Chapter 7 I was also a "Red Guard"

With the gradual escalation of the movement, I gradually had doubts about this "revolution". According to the class division at that time, I was a "child of a cadre" and belonged to the "five categories of red". Therefore, I joined the Red Guards at the beginning of the Cultural Revolution. I have participated in debates, couplets "I am a hero, I am a hero", etc. At that time, I copied a lot of valuable things, and no one put them in their pockets. It was really "a revolution with a red heart". At that time, my relationship with my two older sisters was not good. I felt that they had serious bourgeois ideas and a ladylike style. The reason was that they wore makeup every day.I remember that we went to Guangzhou together during the big series and stayed at the house of a deputy political commissar of the Guangzhou Military Region. One morning, I suddenly yelled at them: You are not allowed to put on makeup!They all froze for a moment.In fact, they didn’t even talk about makeup at that time. They didn’t have any cosmetics at all. They just combed their hair in front of the mirror, put some face oil on their face, and dressed up. This is a girl’s nature, but I think it’s bourgeois thinking. It shows how "left" and ignorant I was at the time.

With the gradual escalation of the movement, I gradually had doubts about this "revolution". At that time, there were a lot of various Red Guard organizations. This "headquarters" and that "command" often issued some "commands", and they were printed very well, just like the notices now, which are posted all over the street.These "orders" are extremely authoritative, and anyone who does not implement them will be severely "repressed" by the Red Guards.At that time, not to mention ordinary people, even political and legal agencies and troops were afraid of the Red Guards.Foreign media compared the Red Guards to "scourges", which is very vivid in a sense.

One day I suddenly found a "Command Order" which clearly stated that Go is also the "Four Olds". This "command order" was like pouring a basin of cold water on my head, which made my heart cold.In any case, I can't figure out how the Go project, which Mr. Chen vigorously advocated and Chairman Mao and Premier Zhou also supported, turned into the "four olds" of "sealing, capitalism, and repair" in a blink of an eye? The death of Mr. Lei Puhua is another blow to me.When I learned that Mr. Lei was labeled as a "ghost and snake spirit", was severely beaten, and died for no reason, I was almost stunned.Who can believe that such an upright, kind-hearted old man who has never hurt anyone is such a "ghost and snake spirit"? !Recalling Mr. Lei's care and teachings to me, I feel as if I have been stabbed out... From then on, I will never take part in any "revolutionary actions" against "monsters and monsters".

Finally, the most terrifying thing happened to me. My parents were also labeled as "gangsters".That day when I went home, I saw big-character posters painted all over the door of our house, and asked my parents to explain the "black relationship" with Liu Ren, what "black words" he said and what "black instructions" he gave when he came to our house, and arranged What "black tasks".The sad thing is that I also think that Liu Ren is a big gangster, because the newspapers said so at the time, the Beijing Municipal Committee turned Beijing into an "independent kingdom" behind Chairman Mao's back, and revealed a lot of "facts", you can't help but believe it.There is only one thing I can be thankful for, that is, I can't recall any "black words" he said.

Liu Ren came to my house to watch me play chess, and never stayed alone with my parents. If there are any black instructions, I should also hear them.So I repeatedly recalled what he said, whether there was something in it, such as "Have you eaten?" was a contact code, just like Li Yuhe asked the wooden comb seller "Do you have peach wood?" in "Red Lantern".At that time, I was extremely naive, and when I got a newspaper, I had to read it sideways and upside down, always trying to find some problems, such as reactionary slogans and the like.Even so, I didn't find that Liu Ren had any black words.

Immediately after our home was ransacked, my father was shaved into a "yin and yang head", with a big wooden sign reading "Gangster Nie Chunrong" hanging on his chest, and was taken to the balcony by the rebels, where he stood bent over.I saw the muscles on my father's face twitching in pain, and beads of sweat the size of soybeans dripped down on the concrete floor in front of my feet... I will never forget this painful scene. One day my father talked to me and asked me if I believed that my parents were good people, they were revolutionaries, and they were with Chairman Mao.I replied that I believed it, but my heart was also very contradictory. I saw so many big-character posters posted. I am a Red Guard. I have unlimited faith and love for Chairman Mao. The Cultural Revolution was directed by Chairman Mao himself. If it wasn’t because of my parents , I definitely think they are "gangsters".My father went on to say that the reason why they became "gangsters" was related to the fact that they might have offended some people in their work, but the main reason was that Liu Ren had been to our house.In the eyes of those rebels, if you are not a gangster, why did Liu Ren come to your house?And Liu Ren came to our house just because he watched me play chess, so I became the "culprit".My sister also complained how much "chaos" I had caused the family and told me that I would never play chess again.At that time, I was still very unhappy and angry.In the end, my father asked me to find Li Lisan and report the situation to him so that I could be liberated.Because Li Xuefeng, who led the new Beijing Municipal Committee at the time, was the first secretary of the North China Bureau, and Li Lisan was the secretary of the North China Bureau Secretariat, he wanted to say hello to Li Xuefeng through Li Lisan.I thought, this incident was caused by me, and I had to go, so I went to Li Lisan.

