Chapter 14 Chapter 14 My Self-Study History: Thoughts of Birth

The first series of my autobiography Chapter 14 My Self-Study History: Thoughts of Birth 12. Thoughts of Birth I have been good at thinking since I was about ten years old.At that time, I deeply felt the influence of my father's thought. From today's terminology, it can be said that the emphasis on practical interests in the philosophy of life coincides with the ancient Chinese Mohist thought or the utilitarianism of the modern British in the West. ——It seems that my late father had never read Mozi's books, let alone modern British philosophy, so the cloud coincides. When I was about sixteen or seventeen years old, I started from the analysis and questioning of benefits and disadvantages, and turned to the research of what is suffering and what is happiness.At the age of seventeen, I rejected my mother's marriage proposal for me. At the age of twenty, I started to become a vegetarian. I sought to read Buddhist scriptures, and embraced the idea of ​​becoming a monk. I didn't give up until I was twenty-nine.

——The grounds for renunciation will be discussed later in Section 18. Note: In the autumn of 1969, I wrote an article "Self-reported Changes and Changes in Early Thoughts", which is actually the best reference material for this section, so I won't bother to repeat it.As for the research on the problem of suffering and happiness, there is a passage in the early article "Studying Yuan Causation", which can be referred to.