Chapter 5 born to cicada

I remember that year, September. one day. early morning. My high fever suddenly subsided... It's also a miracle. Before this, my mother had secretly prayed for the appearance of the gods! She is so powerless by herself. "This matter can only be resolved by immortals!" My mother said to herself secretly. That year, my mother passed the national lawyer qualification examination, first worked in a law firm, and then wanted to start her own law firm.However, my mother fell ill and could not work. It was an eventful time. Later I was able to speak. Could it be that the gods really descended to earth?

 I remember how thankful my mother was to God at that time!However, what followed was: my deafness after the fever subsided.There was a thunderbolt, from head to toe... This incident happened in September of that year. Is September considered autumn? ! Autumn is always the day when everything stops growing, dies, or struggles past.Perhaps, I have written very unclearly about the process of my deafness, because it was an age with little memory.If it's like a dream, please don't be surprised.My parents probably knew and observed less than I did.Because young children are deaf.Can't express it at all!The child is already deaf when he has not mastered the expression of language and writing.

This caused them to be unable to listen to the language... The vast desert was passionately pursuing the love of a leaf of green grass, but she shook her head, laughed, and flew away... Ah, my listening!My right to listen to the language and learn the language, you just shook your head, laughed, and flew away.  In autumn, my father was invited to work in the south. Now this is the only way out and source of life for my family.Because my family has no income.My mom hasn't been paid for months, and my dad has to pay the unit every month to keep his "job."The world is so big, fortunately, there is no such thing as an unparalleled road.

Our whole family believes that after all these human sufferings, nothing can break our willpower!Because the worst days are over.Especially when my mother was in drowsy pain and restlessness, we comforted each other tenderly.After Dad left, we sometimes spent time together in fear and anticipation. Later, my hearing deteriorated day by day, and finally I no longer felt the sound of music and toy guns.At this time, because I couldn't hear people's voices clearly, I couldn't express my own thoughts, and my temper became more and more irritable. I used to scratch myself like crazy.

I am angry with myself: why can't others understand me? ! I feel like I've been abandoned by people all of a sudden! My world is so lonely; my eyes have given me everything in this world, but my ears cannot listen to describe and express it in time...But, my heart is so sensitive, and I am so sensitive to the things in this world. Sensitive, even surpassing children of the same age. I went crazy alone, and when I was exhausted, I continued to be in a daze. When I completely close myself, I can only use my heart and my eyes to communicate with the beautiful nature. As a certain poet said: My heart is filled with the pain of expectation, waiting for you to come into my life... When I am saved by you, I will walk lightly into your world.

 After becoming deaf, I fell into a deep loneliness. The worst part is that no one knows this yet.This made me even more angry that I didn't understand my own condition but had to understand other people's meaning and express my own. This often makes things worse. After losing my hearing, I gradually forgot my previous language. Just like little Helen completely lost her language when she was 3 years old.This is a natural disaster, which was originally caused by man-made disasters.None of this would have happened if my dad had been safe at home. After I became deaf, I just felt that the world was full of silence and deserted.

I used to have a voice... I can clearly recall all the sounds I have heard in this world, such as the chirping of birds, the shaking of green grass and trees, the laughing and laughing of blooming flowers, and the emotions of people. All these voices are engraved in my heart bit by bit, and will remain in my heart forever. But now all this suddenly disappeared. Disappeared inexplicably!Infuriating! After a few months of illness, I can hardly remember... They are a blur, not understood! This feeling is really weird and scary... This feeling is caused when the hearing loss first occurred.I vaguely remember that I was sitting in my mother's arms, holding my mother's clothes tightly, and following her around, walking around.

What people talk with their mouths, I have no idea... I see the world as a silent movie.  Gradually, I can even forget about the sound.I gradually understood what happened by only trying to understand other people's movements and expressions; I also expressed my thoughts, desires and demands by my own simple gestures and body language... This is the beginning of the danger - I long to be with others Communicate, and start doing some simple actions. Shake your head for "no". Nod your head for "yes". Upturned little finger means "bad". Thumb up means "yes".