As soon as I turned into the alley of Li Lisan's house, I saw big-character posters painted on the wall, which were much more powerful than ours, saying that he had opposed Chairman Mao's revolutionary line in history and was a representative of the "Lisan line" , which is even more serious.I was hesitating when I heard the shouts of the rebels from his courtyard. It was very abnormal, as if they were holding a criticism meeting.I didn't dare to go in. I thought I couldn't find the gang anymore, otherwise I would make a bigger mistake.When I got home, I told my dad that I hadn't seen it, and I didn't dare to tell the details.

After that, I saw Li Lisan in the Working People's Cultural Palace. He was taking a walk. I spotted him and tried to hide, but he saw me and called me Xiao Nie from afar.I was very scared at the time, and I left immediately after talking to him.I didn't expect that this was the last time I saw Li Lisan, and now thinking about it, I feel very guilty. Since the beginning of the "Cultural Revolution", many uncles and uncles I have been familiar with have been labeled as "gangsters". In addition to Liu Ren and Li Lisan, Zhang Jinfu, Jin Ming, Song Rufen, etc., even my beloved Mr. Chen Having been fought by the rebels, I think I'm such an amazing person, how come I know so many "gangsters"!In addition, my parents have also become "gangsters", so I began to have some doubts about "gangsters", and I don't have so much hatred.But at the beginning of the Cultural Revolution, when I heard about the "black gang" and opposed Chairman Mao, I really hated it.

Since my parents became "gangsters", according to the logic of "I am a reactionary son and a bastard", I have also changed from "five reds" to "a son of a bitch". The rapid change in social status has made me feel the heat of the world, and it has also made me lose all hope. , at a loss in my heart.At that time, I was most afraid of going home. The gloomy faces of my family members and the dull air in the house made me almost unable to breathe, so as long as I had a place to go, I would not go home. Fortunately, I don't know whether it was because the "revolutionary tasks" were too busy, or for some other reason, the rebels did not patronize the Beijing Chess Club for a while, and it turned out to be a wonderful "safe haven" for me.Almost all the people in the chess club were born in chess, and they have the same "smell" about what "playing chess is the four olds"

The argument of waiting and so on is only a deaf ear. Therefore, despite the upside down in the society, chess can still be played safely in the chess club.So I became a frequent visitor to the chess club every day.Only by sitting at the chess table, amidst the crackling of chess pieces, can I temporarily forget the misery in my heart and feel that there is still some joy in being alive. It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. The "iron broom of the revolution" finally reached into this elegant courtyard, and the chess club was closed down.After losing the "treasure land" of the chess club, I seemed to have lost my soul for a long time, wandering around aimlessly all day long.

