Chapter 16 Goodbye, Teresa Teng

A few days ago, I had dinner with a friend. He said that he had a Hasselblad camera, and he looked very proud.I suddenly remembered a dusk many years ago, when Teresa Teng and I were on the beach in Los Angeles, watching the sunset slowly sinking towards the sea level.This is so beautiful, she said, we should take a picture of it.At that time, I just bought a Hasselblad camera, and I quickly took it out and put the film on the ground in a hurry. The machine was very complicated, and by the time I finished the film, the sun had already set and disappeared.The two of us laughed for a long time at the beach.

Sometimes I often think, if there is such a possibility, or that possibility, will the two of us end up together.But life is like this, it doesn't give you so many possibilities.Your life has already been determined by your character. When I first arrived in the United States, my life was very miserable.I study English during the day, and watch TV in the hotel at night.Occasionally, I will go outside to learn roller skating and practice for the new film "The Killer".During a break, I went to Disneyland with a group of friends from Hong Kong. We had a great time chatting along the way.At this time, I heard people around me speaking Chinese, and it was also a group of people laughing and laughing. When I looked up, it was Teresa Teng walking in front of me, and there were several friends beside me, both men and women.We were surprised to see each other.I said, why are you here too?She was also taken aback. We were not close at that time, and we had friends around us. After a simple greeting, we said goodbye first, and we went our separate ways without leaving a call.

Two days later, I was watching a play in Westwood and ran into her again.At that time, I entered the theater and she left the theater. The two met again, and I was very surprised.The movie I want to watch hasn't started yet, and the two of them are standing there chatting.She was alone that day, and so was I.I went to the movies to learn English, and I guess she did the same.After chatting, I knew that she lived very close to me, about three blocks away.They left each other on the phone that day. This is really fate, the two of us have never met in China, and we will meet consecutively in the United States.Later, I asked her to eat and chat with her.At that time, her mother was with her in the United States, and sometimes her mother would cook soup for me.She knew that I was practicing roller skating, and said that she happened to be learning too, and I said that was just the time for me to teach you.

One day I just stepped on a roller shoe and went to her.She was not proficient in skating at that time, and I had to support her all the time.Think about it, at that time, Jackie Chan and Teresa Teng were roller skating on the roadside in Los Angeles, and no one knew us at all, how wonderful and happy. The period after that was the happiest time when I first went to America.The two of us often learn English together, go for a walk on the beach, take pictures, eat crabs together, and eat Chinese food in China Town. I drove to pick her up, but the two of us were still lost halfway... It's fun to think about those days, and I don't know if it counts as falling in love.At that time, the company didn't give me any staff around me, and I didn't know any Chinese people there. She was the only one who spoke Chinese to me.Seeing her every day was the only happy thing at that time.She probably felt the same way.

Sadly, my movie will start in San Antonio soon.When we parted, she was going back to Taiwan too. I told her that I would go to Taiwan to find you after filming. "Killer's Trenches" sold poorly. I went back to Hong Kong very frustrated. I wanted to get back together and make another movie to save face. I quickly formed a team for the new movie. I went to Korea to talk about the script and chatted with 3 people. At that time, Hong Kong and South Korea cooperated, and there would be investment subsidies for filming in South Korea.The film we were preparing at that time formed the largest Hong Kong location team in Korean history. For example, there were 12 lighting engineers and 16 carpenters. They went there for about four or five months.It's a pity that within two days of the official start of work, the gold was withdrawn.Because we were shooting summer scenes in winter, it was minus 15 degrees, it was too cold, and everyone couldn't bear it.On the third day, I said, call it a day, if the filming continues like this, I will make a bad scene.Back at the hotel, everyone huddled in my room and warmed up together.At that time, about 2 million Hong Kong dollars had been spent, which was a lot of money in terms of the environment at the time.

At that time, I called He Guanchang to discuss this matter. He first cared about whether I and everyone were frozen, and then put down a word, and said that if he did not shoot, he would not shoot.It is such a sentence that can really "buy" people's hearts.I went back to Hong Kong with the brigade and changed the script.At this time, I thought, where to shoot? Taiwan. At that time, I thought I was mainly film-oriented, and said that only Taiwan had the sets needed for the film, and it was very suitable for us to shoot there.Now that I think about it, I actually have a selfish desire to find Teresa Teng.

When I arrived in Taiwan, apart from watching the location, I would make an appointment to have dinner with her, and the two of them were quiet.I also went to see her performance at that time.I was sitting in a special box upstairs. When she sang, besides the audience under the stands, she would also look up. I knew she was looking at me.I just sat there, watching the audience applaud vigorously for her, and thought to myself, she is my girlfriend.At that time, the outside world did not know that we were together, and I left the show without waiting for the end. In Taiwan at that time, if we were photographed together, it would be explosive news.

