Chapter 29 Hong Kong escaped from danger and sent forgiveness to two sons

The third series of my main experience Chapter 56 1. Departure I arrived in Wuzhou on January 26, and now I can tell you about my escape from Hong Kong. The war in Hong Kong ended on December 25. A few friends and I hid in a classroom of an elementary school in Western District, watching what happened to the Japanese army and preparing to leave Hong Kong.But I couldn't get any good solution in a hurry, and it was not until January 10 that I had to leave Hong Kong and come north. This is decided on the first day after getting up.Thanks to the kindness of a friend, we are informed that there is a small sailing boat bound for Macao tomorrow, and the owner of the boat has bribed the Japanese army, so that the investigation may be avoided.The boat fare is HK$60 per person, and this friend has reserved seats for five people.We paid the money immediately and agreed to meet somewhere the next morning. Someone took us off the boat and asked us to change our clothes and take less luggage.

There are five friends in our company: Chen Jun, Lu Jun, Fan Jun and his wife and I.The five of them all changed into the attire of workers or small traders, carried their own luggage (all small), followed the guides, and hurried from Central to disembark at Aberdeen.It was a journey of about 20 li. After I hadn't walked for a long time, I felt extremely strenuous. My whole body was sweating, and my feet were sore. At the end, I limped and could barely walk.On the way, I also asked my friends to help me and carry my luggage on my behalf, so I barely arrived.Fortunately, I am not out of breath, not panic.

The boat is very small, about one foot wide and three feet two feet long, but it has three sails.I really didn't expect such a small boat to sail.When sailing out of Aberdeen, I saw dozens of scuttled ships blocking the estuary from the sea. If it wasn't for this small boat, I might not be able to sail out! 2. To Macau The sailing of the ship depends entirely on the power of the sail.If the wind is not smooth, or there is no wind, then you will not be able to walk.So when the wind is strong, everyone on board is happy; when there is no wind, people are depressed, and they all say that they will not be able to reach Macau today.Generally speaking, there was wind in the morning and evening that day, but it was not very smooth, so many people got seasick.There was also a dull period of no wind in the middle.Friends in the same company either vomited or became dizzy and took antiemetics frequently.I'm the only one who doesn't feel anything, it's business as usual.Fan Jun and others were surprised.

On the way, we encountered enemy planes circling by, and enemy boats approaching from afar, as if they were chasing us.The sailors and guests on the ship panicked and hid their precious belongings.In fact, I never encountered the enemy or the puppet army bandits.We went all the way without incident, and landed in Macau at ten o'clock in the evening. The Macao regime belongs to Portugal, but at this time it is all under the control of the enemy.When we landed and entered the hotel, we saw many Koreans speaking Japanese, and it was said that the enemy army would take over the police power in Macau.When we arrived in Macau, we hoped to have a ship to go to Guangzhou Bay, but all the ships were blocked by the enemy and were not allowed to leave.Once the Japanese consul signed and allowed it to be opened, but their navy refused to allow it.Because the hotel has too many eyes and ears and it is not easy to stay for a long time, we moved to an empty room with the help of friends Feng and Ke from Macau, and slowly managed to leave Macau.

At this time, Macau was in a panic.Food sources are insufficient.Rice, salt, oil, and sugar are all sold by the government, and you cannot buy them unless you have a resident certificate. (So ​​we all rely on Mr. Feng Zhuwan to send us rice.) All businesses are ready to close, and most of the citizens have to leave.And the number of people coming to Macau from Hong Kong is increasing day by day, and they all have to leave again.So many people have to go, but there are not many roads to go.The first is that there are no ships, only fishing boats or small cargo ships with sails; and there are so many pirates on the sea that no one dares to leave.There is only one way to follow Shiqi to the interior.But it has to go through several inspections by the enemy before it can pass.First of all, you have to hand over your photo to the enemy agency in Macau, and get a pass and a good citizen certificate. The procedures are very complicated.Macao residents often take this route.There are also many people from Hong Kong who go this way.A few of our friends were unwilling to go through these formalities, and also did not want to go through inspections along the road, so we had to find another way.

