Chapter 41 third quarter

Eileen Chang got married in August 1944, and the exact date was not found; however, there is a definite date of publication, which is August 15th.I therefore guessed that her wedding was also on the fifteenth. Is it a coincidence that the publication of the book and the wedding coincide in the same month, or is it a deliberate arrangement? The inscription in front of the book: "The title of the book is Legend, the purpose is to find ordinary people in legends, and find legends in ordinary people." After all, she hopes to announce to the world, and hope that people all over the world will accompany her to be happy and raise a glass for her.She advertised in her own way, and did not regret her "legendary" marriage!

She was afraid that people would find out, and she wanted them to know, so she told them: I am proud, I am so proud! How about besieged?So what?She is in love, she is married, she will do what she likes and is willing to do, who cares about the world's slander?She has always ignored others only when others worship her, read her, and pursue her world, her heart, and her footprints. This is her first marriage, and the form is chosen by herself; this is her first book, and the cover is designed by herself, using her favorite blue-green to open a small window for the night sky in Shanghai— —

"The whole color of peacock blue, no pattern, only printed in black, without any blank space, thick and suffocating. I heard my aunt say that my mother used to like this color, and the clothes were all dark or light. Blue-green. I remember a still life of her oil painting hanging on the wall, which is also dominated by lake green. Inheritance is so mysterious and erratic-I am like her in these irrelevant places, and she has no strengths at all. It's maddening." (Zhang Ailing's "Contrast Note") As soon as the book was published, the sales were very good. Each volume was 200 yuan, and all were sold out within four days, so a reprint was started.

Before the reprint, the magazine held a review tea party at Kangle Restaurant on August 26, still hosted by Lu Feng and Wu Jiangfeng, and the participants included Su Qing, Tan Zhengbi, Nan Rong, Zhe Fei, and Tao Kangde , Bangong, Shizhai, Qian Gongxia, etc., but there is no Pan Liudai; there is no Hu Lancheng's name, but the written records that have been handed down are signed by Hu Lancheng, who presumably participated.If so, then this should be their first public appearance after marriage. Zhang Ailing was wearing an orange-yellow silk top and a peacock blue skirt of the same color as the cover. Her hair was curled around her temples, and the rest was draped long down. She wore light yellow tortoiseshell-rimmed glasses and lipstick, calm and dignified.Accompanying her is Yan Ying, wearing a red top, white shorts, and an ivory bracelet. Her clothes are as hot and lively as people's. She and Zhang Ailing are hot and cold, moving and still, but standing together, they are harmonious. .

At the meeting, everyone said some flattering words, most of which were old-fashioned and not very exciting. I had to make some comments, so I asked the most boring question, "Why do you have to use Duoyunxuan's stationery, why not Rongbaozhai's?" It was Su Qing who was really caring. She was afraid that her Ningbo accent would not be clear, or she was worried that she would not be able to express herself clearly, so she wrote down her opinion on paper and then read it out to Wu Jiangfeng: "I Reading Zhang Ailing's works, I feel that there is a kind of charm in it, and I must eagerly swallow it. Reading it is like listening to bleak music, and even fragments will be moved. Her metaphors are clever and ingenious. Some people don't understand , I also think she is cute. Its bright colors are like a picture. Even the best pictures can't keep up with the rendering of colors. Maybe there is no such color in the world, but Ms. Zhang can be said to be a "fairy talent" 'Yes, I admire her the most, and it's not just flattery."

Yan Ying only made a speech before the meeting ended, but she was very to the point: "Miss Zhang has worked very hard to write novels, so she should have this success. Her works are like a stream of water, they are inseparable and should be read from the whole. See, but the reader absorbs it spoon by spoon. She always thinks for two or three days before writing, and sometimes it takes three weeks to write a piece." It was republished in September, this time the cover was designed by Yan Ying, it looks like dark clouds on ancient silk and satin, and it looks like a black tide surging, gently falling many noisy waves.If you look closely, there are small jade rings, some are hooked up in twos and threes, and cannot be untied; some are alone like the moon, returning to their own circle;Yanying only made a rough draft, and Zhang Ailing followed each other stroke by stroke—just the opposite of when she was in Hong Kong, when Zhang Ailing drew the pictures and Yanying colored them.

