Chapter 7 Section 3 I am different from others, I only do myself

Now I am different from many post-80s generation. What I have walked and experienced is a different life path, but I also have my childhood-study and play with my classmates.I prefer cross talk, and I was introverted when I was a child. Although I was not withdrawn and autistic, it is quite different from now. If you don’t believe me, you can’t help it.When we were young, we were also gentle and naive people, but I was somewhat precocious, probably because my father passed away early, and my mother was the only one in the family, so I had to bear a lot more things than others since I was a child.With friends of the same age, I feel a bit out of place, and it is not lonely. I just insist on being myself.Even now, I only want to be myself. If others don’t like it, I don’t need to force them. I will do what I like and want to do. I don’t ask others to synchronize with me. Don’t do to others what you don’t want , I respect this truth.

For example, some audiences don’t like my style and don’t like to watch me, including my current performance, it is impossible for every audience to like and accept me.If he doesn't agree with me, he may speak badly and see that I don't like anything, but I think that as long as the majority of the audience agrees, that's enough.I will try my best to make everyone satisfied, but there are many things we can't be perfect.If a person doesn't like me if he is sure, I can't try my best to make him like me, and I won't force him to say how much he loves me, there is no need for that.In other words, I just changed it and did it according to his idea. He likes me, but my original audience, they quit. As the saying goes, it’s difficult to agree, I have this understanding myself.

As soon as the words are written, there will be more insights, and I will write back to our childhood.My friends also listen to cross talk. After all, they are all children who grew up in Tianjin, but without my excessive love, we will not be able to talk together if we talk deeply. Fortunately, I have a wide range of hobbies, and I also joke with them, but I don’t Just talk more about my cross talk.There is no real perfection in an art, just like when I was a child, people didn't like cross talk, so why should I insist on talking about it with them?When I chatted with others when I was young, I could also follow their topics, and then I would play with my own when I got home.So it’s not that we can’t talk at all. I rarely haven’t seen the things they talk about. When I listen to cross talk, I don’t waste other entertainment.I think so, if you are only obsessed with one thing, you may succeed in studying science, mathematics, and physics applications, but you may not be able to do well in the field of popular culture.Culture is inclusive. If you blindly accept the truth and don’t pay attention to other things, your knowledge will be too narrow, and your thoughts will be ruthlessly bound. You still need to get in touch with everything, have many hobbies and be good, and dabble in as many aspects as possible. Some, experience life, and finally find a favorite obsession to focus on, and everything else will serve it, and the hobbies you focus on will gradually enrich along with your life experience.

When I was a child, I was very fond of performance. There were often some cultural activities in school. At that time, I participated in dancing and singing, but I never talked about cross talk. I just played the role of passerby.It’s not that I don’t want to say it, I’m unable to say it, it’s because the teacher’s standard is that “only those with good academic performance can perform cross talk”. Make up the numbers in group shows.I don’t invite teachers to see me, I talk too aggressively, I’m not very lively, my thoughts were relatively narrow when I was a child, and I’m still relatively strong now, I like to compete with others, I often say what I don’t like to listen to, and offend people directly, My kind of child teacher will not like it.

But at that time, I was also a celebrity in the school. The show I performed most often was like this. The teacher yelled: Cao Yunjin, get out!I silently went to the door and stood there.Standing outside, my mind was full of wild ideas, thinking about many things, and soon a class passed, which was much easier than sitting in the classroom and listening to the class. Obviously, I was a marginal person that the teacher did not like very much, and I was not treated with tolerance and fairness.But when I get home, I have a piece of my world. When I go to my grandma’s house during the holidays, the cross talks and sketches on the Spring Festival Gala in the first year are my performances this year.Adults also like to watch it. Uncles, aunts and other elders and relatives gather together to watch my performance.At that time, the Spring Festival Gala also had a great influence on me, not only the humorous form of cross talk, but also the performances of Mr. Zhao Benshan, Mr. Zhao Lirong, and other sketch actors. I followed them and learned everything. One performance lasted an afternoon, and I didn't feel tired.Seeing them smile makes me satisfied, and my desire to show myself is even stronger.Before learning cross talk, I didn't regret that I didn't have the opportunity to perform on stage, because there is room for me to perform anytime, anywhere.