The last way I thought of was to float the boat and go straight to the capital of free China (belonging to Taishan County).Because of the many pirates on the sea, no one dares to take this road.But we got to know the sea hero Wu Fajun because of a friend's introduction.He has been at sea for many years, and he is known as "Wu Fazi".His sphere of influence is in Sanzao Island, Hengqin Island, Daxiaolan and other places.Since the Anti-Japanese War, the enemy wanted to seize Sanzao Island as an air force base, so he resisted the enemy and fought hard many times. He was recruited by the government and worked as a guerrilla.Because he himself is from Sanzao Island, and his family relatives are all on the island.There were 12,300 residents on the island, all of whom were massacred and driven away by the enemy, losing their basis for life.So he never compromises with the enemy.Until now, there are still thousands of righteous people following him to cut firewood for a living on the wild islands and mountains near Macau, as we have all seen.As for their anti-Japanese record, Hong Kong and Macau newspapers in the past one or two years also published a lot.This time he knew that we were members of the cultural circles and wanted to return to China, so he was willing to escort us to Duhu.At the same time, we ask us to appeal to the government on his behalf for his sincerity in resisting Japan, the plight of the troops, and the displacement of righteous people, and ask for relief and relief.

3. Fly again On the afternoon of the 17th, Wu Fazai sent someone to take us to Coloane by ferry. ——This is a place not far from Macau.There are quite a few righteous people from Sanzao Island who fled here.And Wu's subordinates are actually the children of their clan, and they all call him "Uncle Fa".The army does not have the salary issued by the provincial government, and has to rely on escorts for a living.It is to package and transport the goods needed in the inland, such as gasoline, cotton yarn, etc., to Duhu, and charge some transportation fees.This kind of business can only be done within ten days from the 25th to the 5th day of the lunar calendar every month.Because there is no moon for these ten days, it is necessary to avoid being discovered by the enemy in the dark night.It is inconvenient both during the day and under the moonlight. January 17th happened to be the first day of the twelfth month of the lunar calendar, so they took us away on their cotton yarn boat.

At dusk, after dinner, everyone got off the boat. There were five boats in total.I remember that the one I took was about six feet wide and three feet long, without a canopy, just a sail.It was originally said that five of us took five boats.Because the boat is too narrow, there are eight or nine people driving the boat, and they still come and go from time to time.Therefore, one guest can only lie on one side near the rudder on the full load of cotton yarn bags. No matter how many there are, it will inevitably hinder the sailing of the boat.Later, because Mrs. Fan felt that Heiye was afraid of being alone, she allowed the couple to be on the same boat.I, Mr. Chen and Mr. Lu each have a boat.We had already departed, and suddenly Lu Jun came to my boat with a boat, saying that they realized that I could not speak Cantonese, and they wanted me to be on the same boat with Chen Jun, who is good at Cantonese, in case something happened on the way.The transfer is fixed, sailing away, we can't see each other in the dark.

The wind was very favorable that night, we lay on our backs and looked at the stars in the sky, and the boat drove away quietly like an arrow.Unexpectedly, the wind direction suddenly changed in the middle of the night, and the wind and waves were very strong. The boat was about to capsize, and the waves splashed directly into the boat and splashed into the nose and mouth;Fortunately, most of the boats travel among the islands, so they soon moored on a small desert island.Wait until the sun rises, expose the clothes to the sun, and burn firewood to keep warm.There was rice, grain, and vegetables on board, but there was no fresh water on the island, so they had to use seawater to cook.I have always been able to withstand hunger, just sip a small bowl.After dinner, lie on your back on the beach, under the sun.Nothing was heard except the sound of the tide.Until it was dark, Fang set sail again. ——This is for the 18th.

