Chapter 35 Thirteen, have to mention a person

At the end of the second school year, another major event happened in our grade, which was to criticize the "reactionary student" Cao Qiuchi.Cao was always worried that the x case would bring disaster to him, but he could not escape in the end. According to the standards of the time and the published materials, Cao was quite reactionary.His father was a historical counter-revolutionary who died of illness in prison at the beginning of liberation (one said he was suppressed). He wrote about this experience: "The huge wheel of history crushed the innocent violets on the side of the road... a feeling rose in my heart. a sense of cause." This was irrefutably interpreted as class hatred.He also said: Capitalism is hell, communism is heaven, and socialism is purgatory in between.This is, of course, a vicious attack on socialism.The main basis for the characterization is x. According to reports, he attended the founding meeting of x. Although he stated that he did not participate in this group, he acted as a military adviser and proposed not to establish a tangible organization, not to publish tangible publications, not to formulate a written program, and to formulate confidentiality rules All other suggestions were adopted.

At the criticism meeting, Xiaozao and I spoke as victims.Xiaozao was a little flustered when he spoke. I forgot what he said. I just remember that he read a threatening letter that Cao wrote to him not long ago. The first two sentences were: "Hope is a whore, public opinion is a whore." Cao didn't have much contact with him, so he wasn't actually a victim, but I thought of Guo Shiying, believed that Guo was the biggest victim, and denounced him from this standpoint.People commented afterwards that my speech was powerful, but it revealed that I still had warmth for Guo.I really have a clear love and hate, as much as I love Guo, I hate Cao as much.What I hate is that for such a pure person as Guo Shiying, Cao still has a strong sense of utilitarianism when dealing with him. He used him at the beginning and betrayed him in the end.However, even so, what I regret now is that it is simply ugly and unjust to denounce a person with one voice while depriving him of the right to defend himself. A step of cultural tyranny, but, due to extremes and ignorance, I objectively acted as a tool in this struggle.

Cao Qiuchi's popularity is not good. To be fair, the reason is not his reactionary thinking.His talent made him very conceited. He once said that there were only one and a half college students in his class, which of course offended a lot of people.Another thing people can't understand is that he is keen on visiting professors and celebrities.In Peking University, Zong Baihua's family was the one he visited the most, but I heard that Zong didn't like him.There is also a joke circulating in class one, that when he first entered school, he knew that Guo Moruo’s son was in our grade, so he tried his best to get close to a classmate surnamed Guo in their class, but soon realized that he had mistaken the target, and immediately alienated that classmate.I don't know if this is true, but I only know that he came to our class to make friends with Guo Shiying very actively.

His gift to Guo was a treatise on Hegel's aesthetics. I had seen it, and it was a thick stack.Guo said to me: "I can't understand it at all." However, Guo admired his talent very much, and we gradually became close friends.At the end of the first semester, because of one incident, their communication reached its peak.Cao asked Guo to borrow Guo Moruo's seven historical theories, and it is said that he finished reading them in a few days, and wrote a tens of thousands of words long letter to discuss with Guo Moruo.It was a Sunday, and Shiying did not go home as an exception. I saw him leaning over the table and copying, sometimes arguing with Cao, and continuing to work under the lights in the corridor after turning off the lights.The reason why I have to copy it again is because Cao's handwriting is very scribbled, and I am afraid that Mr. Guo will not be able to read it.When Guo returned to school the next Monday, I found him emotional and distressed.Putting down his schoolbag in the dormitory, he immediately went to find Cao.Later, I heard that Mr. Guo was very angry after reading the long letter, and forbade Shiying to communicate with Cao again.After returning from Cao’s place, Guo’s eyes were stained with tears. He shook off the bed frantically, found a pen and paper, and immediately buried himself in writing, rubbing it off, rubbing it off, and writing again.After a while, he grabbed the two pages he had written and left in a hurry.I unfolded the ball of paper he had rubbed off. It was a waste draft of a letter to my father, in which he said emotionally that he had discovered a genius, but Dad didn't understand that this matter not only related to Cao, but also to Cao Cao. His own life, his fate is tied to Cao.In the next few days, he and Cao were almost inseparable.He was full of sympathy for Cao's experience and wrote a novel based on it.

However, the honeymoon was not long and conflicts arose shortly after.In the second semester of the first grade, their relationship was quite cold.One of the reasons is that after the above-mentioned incident, Cao often insulted Guo Lao in front of Guo as a court literati and imperial scholar, which hurt Guo's love for his father.During one class, Guo handed us a piece of paper he had just written, and Cao commented on it: "Stop yelling like a father, and study some problems seriously." Guo's face suddenly showed displeasure .The second reason is that Guo believes that Cao is hypocritical.Once after class, we walked together, and he said to me: "I hate Cao very much now, and I don't want to talk to him. He said he wants communism, what kind of communism does he want? He also wants a signboard." As far as I know, Cao admires Lukacs most, while Guo directly admires the Western genre.Guo also said to me: "He is always acting. It's okay to act for others, but it's disgusting to act for yourself!" He said one thing.Once, Cao borrowed a pistol from him, and he asked Cao what he wanted to do. Cao pointed to his right chest and said, "Don't you want to drop out of school? You hit me here with a pistol." "That's good," Guo continued to say to me, "I hit him on the right chest, but he couldn't die anyway. He went to the hospital and had a good meal, while I went to jail. This kind of person still thinks about writing his "People, Years, and Life" every day."

Cao's impulsiveness in acting is indeed puzzling. Xiaozao's pursuit of girls from Oriental languages ​​is an example, and I have encountered similar examples. In early May 1963, Guo Gang had an accident. One day, Cao and I were walking outside the school gate, and he suddenly decided to go to Guo’s house immediately.When he came back, he told me what happened.According to him, when he saw Yu Liqun, he talked about respecting his wife, but kept talking about his son, which made Yu Da very angry.He also told Guo himself the rumors that Guo Moruo married another bride and was reprimanded by Premier Zhou, and pointed out that people agreed that the poems he was writing now were not like poetry at all.A few days later, I learned from Mr. Chen that the fact was that he was rejected, and Guo Moruo and Yu Liqun refused to see him.At that time, because of the need of Guo Shiying's work, Mr. Chen kept in close contact with Yu Liqun, so he should know the real situation.I don't see why it is necessary for Cao to fabricate this kind of story to me. It can only be explained that it is a psychological need of his own.

However, even when he hated Cao the most, Shiying insisted that he was indeed highly talented and that the current education system was a kind of devastation for people like him.After the criticism meeting, Cao was sentenced to three years of forced labor. Because of the Cultural Revolution, he was actually freed only in the late 1970s.After that, he studied in Cambridge and studied quantum mechanics. According to domestic media reports, he became a contract researcher of Trinity College for a time.After spending more than ten years in prison, he was in this state soon after he came out, which proved his perseverance and talent.I don't like his behavior, but now I tend to think that in the special environment in China at that time, he had to go through a particularly difficult struggle for survival, and some of his problems may be partly explained by this. under the twist.

It is impossible to write about Guo Shiying without involving Cao Qiuchi, who has a close relationship with him.I heard that Cao is now residing in the United States. If he reads this book and finds something that is not true, I hope he corrects it.I would like to take this opportunity to clarify doubts about an important life experience of mine.