And Eileen Chang's famous saying "Be famous as early as possible" that has caused half-life discussion is also written in "Legend Reprinted Preface" - I don't know how many people have quoted, criticized and questioned by many people. However, how many people have used it as a motto or an epitaph... These are probably things that Eileen Chang did not think of when she wrote this preface, right? "I used to think like this: when my book is published, I will go to every newsstand to have a look. I want my favorite blue and green cover to open a small night blue window on the newsstand. People can watch the moon from the window and watch the bustle. I want to ask the newspaper seller, pretending to be irrelevant: "Is the market going well? - It's too expensive, so expensive, is there really anyone buying it?" Oh, to be famous as soon as possible Ah! If you come too late, you will not be so happy. When I first published two articles in the school magazine, I was also crazily happy. I read it over and over again, and each time it was like seeing it for the first time. It's not so easy to get excited now. So I have to remind: hurry up, hurry up, it's too late, it's too late!

Even if individuals can wait, times are hasty and destruction is already underway, and greater destruction is yet to come.One day our civilization, whether it is sublimation or vanity, will become a thing of the past.If the word I use most often is 'desolation', it is because of the menace of the bewildered in the background of thought. " "Yanying only made a draft. Shocked by the powerful and beautiful pattern, I willingly copied it stroke by stroke like tracing red. Life is like this - it has its pattern, we can only copy it That's why Xiyang has this saying: 'Let life come to you.' This kind of submission is not like the obscurity, wretchedness, embarrassment, and embarrassment of the characters in my novels, but it is still sad in the end. of."

"Be famous as soon as possible! If you come too late, you will not be so happy." "Hurry up, hurry up, it's too late, it's too late!" In fact, such thoughts and sentences can be found everywhere in Eileen Chang's prose and novels. There is always such a "threat of perplexity" in the background of her thoughts, and she always feels that it is too late. The first ancient poem in her life is written " The sound is like a drum drum urging flowers to bloom, and the first branch of rain lotus blooms." It was also a hasty tone. When I was young, I told the old servant to remember to wake her up, but when she woke up, the "year" had passed, and she kept crying and crying, especially when she was putting on her shoes - because she couldn't keep up with new shoes.

It's too late, it's too late!be quick!Faster! "While painting, I knew that I would lose that ability soon. From here I learned a lesson—an old lesson, what I want to do, I do it right away, and it may be too late. 'People' are the most uncertain thing." "I finished reading it under the gunfire... As I read it, I was worried whether it would be enough for me to finish it. The print was extremely small, and the light was not enough, but when a bomb came down, what do I need my eyes for?—" Pi If it does not survive, how will Mao be attached'?" ("Ember Remnants")

"I didn't own all this when it was here, but it's still sad to see it ruined--for thousands of people in the city, there is nothing else! The louder. In the future, there may not be a single hour clock on the entire earth. If you sleep in a deserted village at night, if you suddenly hear the ticking of the pendulum, you will be surprised and delighted—the rhythm of civilization! The days of civilization are divided by one minute and one second Clearly, it's like picking flowers on a cross cloth." ("I See Su Qing") The past is gone forever; the future is uncertain; what can be grasped is the present. She was eager to get hold of some real things. At that time, supplies were scarce and everyone was hoarding rice and oil, so she also hoarded some paper, because she was afraid that there would be no paper for publishing books in the future—but she didn’t want the world to be so bad. Who else would read a book? Another time, I heard a prophecy from a friend: Qiao Qirong, which has been out of market in recent years, will soon be fashionable.She didn't have enough money, so she tried her best to save a few hundred yuan and bought a piece of Qiao Qi fleece, which was sent to the consignment shop after a while, but she hoped that she couldn't sell it and could keep it for herself. Psychologically speaking, people who like to hoard things are insecure about reality-this can explain Zhang Ailing's Qiao Qi velvet business experience.