The boat sailed smoothly and arrived in Duhu at night.But it is not the town of Duhu, it is Haikou, the place name is Dongkou.Hearing voices from across the boat, he knew that Fan Jun and his wife had arrived first.They interrogated each other and learned that his ship was robbed twice while on the way.Dozens of bales of cotton were robbed, but luckily nothing was lost.But the other three boats that came with them did not arrive.Until dawn, there was no news, and I was worried about Lu Jun. The third series of my main experience Chapter 57 4. From Duhu to Taishan City When our ship arrived at the east port, officers from the police station on the shore boarded the ship with flashlights to ask questions.We have been reporting that we have escaped from Hong Kong.After he returned to the police station, their chief of police insisted that we go ashore for questioning.And there are dozens of feet from the boat to the shore that must be waded through.It was extremely cold in the second half of the night, and there was only starlight, so I couldn't tell the depth of my feet.It's really embarrassing to wading through the water. We will discuss it with him, and please wait until dawn to ask questions.He insisted on refusing, and threatened loudly.I still had a business card with me, so I asked Fan and Chen Erjun to go ashore and explain to the chief of police.

After the explanation, his attitude was fine.At dawn, we were entertained to go ashore to wash our faces and drink tea, and called the town for sedan chairs by phone to take us there.Probably he has reported to his superiors and received instructions. When drinking tea in the town, the cotton yarn owner also came from the town to Dongkou to collect his goods.It is known that there are as many as 16 small boats in Wufa's contract to transport his yarn goods, which have been divided into three batches.The first batch of six boats, the second batch of five boats, the third batch of five more-this is our trip.In the first batch, five ships went missing, but only one arrived and was also robbed.None of the second batch of five boats was seen.The third batch arrived, with Fan Jun and me, but the other three did not arrive.In total, thirteen boats were lost, and only three boats arrived!From this point of view, our trip is really dangerous.Of the three boats that arrived, one was robbed completely, the other was robbed twice, and Chen Jun and I were the only ones who were safe and sound, so lucky! It turned out that on the evening of the 17th, when the ship had already sailed, and Lu Jun and I changed ships suddenly, I was moved in my heart: Could it be that my ship is going to be in danger!Because of my previous experience, I have never encountered dangerous things.Where I am, there is no danger; only before I arrive, or after I am gone.There are too many such cases.In the twenty-eighth year (1937) when I was in and out of guerrilla areas behind enemy lines, it was most clearly evident.As far as this battle in Hong Kong is concerned, not long after I left Wong Nai Chung Road, the enemy army occupied Wong Nai Chung Road; I moved away from the Huang family on Hin Lei Poetry Road, and within a day of taking away my clothes, the Huang family was robbed robbery.There are also a series of examples.This implied to me a kind of self-confidence: I am always safe.So when the ship was suddenly changed, I couldn't help but feel agitated.Who knew that something would happen to it! According to this situation, we can only ask Wu Fazai to try to rescue Mr. Lu when he finds his boat.It was useless for us to wait in Duhu for a long time. We stayed overnight on the 19th and went to Taishan County on the 20th. To Taishan, Mrs. Fan and I each took a sedan chair, and Fan and Chen Erjun each rode a bicycle (bicycle).The cars are all hired by the police.The police officer Zhen Jun entertained us very well, and entertained us with wine and dinner in his office.Because as soon as my name was spread to Duhu, Zhu Yuankai, Zhu Lingjun, Li Yuanwu and others from the former Guangzhou No. 1 Middle School in the local area knew about it, and they immediately came to welcome me.Director Zhu of the police station is a brother of their family.So it can be said that as soon as I entered the country, I met acquaintances (I was the principal of No. 1 Middle School in the 17th year of the Republic of China). Zhu and others immediately wrote to inform their classmate Chen Bingxian in Taishan City.Chen served as the head of the food administration department of the county government, and he reported to the county magistrate Chen Canzhang.So as soon as we arrived in the city, classmate Chen and county magistrate Chen came to welcome us again.County Magistrate Chen is a student of my