Pulling others towards me means "come". Tweet means "go"... When I want to eat, I express it by cutting vegetables, cooking or eating; when I want to tell others that I am cold, I shrink my neck and make a shivering appearance.So that when I went to kindergarten, when I expressed to the teacher that I missed my parents, I would cry while riding a motorcycle, because my parents came to pick me up on a motorcycle at that time... Students of the principles of language have found this kind of conversation with gestures so instructive because it usefully illuminates the conversational process in great detail.There are two types of representations used here.

The objects in front of the eyes are represented by the first type of representation. People's research shows that: If the deaf-mute wants to say "hand" or "boot", he changes his hand or boot.Where a speech-able person says "I," "you," "he," the deaf-mute refers directly to themselves and others.To illustrate "red" or "blue," he changes the inside of his lips or points to the sky... He performs drinking, then it means "water", or "drink", or "thirst". Attaching the cheek to the hand means "sleep", or "fake sleep".

An expressive swipe of the hand, as in flapping, could mean "long whip," or "coachman," or "go off," as the case may be. Express the "match" with actions, as if it is burning (making a match); "Candle"—hold up your index finger to imitate a candle, as if to extinguish it... Hehe, is the silent communication sad or happy? !  Of course, many times people will repeatedly fail to understand what you mean, and at that time, you will be extremely angry... For yourself, for others. When I was a child, the object of my anger was mostly myself, so I often hurt myself.For example, scratching his face with his hands until "blood" comes out; at the same time twisting his face, it's very scary... My mother tends to be overwhelmed and overwhelmed by these scenes...it's very humbling to think about it now.Physical illness often brings about equal psychological problems. I remember when I was a child my mother tried to make every movement possible to make me understand what she meant.These actions are the first language of human beings. Do you understand what she means? The language shared by the whole world is the language of the body and -- the language of love and the soul.I remember, I could always know exactly what my mother meant. According to mother's movements and voice, I quickly learned the mother tongue... The process of our language learning is actually a process of comparison... Sounds, movements, objects... These are easy to understand, but what about "abstract concepts"?Abstract concepts cannot be seen or touched. So how do we learn them? For example, do you know what "love" is? What is "hate"? What is "sad" again? Maybe you will say: there is no way to "learn"?As we get older, it comes naturally to "understand". Yes, this kind of "naturalness" is because when you encounter these situations, someone always repeats to you, "love", "hate", "sad" or "no feeling"... The feeling of loving and being loved. In this way, you will gradually learn these relatively advanced "concepts", not only can speak and use, but also truly feel the meaning of "it".But how difficult it will be for deaf children who have never heard these sounds and cannot read! They will learn these concepts later.Most likely after learning to read.Because only words—the deaf-mute’s only symbol to replace body language and express rich language! So it's no surprise that I learned words and writing relatively early! Because, the text has become my real "mother tongue" in the future.  Some people say that the deaf have no mother tongue and dialect, this sentence is absolutely wrong.The advantage of their eyes is to use the method of recognizing words to recognize all things in the world; Just like you, who learned audible language from "body expressions" when you were one year old; the deaf should get rid of the initial "ignorance" of human beings as soon as possible and learn words... Even if it is, he can only "recognize" but not write... Fortunately, this, I did it! My "language" is synchronized with my "literacy".In this way, my thinking level not only did not lag behind that of my peers, but also quickly surpassed it after the age of 5. Because, at that time, I was already able to read books and newspapers... However, healthy children of the same age only know a few words.of course there are exceptions. However, before I knew abstract concepts, I didn't even understand my parents, so I could only have substantive feelings without conceptual expression. For example, I understand that my parents are my closest people. But it is impossible to understand and distinguish what relatives are. Because you can't hear the sound, you can't understand the usual interpersonal relationship. You can't hear or make the sounds of "Dad" and "Mom", let alone understand the meaning