Chapter 7 The Second Small Resurrection

"Twenty-three, Luo Chengguan." The year of twenty-three was indeed a hurdle for me, and I almost didn't pass it. Physiologically, psychologically, and theoretically, this proverb is indeed a noteworthy warning.According to a friend who studies pathology told me: From eighteen to twenty-five years of age, the most attention should be paid to resisting tuberculosis.In fact, many people around the age of twenty-three are busy with the university graduation exams, and at the same time, their eyes slip away from the ghost that they will be unemployed after graduation; two qi attacks make it difficult to be content physically and mentally, and lung disease will not take advantage of it And enter.

Leaving college students aside, generally speaking, after the age of twenty-one, one will naturally begin to put away one's childishness and want to become an adult; there are quite a few young men in their twenties and thirties who grow mustaches for fun, and after a year Two weeks and then shaved off, that is a certificate.During this period, if things are going well, you can't help but try those things that have always been regarded as forbidden fruits; since you no longer consider yourself a child, you should be old-fashioned and do some romantic things played by old people.The money is earned by oneself, so if you don't spend it, you won't be in a panic.Eating, drinking, and wearing silk trousers and coats are trivial matters; whoring and gambling are really grown-up things.If things are not satisfactory, depression and complaints, at this time, can also damage your health.Honest people, even if they are proud of things and don't want to mess around, they will always think of finding a girl to live a love life. Although they are honest, they are young and can't hold back. A lot of pain, broken love will commit suicide.On the contrary, the world lacks peace, does not take time to think about oneself, and does not want to be left behind. Most of the blood on the battlefield is from such people.

It's a pity that there is no set of statistical tables to help. I can only say that based on my personal observation, this "Luo Chengguan theory" can stand up.Taking a close example, I can at least testify against myself. Although it is not "scientific", it does not lose the value of "this once". When I was twenty-three years old, my own affairs were not too bad in terms of remuneration.I can get more than one hundred yuan a month.One hundred yuan sixteen or seventeen years ago could be used as two hundred yuan now; at that time, it was still possible to eat a full meal for fifteen small coppers.I remember: a serving of shredded pork fried with three pieces of oil, and a bowl of ravioli with two chickens can be paid for at only eleven or twelve coppers; Get a pot of Baiganer and drink it.

Naturally, at that time, the CCCC banknotes were used as a few cents, and the monthly salary could never be received at one time, so the method of breaking the whole bill into parts and rounding it made me often have to pay one or two bills to get by. .If the money is given out quickly, and all the money is in foreign countries, I think I may have become a "rich old man" long ago. No matter how you put it, a salary of more than 100 yuan has not caused me to encounter great difficulties; if I become a pawn and then redeem it, it is in line with the way of "enriching the people and enriching the country", so I am neither happy nor complaining.Whenever I got a few percent of my salary, I would go home and send some money to my mother.When I leave home, I always feel that the world is very empty, and I have to spend some money to have a happy relationship with some corner of the world.So I went to the theater, went to the park, drank, and bought "Daxi" cigarettes.Because I became addicted to watching the theater, I went further to learn a few words from my friends, and when the wine was hot, I could also shout twice; no matter what, shouting is always enjoyable.I don't drink a lot, but it's quite delicious. If you gather two or three confidants, you will have to pay a few catties; when everyone is short-tongued, you will start to talk, and you will speak frankly and affectionately. come with the spirit.It is indeed worth remembering.When I came back drunk, I sometimes handed over my purse and handkerchief to the rickshaw driver for safekeeping. When I woke up the next day, I still felt a little bold and uninhibited in my sadness.Once, I was living in an apartment in Yijiao Temple.A good friend Lu Song'an brought a jar of "Zhuyeqing" from Liuquanju.Two more friends were invited—one of them didn’t know how to drink—and everyone picked up the tea bowls.Although the jar is big, it cannot support the tea bowl to keep attacking; the moon has not yet risen, and the jar is empty.What are you going to do?Let's play cards.Each took out a hundred copper coins, which was about seven horns in the ocean, because this was a thing in ancient times.The first card will be up, don't know - still don't know - how I got into bed.The cards must have failed, because the sun was already rising when I opened my eyes.

Also learned to play cards.Now I wake up, I will never become a brand oil child.I don't want to bother to calculate, but completely romantically leave the outcome to luck.I don't look at the cards on the "land" or the cards played by the upper and lower players. I only imagine that if a good card comes, it will become all or three yuan.The result was a crushing defeat.After realizing this shortcoming, I didn't have much addiction to poker, and I didn't care if I played or not. However, at that time, I would never admit that my poker was stinky, and as long as someone asked me, I would sit down.