friend Mr. Liu Caifu.Seventeen years (1928) when I was in Guangzhou, he served as secretary of the Civil Affairs Department, and I met him once.So along with the local journalists and the secretary of the county party committee, they all came to see me.They all thought that I was the first person in the cultural circle to escape from Hong Kong to the mainland. ——This is what happened on January 20. Five, after three ports According to our route, after reaching Taishan, we should go to Kaiping and Zhaoqing via Sanbu.So I stayed overnight on the 20th, and after sending a telegram to Chongqing on the evening of the 21st, I decided to go to Sanbu.The telegram was to the National Council.The text says: Secretary Jiang, Zhang, Zuo and Wang of the Presidium of the Chongqing National Political Council Jun Jian: I have escaped from Hong Kong and returned. Please disclose the report on your behalf and comfort all friends.Liang Shuming. The good news is that when we got up to go to Sanbu, Mr. Lu suddenly rushed to Taishan and went straight to our hotel.Ask him what happened, and know that he was taken captive by pirates from Chixi.Wu Fa's thirteen ships were all gathered in one place, where the cargo and passengers were together.The cargo has to pay 75,000 yuan before it can be taken back.Passengers have to pay a protection fee of HK$1,000 each before they can come out.Lu Jun was treated the same as the other guests, but later, because he knew the psychology of the people in the world, he persuaded them with several words, returned the looted clothes to him, and sent a boat to send him ashore alone.He rushed to Duhu, was instructed by the police station, and called the county government, so he found us.So the five people who were originally traveling together reunited and set off together. After a dry road and a waterway, we arrived at Sanbu on the afternoon of the 21st. "Three ports" were originally three ports: Changsha, Dihai and Xinchang.This is like the three towns of Wuchang, Hanyang, and Hankou.The market is prosperous, and the administrative commissioner and security commander of the first district of Guangdong is stationed here.I first learned that the commissioner was an old acquaintance Mr. Li Leifu, and sent him a business card to inform him as soon as he arrived.He came to see me right away, and happily explained his story.The next day, Commander Peng Lin Sheng, some military and political officials, and the managers of the Central Committee, the China Bank, and the Third Agricultural Bank of China were invited to host a banquet for me.They also sent a team leader to escort our party to Zhaoqing after the banquet with brothers. Wu Shangshijun, the manager of the Agricultural Bank of China here, told me at the meeting that he is an old teacher of Guangzhou No. 1 Middle School. Although he was invited by Principal Huo to enter No. 1 Middle School, I left early.However, my measures in No. 1 Middle School have laid a good foundation and developed a good style of study.From the scale I left behind and the word-of-mouth of my classmates, the people who came after them knew who I was, although they had never met. ——Unexpectedly, everywhere I meet people who have a crush on me! Sixth, via Kaiping to Zhaoqing I got up in the afternoon on the 22nd and arrived in Kaiping County that night.Weizong, the chief of the county government, Chen, left on the way, and Kaiyuan, the county magistrate, came to see us at the hotel.According to him, he also met in Guangzhou in seventeen years.He worked with your uncle, Mr. Wu Yongbo, so he often heard Mr. Wu talk about me. —Then he is an acquaintance again. At dawn on the 23rd, the county government hired five sedan chairs, and county magistrate Lin came to see him off in person, and stayed in Tiancun that night.Continue on the next day and arrive at Xinqiao at 2:00 in the afternoon, change boats at Xinqiao, and arrive in Zhaoqing in the evening. Zhaoqing is the name of the prefecture, and Gaoyao is the county name.This is where the administrative commissioner and security commander of the third district of Guangdong is stationed, and the commissioner is Mr. Wang Renyu.He received a telegram from Commissioner Li Leifu and was notified by our escort captain, so he and his wife came to see us immediately.I thought Commissioner Wang was a stranger I didn't know. How could I know that although I didn't recognize him, he knew me well! It turned out that there were two schools in the West Village of Guangzhou, one was the No. 1 Middle School, and the other was an industrial college (later converted into a factory).Mr. Wang once presided over the affairs of the industrial school, because he was in the western suburbs, and he was very familiar with the school conditions