of these sounds. In a nonlinguistic brain there is no "concept" of any language at all. Fortunately, you can have "pictures" to help thinking. However, your "words" must catch up immediately, otherwise, you will lack a lot of fine thinking.This will also hinder the development of "intelligence". In fact, there are many children who have lost their hearing because they cannot "literate" in time and do not give full play to the strengths of their "eyes". Then, their "intelligence" development level can only rely on "instinct". Perhaps, you have developed well and are different-this is called "genius". Perhaps, from now on you will be "behind". Genius and stupidity have always been very extreme examples in our world. For many things, deaf children can only rely on the correspondence between words and things after they know the words. I once completely lost the ability to communicate and think in words.What very young children can call out, express, and think, becomes unspoken pain for me. The loss of hearing and language experienced by a young child and the pain of losing hearing and language's great cultural recognition of human life have been bothering me for two to three years. This continued with its more or less troubles for many years to come. until today. Later, my mother became my language training instructor, and solved the mystery of language and writing for me—the ultimate civilization that distinguishes human beings from animals!When you don't have the ability to listen to language at all, and you don't have the ability to speak language at all, words can replace all languages. From ancient times to the present, I keep telling you...Writing can also replace your mouth And limbs, through the barriers of time and space, to the present, to the future after thousands of years, to pour out the thoughts you have excavated and expressed since the ages... Ah, my words! My reading and my writing have given me a whole new life! I'm afraid I can't solve my heart Afraid of facing endless waiting, Afraid that the dream of expectation will be buried, Keep asking who can solve it? The world closed a door and opened a window for me after I knew words! I remember when I first learned a language.Only my mother can understand every sentence.First, I guess by looking at the mouth shape, gestures and movements, and eyes. I can guess it almost every time; later, I imitate my mother's mouth shape and pronunciation, and then compare things one by one. I understood the meaning of these sounds or mouth shapes, and later learned pinyin and Chinese characters.In this way, the logical thinking of people's abstract language vocabulary began to run in my mind. Culture and language - this is really the key to the difference between human beings and animals! The walking of feet, the use of hands and the production of human language are really the key to human beings standing out from the animal world; hearing is the prerequisite for language production; only with hearing can there be language, and only with language can there be writing. This is also an important theoretical basis for the speech rehabilitation of the deaf. But, you have to go backwards. Words—things—speech.hehe. My mother said that perhaps relying solely on sign language and characters to understand the meaning of human language and characters is very limited.If the text has no sound, it can only correspond to sign language or actual scenes in your life in your mind. Perhaps the meaning of the text in this state will be slightly different from that of a person with speech discrimination... But now I want to say: no.  Using concepts with phonetic meaning to think or communicate is indeed the way most people in this world think, that is, the mainstream. This is why many deaf people, including Helen, act differently from ordinary people. I think that studying this point will not only be of great benefit to the speech rehabilitation of the deaf, but may also have an effect on the current computer model. Because this machine, which basically relies on "text" recognition, often makes people feel "weird", and the biggest "weird" is: it is too rigid. This stupid guy can't fully recognize the various expressions of human beings, and often makes jokes about the concept of "fuzzy" meaning... Its "listening" you are even less flattered. It is still difficult to make "computers" fully understand human vocal language.However, this seems to have little hindrance to "human-machine communication"... To tell the truth, I could get a little happiness and progress during those long silent years, all because of the kindness and wisdom of my parents. Later, my recovery was also due to the teachings of my parents. Not only did they take on all the work of Helen's teacher, Miss Sullivan, but they also took on the huge pain in their hearts caused by the human parent-child relationship! Often, my mother would be exhausted and agitated by the pain. Compared with my mother, my father Zhang Shiping is much stronger. I admire my father very much. Not only did he not discriminate against our mother and child because of this, but he also assumed all the responsibilities of finance, education and comfort because of this. Qingse resents the distant night, and mourns the wind and rain around the strings. The lonely lamp hears the corner of Chu, and the waning moon goes down to Zhangtai. Without my father's financial and spiritual support, I am afraid that my mother and I would have ceased to exist today.Sometimes I think, if the computer has the love of parents, maybe it will learn to "listen" sooner, but it is not a living thing after all... hehe.  