Chapter 13 postscript

a path of self-redemption The first article "Memory Fragments About Mahjong" was originally a work task. I remember that I found an Internet cafe in Chengdu and wrote a skeleton. After returning to Beijing, I passed it to the unit and posted it on the "20 degrees north latitude" in Xici Hutong. , also print a long roll to show off to friends.Because in my heart, I am indeed very proud. This article established the name "Memory Fragments", and also established a style of writing as soon as I think of it, and speaking as soon as I pick it up. Then, I also opened a discussion forum in Xici Hutong, called "Meal Notice".It was a period of high spirits

, whether it is a new friend or an old friend, everyone uses various methods to show off their colorful feathers, dig out each other's hearts, and look for like-minded confidants.Under such a background, I wrote pornography, fighting, buying discs, storytelling and other memory fragments. What keeps me writing down? Yes, the state where your writing becomes as natural as breathing. Yes, it is the youth that you experienced and continued to be chewed by those younger brothers and sisters. Yes, it is a friendship that you can safely humiliate him and endure his humiliation. Yes, it is the feeling that you suddenly want to throw yourself on the ground and kiss this dirty land.

From the beginning of writing, I positioned it as network writing.The utilitarianism of online writing is not about publishing books or earning royalties, but perhaps more about the interaction between talking and listening, as well as the satisfaction of those very specific vanity.I still clearly remember that I swiped a post into the board, and then looked at it eagerly. As soon as there was a new follow-up post, I hurriedly clicked to read it, hehe, silly for a long time.Fortunately, I am Banzhu, and this status is very advantageous. As long as it is a text that still explains the past, everyone will generally praise it.As for other soldiers with ordinary identities, although they are splendid, they don't have the same treatment as me.

The infinite replicability of the online world makes a few fragments widely spread.These feedbacks are refracted into my ears, which is not unsatisfactory. The Memento series has been of great help to my writing career.By coding these words, my brain like a pig's head slowly opened up, and I found that writing is not a very tiring and painful thing, in fact, it only needs to be as natural as breathing.It's all right. As natural as breathing, writing by yourself will not be so tiring.In fact, I often feel very comfortable and dripping after writing a certain paragraph, like a martial arts master practicing internal skills and completing a big and small circle.It's as natural as breathing, and many of my friends don't feel tired watching it. This has established my confidence in compiling it into a book.

When writing "Memory Fragments About Computers", I fell into a life of deep doubts.Doubt the words you write, whether there is a real expression?Doubt the profession you are engaged in, do you just keep producing garbage like this?Doubt every day when you slide, are you living in your own life, or in someone else's life?To live, or to live?To live, or to be alive? My heart is ashamed all day long, and I can't live all day long. When a person reaches middle age, he suddenly finds that his foot is empty, and everything he owns cannot stand scrutiny.This feeling is really uncomfortable.I even thought about suicide more than once.

However, a cowardly man like me still has a way to adjust his height.Because these problems are shared by all human beings, why should I be alone in the struggle against unhappiness? Slowly, let yourself calm down, at least, maintaining a normal life is quite rich. At this time, friends inside and outside urged me to sort out the memory fragments and publish a book.Flipping through the old posts, I can see the past affairs vividly, and I have some confidence to believe that what I produce is not all rubbish. The book reading and picking up girls that I wrote next began to move closer to publishing books intentionally or unintentionally.For the previous few fragments, I wanted to dig out the common genetic codes of our generation and sing about our 1980s, but when it comes to "Memory Fragments About Reading" (this is the one I feel most proud of) ), then added some personal things.Since every life should not be underestimated, the more personal it is, the more it belongs to everyone.

When I finished writing the reading fragments, I walked exhaustedly beside the small bridge and flowing water in Zizhuyuan Park, and counted my workload for that month. It was really amazing, not including the nearly 40,000-word reading fragments. Why can a man like me work tirelessly like a big animal?It turns out that I have always regarded the writing of memory fragments as a kind of rest, as a kind of enjoyment, as a road to self-salvation, and as the conclusion of a period of past years. It's time to make a break. See tricks October 2003