and academic style of No. 1 Middle School.Almost our every move is in his mind.Recently, he served as the magistrate of Lian County for three years, and he had just been transferred from Lian County to be the commissioner here.In Lian County, Mrs. Wang had a very close relationship with your aunt (Mrs. Wu Yongbo).Mrs. Wang told me that although I have not met, I have known you two brothers and me from the photos, and I have seen the paintings and woodcuts that Shuer sent to my aunt! Commissioner Wang told me that the base of the guerrilla led by Mr. Wu is in Sanshui County, and Sanshui and Gaoyao border on the border.It's a pity that my colleagues and I have to hurry, so we don't have time to visit the old and strong Mr. Wu. It was late (the evening of the 24th), and we stayed at the Zhaoqing Hotel.The next day Commissioner Tianming Wang and his wife came to the hotel again to lead us out of the city to escape the air raid.Avoiding air raids on this day has been a rule in Zhaoqing for the past few months.All the people in the city went out of the city and returned to the city after noon.Commissioner Wang works in the former site of a college outside the city.We rested and had breakfast in his office.He and his wife took us to the park and the woods in the countryside, and then had lunch.In the evening, I was sent to Wuzhou by boat again. ——This is the 25th. The third series of my main experience Chapter 58 7. Take a boat to Wuzhou On the evening of the 25th, Commissioner Wang and his wife and an officer surnamed Tang who was in charge of Xijiang navigation administration personally sent me aboard.This is a large tugboat that sailed to Guangzhou in the past.The owner of the ship was polite and gave us the special space, and insisted on not charging the ship price. Most of us were entertained or offered extra courtesy for our boarding, car, foot and other expenses, as well as board and other items. Therefore, we borrowed 1,000 national currency from Mr. Feng Zhuwan in Macau, and exchanged it for 500 yuan. The total was only 1,000 yuan. Five hundred yuan, more than half of it was used by five people.Therefore, Commissioner Li, Commander Peng, and Commissioner Wang successively gave me travel expenses, but none of them accepted it.In fact, I have received a lot of kindness from friends along the way. After Wang and Tang Zhugong said goodbye, the boat was about to leave. Suddenly, a guest who just came up sat next to my berth. He was dressed like a businessman, with a hat on his forehead. Chen Jitang, who has been in charge of the Guangdong regime for a long time and has a great reputation.We all knew in Hong Kong that he was stuck in Hong Kong and could not get out, but in Macau and along the road we all heard that he was dragged to Guangzhou by the enemy, and it was rumored that he had gone to Nanjing to serve as the vice chairman of the Military Commission.It is not only his personal luck, but also the country's blessing that he escaped danger and returned to the mainland.I hurriedly pointed it out to Chen Jun beside me, and asked him in a low voice if he was Chen Jitang.Chen Jun looked at it and said it looked like him.But I used to be familiar with Chen Jitang, and when I looked at him, he didn't say hello.When I wasn't looking at him, he was looking at me again.This is obviously him.But he didn't want others to know, so it was inconvenient to answer him. At night, he moved to another cabin and was no longer seen.In the morning of the next day, the accountant on the ship came to me and said "Mr. Chen" to me.Sure enough, he asked me to talk.He said: I saw you last night, and now Wuzhou is coming soon. If there is no problem, we can talk about it.It is said that because he was not allowed to leave Hong Kong by plane, he modified it to hide during the war.The fighting stopped, and he left Hong Kong for Tai O on January 12, although his family and subordinates did not know about it.From Tai O, escorted by friends, they went to the countryside of Zhongshan, Shunde, Xinhui, Heshan, and Gaoming counties, and arrived in Zhaoqing without passing through any ports.Before Yuzhao came to Wu, he had asked someone to call Wuzhou Liang Commissioner Chao Ji, asking him to send a boat to welcome him. After a while, Commissioner Liang came to pick him up by electric boat.He invited me and Chen Jun to board the electric boat, and we arrived at Wuzhou pier very quickly.Commissioner Liang entertained us for a rest and dinner in the headquarters, and immediately called Director Li (Ji Shen) and Chairman Huang (Xu Chu) of Guilin to report.He himself also spoke with Li and Huang, saying that he would not come to Guilin for a while.I also called Li and Huang Ergong and said that I could go to Guilin soon. Chen Gong (referring to Jitang) is indeed sick, it can be seen from the description.He himself said that "every kind of disease can occur", although it may be too much, but it will not work without rest and recuperation.He got rid of government affairs (he is a member of the Standing Committee of the Central Party Committee and Minister of Agriculture and Forestry), and decided to go to Maoming (Gaozhou, Guangdong) to rest, which I think is a wise move.That night (the evening of the 26th) he stayed in Wuzhou, and we found out that there was a boat sailing on the water, that is, Commissioner Joyong booked the boat on his behalf. After dinner, he boarded the boat and headed westward. 