Chapter 19 Section IX

The last work filmed by "Good Dream Company" is the TV series "The Back of the Moon" adapted from Wang Gang's novel of the same name. The content is to describe the story of two college students, a man and a woman, who are alienated by money, driven by desire to crazily carry out financial fraud, and finally become death row prisoners.It is a human tragedy. The film was finished in 1996.Banned. So far, the five and a half film and television works filmed by "Good Dream", except for ,, and "Love", all of them are stillborn. No one dares to invest in us anymore, and the industry calls us "poison" and turns pale when it is mentioned that we talk about it.

At that time, my mentality was, I wanted to shoot whatever was dark. One day, Wang Shuo said to me: Let's separate, they are after me.You have a chance to live, not to die together. Afterwards, Wang Shuoyuan left his hometown and went to Southern California, USA to hide his strength and bide his time. "Good Dream Company" officially closed down.Just like the saying: Dreams are hard to come true. The story of "Good Dream" is finished, but it seems to be endless. Since then, I have become superstitious.Believe that there is a hand manipulating our destiny in the dark, sometimes helping you to the top of the wave, sometimes throwing you to the bottom.It has nothing to do with your efforts, your talents, or your virtues. Everything depends on his whim, turning a stone into gold; with a flick of a finger, it turns into dust.

Today, it is at the height of the sun, and it disappears in a blink of an eye.All the voices and appearances are still there, it is an old diary. Mixed feelings. Here, I specially select the clips adapted from "Living a Wretched Life" to experience our wretchedness back then. A middle-aged woman sat behind a desk in the divorce reception room, and said blankly: "Did you bring your ID card, household registration book, and marriage certificate?" Sitting side by side, Liang Yazhou and Song Xiaoying nodded together and each took out their ID cards. The middle-aged woman asked again: "A letter of introduction from your unit?"

Liang Yazhou said: "Divorce is our personal matter, do we still need the consent of the unit?" Middle-aged woman: "Of course, you are not blind." Liang Yazhou looked at Song Xiaoying, and Song Xiaoying lowered her head. Middle-aged women: "Is the division of property written?" Liang Yazhou said: "We have made an agreement, there is no dispute." Middle-aged woman: "There is no evidence to speak, it is written and signed by both parties and fingerprints." She took out a form and handed it to the two of them: "This is the application form, fill it out one by one when you go back, you must not alter it, and you cannot use it. Ballpoint pen. Next time you come to send a watch, bring four two-inch bareheaded photos, both in black and white and in color. When you go out, turn right on the south side of the road and there is a snapshot of "Lapto". Our office hours are from 9:00 am to 4:00 pm. Call to make an appointment before coming, my surname is Gao. Do you understand?"

The family of three in Liang Yazhou's kitchen sat at the dining table and ate silently. Liang Yazhou picked up a small glass of white wine, drank half of it himself, handed it to his wife, and said, "Yingzi, take a sip too." Song Xiaoying took the cup, drank it all in one gulp, covered her mouth with her hand, tears filled her eyes in an instant, she held back, and said infinitely sadly: "Asia, don't forget our mothers and daughters," Liang Yazhou filled another cup and drank it with his head up. With red eyes, he added a chopstick dish to his daughter who had been eating silently with her head down, and said softly, "Hey, eat more."

After the meal, while repairing the faucet, Liang Yazhou suppressed the convulsions in his heart, and told his wife: "The leather money in the faucet may be a little old. Don't turn it too tight when you turn it off, or the house will be flooded if it collapses." : When you are at home, you must lock the anti-theft door. Don’t worry about it. I have already paid the sanitation fee and car storage fee for the next quarter. Every time you turn off the gas, don’t forget to turn off the main valve..." Yueyue played the violin intently, and Liang Yazhou stood for a while looking at her daughter's weak back, then walked silently to the hall.

Liang Yazhou didn't find his shoes, and he couldn't find them even when he opened the shoe cabinet. He froze for a while, then went back to his daughter's room. Liang Yazhou gently lifted the quilt on the small bed, and saw that his daughter had hidden several pairs of shoes under her quilt. Liang Yazhou felt a sharp pain in his heart as if someone had been stabbed by a knife. He hugged Laqin's daughter in his heart from behind. Yueyue sobbed and said: "Dad, I practice piano and write well, just to let my father praise me. If my father doesn't want me and my mother? I don't want to learn anything."

Liang Yazhou broke down, and couldn't stop crying. He hugged his daughter tightly and said, "Dad wants you, Dad didn't want you." Song Xiaoying lay on the table with her face buried in her hands, her back shaking violently and sobbing. The tears in my daughter's eyes are burned on my heart, and these eyes are always looking at me day and night, and all my courage is wiped out.I thought I was running towards a new life, but actually I was on a dead end.I couldn't refuse my daughter's request, I didn't divorce my wife, but we separated.For a long time, I played two distinct roles between family and lover. I was divided into two halves, one half is sea water, the other half is flame.In front of my daughter, I am a father, but to Li Xiaodan, I am more like a spoiled child. It is hard to imagine how infatuated I am with the motherhood contained in her body.This life went on for two years, and we were all on the verge of breaking down.