Chapter 19 Contradictory

Teresa was tired of Japan, Nishida felt it.After her comeback, she has been to Japan twice and has done general publicity activities.She is always being dragged around, appearing on radio and local programs, and being interviewed by magazines. The schedule is very tightly arranged, almost every second counts, and she is exhausted.Nishida knew that Teresa Teng had worked hard for many years to develop in Japan. At this time, she probably thought that the promotional activities in Japan were almost done, and it was time to slow down.But in the eyes of the company and Nishida, her promotion work is only two or three steps away.

During her long career as a singer, when Teresa Teng suddenly looked back, she would find that the enjoyment of life that ordinary women should have was given up one by one by herself.Being busy and forgetting made her go forward without complaint or regret, but thinking and experiencing made her hesitant and regretful.When the expected success is about to come, she is always in this contradiction, and she gets it because of countless losses.The stressful life in Japan has exhausted her physically and mentally, and she longs to find a place to rest and adjust herself, and she needs a lover who can confide her heart and soul, and she has really reached the age of being a wife.Tired, lazy, it's time to take a break.

At Los Angeles International Airport, Nishida saw the refreshing Teresa Teng waving to him from a distance.She is still so kind and pleasant.However, there were three people who came to pick up Xi Tian.Along with Teresa Teng was a small Chinese with round glasses, Charles Liu, a tax collector, and Ding Cooper, a tall American lawyer. Looking at the group of three people, Nishida felt that things were not that simple anymore.Without waiting for Xi Tian to explain why he came, Teresa Teng hurriedly said goodbye as if fleeing.Xi Tian stared blankly at her receding back, not knowing what to do.

It wasn't until dinner the next day that Nishida and Teresa Teng spoke.During the dinner, Teresa Teng just persuaded him to drink and persuade food, talking about Japanese food and the weather in Los Angeles. Whenever Nishida brought the topic to singing, Teresa Teng smiled and talked about him.Nishida had no choice but to explain his reason for coming straightforwardly.Teresa Teng was silent for a while, and said: "I'm very tired and want to rest for a while." Xi Tian saw sweet longing and sad loss in her eyes.In addition to repeatedly emphasizing this sentence, Teresa Teng finally said: "I'm sorry Mr. Xitian, from tomorrow onwards, you and Mr. Liu will discuss matters related to work." Xitian was a little discouraged and used Mr. Liu as a shield, which was obvious is a rejection.

Sitting in the hotel, Xi Tian was full of thoughts. He knew that Teresa Teng was intoxicated in love these days, and that she should indeed live a happy life that ordinary women should have.In the face of the happiness that is close at hand, it is also possible for Teresa Teng to quit the music scene.Which woman does not want to have her own small home, and Teresa Teng also looks forward to having a romantic, charming and tender home.How can this nuanced happiness from home be compared with applause and flowers?In order to obtain this kind of happiness, it is necessary to "bring a happy ending" to the previous life

, then Teresa Teng can no longer go to Japan.In order to declare that "Teresa Teng's previous life is over", Nishida felt that Teresa Teng asked him to come to Los Angeles. From the next day, Nishida, who was unable to have a direct interview with Teresa Teng, had no choice but to make a strong request of "I hope she comes to Japan" to Charles Liu and Ding Cooper. Ding Cooper's office is located on the Beverly Hills in Los Angeles.From the window, you can see downtown Los Angeles.There are many high-rise buildings and beautiful scenery, but Xi Tian's heart is not there.With snow-white walls, large floor-to-ceiling windows, and a large maroon carpet, the entire room is extremely gorgeous.

At the end of this room is Ding Guber's large desk, he is sitting steadily at the desk, Xi Tian and Charles Liu are sitting on the sofa in front of the desk. "Teresa Teng is not going to Japan anymore." Charles Liu said to Nishida, "She commissioned me to tell you this." He was polite, but his tone was unquestionable.Nishida felt that an invisible high wall had already stood in front of him. Dean Cooper, a man of extraordinary ability, served as legal counsel to Kings George, Michael Jackson, and the most respected lawyer in the entertainment industry in the United States.At this time, he was sitting calmly, and the air was filled with a business atmosphere without any trace, which made Nishida feel very nervous.His task is to indirectly convey Teresa Teng's opinion to Nishida. "Teresa Teng can no longer accept such frequent schedules, and can no longer sign contracts with Japanese companies."