8. Feelings after escape The above mentioned, up to the Wuzhou incident on January 26, was written and recorded during the break in Puyuan, Guixian County.Originally, leaving Hong Kong and Macau was regarded as escape from danger, but to put it more broadly, it is enough to talk about areas in Guangdong that are close to the enemy, such as Zhaoqing (70 miles away from the enemy, still firing artillery from time to time).There is no danger at all in Wuzhou, so there is no need to describe Wuzhou in detail. After Wuzhou, roughly speaking: Arrive in Guiping on the evening of the 27th and change ships immediately; arrive in Guixian on the afternoon of the 28th.A friend of mine, Chen Jun, is from Guixian County, so he borrowed Pu Yuan from his relative's house to stay for a few days. On February 3, I took a bus with Chen Jun to Binyang, on the 4th to Liuzhou, took the night train of the Xianggui Railway that night, and arrived in Guilin at dawn on the 5th.This section of the road is similarly accompanied by friends' help, hospitality, and farewell everywhere, without any trouble on my own. So far, I have nothing more to say, but I want to tell you my own feelings. The first impression, of course, is: I am so lucky!In the artillery fire in Hong Kong, and the enemy soldiers and bandits looting everywhere, I was safe and sound.He took the risk of smuggling out of Hong Kong and Australia, and all the way was safe and sound, and he never encountered a single enemy soldier, puppet army or bandit.Not only is there no danger, even if it is hard work, the only way to get off the boat in Aberdeen is a flat road less than 20 miles away. How can it be considered hard work?There is nothing to lose.People may be robbed several times (the most people go along the Dongjiang Road, and the robbing is the most painful).Not only have I not been robbed, but a box of spring and summer clothes that I abandoned in Hong Kong was unexpectedly brought to Guilin by a friend.So talking to others, no one is as lucky as me! The second impression is: I get help from friends everywhere, and everyone treats me very well.For example, someone brought the discarded clothes with me, isn't it an example?As mentioned above, isn't the whole process from beginning to end an example of this kind?The only person with me in Hong Kong who is familiar to you is Mr. Zhang (Yun Chuan).You don't know most of the rest, even I am a new friend.On the eve of leaving Hong Kong, Mr. Zhang was not at ease because he did not have a companion to take care of me.I said: Don't worry, people in the world will help me whether they know it or not.Around me, there is no family, no relatives, and no old reasons, but because everyone treats me well, I am in the same place as my family and relatives. This escape from danger further proves my self-confidence. The third impression: It is to do one's best and receive one's effect.This is my impression from my relationship with Guangzhou No. 1 Middle School.Most of the students in No. 1 Middle School are from Guangdong and Guangxi. Whenever I met someone in Guangdong and Guangxi, I would talk about something about me in No. 1 Middle School. (Recently, I met Professor Zhao from the Agricultural College of Pingshi Zhongda University. He said, "If you come to Pingshi, there are many students from our No. 1 Middle School. They will welcome you.") It seems that I have a lot of friendship with No. 1 Middle School. Like a deep and long relationship.In fact, I have only served as a middle school principal for half a year.However, I did my best for No. 1 Middle School.I took over as the principal in July 17 (1928), when the No. 1 Middle School was corrupt.But no wonder.Because from June of the fifteenth year (1926), seven principals have been replaced within two years, with an average term of just over three months.After I took over, I gradually rectified. In December, I put forward a complete renovation plan, which was implemented in the next year (18 years). When it was implemented, I left Guangdong, but all the teaching staff remained unchanged, and