Chapter 28 Chapter 24: To be with them

This is Zhang Qi, an accidental suggestion from her changed my life Batu sang for us all the way, with his left arm around Uncle Zhao and his right around me.When he was in kindergarten, he participated in the National Children's Solo Competition and won the eighth place. He has a very good sense of music.He sang the competition song, and then sang the newly learned song welcoming the return of Hong Kong.He sang almost all the songs he knew.The car was filled with joyful singing and laughter.I was so happy, I thought I was going to faint with happiness. In the days since then I have had very little sleep, I can't sleep and I can't eat anything.My partner and I often squeeze each other's legs and ask, "Is this true?"

I woke up at five or six o'clock one morning, walked out of my bedroom and Batu's, and found him in the hall with his eyes open.We chatted, and he handed me a beautiful velvet jewelry box in the shape of a heart.Open it and take a look - a beautiful K gold necklace.He bought it in Macau, a design by a famous Italian designer: two hands holding a heart-shaped diamond.I got my first "love token" in my life. At this moment, Batu also came out.My lover said to Batu: "Look, the bigger hand is uncle's hand, and the smaller hand is mother's hand." "Who is that heart?" Batu looked at us mysteriously, with anticipation in his bright eyes.

"Of course it's Batu, we're holding Batu." We both laughed, and the three of us hugged each other. I looked into both of their eyes.In their eyes the sun of the soul shines bright!If I could trade that moment with my two legs, I would.I am willing to live for them from now on, do everything and endure all hardships.I seem to hear a voice saying to me: You came to this world just to be with them. That night, the two of them turned out the lights and told stories in the house, and I sat at my desk in the outer room to write.I saw that it was too late and decided to let them stop and rest.

"Batu, you should go to bed, let Uncle Zhao come out. Let's talk about it tomorrow." I said gently. They kissed each other and he came out.We chatted quietly in the outhouse for a long time.We thought our son was already asleep.Suddenly Batu said, "Mom, you can't be disturbed when you write. Uncle Zhao is fine anyway, or let him come and lie with me for a while." We both laughed.He walked in, and they embraced in the shadows. My son needs a father as much as I need a husband. If my life is smooth sailing, I will lose the joy that comes from the bottom of my soul.Only after going through the darkness will you be ecstatic when you see the light.

On August 25, 1997, I registered our marriage with him, only 28 days away from our acquaintance.It was my birthday that day, the beginning of a new year ring, the end of my journey from one marriage to another. Perhaps, this time the decision was a little hasty, so that it took us a long time to withdraw from the previous marriage. I remember that when we were married for more than a year, one night, he suddenly felt emotional: "I am a man, I have lived this age, and I have never spent the night with other women except my wife and you." It's been more than a year, and you still haven't regarded me as your wife?

I myself have worked hard to adapt to the new role, the new family, and let myself slowly get out of the past 10 years.Two years before I got married, I often woke up crying, dreaming that I was abandoned and cheated.I never got in touch with Yingda again. I just heard from my friends that they had a child soon, and soon, a second child.These news made me realize more and more that he really had left my life and that I could move on without this person in my life. Know what it feels like to have a dental filling?A tooth is broken, and the doctor pulls out the nerve and fills the cavity with new substance, sealing the hole shut.The strange thing is that the nerve is pulled away, but I still feel pain, and I feel that the new substance has not yet fused with my teeth.For this pain, everyone needs to adapt, some for more than ten days, some for dozens of days.Divorce to remarriage is very similar to this process.The difference is that it hurts longer, months, or even years.The same is that there will be a day when we will never be in pain again.