He told Nishida calmly, "Please forgive me." It took Nishida a lot of effort to figure out what he meant in English. "Moreover, before Japan's comeback, Teresa Teng had produced a large number of records in Southeast Asia. The royalties for these records are still a mess. If this problem is not resolved, it will not be possible to develop in Japan. That's what Teresa Teng said." Nishida understands Teresa Teng's feelings.Indeed, her tight schedule in Japan has left her feeling overwhelmed; her records have also been pirated across Southeast Asia, a long-standing headache.

"However, it was not easy for her song to be included in the golden song list of the cable radio station. Teresa Teng herself has made a lot of efforts to make this day come. It is a pity to give up when things have progressed to this point. No matter what, I have to Take her back to Japan. As for the royalties in Southeast Asia, we have nothing to do with them, but the royalties for records produced in Japan are clear." Thinking of the difficulties his company was in and the company's pillar Teresa Teng flying away, Nishida The more he talked, the more anxious he was, and beads of sweat kept oozing from his forehead.In this urgency, coupled with Xitian's poor English, his tone became more and more blunt.

"We can guarantee that there will be no problems with Japanese royalties." Nishida repeatedly said to the people next to him. Ding Guber took a slightly surprised look at the restless Japanese in front of him, with an expression of disbelief still on his face. "Teresa Teng's record will definitely sell well. We are full of confidence in this. Please understand my painstaking efforts." Nishida stammered, out of breath. Japan is known as "ambiguous Japan", and the relationship between Teresa Teng and Japanese record companies is actually very "ambiguous".There was no written contract between them, almost all relying on the word "letter".If Teresa Teng did not believe them, it would be natural to "end it from now on".