Mr. Huang (Gen Yong) took over. The headmaster takes my place.Everything is presided over by Mr. Huang, Mr. Zhang? Zhi), and Mr. Xu (Minghong).From the seventeenth year to the eighteenth and nineteenth years until the summer and autumn of the twenty years, this group of friends left.The transformation plan (see "Shu Ming Thirty Post-Wenlu" for the original text, commercial publishing) was implemented and stabilized, so it was able to establish a foundation and bequeathed to later generations.However, as far as I am concerned, I have never put a lot of effort into it.Can't help but make me sigh, try my best to get a little effect. The third series of my main experience Chapter 59 9. My Psychology in a Dangerous Situation Finally, I would like to talk about my psychology in danger.I am not only the safest person from the outside, but also the safest person from the inside.It is happiness to be safe outside, but it is even greater happiness to be calm at home. ——Just ask a person who is lucky enough to be safe outside, but his mood is always anxious and panic, how much is his happiness? In the twenty-eighth year (1939) I went to various battlefields in North China and East China, and went in and out of the enemy and the latter for eight months. Friends who accompanied me, such as Mr. Huang (Gen Yong), all said that I was brave.Because no matter how dangerous the current situation is, I always look calm, as if nothing happened.When others panic, I never panic.This time I was under fire in Hong Kong, and even ventured out of Hong Kong, and all my friends who were with me have seen it.So Fan Jun and others couldn't help but sigh along the way: Mr. Liang is really strange, as if nothing happened!Mr. Liang is amazing, as if nothing had happened! "As if nothing had happened", I remember how many times he said it! Fan Jun sighed that I was "as if nothing had happened", which also meant that I was in good health, well-trained, and able to endure hard work and worry.In fact, I was originally a person with a strong mind but not a strong body, but because of my psychological security, my physical body was normal.If you are sad, or angry, or afraid, or have any difficulties and hardships in your heart, your mind will immediately affect your physiology (such as breathing, circulation, digestion and other system functions) and change, which will be manifested in your physical appearance, and even all diseases will also change. The easiest to recruit.So peace of mind is the number one priority. How can I be so calm in my heart?Of course, there is also a kind of talent in this process, and it is mainly because I have a kind of self-expression and self-confidence.Self-explanation means knowing oneself.I know that my safety is not a matter of one person, but a matter of great concern.I believe that my safety is determined by destiny, so don't worry.Try to explain them separately. If what I do is only for the enjoyment of one person, then my safety is only my business.And if I only care about the safety and enjoyment of my family when I do things, then my safety is only related to the family.But not looking for food and clothing, not looking for a family, everyone sees it.Even if you are young, you can see it.What's the matter with me, the emperor of Qiqi, my friends, the people of the country, whether deep or shallow, there are many people who know.And the one who knows best is, of course, myself. And if I put my heart and soul into big issues but get nothing and lack self-confidence, then it doesn't matter much.But ever since I became knowledgeable (after about fourteen years old), I have been unknowingly obsessed with a life issue, a social issue (or a Chinese issue), and I am nearly fifty this year.The ripe fruit is: One is based on the understanding of human life, and has some understanding of Confucius and Mencius and Chinese culture, and is confident that it can explain it. The first is based on the understanding of Chinese society, and it is not easy to believe that it is true to have some insights into the solution to the current overall situation and the way to rejuvenate the nation. The former must wait for the completion of the three books "Human Heart and Life", "Confucian Essays", and "The Essentials of Chinese Culture", which is to fulfill my task.Although the latter has published three books: "The Final Awareness of the Chinese National Self-help Movement", "Theory of Rural Construction" (a title of "The Future of the Chinese Nation"), and "What I'm Trying For" (published recently in Hong Kong), the effect has already been reached. , still needs to be played and worked hard to realize it. The study of Confucius and Mencius is now obscure.Maybe some people can understand its purpose, but no