Later, I thought that it might be the most correct decision for us to separate, because from the very beginning, the two have very different personalities, and they couldn't compromise for each other.In other words, she's too good to be true. She is always polite and soft-spoken, but I am a big bastard; The chain hangs on her body; she likes to go out alone and enjoy her private space, but I always like to be lively, and I like the feeling of being followed by a group of people, and I feel like a boss. pull the chair. I remember one day she called me and asked if we could have dinner together.I said, don't I eat with you every day?She said, eat alone.I said ok.She took me to a French restaurant and into a box.At that time, I didn’t know how to read the menu, and I couldn’t order red wine. The waiter brought me everything. I didn’t understand, so I was a little embarrassed.She took the menu card and ordered something with the waiter, and some English and French would be interspersed in what she said.At that time, I was like a little tantrum. She said that the steak was medium-ripe and delicious. I said, no, I will eat medium-ripe.She said she wanted wine, and I said beer.She took the red wine glass and smelled it carefully, and I picked up the wine glass and poured it in one gulp.She asked me if it was good to drink, I said it was very bad.When the soup came, I saw her drinking it gracefully with a spoon, so I picked it up and poured it into my mouth on purpose.The steak came, and before she had finished the first bite, I had eaten the whole piece of meat.The rule of Western food is that the second dish will not be served until the two of us finish eating, so she had no choice but to say that I had finished eating.At the last meal, I was so stuffed that she was not full.People eat a French meal for two or three hours, but we finished it in less than half an hour.As soon as I went out, I told her that from now on, never take me to this restaurant, and now I am going back to a meeting, then turned around and left.

At that time, I made these strange actions, which had a lot to do with the inferiority complex deep in my heart.I was discriminated against by rich children since I was a child, and I lived a poor life in drama school for 10 years. When I first entered the society, I worked at the lowest level of work, so I hate those powerful people looking down on others from the bottom of my heart.The more they put on an air of greatness about themselves, the more I want to contradict such people.This mentality affected my relationship with Teresa Teng, and it was very unfair to her. One day, I was discussing scripts with my brothers, and she called and said that she was leaving Taiwan for a while and wanted to meet me today.I said yes, come on!When she came, the door was unlocked, and she opened the door to come in. I saw that she was still wearing an evening dress and high heels. She must have just finished a performance, and she was very beautiful.All the brothers next to me were stunned.

I don't know what kind of nerve I committed, as if I wanted to look awkward in front of everyone, I just said one word, sit down.She just sat in the corner by herself, and I continued to chat with everyone about the script.We talked for a long time, and I didn't say a word to her for almost an hour.After more than an hour, she stood up and said, Jackie, I will go first, and I said yes. She stood up, turned and walked out the door.At this time, a brother named Feng Ke'an next to me said, Brother, should you give him a gift?I think, yes!Give it as a courtesy.I quickly stood up, walked out the door, and saw that the elevator was closed.I had to go back to my room and look down from the eighth floor window and see that she had just gotten into a Cadillac and drove away.

At that time, I didn't feel much, so I continued to talk about the script with everyone.Soon, the phone rang.I picked up the phone and heard her voice over there, Jackie, I don't think you need me, just stay with your brothers.At that time, I didn't know how to answer, so the phone hung up. The next day, she called again and said that she had left something for me and put it at the front desk of the hotel.When I called it a day and went back to the hotel, what I got was a cassette. "You don't have me at all in your heart, give me back my love..." In it is her song, "Give me back my love". At that time, I was filming "Master Dragon" in Taiwan. Every day was very hard and tiring. In addition, many people were injured during the filming process. The hospital was full of people from the crew. Every day I thought about how to complete the work smoothly. , almost devastated, how can I be in the mood to fall in love.Just like that, I never got in touch with Teresa Teng. A few months later, she had a concert in Hong Kong, and my manager went to see it.After the concert, they went out to drink together, and she told my manager, you know?I hate him to death.When my agent came back and told me about it, I realized that I was so bad and hurt people's hearts, but I didn't know it. When I met her again later, it was an awards ceremony organized by Lin Jianyue.At that time he asked me to present an award to Teresa Teng, and what I thought in my heart was, no, because I knew she should still hate me.Lin Jianyue knew about the matter between me and Teresa Teng, so I asked him, does she know that I will present the award to her?Lin Jianyue said, I know.I said, really?If this is the case, then I will present an award to her, as a chance to express my apology and make up for my ignorance.Lin Jianyue also said that you can find a way to surprise her during the awards ceremony. At that time, she sang a song first, and I quietly hid in the background.When she just sang in the middle, there was a point in the interlude, I suddenly walked out, holding the trophy, she turned around and saw me, turned around on the stage and left, I had to chase her on the stage , she kept walking around the stage, refusing to accept the award I gave her.I followed her and kept saying, don't do this, Teresa, don't do this, it's ugly... Later she finally won the award, and she turned and walked away without shaking my hand or saying thank you.I was so angry that I scolded Lin Jianyue when I went back. She didn't even know that I was going to present her with an award! Our relationship just fell apart. A few years later, at the entrance of the Shangri-La Hotel, I saw her again.At that time, she just got on the elevator and I just got out of the elevator, it was such a coincidence.Everyone looked at each other, she smiled, and I laughed too, but didn't speak.There were many people around her, and there were many people around me.I turned my head and sent her to the elevator, the elevator door was closed, I smiled with her.That's it. In May 1995, one day my assistant Dorothy received a call from the United States, using a mobile phone.The other side said, I am Miss Deng, and I want to find Jackie. Dorothy told her that her eldest brother is not here now and will come back in a few days.Later, Dorothy told me that there was this call and asked me to call her. I agreed, but I had other things at hand and forgot for a while. Unexpectedly, a few days later, I heard the news of her death.I was completely stunned, and many past events flooded up in an instant, and tears couldn't stop falling down.Since then, whenever anyone says to call me back, I call back right away. Because of filming, I couldn't go to her funeral. In 2002, I sang "I Only Care About You" with her in the album released in the Mainland, hoping that the song could travel through time and space and bring me an eternal apology to her.