However, Nishida has a typical "Japanese spirit", never giving up in order to achieve his goal.In this way, Nishida sat in Ding Guber's office and talked for more than three hours.Nishida was not used to English and was exhausted, but Nishida did not give up. In the end, he continued to talk: "We will not do anything to harm Teresa Teng. The most important thing now is to let her go to Japan. Now Go, I guarantee that her record will be a hit. It's for her own good too. Please believe me." Nishida said in broken English. "Do the Japanese have a human side in doing business?" Ding Guber asked.Nishida nodded. Ding Guber looked over the sweaty Xitian, looked at the blue sky of Los Angeles through the clear floor-to-ceiling windows, and suddenly felt something.Her world is in that distant blue sky. "I see. You can talk to Teresa Teng directly. If it's good, she may accept it." Nishida was very pleasantly surprised, he did not expect such a good result. From this day on, Nishida waited attentively for Teresa Teng's call in the hotel all day long. Day by day, four days had passed since the negotiations with Ding Gubo and others ended. Teresa Teng knew that Xi Tian was waiting for her reply, but she still did not say a word.At this time, Nishida contacted the company again, and the boss said firmly: "You will not be able to come back until Teresa Teng comes to Japan!" Nishida was in a bad mood, he was running out of money, and he was tired of the oily, tasteless American food.The half-understandable English around him made him even more upset.Whether listening to this fast language or speaking English himself, he finds it annoying.Even the blue skies of Los Angeles seem drab. Nishida tried to contact Teresa Teng, but she didn't answer the phone at all.Once, Xi Tian dialed the phone for several hours, and finally got through. It was Charles Liu. Xi Tian asked him to pass on the message that he wanted to meet Teresa Teng. Charles Liu just said lightly: "Teresa Teng said no. gone." Nishida couldn't go back, but time passed day by day.On the seventh day after arriving in Los Angeles, I finally got a call from Teresa Teng.Teresa Teng's voice was full of tired apology: "Mr. Nishida, I'm sorry, you should go back, I really can't go to Japan. I am also a woman, and I have to consider life events including marriage and children. Although I will not just like this Quit the music scene, but I don't want to do too much work. I want to live some leisurely days." Nishida could not back down. Whether Teresa Teng’s records could sell well in Japan was at a critical moment. He understood Teresa Teng’s feelings, but how could a leisurely and leisurely man succeed, and the Japanese market was not so easy to occupy.Nishida, who shouldered the company's mission, felt more and more wronged, and his eyes couldn't help getting moist.He choked up and said: "Miss Deng, I understand you very well. I think I will be a sinner if I continue to persuade you. However, all the colleagues in our company are waiting for your news, waiting for you from morning till night. , if you don't go to Japan, I can only stay here, I don't have to eat or sleep until you nod..." He couldn't continue, tears fell down his cheeks.Nishida broke down in tears. After a long silence, Teresa Teng said in a soft voice: "Understood, I'll go." Nishida was stunned: "Are you willing to go to Japan?" "Yes, go to Japan, don't cry, I promise you." Teresa Teng's voice became lower and lower, as if coaxing a child. Nishida, however, has a trace of remorse and self-blame, why do you always force her? At this time, Teresa Teng found that something in her heart was quietly dying.She also understands that when she goes to Japan, she has to give up something, something she can no longer have. Recalling the days when he and Teresa Teng walked together, Xitian felt that every time Teresa Teng encountered conflicts between career and relationship, he always intentionally or unintentionally did some work that prompted Teresa Teng to give up her love life.He himself has always thought that Teresa Teng is the most suitable for singing as a lifelong career. For her career, she has given up so many things that she can't get them back, so don't be sad, since there are more important things. Things are waiting for her to do.However, now, he discovered that she obviously had other choices.Thinking of how short her life was, Nishida's thoughts became even stronger. Teresa Teng made a special trip from Los Angeles to Japan. It took two weeks, and the work originally planned by the Japanese company has been roughly completed.The rankings of cable TV stations and the sales of albums have all made satisfactory progress.Both the company and Teresa Teng felt that it was going well.The relevant publicity activities have come to an end, and a consensus has been reached on the recording plan for the next stage. During the promotional activities in Japan, Teresa Teng's original strong desire to "study" in Los Angeles has not changed in any way.Although the work during this period made her give up the idea of ​​studying in the United States, she wanted to study in London.In order to match Teresa Teng's arrangement, the record company also changed the location of the next recording to London. In order to apply for a visa for Teresa Teng to study and record in London, Nishida accompanied Teresa Teng to the British embassy in Tokyo to wait for the visa.He and Teresa Teng sat on chairs against the wall, waiting and waiting.I didn't expect it to take so long to get a visa. "I want to get married." Teresa Teng said such a sentence coldly.The high ceiling in the room is decorated with beautiful patterns, and the crystal chandeliers are shining brightly, but the air-conditioning makes every corner chilly.Teresa Teng put her little sun hat on her lap. Nishida heard Teresa Teng's words.Not only at this time, but probably throughout her life, Teresa Teng has three wishes: to get married, have children and study.As a woman, it is natural to have such a desire.At this time, it seems that her three wishes of getting married and studying can be fulfilled. "I really want to hide like this. Abandon my