Slowly, I also understood some things in life. When I had a little listening and language skills, my parents took me out to eat and play with my friends... When friends came to visit, I was always called to meet guests. Looking at other people's eyes of surprise, pity or mockery, parents are never moved. When I left, I waved goodbye and tried my best to say "goodbye"; when I came, I smiled and warmly served tea... Until now, I still clearly remember the meaning expressed by my special gestures and mouth movements. At that time, I was not able to correctly understand the world and my own disease, and thought that the way of expressing and receiving (information) in the world was the way I was limited. My difficulty in communicating was temporarily replaced by the love of my parents. I can't remember exactly when I realized that I was different. It should have happened after I came to the south and went to kindergarten. I once noticed that the teacher gave lectures with his mouth, and the children talked with their mouths instead of gesturing with their hands like me. Therefore, I would stand apart from the two interlocutors and watch their mouths move for a long time, but I still could not understand what they meant. So I opened and closed my lips frantically, and let out a primitive sound of "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"I try to talk to people, but they don't understand me at all. I was very surprised and very angry. Later, I drew simple graphics to show them. As said in the novel.The little prince is an alien, he uses "painting" to "talk" to the people on earth.A very classic piece.  That's how I communicate with people. Soon, I was able to move freely and communicate among the children.And lead them to play games. There is another important reason why they are willing to accept me: that is because I am a foreigner.They thought my weirdness was all due to not knowing Cantonese! My aunt even happily told my mother that I can understand all their "words"! In fact, this is because the child's life is very small, there are not many things to express, and because the life in the kindergarten is very regular. But my kindergarten aunt insisted that I could hear it, but I couldn't understand some weird Cantonese... There is some truth in saying this, because I do still have very little hearing left.I could probably hear the crazy blare of the tweeter... but I had a hard time hearing the loud thunder. This is because, in addition to loudness, my hearing also has different degrees of loss when listening to different frequencies.It's a very complex audiology and acoustics thing that I barely figured out until I was in middle school. This is why hearing aids are so expensive: because almost every hearing aid has a very detailed and personalized configuration for different deaf people! Otherwise, even if you hear the voice, you will never be able to understand the language. Because your voice compensation system is very complicated; while the changes in human speech are relatively subtle, such that the loudness, frequency and intonation of each vowel and consonant will produce great semantic changes : Especially the four tones of Chinese. This makes it more difficult for deaf children in China to recover! I could hear about an average of 96 decibels, excluding the equally loud speech resolution of course.I read my evaluation sheet, for the sound of 1000 Hz, my listening ability is above 100 decibels, and how important this frequency is for language and music! My sickness, my sorrow--indescribable! After waiting for a long time, I also discovered how much impact all of this would have on my life!Going forward, I have no idea how hearing loss will hinder my relationships, including loving me and the people I love! Hehe, the only thing to tolerate yourself is self-confidence! Until now, if I want to distinguish "language" like normal people, in addition to wearing hearing aids, I also need to rely on "vision", that is, to see the shape of my mouth... My voice will always be different from that of people with normal hearing ! It's like people who wear glasses, they feel about the same about vision compensation! Mouth, voice, facial expressions, and movements are all important to me in discerning