I can't think of one thing more harmful than playing cards.Drinking too much alcohol can hurt you, but no one will drink immediately after being drunk, unless it is suicide by drinking.This is not the case with playing cards, knowing that it is harmful, but still going down, if one person says "continue", no one will be willing to leave.At this time, people seem to have been fascinated by those small pieces, regardless of cold, heat, hunger, and food, and put aside all common sense of hygiene.The more you fight, the more you eat cigarettes and drink tea, the more you lose, the more you hit the fire.The rooster crowed, the palms felt hot, and the mind was dizzy, but no one would give up their lives to accompany the gentleman.A night of sparrow hunting, I firmly believe, is a far greater loss than a minor illness.But, young and energetic, who cares about this!

I just don't whore.No matter how good a friend pulls me, I never promise once.I seem to keep this point in order to comfort myself; I can nod to everything, but I can’t go "there" any more; only in this way, when Qingye asks herself, she won’t put herself in the group of absurd ghosts go. However, smoking, drinking, and sparrows are enough to make me thin, and there is often a little blood in the phlegm! At that time, the theory of freedom of marriage had just been considered by young people as the gospel of salvation, and my mother secretly arranged a marriage for me.I was very anxious about retiring the engagement.Since I had to be a new character, and I was afraid of hurting my mother's heart too much, I was in a dilemma, and my heart became a little pimple.I invited my third sister to intercede with me, and my mother nodded with tears in her eyes.I love my mother, but I hit her hardest.Times have made me a rebel.The engagement was annulled at last, but I got very sick.

At the beginning of the disease, I just felt stiff all over.Take a bath without sweating; run all over the street without sweating.I knew it was going to be bad.After two or three days, I took some proprietary medicines, but they didn't work.At night, I had a strange dream, dreaming that I seemed to be dead, but I heard everyone crying clearly.The next morning, I went home and couldn't get up when I got home. "Sir" is from the Tai Hospital. I don't know what medicine he gave me. I'm already unconscious, so I don't know how to ask for a prescription.By the time I was able to get down to the ground again, all my hair had been cut off from me, and my head was bald like a magnetic ball.After half a year, I still dare not take off my hat to people, and there is nothing under the hat.

After this illness, I began to reflect on myself: Those hobbies must be quit, and I must be extra careful from now on, this is not for fun! But why do you want to learn these bad habits?Ah, it turned out that it was because I had a monthly income of one hundred and ten yuan, and my work was very leisurely.Then, if you plan to go to nonsense, you must first do some serious work; leisure and well-paid work can only ruin yourself. ① -------- ① When Lao She was the principal of a primary school, he was sent by the Bureau of Educational Affairs to Jiangsu to inspect primary school education. In September 1920, Lao She served as a persuasive student in the northern suburbs of the capital. He also served as the director of the general education lecture institute in the northern suburbs of the capital public, and a member of the primary school department of the Beijing Teachers Association, so his remuneration was relatively good.

Coincidentally, at this time my boss reprimanded me.I quit my job.Some people said that I was too angry, and some people said that I was forced to resign, but I didn't care.I found a place to teach and earned fifty yuan a month.In terms of money, needless to say, I have suffered a great loss; in terms of labor, I will naturally suffer a lot more.However, I was very happy: I touched the books again, and I came into contact with lovely students all day long.Apart from smoking, I let go of other hobbies naturally.They earn little money and do too many things. They refuse to spend money and have no time to spend it.For half a year, I never got drunk or touched a card once.When I was tired, I walked around the campus, or went to watch the students play outside the sports field. My activities were completely in the school, with a calm mind and a regular life; You could be a Puritan. ①

-------- ①Passing the "pass", Lao She joined Christianity.According to the seventh issue of "China Christian Church Yearbook" in 1924: "Shu Sheyu... was 26 years old, a native of Beijing, and was baptized in the 11th year of the Republic of China. A teacher, an officer of the Beijing Local Service Group, a teacher of Guanren No. 1 Middle School in Beijing, and the director of the Sunday School of the Chinese Christian Church in Gangwa." At this time, he embraced the idea of ​​sacrificing for the people and the country, and changed his name to "Sheyu".The philanthropic spirit of Christianity influenced Lao She's life.Soon, because of the relationship with the church, Yi Wensi introduced him to teach in England. When I was teaching at Nankai Middle School, I once said at the school's China Day commemorative meeting: I would like to interpret "Double Ten" as two crosses.For the sake of democracy and the common welfare of the people, each of us must bear two crosses—Jesus only bears one: to destroy and eradicate old habits, bad habits, and cultures as toxic as opium addiction, we must be prepared to sacrifice , bearing a cross.At the same time, because of creating a new society and culture, we must also be prepared to sacrifice and take up another cross. Thinking back, I was able to live up to now, and my life has always been more or less regular, almost all due to that "pass"; naturally, if I didn't make it through that time, it seemed that something was wrong. "Twenty-three, Luo Chengguan" is a warning worth noting!