Chapter 4 Four I just want to write the most authentic Cao Yunjin

In fact, before writing this book, many booksellers approached me: "Jin Zi, is this book out yet?" I was hesitant and puzzled at the time: What can I write?One is that I feel that my life experience is still inexperienced, and I have not yet reached seventy or eighty, so what kind of memoir should I write?Secondly, I didn't feel that I was qualified enough to post any great experience and lessons in the book, so I didn't think about it.Later, I opened Weibo on Sina, and occasionally wrote some interesting things around me in my spare time. Everyone said that it was fun to watch, and I was very happy and motivated to write, so I met the editor of this book.She told me: In fact, everyone just wants to know about me and our alternative group in the entertainment industry. Take a look at my growth, my work and life circle, and interesting things around me. It's as simple as that.

This simple idea really touched me, and I thought: Oh, the purpose of publishing a book is actually not that complicated. I am not trying to make a name for myself or to educate people. I would like to share it with my friends who are interested in it, and after many years, even if I look back on it myself, it will be a precious memory and nostalgia.Maybe without these words, many past events, whether beautiful or difficult, happy or sad, have gradually become indifferent with the passage of time. I don’t want my past to be a blank sheet of paper, and these are preserved in words. It will always be the most vivid and true record of myself at that time.

Regarding this book, I don't want to use gorgeous and false rhetoric to pile it up, and write some things that are not me.I just completely present the most authentic Cao Yunjin in the most straightforward words: my past, my present and the future I yearn for.In the book, there will be those people and those things that you are familiar with. As for me, I may be a little weird, maybe a little bit bad, but I am not blaming or bad, and you will definitely not like it.