job, leave my family, no matter where I go, I want to hide." Teresa Teng seems to be talking to herself. "Why?" Nishida felt that she might be in some trouble at this time. Teresa Teng shook her head lightly, and sighed softly: "I think you know more or less, I plan to get married. I may really get married this time, Mr. Xitian, I will tell you in advance." Prior to this, the news about Teresa Teng's marriage had spread widely, and Nishida had also heard about it. However, this was the first time she said it. "Well, this is a good thing. People have to get married once. I have been married before, so I can give you my advice." Teresa Teng seemed to say it casually for such an important matter, and Xi Tian deliberately used it as a joke Answer her in a tone. "I might really be getting married." Teresa Teng was really serious, but she felt a little conflicted in her heart.Nishida had already seen it from her big blank eyes.Teresa Teng said this sentence repeatedly, as if asking and answering herself, and as if trying to convince herself that getting married is indeed a good thing. "What's wrong with being married?" she said solemnly. "How is he?" Nishida asked. "He wants to get married right away." "what is your opinion?" "Well, I plan to get married too." Teresa Teng's tone was still hesitant.Like all career women, she has more troubles than ordinary women when considering marriage, and is more contradictory than ordinary people. Before specifically talking about marriage this time, Teresa Teng often mentioned "I want a child" to Nishida.But Nishida thought of another aspect. Teresa Teng's development in Japan is very smooth. If the wedding can be delayed, it will be more beneficial to her career.Teresa Teng is probably also troubled by this. "Is there any problem? Is it from your family...?" Seeing Teresa Teng unhappy, Nishida asked. "No, if we get married, he said he will take care of my family." "Does your family object?" "No, it's my own problem." Teresa Teng said softly. Teresa Teng told Nishida that he will take care of Teresa Teng's family after marriage, and there is no financial problem in this regard.However, his family doesn't like him marrying someone in the entertainment industry. He also hopes that Teresa Teng will focus on her family and take good care of her children after marriage, which means that she will quit the music scene from now on. Is it marriage, or singing?Teresa Teng was full of contradictions and distressed. Since then, Teresa Teng talked about marriage every time he met Xi Tian.In her mind, it's okay to quit the music world in order to get the happiness she dreamed of, but is the marriage that replaces it really the best?During those days in Japan, Teresa Teng felt "stop singing" today, but "I still can't stop singing" tomorrow. Nishida looked at Teresa Teng who was trying to sort out the chaos of his thoughts every day, but he was helpless.However, Teresa Teng was still contradictory until she got a visa to fly to London. On this day, Teresa Teng set off alone again, and Xi Tian who saw him off felt very uncomfortable. While waiting in the lobby of Narita Airport, Teresa Teng said: "Mr. Nishida, I may just get married and retire. Anyway, I will contact you. If you don't sing anymore, please understand." "I don't object to your marriage. I've always said this since I met you. It doesn't matter whether you get married or have children, but don't quit the music scene. Singing is something you should never give up." Nishida was still emphasizing himself at this time suggestion.Teresa Teng waved goodbye to her Japanese friends. The season is at the peak of summer, and the weather in Tokyo is unbearably hot, and the sales of folk songs such as enka are also in the off-season at this time.The same is true of Teresa Teng's song.The record company is waiting for the summer to pass, and in the fall and winter, it will promote Teresa Teng's records again.But in order to prepare well, while Teresa Teng was not in Japan, they continued to carry out promotional activities in a down-to-earth manner. About three weeks after Teresa Teng arrived in London, one morning in mid-August, Nishida suddenly received a call from Teresa Teng.It was half past midnight in London at this time, and Nishida felt a little strange.After he picked up the phone, he felt even more strange, because Teresa Teng didn't say a word, but just cried on the phone.No matter how he asked, she just sobbed and cried.After a while, Teresa Teng's mood calmed down. "What's wrong, what happened?" "Well, a lot of things happened. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Teresa Teng finally spoke, but her voice seemed fragile and tired. "what time is it now?" "it's midnight." "What happened?" "...I broke up with him." "Not married?" "Yes." Teresa Teng replied calmly and clearly. For a moment, Nishida didn't know what to say. "Are you in school?" "I will continue to go to school, but I will change to a short-term class." There was sadness in her voice. Hearing what Teresa Teng said, Nishida felt a sense of guilt.Not only did she give up the idea of ​​getting married, but she also switched to a short-term course to prepare for singing.Her wish was to "marry" and "study", but she gave up both of them in order to sing.Xi Tian knew that although he didn't want her to give up, but the result was still the same, wouldn't he be the culprit? "It's my fault. I ruined everything you wanted to do." "It has nothing to do with you, it's my own decision." Teresa Teng said calmly. Marry or sing?What troubled Teresa Teng the most was this time.This is the most painful trauma.The music scene eventually became her destination.In the many contradictions between career and relationship, Teresa Teng finally chose what she could grasp. In the end, Teresa Teng still couldn't do without singing. Although Nishida felt guilty, the big stone in his heart was finally let go.If she is not married, she can continue singing.But in her life, she never had the happiness and joy of marriage and childbirth that ordinary people have.Nishida couldn't help feeling a little regretful, why did he persuade her to "don't quit the music scene"?