Chapter 18 In the sixth quarter, I was once unable to make it to the stage and was also confused

In the field of acting, an actor must have the desire to perform. No matter how many people are in the audience, I have to go on stage and let the audience see me. This idea is the essence of being an actor.I have concluded over the years that it is a kind of happiness for an actor to have the opportunity to stand at the entrance door and wait for the stage. When there are other actors performing in front of him, he must be excited when he is waiting. There was always a voice: "Why didn't you come to me? Why didn't you go out to announce my name? After my name was announced, I went up, and no one could compare to me. Once I appeared, I was so burdened. What kind of success do you guys have in the jokes!" A cross talk actor must have this kind of impulsiveness, and it depends on my impulsiveness when I go on stage.Even if the person performing in front is a master, my master or my master, he must have the same idea. Only with this kind of self-confidence can you have the ability and confidence to grasp your works.

When I first studied art with my master, I was also confused. More than once, I had the idea of ​​giving up, not for other reasons, but because there was no chance to perform on stage.At that time, Master himself didn’t have many opportunities to perform, let alone us. At the beginning, we were not sure whether we would have the opportunity to perform after studying with him, so at that time, we cherished the opportunity to be on stage even more. .It got better later on, but to be honest, being on stage once in three months is already pretty good. At that time, I would wake up every morning and work against my brothers and sisters. Wearing a coat, even the coat, cloth shoes, and socks were all neatly dressed. I stood in the room to practice, and stood in front of the mirror. Every gesture, where you raise your hand, every look, and where your eyes are, all need to be pondered and practiced.Wearing a gown is to find the feeling of talking about cross talk. I have always prepared a gown for myself, but I seldom have the opportunity to wear it on stage. The feeling is extremely uncomfortable. As an artist, I don’t have a stage to show off. I just learn art every day. Repeatedly reciting jokes, the process is boring and arduous, day after day, unable to see the future, looking at myself in the mirror, only myself is my own audience, I feel like going crazy anytime, anywhere, I am too eager to go on stage, as long as I have Chance, do it!

I was not only confused, I even told myself that I was walking on a road without light, I was walking into a cave, and I asked myself countless times: "I am a Tianjin native, in a strange city, a strange street, surrounded by Many strangers, I don't understand what I am doing when other children are enjoying their lives very happily? Why should I treat myself like this?" I even think all the time: "Since there is no light, why keep going , are you sick? You are really sick." The entanglement in my heart is indescribable.I also thought about it, I have spent so much hard work learning cross talk, and I can't see hope, why don't I find a place to work hard, and why should I suffer from this?Thinking about it, there is still another voice in my heart supporting me: "Since you are willing to do this, like the feeling of standing on stage, and like this industry, you have to show your persistence in cross talk, and you will gain something if you persist to the end. "

Up to now, looking back, there is no other reason that can support me, that is, my infinite love for cross talk, which supports my infinite devotion.