Chapter 36 Poetry over Fragrant Hills

Xu Zhimo traveled between Beijing and Shanghai. In the first half of 1931, he traveled between Beijing and Shanghai eight times.He is very distressed, there is no shadow of his ideal life here.He and Lu Xiaoman lived in a Shikumen bungalow on Fuxu Road (now Yan'an Middle Road) in Shanghai.Lu Xiaoman's parents also live here.There are five or six servants in their family, with a car and a driver.Whenever Zhimo returns to Shanghai, what awaits him at home is always like this: Lu Xiaoman, who is addicted to nightlife, often goes to bed at dawn and sleeps until two or three o'clock in the afternoon.After eating, washing and dressing up, it will be dark again.

Xu Zhimo said that this is a kind of exhausting life. The reason why he left Shanghai and lived in Beijing was to get rid of this kind of life.He advised and even begged Lu Xiaoman many times to come to Beijing to live a healthy and productive life, but Lu Xiaoman just refused to listen.In this regard, Xu Zhimo didn't know what to do.He reflected on himself: "In the past few years, life has not only been extremely ordinary, but has also reached the depths of embarrassment. After that, the output of poetry has also been exhausted..." Xu Zhimo went to Xiangshan not only to visit Huiyin.In the conversation with Huiyin, in the clear and clear mountain scenery, the depression and depression in his heart were also vented and cleared.So he said to Huiyin: "I only have to come here."

In front of Lin Huiyin, Xu Zhimo completely opened his heart.He talked about his disappointment with his married life and his disappointment with Lu Xiaoman. "It seems that I will no longer be happy in this life!" He said to Huiyin, with grievances, unwillingness, and a sense of resignation to fate in his voice. Lin Huiyin listened to Xu Zhimo's troubles with tender sympathy, and she didn't know how to comfort Zhimo.She is thinking that Zhimo's spirit and Zhimo's pure and true temperament belong more to art and poetry, but there are so many contents and impurities in life.She understands Zhimo, because she herself is similar to Zhimo in some aspects: the impulse and enthusiasm for life do not come from the understanding and observation of life, but from the spirit and soul.

She comforted her friend: the dream of love is as old and eternal as this world, no matter whether the dream can be realized or not, one should feel happy with the dream.What's more, the meaning of life only exists in the process of life, whether it is pain or sadness, it is always more in line with one's own temperament than living lifelessly and insensitively.Of course, she also suggested that Zhimo should urge Lu Xiaoman to move north as soon as possible and settle down in Beiping. During the long conversation with Huiyin, Zhimo's mood improved, and his mind was as peaceful as if washed with water.At this time, Huiyin in Zhimo's eyes is no longer the little girl with two braids who lived in London back then, she is more like a considerate young lady.

During the recuperating days in Xiangshan, Lin Huiyin began to write poems and novels.Lin Huiyin often writes poems at night.The quiet life in the mountains and the peaceful mood make her poetic.According to Lin Huiyin’s cousin Lin Xuan’s recollection, when Huiyin wrote poems, he “lighted a stick of fragrance, placed a vase of flower arrangements, wore a white silk nightgown, faced a pool of lotus leaves in the courtyard, and floated in the breeze. , Yin oh brew a masterpiece." When friends came to see her on the mountain, she occasionally showed them her poems, and her poems were affirmed by her friends.Xu Zhimo took her poems away, some of which were published in the newly launched "Poetry Magazine", and some were published in "New Moon".Since then, among the colorful poems of the New Moon Poet, a clear and elegant voice has attracted people's attention and recognition.

In a short period of time, she wrote poems such as "Who Loves This Constant Change", "That Night", "Laughing" and so on.Lin Huiyin seems to have no so-called "growing period" or "maturity period" when writing poems.Perhaps thanks to the edification and accumulation of her family since she was a child, or perhaps due to her temperament, although her poems cannot be said to be word-for-word, it can be said that each capital has reached a considerable level.