Chapter 5 4

Perhaps for the sake of balance, God has given Lin Huiyin a very good father, so the mother arranged for her can only be an ordinary and ordinary woman.The mind of Lin Huiyin's biological mother He Xueyuan was like her pair of tightly bound little feet, conservative and a bit deformed. He Xueyuan is Lin Changmin's stepmother.The original partner is Ye Shi, who is from the same family and belongs to the right family. They are married by fingertips and lack affection.Mrs. Ye died of illness early and left no children.He Xueyuan's entry into the Lin Mansion as the second wife is no different from her original spouse, so it should be a blessing.But the misfortune was her own.He comes from Jiaxing, a small town in Zhejiang Province. Her father opened a small workshop. She is a typical Xiaojiabiyu.The family is well-off, and she is the youngest, so she has the willfulness that such girls often have.She is neither female, nor has a good temper.Parents at home can still tolerate it, but marrying into the Lin family requires paying attention to traditional women's virtues.She is illiterate and lacks cultural influence, and she has not changed much since she was a girl after she got married.The mother-in-law, Youshi, is a ladylike style, not only good at being a female celebrity, but also likes to read, and is good at calligraphy.The quality disparity between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law is self-evident, and it is inevitable that Mrs. He will not be able to please her mother-in-law.After she gave birth to Lin Changmin's eldest daughter Lin Huiyin, she also gave birth to a boy and a girl, but they died one after another.It is inevitable that the father-in-law will worry about his divorce, and the dissatisfaction caused by this is also self-evident.If the He family had ever dreamed of the dream of being a high official, what he had tasted was the bitter fruit of being in the wrong family.

Perhaps it was because Lin Changmin had been away for many years, the Lin family seemed quite restrained, and hadn't considered adding a concubine for a long time.It was not until the tenth year that Lin Changmin married Cheng Guilin, a Shanghai woman, whom Lin Huiyin called her Erniang.Er Niang didn't have much culture, but she had a good temperament. In addition, she gave birth to several sons in a row, so her husband indulged in "Guilin Yizhishi" and left He in the cold.He has been forgotten for a long time in the remote backyard, and actually lives a lonely life of separation, and his temper is getting worse and worse.The young Lin Huiyin often felt sad and confused in the deserted backyard with his mother.Liang Congjie said of his mother Lin Huiyin: "She loves her father, but hates his ruthlessness to her mother; she loves her mother, but hates her for not being up to date; However, the distorted interpersonal relationship in that semi-feudal family hurt her deeply spiritually." ("Suddenly April Days in the World") Lin Huiyin's novel "Xiuxiu" wrote about a couple who were abandoned by their husbands and fathers. Mother and daughter, the wife also has personality weaknesses. It is not difficult for readers to see Lin Huiyin's complicated emotions for her mother from the embroidered image in the novel.

Lin Huiyin's troubles brought about by her mother's personality shortcomings still existed many years after her father's death.Like many women in China, He's resentment towards her husband and concubine was transferred to her concubine's children.Half-brother Lin Heng went from Fujian to Beiping to apply for Tsinghua University and stayed with his sister.Lin Huiyin treated him like a compatriot, but He refused to let go of it, and often had unnecessary disputes with Lin Heng.Lin Huiyin complained in a letter to his friend Fei Weimei: "In the past three days, my own mother drove me into hell on earth. I am not exaggerating. On the first day, I found that my mother was a little weak. The family was filled with an ominous atmosphere. I had to tell my half-brother about the past, trying to maintain the intimacy I had. I went to bed exhausted at night, and almost wished I had died or hadn't been born into a family like this at all... the early years The strife has wounded me so persistently that any reappearance of any part of it leaves me to wallow in my past misfortunes." (Letter to Faye May)

The mother also gave Lin Huiyin a negative influence on her character, at least impatience is one of them.Two edgy women living under the same roof clashes are inevitable: My own mother happened to be an extremely incompetent and meddling woman, and she was the most impatient person in the world.Just now it was for the maid again.The real problem was that my mother got angry with the maid when she shouldn't, and pampered her when she shouldn't.Then there's being too impatient, having the maid do the daily work like clockwork and then having to tell her to change my order, and so on - until nobody can do anything about it.I argue with my mom a lot, but it's totally silly and asking for trouble. ("Letter to Fei Weimei")

The only family member left by the mother was Lin Huiyin, who lived with Lin Huiyin all the time, and finally the white-haired man gave the black-haired man.The He family is almost a small spiritual burden that Lin Huiyin has carried all his life. Regarding the relationship between the mother and daughter, the philosopher Jin Yuelin wrote a very incisive analysis in his letter to Fairbank. He sees the He family in this way: She belongs to a completely different generation, but lives in a more modern family. She has a lot of ideas and energy in this family, but there is no serious business to do at all, and she only does things that occasionally fall into her hands. .She herself was very, very lonely and desperately needed someone to talk to, and the only person she could communicate with was Huiyin, who could hardly communicate with her because of her complete ignorance of her general ideas and feelings.The result was that she and her own daughter had no contact other than quarrels.They love each other, but dislike each other.I have advised them many times to separate, but it has never been accepted, and now it is unlikely.

The letter was written in Kunming in the 1940s.Lin Hui passed away due to illness, and Liang Sicheng continued her life. He Xueyuan still lived with Liang Sicheng. In the early 1970s, her son-in-law, Liang Sicheng, who followed her for the rest of her life, left before her, and He lived with Liang's second wife Lin Zhu.Premier Zhou Enlai learned that Lin Huiyin's mother was still alive, and instructed the relevant departments to give him 50 yuan a month for living expenses. During the "Cultural Revolution" Red Guards ransacked the house and took out a dagger engraved with the words "Jiang Zhongzheng Gift" on the bottom of He's suitcase.It's okay, the old lady has suffered a lot.The short sword is the relic of Lin Huiyin's half-brother Lin Henghang who studied in the aviation school. All the students who graduated from the aviation school were lucky to get this school leaving souvenir.This sword was undoubtedly collected by Lin Huiyin after Lin Heng's sacrifice, and Lin Huiyin passed it to the old lady for storage after Lin Huiyin died of illness.Lin Heng, whom she hated, sacrificed his life for the country, and the relics made her beaten. What was the old lady thinking?It's no longer a feud.

Mrs. He, who is over eighty years old, is very old, and she relies on the kind-hearted Ms. Lin Zhu, Liang Sicheng, to take care of her daily life.She didn't know that her son-in-law in the hospital had died of illness, and she walked through the last half year of her life alone, and disappeared even more lonelyly.Lin Huiyin's biological mother had a tragic life, which was a long so-called "tragedy without incident".There are many such silent tragedies among Chinese women, so many that they no longer realize that they are tragedies.