one can deeply see that it is based on the understanding of human life, and first establish his psychology and then clarify his ethical thoughts.Only I can do this.It is also necessary to have an understanding of human life, which is to have the vision to judge the position of Chinese culture in the history of human culture, and to prove its gains and losses.No one in the world can do this except me.The predecessors said: "In order to inherit the unique knowledge of the past, and to create peace for the next life", this is exactly the mission of my life. I can die if the third book of "The Heart and Life" is finished; but I cannot die now.In addition, the overall situation of China in the future and the work of founding the country will also need me; I cannot die.If I die, the world will change color and history will change. That is unimaginable, it will never happen! A group of friends in Hong Kong always feel that their lives are threatened, not only because of the ruthless artillery fire, but also because they are afraid that the enemy will hunt down anti-Japanese elements.So we sneaked out, and when we arrived at the hotel in Macau overnight, all our friends were overjoyed, celebrating our rebirth.However, I only smiled in return, but couldn't answer in my mouth.Because I am calm in my heart, although the shadow of doubt does not rise, so there is no joy to speak of.And the business card on my body has never been destroyed. When I arrived in Duhu, I took it out and used it casually.It is because I never think about being searched by the enemy. I believe that my safety is in destiny.What is destiny?Mencius said it clearly: "If you don't do it, you will do it; if you don't do it, you will die." Everything is not what anyone wants him to do, but the facts go by (time), the chance (spatial), Unexpectedly.Observing the coincidence of opportunities comes from all directions; seeking the passage of facts has far-reaching origins.There was no chance, no random touches during this period, so it is called "destiny".As for matters of great importance, it seems that their progress is particularly rare and just, and the opportunity is especially difficult to gather. Once it is made or destroyed, it is especially said to be destiny rather than accidental. When I said "my safety has its own fate", it has two meanings.The first level is the meaning of self-confidence that I will be safe.If I were an ordinary person who dressed and ate, it didn’t matter if there was one more me or one less me in the world, it would be safe or dangerous, so I couldn’t figure it out, maybe; but today, I will be able to complete a very important mission, And there is no second person to get it.From the point of view of destiny (speaking from the point of view of progress), it is really hard to have the me I am today; probably there should be no problem with my future (no change). ——This self-confidence comes entirely from seeing the greatness of my mission. Another layer is: In case of danger, I fully accept the meaning.The first level is biased towards human requirements (subjective) and not necessarily in line with the facts of heaven (objective).No one can handle the outcome of the event.If there is no one who makes do with the past, but something else, then it is destiny that the overall situation should be solved and the national rejuvenation will be delayed, and the study of Confucius and Mencius in Chinese culture will be obscured.I can't, I just accept my fate.Or maybe I'm completely wrong.National rejuvenation does not delay, and cultural clarification is unique.I blame myself for being confused, and I have nothing to complain about. ——This means Bin, which is a concession to the previous self-confidence. In a word, I put my safety in the hands of heaven, and I don't think too much about it (it's beyond my own strength, and it's too much to think too much about it).I do my part (such as trying to escape from danger as much as I can), and I do the rest, with peace of mind.In this (in the midst of calm and resignation), I have my self-report and self-confidence, which is extremely clear and strong. Although the mountains and mountains collapse in front of me, I can still remain calm; mere Japanese invaders are not enough to disturb me. My psychology in a dangerous situation is roughly the same.If you don't understand it after reading it, wait until you improve in the future, and then pay attention to it. postscript This article was originally a family letter, and some words in it are not humane (referring to the paragraph "My Psychology in Danger").But since it was taken by a friend and published in Guilin "Cultural Magazine", there is no need to reprint it.I hope readers don't mind the arrogant words, that's fine.