于是，我在房里，发疯似地翻箱倒柜，终于寻找到了那件救命的宝贝。我握手枪，艰难地爬上屋顶，骑在屋脊上，两只脚有力地蹬着瓦棱，一手握着五响枪，一手指着那群男人，不说一句话。那群男人见我手中有枪，感到形势不妙，就纷纷逃散了。从此，没人再敢提撵我的话题。后来，村中的小流氓飞小四知道我有一支枪，就打坏注意，想把它偷走。他常常在夜里潜入我家，被我发现后，狼狈逃走了。村里的人还以为他图谋不轨，欺辱寡妇，打我的坏注意。其实，飞小四是冲着那支枪而来的。为此，我不得不把那支枪东挪西藏，但最终还是被他偷走了。有了枪，飞小四更加神气了。再后来，我看见你来到了郑营，但你已认不出我。也许我和你的缘分还没了结，你竟然爱吃我的腌鸭蛋，我就把最大最好的留给你，你也经常帮助我。那时，飞小四对你是又恨又怕，因为你帮我做了一架神奇的纺车，雕刻了两只木狗。飞小四什么都不怕，就怕这两样东西。听说，他小时候到山里捣过一个黑蜂窝，被黑蜂蜇得乱滚乱爬，全身肿痛，死也不得，活也不行。所以，他以后一听到纺车嘤嘤嗡嗡的叫声，就以为黑蜂来了。他害怕见到纺车，他对纺车恨之入骨。他还害怕你的木狗，因为你雕刻的木狗像狼。” 高石美哈哈大笑。但他的内心却经受着折磨，他从未听过这么多真实的故事，他很想专心听白嫂的讲述，但他总是心不在焉，好像还在想着别的事情。因为白嫂所讲的故事一个串着一个，像圆圈一样套着他，而他还想着圆圈之外的那些让他怅然若失的事情。过了好一会儿，他才回过神来，问道：“飞小四后来不是去当土匪了吗？” “是啊，你记不得了？他成了一个小土匪，还带人来抢我呢！” “你很勇敢，不怕死。”高石美说。 “因为我想见你。不过，一切都结束了。还提它干吗？我是个有罪的人，一个遭到报应的瞎子，一切都只能是非份之想。” 雕天下二十(8) 故事似乎再也讲不下去了。白嫂抬头“望”着天空说：“我刚才看天还是黑的，现在怎么突然大亮了？” 高石美也抬头望天，“你说错了，白嫂！不，玉腊，你恰恰说反了。现在，天快黑了，你面对的方向已一片漆黑，只有西边好像还飘着一朵彩霞。” “不，我看到了山，还有在微风中颤动的树叶。透过树叶，是一条泛着白光的山路。你走吧！我的故事讲完了。你沿着那条山路走下去。” “可是，我并不知道那条山路通向什么地方？”高石美说。 “我也不知道。不过，你只要走下去就知道了。你快走吧，我不留你，你是圣徒，你是神雕，你属于远方，属于别人。” “可是，我现在不想走了，我想留下来再陪你一会儿。” 白嫂命令似地说：“不行，你快走！不然天一黑，你就什么也望不见了。” 高石美只好继续朝前走。山路上仿佛刚刚走过了一支大队人马，尘土飞扬，落叶翻卷。高石美心里空空荡荡，不知是啥滋味。这个时候，他才感到自己终于认识了那个像迷一样的女人。他回头一看，白嫂，不，玉腊的身影已变成一个黑点，正在向那个黑气迷漫的教堂慢慢移动。