what other people mean. Because I may also often fail to hear the "tone" of the speaker. Human language is a complex system, which is why you can hear foreign languages ​​but often can't understand them!What's more, your ears have no loss to the sounds of various frequencies! When I was a child, I would often fight over trivial things like Helen because I couldn't understand the language, and I often lost my temper because people didn't understand what they meant. Although I also knew in my heart that this should not be done, but when something happened, I was so impatient that I couldn't control it. I know it's not right and it doesn't help. When I lost my temper, I felt very guilty. But when things don't go my way, I still get so impatient that I kick.I even cried, frantically spraying snot all over my face when the tears didn't help.  When I was a child, when I cried... I was in real pain!And it's too painful to vent!To this day, I still cry easily. Thought our love would spread in the world, Thought our vows would last forever. It's just that you in the dream last night are no longer you, I am no longer myself. Hehe, my easily moved character and my hard-to-express personality make me often be in deep contradictions.Until now, the expression I have learned to replace tears may only be writing. People who write, cherish every word. When I was young, whenever I cried a lot, someone would wipe my nose. Maybe they did it out of sympathy, maybe it was just out of habit, and I really got such a great comfort! This kind of comfort is of extraordinary significance. It makes me feel like someone finally understands what I mean, that they know I'm suffering, and they care about me!These actions undoubtedly convey the love of people, and at the same time teach children who have no experience in life: You can also love like this! It turns out that love is a connection between people. When I grew up, I discovered without a doubt: Love is the most fundamental reason for the socialization of all species! So, let's - love! When people finally fell in love with me, and I was quiet for a while because someone finally sympathized with me, I realized that, of all disabilities, deafness is the hardest to recover from—because it creates a speech impediment. ——that is, the barriers to expression and acceptance, if you cannot communicate in words, then your love, the things you can express, are very limited! Modern civilization would not be possible without language. Without words, you'd be a ignorant fellow! When language develops into characters, the inheritance of human civilization breaks through the ultimate limitations of time and space.Therefore, having sound and hearing is the most basic material environment of earth civilization. I remember reading in a book that Helen was considered to be the same as a calf in her family when she was a child—unknown to the world.Therefore, there is a folk legend: the deaf are ruthless, and the blind are kind. It does make sense. Deaf people are really not just deaf - it's the feeling of the solitary individual being cut off from - that is - a barrier to communication with the human race as a whole! So I say that deafness should have another name. That is - language information impairment syndrome. This symptom is very serious - forced closure - can completely lead to a person's temper, breakdown and madness! Unless you admit defeat yourself!Stop trying to go back to the linguistic and cultural environment of humans. And blind people are much better off. Through sound, blind people can quickly and smoothly learn abstract language; because they can understand other people's language, they can communicate well with people. Perhaps the most important thing is not that they can understand the world well, but that others can understand the world of blind people well. Sometimes I still think that if it is an animal that loses its hearing, it may be very passive in defense.Although we human beings have civilized love, there are still many dangers without sound reminders. Heart, don't be depressed, The day will break, and the dawn will come. When my mood is trapped by the silent world, my tears also seem pale.The clouds in the sky, the green grass under my feet... Also, the quiet people coming and going, are so far away from my spirit... Yun'er, have you ever been tired of me? ! The sky at dusk has never had the tenderness I longed for.  hehe…… I wander with my heartache... When there is a lack of communication, days can seem perpetually tiring. Through appearance and language, people can easily understand the difficulties of blind people and are willing to help.Blind people don't even have to ask, people understand their difficulties-of course that's kind enough! These two characteristics (appearance and language) are not available to deaf people. Deaf (mute) people look like normal people; their disabilities cannot be expressed; this leads people to interpret their