The strangest thing is that the school said that I was a "linkage" and that I was a small boss or something, and asked me to explain it, and put up big-character posters at our door.At that time, my parents' big-character posters had fallen off after being exposed to wind and rain, and now I replaced them all with mine.I don't know what "linkage" is at all, and I don't know until now, how can I explain it?I was so angry that I didn't even go to school at all, and became a complete "free and unfettered school", "loitering" in the society all day long.Others Xiaoyao learned Go, and I Xiaoyao learned to play bridge, which has become my biggest hobby in life. Later, my parents were detained by the rebels in their respective units, and they were euphemistically called "censorship".The family cut off their source of income, and their life suddenly felt tight.A little living expenses paid by the parent’s unit, after deducting the rent, water and electricity bills to be paid, there is only more than 30 yuan left per month. This poor money has to support grandpa, grandma and our five children. The difficulty can be imagined Known.In desperation, I had to sell things.As the saying goes, sit and eat, and the valuables at home will be sold out soon, and I also began to taste the taste of starvation. I have been greedy since I was a child, and I especially love meat. At my age, I was able to eat and build up my body, but the ascetic-like food at home not only did not see meat stars, but also was not enough to eat.Sometimes I can't bear it anymore, so I have to go to the chess player's house to "cengfan", but "cengfan" is not sure after all. If the other person is not there or has already eaten, I have to swallow my saliva and consider myself unlucky. I remember one day, forced by hunger, I went to my alma mater Lili Hutong Primary School, trying to get back the trophy I won in the 1962 National Children’s Competition, selling money to buy food, but was treated as a "little lunatic" by others. "And rushed out unceremoniously.At the beginning, Boss Chen asked me to give this trophy to my alma mater to express my gratitude to the teachers who trained and educated me.If I hadn't been in a hurry, I wouldn't have come up with this "bad idea". After the chess club was banned, there was no place to play chess, so those who had good things arranged me and Wu Yulin to play "juban chess" at the homes of several fans.At that time, there was no mention of the appearance fee, but the one I went to had to prepare a table of sumptuous meals.As soon as I heard it was exactly what I wanted, I readily agreed. Wu Yulin was five or six years older than me, and he joined the professional team in 1964, at the same level as me. We actually didn't play all the "Juban chess". I won five or six games, and I only lost one game, and I couldn't play any more.Later, Gao Xuguang asked me to play again. He was three years younger than me, but he was extremely crazy. He told me that there is nothing else in China that knows how to play chess except you.At that time, the national team had not yet been disbanded. He said that he would win if he went to the national team.I think he said that in front of me, I am not there, he must say that I am also in the category of people who can't play chess.I played with him very hard, because he yelled so much.I knocked him out quickly and didn't let him win a set. The ones we often go to are Chu Tian Ren Chu's hometown, he is a consultant of the Ministry of Health, and his Japanese is very good. Chen Shengwu is from Chen's hometown, he is an old doctor in the hospital of traditional Chinese medicine.Shen's hometown was the one that went the most. He was over ninety years old at the time, and he could still drink with us, watch chess, and chat and laugh happily.I had a great time during those days. Once I went to Beijing Hospital to see a doctor, and I had to wait for a long time for registration. I got impatient and slipped out.I heard that there is a chess stand in Dongdan Park, so I went to have a look.There was an old man who was playing chess with a young man. His chess was stinky, not as good as the young man's, but his mouth skills were too good, and he bullied the young man to the point of shame. Unable to resist the old man's huge mouth attack, the chess game seemed to be failing.I gave the young man two tricks, but the old man couldn't stand it any longer, and immediately played chess and said to me, come here if you have the ability!Call me. I know that the old man is definitely not comparable to me, but I can't tell him, and it's not easy to reveal my identity. In the end, I can only sit aside without saying a word, and prepare to have sex with him.The old man is not too polite, once he takes the white chess, that means he will give me a few pieces.I'm also embarrassed to let him have a few coins, so I just let it go.After a while I blew him away, the old man's face turned pale, but he still refused to admit defeat. At that time, every park had a person like the owner of the park, and the level of Go was the highest, and anyone could take it.While we were playing, the owner of the garden came and said to the old man, why do you still dare to take the white chess when playing against him?You can't win even if he makes you nine!Only then did the old man realize that he had encountered a master, and he was also very good. He immediately packed up the chessboard, turned around and left without saying a word.Afterwards, I heard that this person never showed up in Dongdan again. In fact, I didn’t intend to smash his plate at that time, but I just saw that he was bullying young people too much. Another time, Liu Wenlong came to me out of the blue and said that the game of the earth was terrible. Someone knocked on the chessboard and asked if there were any people who could play chess.I said no.He said that Tan Yanwu was murdered there.Tan Yanwu was definitely the leader of the amateur chess world in Beijing at that time, two years older than me, and later became a professional chess player.I went to the Temple of Earth together under Liu Wenlong's instigation.In the end, people were not as crazy as he said, but he spread their words evilly.Now that I'm here, I played three chess games with them respectively, and I won all of them.Among them was Zhu Xiaoming, who later played in the Heilongjiang football team. When I was in Heilongjiang, he came to see me. When he talked about the Ditan, I just remembered it. At that time, in the amateur chess world in Beijing, it can be said that I was killed by me. The average amateur chess players would not dare to play with me.Sometimes I also go to the chess academy, and I know those masters, but they are professional chess players, and I am an amateur. They don't bother to play with me, and I can only watch their games.To be honest, there was still a big gap between my level and theirs at that time. When I was completely desperate for the future, in order to seek excitement and fill the spiritual emptiness, I did many boring things, such as following "buddies" to fight in groups; to win a meal or even a few popsicles to fight with others Chess gambling and so on. In the spring of 1968, the school began to assign jobs after graduation. The "five categories of red" had priority in joining the army or staying in Beijing. Students from ordinary families had more or less hope of staying in the city, but "educable children" like me , the only way out is to "go to the mountains and go to the countryside to receive re-education from the poor and lower-middle peasants." Because I suffer from congenital heart disease, the school neither mobilized me to "go to the countryside" nor assigned me a job in Beijing. It doesn't matter if you soak it for a few years. Just then, a girl broke into my life...