Chapter 42 The only extant correspondence between Xu and Lin

The next morning, Beijing had its first heavy rain since the beginning of summer.Showers were beating on the roof tiles, and the sky was very dark. Xu Zhimo, who lives in Hu Shi's house, has been a little restless recently, and hasn't received a letter from Lu Xiaoman for several days.Zhimo thought, maybe the last few letters urging her to come to Beijing made her unhappy? In the last letter, Zhimo told Xiaoman that he ran around Beijing and Shanghai all day long and couldn't find the clothes he wanted to wear.The weather is so hot, he only has this white coat on his body, and he wants to make one in Beijing without spending money.He asked Xiaoman to dye the eye-catching feather gauze at home to make a long gown for himself, but I don't know if Xiaoman made it.He lived in Hu Shi's house for nearly a year, and Hu Shi's family treated him very well, but he still couldn't help feeling like he was depending on others.In the long run, what should we do? Thinking of this, he was in a state of confusion again.

He sat down at the desk.For a long time, he was used to organizing his thoughts and feelings with pen and paper.But when he picked up the pen, his thoughts returned to the living room of Liang's family last night.Huiyin and Sicheng's tacit understanding and harmony, the baby's liveliness and childishness, and their arrangements and plans for the future all made Zhimo both envious and emotional.I think Huiyin's family is already in Xiangshan now, right? He wrote the title "You Go" by hand, and a poem flowed from the pen. At night, the power went out.Zhimo lit a candle, read the poem written during the day twice, wrote another letter, and put the poem in an envelope.He thought that it might clear up tomorrow, and he wanted to send the letter to Huiyin as soon as possible.

This is the only existing correspondence between Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin.Their correspondence was burned after the founding of the People's Republic of China and during the "Cultural Revolution", only this letter and this poem were preserved in oblivion.From this surviving letter, we can see that the relationship between Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin is indeed much purer and nobler than many people's legends and imaginations. Huiyin: I am worried about the cloudy sky and the muddy ground, and I only worry about your safe journey up the mountain.Is everyone safe on the mountain? I'm thinking about it.

When I got home, I was so tired that I lay straight on the bed, as if I was dead——I don’t know where I got tired from.When I tell jokes during lunch, I put the smile on my mouth as usual, but the smile seems to be half a foot away from the mouth, and the flesh on the face seems to have been cured by the wind and can no longer move! In the afternoon, he suddenly had a fit of poetry, he kept smoking, emptied two pots of tea, and within two hours, he managed to flatter him with a song.The philosopher came up to see it, looked at it for more than ten minutes, and then said seriously: Itisoneofyourveiybest.But philosophers often only pick the wrong things to praise about works of art, so I still don’t dare to be confident. Now I copied it and asked a female poet to ask for corrections!

If it rains hard, the phone lights will go off.I begged for half a stick of wax, and crawled on the table to scribble.My sprained foot was a little sore last time.As soon as I lay flat, my eyes twitched, and the pulse of my whole body seemed to be clearly felt.Another two days like this, I must be ill—but I hope the sky will clear up. I'm afraid Sicheng is also a little bit cold, I recommend drinking a big bowl of ginger soup, it's a good medicine! Are the babies and old ladies still happy? I still miss the bright sun on the low wall of your house. It’s hard to finish when I return from here, I wish you the best of luck

People in the mountains live a "fairy life", happy and healthy! foot patient Yang Lang Leads (Ocean) Niu Crossing (Ocean) River Night This letter was written on July 7, 1931.