difficulties and anxieties as being "ruthless" or having a bad temper. In fact, this is a typical disability of the deaf - communication difficulties! Deaf people are often trapped in another world, where there is no language and civilization, only primitive desires, silent images and incomprehensible body movements... The world of the deaf is savage. Things didn't get better until deaf people learned to write and sign language. But their sign language is incomprehensible to most people, and writing is troublesome for most people.The ways and abilities of ordinary people to express and receive information are exactly what deaf-mute people cannot possess. Day by day is like a show. In this era of lack of spiritual understanding, in this era of observation with the help of ears and eyes, in this era of receiving information with eyes and ears, in this era of needing ears to capture and learn language, in this era that still needs In the era of language expression, for people, what is most precious and important to them are eyes or ears? !  This silent night, what is holding my heart? I asked about forever, But you are silent. There was only one person I could compare my quiet childhood with, and that was Helen.Helen had two close partners who got along day and night in her childhood. One was the daughter of her family's cook, Martha Washington. The other was an old hound named Bailey. And my only partner was my mother—later because of financial reasons, I went out to work with my father... So, for the first time, I lived in a strange Cantonese family that my parents didn't know at all. In this way, I almost fell into the vicious circle of horror. Fortunately, my dad took me to my side very quickly, and the kindergarten teacher understood my gestures easily, so every time I asked her, she could understand it very quickly. The teacher probably thought it would be smarter to listen to me than to ask me to follow her will—because she was annoyed by my incomprehension, so she would meet my needs quickly and neatly. This is exactly the same as Helen's nanny's practice; it will spoil her character.When Helen was a child, her body was always strong and active, her temperament was impulsive and reckless. me too. Miss Helen knows her own personality very well, she always likes to go her own way, and she even does not hesitate to fight for it. me too. However, this personality made me lively and outgoing, full of curiosity about the world, which helped me a lot in learning to speak quickly and persisting in normal school. People always go from not accepting me at first, to partially accepting, to fully accepting and finally everyone will become my good friend.I am very self-satisfied and proud of this! When I was in elementary school, I spent a lot of time on the grass with the country kids.I like grass, sunshine, flowers, butterflies, and I also like to catch grasshoppers, praying mantises and small bugs... However, after coming to Guangdong, Cantonese is as difficult to understand as a foreign language. Most people from outside can't speak Cantonese, and speak their own strange "Mandarin".This also covers up my "flaws" very well. People don't seem to particularly care about what I say.Because most of the time I'm talking to people, it's like "talking" like white people and Indians in America back then -- you asked about dreams again -- and I'm kind of sentimental. hehe.  Helen's earliest and clearest memory of her father is—— Once, she walked through piles of newspapers and came to Dad.At that time, her father was alone holding up a large sheet of paper to cover his face.Helen didn't know what her father was doing at all, so imitating his appearance, she also held up a piece of paper and put on his glasses, thinking that she would be able to know... It was many years later that Helen realized that the papers were newspapers, and her father was the editor of the newspapers. The same is true for me, many years later I will know the meaning of the language and the way of expressing them... All the phenomena, before they are put into the minds of cultural people, are about the same as Pretty much in the eyes of a higher animal, right? ! Because they are really perceiving and observing the world in the most barbaric way, that is, without words and concepts... The thinking of animals may be unique, but it is indeed difficult to be compatible and communicate with humans. Perhaps, they will become talented painters, and very unique images exist in their minds...their thinking is pictorial... It's as if the musician's mind is the sound! The reason why it cannot be expressed well is that animals lack skills, tools, and limbs-such as hands and feet-that can master these tools; The reason why some civilized people have skills and other conditions, but they have not made achievements, is probably because they have forgotten the way of observation, thinking and expression in the past. Therefore, there will