Chapter 135 dislike

In June 1912, Liang Shuming's mother died.At the end of the year, Liang Shuming had the idea of ​​suicide many times.The reason why Liang Shuming had the idea of ​​suicide was mainly due to his understanding of the darkness of the real world.When Liang Shuming recalled his experience later, he said: "I gradually realized that the facts were not as ideal. For 'revolution', 'politics', 'great man'...all have the same feeling. Some obscene ways, vulgar psychology , and sharp, vicious, and violent things, which were not encountered at home or at school before, but now I saw them; it made me feel tired and disgusted with life."

After graduating from Shuntian Middle School, Liang Shuming did not continue his studies and went to work as a reporter for the "Republic of China".Liang Shuming couldn't understand the intrigue and intrigue in the officialdom of the Republic of China. He encountered the first spiritual crisis in his life.Annoyances piled up, but there was no solution and nowhere to vent. Liang Shuming felt extremely depressed, so he decided to commit suicide in search of a one-stop solution. Fortunately, his roommate noticed the signs in time and avoided a tragedy.After this change, Liang Shuming turned to Buddhism, and he decided to follow Yuan Liaofan's two words-"Everything in the past is like dying yesterday, and everything in the future is like being born today"-and do it seriously.Liang Shuming read a lot of Buddhist scriptures and realized that life is always accompanied by suffering. Once a person is born, he is accompanied by lack.