Chapter 27 Days to leave - the last 24 hours in Nankai

Guo Manxue In the summer of 1999, my sisters and I graduated from Nankai, and we have been wandering around since then, and we don’t know when we will meet again.When I was about to leave, I carefully recorded the last 24 hours. July 4th 15:00 Probably all the students in the class who hadn't left had lunch together for 3 hours.After drinking some wine, his face was a little hot and red, but he still staggered and took Lin Ling to the bank.Leaving the city soon, she said she would close all bank accounts.Unfortunately, I have to go to the bank where I opened the account to handle it, and it was too late, so she stuffed the passbook into my hand and said, "As a souvenir, I don't have much money, so I encourage you to make long distance calls to me." I took it She took out the red passbook, jumped into the car, and was speechless all the way.

17:00 Everyone gathered at the entrance of Tianjin Railway Station, trying to find some topics.I have been retreating far away, not knowing what I should say at this time.After entering the platform, Lin Ling found the carriage and seat smoothly.Standing in front of the window, she kept gesticulating and saying "I don't want to cry", but when she was saying these words, two bright tear stains still hung clearly on her cheeks.I lowered my head, not daring to look at her, nor at the people around me.I clenched the tissue in my hand tightly, waiting for the moment when the train whistled like waiting for execution.At that time, I really hoped to escape, not to feel the despair at the moment when the train started.There is also a group of graduates next to them, who are already crying.The train still started on time, and I unconsciously followed the train and ran.I saw her waving, and the tears on her face became brighter.

20:00 I ate something hastily and went back to the dormitory. Now I am the only one left in 235.I sat blankly on the bed and looked at the messages they left on the table before they left. The word "depressed" almost became a nickname and toast for all graduates at that time.I guard the room full of "depression", people are very slow.The dormitory was in a mess, only Xiaofei's wind chime was still tinkling leisurely. I was lazily sorting out the last things I wanted to take away, very slowly. The bed is my most proud work in 4 years, and now I want to destroy this work with my own hands.To pick off the paper-cut heart that had been pasted on the wall for three years, I stretched out my hand and then retracted it, tears streaming down my face uncontrollably.After standing blankly for a long time, I decided to leave them there and let others pick them. At least when I left, they were intact, just as they were back then.

23:00 In the end, the five students who did not leave reunited in Jingye Plaza.This is our last night legally in Nankai.I was entrusted by Xiaofei (the lovely girl has already returned home and will soon go to Yinchuan to work. An unfortunate love has changed her life choice) to burn all her letters on her behalf. There were still a few groups of people gathering in the square that night, but they dispersed quickly.We became the last group of lights and songs left in the square.We watched the lit candles and watched the letters curl and blacken one by one, speechless. The night seemed long and cold.I felt like I was frozen in candlelight.By the time the last page of the letter had turned to ashes, the east had turned white.I let out a long sigh of relief, and moved my waist and legs that were aching from sitting for too long, and it seemed to be a little easier.

When the last candle was burned out, everyone drank the last bottle of beer and felt a little tired. July 5 7:00 Lying on the hard wooden board, I fell asleep lightly.No dream, but faintly heard the last few students in the corridor saying goodbye. 10:00 I feel a little rushed, but I really can't stay alone in the space where six people used to be.I stood at the door of 235, looking at the mess in the house, feeling unspeakably sad.Take a last look at Xiaofei's wind chimes, Lin Ling's small ornaments, and the paper-cut hearts I pasted all over the wall.At that moment, I felt that I was saying goodbye to my youth, and tears flowed down unconsciously.

Walking downstairs quietly, I always feel that there is something in my heart, thinking about it, and I can't let it go.I went around to the window of the dormitory, looking at the window that no longer belonged to me tonight.Some cloudy days, it looks like it will rain today, I thought dully. Ready to leave, I turned around to take one last look at my familiar window.The moment I looked back, I suddenly realized what I was thinking about.Stop the car, go upstairs briskly, and open the door.There was a lot of rubbish piled up in the room. I picked up the broom and swept all the rubbish out of the room vigorously, then cleaned up the table, just like cleaning up every time before checking the sanitation, and arranged the remaining cups and pen holders.There is also a correction fluid on the table, which I remember Cheng Cheng left for me before he left.I used correction fluid to write on the cabinet the favorite song in our house - "Youth Without Regrets".Finally, I closed the windows, turned off the fluorescent lights, stood in the middle of the dormitory, and looked around, just like when I first walked into it that year.Taking a deep breath, I silently say goodbye to it, to my university.Turning around, gently locked the door.

The pace became much lighter, and I didn't go around the window again.Don't worry about anything anymore, I feel that just now, I have drawn a complete full stop, no regrets.The lyrics of "Youth Without Regrets" echoed in my head-it is said that dear dear forever, forever young face, smiling and tearful, unchanging eyes... (Guo Manxue, a 1995 student from the Tourism Department of Nankai University)