be many regrets in this world. I remember one time when I broke my head in the language training center, because I was afraid, I covered it with a hat by myself until the blood drenched the hat... And how I broke it, I really couldn't express it at the time, because I didn't have the tools and skills of language, so I had to tell her this secret in the common language of human beings when my mother asked me again five years later: So, it is I was playing with the basket alone in front of the gate; when I sat in the basket, I suddenly lost my balance and hit the sharp iron nails on the gate. The list goes on. Smile lightly after setbacks and work hard again, how many past days have passed, how far are the past days planned... In Lost Street, ten beautiful dreams covered the sky. Warm love permeates the breeze, love races for every second and every minute. Do you remember your impression of Dad when you had no language? !Can you recall the time of a song?When I was young, my dad was young and handsome.He's one of the best and brightest youngsters in the city. Helen's impression of her father is: Dad has a gentle personality, kind and generous, and loves the family very much; except for the hunting season, Helen's father seldom leaves them; he is a good hunter and sharpshooter.Besides family, Helen's dad loved dogs and shotguns the most.He was very hospitable, almost to excess, and brought home a guest or two every time he came home. My dad probably loved family and dogs and shotguns as much as Helen's dad did...   However, at that time, he could only choose to love books and art in the end; His philosophical thoughts are first-rate and his artistic taste is outstanding. Helen's father has another hobby: planting flowers and plants.The watermelons and strawberries planted by her father are the best in the village, and she always tastes the first ripe grapes and the best strawberries.He often leads her for a walk in melon fields and fruit forests, caresses her, and makes her happy. Although my father was as obsessed with the land as Helen's father, fate did not give him a farm of his own... Although the vegetable garden is near my home, it is collectively owned by farmers. Men in the city, if they don't go to the countryside to receive re-education from "poor and lower-middle peasants", they can only work. When Helen talked about her impression of her father when she was a child, she said: "This scene is still vivid in my mind." Later, very unfortunately, when Helen was still a teenager-her father passed away... This is her life. The greatest misfortune and regret I have experienced!But my father stood by my side forever, like a tall and straight tree, supporting me... guarding me! Helen's father is very loving to her, which has not changed in the slightest because of her blindness and deafness!Although before Helen, this man and his other wife had had a healthy boy... This point is very important to Helen's status in the family and her subsequent recovery! So is my dad. To this day he does not treat me as a disabled person at all. Whenever I learned something, he would proudly raise his thumbs up and say, "Son! You are my pride! One of the most successful things in my life is having you!" Do you know what these words mean to a child? I think the best thing a child can hear in this world are words like my father's!I don't regret losing my hearing 10,000 times just because of this... I, of course, have no regrets!  Human love, how important it is! However, I clearly remember that in one of Qiong Yao's novels "The Dumb Wife", because his wife gave birth to a deaf-mute child, the man couldn't stand the blow and abandoned his wife and son to Japan to find a new love... This is a man without willpower!Maybe he wasn't heartless either, but he was a runaway coward, a guy who evaded and shirked responsibility!Well, fate will not give him happiness... My mother said that when I was born, this movie was playing in our small town. Um, um, do people really have a so-called fate? ! From birth to now, I have the love of my parents and live a carefree life. Even in the south, no matter how difficult life is, my parents always use their difficult wings to try to take me to fly higher and farther. 直到有一天，我的心开始不平静起来。 因为我知道原来父母亲出门在外非常艰辛，没有固定的工作，沉重的经济负担几乎完全压在爸爸一个人身上……我的爸爸曾经非常辛酸地望着这个城市说：高楼林立，万家灯火，可是，这里竟然没有我们家的一扇窗子。 夜晚，各种喧嚣倦了，天空中弥漫着大海的低吟。 温馨的爱哪日会落空？ 面对抉择背向了初衷？ ! 白昼飘忽不定的思想倦游归来，围绕在点燃的灯火边休憩。爱的嬉戏平静地化为崇敬，生命的溪流汇入大海，有形的世界，在超越一切色相的美的怀抱中找到了归宿（泰戈尔语）。  是的，城市是别人的。 树是别人的，窗子和窗子里透出来的灯光……也是别人的；健康是别人的，安定也是别人的…… 而我们只有爱和梦想。 也许，到了没有爱也没有梦想的时候，人的整个存在和生活，就会失去意义。失聪是不幸的，但是，爱和梦想就像蜜糖让我永远温柔。 也许，你在外面千辛万苦，承受风浪万千；但是，却不敢想象完全没有甜蜜和爱慰藉的生活。爱，是心灵的良药。 它可以治疗一切，包括失聪。 你可以没有耳朵、眼睛或者手脚。 但却不能没有爱心 爱和被爱同样重要。在人的漫长的一生里，你随时可能遇到各种困难，而爱和梦想，就是你的希望和奋斗的力量。 感谢给我鲜花的朋友，虽然我不知道您的姓名，但是你一定是生活中一道明亮的阳光！阳光多么光明磊落！ 温柔谦和、内心明亮有爱的人有福啦，你们必将承受土地！温柔谦和内心明亮有爱的人有福啦——伊甸园也是上帝为你们准备的！ 这个世界上只有一件事情会使幸福的时光黯然无光，这就是失去爱……失去听力，并不代表失去一切。但是，失去爱就会失去一切…… 此刻已是午夜时分，灯火熄灭了，我独自坐在房中，呼唤着你，呼唤着被屈辱赶走的你，请你回来！