Chapter 36 Chapter 35 I only worship you (No.192 - No.196)

Every afternoon we would take at least half of the class to practice singing. Singing the same two songs every day quickly made Yu Huai irritable. As the competition date approached, he worked harder, and I was a little afraid to talk to him.In the last few rehearsals, he sneaked out with his notes and came back after class. Forgot to mention, Yu Huai borrowed the notes from senior Sheng Huainan again.I took the initiative to undertake Yu Huai's cleaning job, because he said that if I behaved well, he would let me return the notes. I originally thought that no one would notice that Yu Huai ran away from the rehearsal, because every time the song was practiced, the room would always be messy, not to mention that we were sitting in the last row.However, Wen Xiaoxiao soon found her.

"Where's Yu Huai?" Wen Xiaoxiao didn't ask questions in front of everyone during the rehearsal, but quietly ran to my desk after the rehearsal. Wen Xiaoxiao is very caring about this competition.I attended several class committee meetings instead of Yu Huai, everyone's whimsical suggestions and off-topic gossip on South Street were finally thrown to Wen Xiaoxiao to deal with.She took them all down, and asked her father to help her contact a small garment manufacturing factory.The other party just happened to have a sample of the May Fourth youth suit. For her father's sake, the factory agreed to use "relatively inferior materials" to take over our small business.

So in the face of such a literary and art committee member, I feel very embarrassed.Selfishly speaking, I understand Yu Huai, this kind of boring group activity is not affected by one person or two people, and he is busy with a major event related to the future; but logically, it is not good for him to do so. If the reason we are sitting in this classroom is just to take the college entrance examination, then why should someone like Wen Xiaoxiao sacrifice his time for other people? I'm tongue-tied. "He seems to be very busy recently... But he sings very well, and he is very serious in every rehearsal. These two times are really busy... When we start formally queuing up to practice round singing, he will definitely not be absent! "

Wen Xiaoxiao adjusted her glasses, nodded, smiled kindly at me, and left. I looked at her back with some guilt and sighed.Wen Xiaoxiao is like a girl living in the Republic of China. Although she is not a big beauty, she has pretty eyes and a soft voice. Every time she speaks, she adjusts her glasses shyly. When leading everyone to rehearse, Xu Yanliang needs to use iron The lung lion roared to shake the field.Maybe it was because she was so gentle that I dared to prevaricate her with so many excuses. I retracted my gaze and caught a glimpse of Zhu Yao in the front row giving him a mocking look.

A thought suddenly hit me. They are different on the surface, but perhaps in essence, there is no difference between Yu Huai and Zhu Yao, it's just a matter of degree. None of them do useless things. I didn't want to continue thinking about it, so I stood up and left the classroom with a water glass.At this moment, I received a text message from Yu Huai. "Bring me two fountain pens to the top floor of the administrative district." In order to make it easier for students to go to the office to ask questions, all the teaching and research rooms are arranged in the teaching area from the first to the third year of high school, so there are only a few offices left in the administrative area, such as the principal, the Youth League Committee, and the academic affairs office. The part above the third floor is almost empty.

I climbed up to the fifth floor, and saw Yu Huai sitting on the steps, nervously calculating something with the calculation paper on his right thigh. "The pen you want." I stood under a few steps and handed it to him. "Well, put it aside," he said without raising his head, "I can't get enough water from this one in my hand, thank you." "What if I wasn't willing to deliver it for you just now? Why do you think I must run errands for you?" I was not angry, but just curious, so I asked calmly. He didn't answer, and I wasn't in a hurry, just quietly waiting for him to finish the last point.After Yu Huai wrote down the answer, he took out a sheet from the pile of paper scattered around him and checked the answer, showing a relaxed smile.

"I never thought," he put down the fountain pen in his hand and looked at me, "I never thought that you would be willing to deliver things for me... would you?" I don't know how to answer.I did not realize this problem until I was walking halfway with a fountain pen. "Why don't you go back to work?" I changed the subject. "The class smells bad, the windows haven't been opened for a long time, the heater is too hot, and it's very noisy." "Is it to avoid rehearsal?" He nodded: "I don't think it's meaningful to practice so many times."

"But this is a group activity," I looked at him, "it's unfair to Xu Yanliang and Wen Xiaoxiao, and I have to explain it to you with the cheek." "If I don't need to prepare for the competition now, then I will hold back my impatience and take part in it seriously. Things have priorities, and you can't force me." Yu Huai looked straight at me without guilt. I moved my lips, knowing that I had no position or reason to criticize him, so I sat down beside him in frustration. "You don't have to be so nervous about this competition. Didn't Zhu Yao say that? It's very difficult to rely on it to get recommended in the freshman year of high school. If that's the case, it's better to take it easy and make sure you don't lose money."

Yu Huai relaxed from the somewhat guarded and angry state just now. "If I fail the exam, I won't take this path again, so the result this time is very important." "what?" "Competition is exhausting. I'm not a genius. I'm not at the same level as Lin Yang and Sheng Huainan. Although Lin Yang has been encouraging me, I know very well how much I have." Yu Huai rested his chin, his gaze had already passed through the opposite wall, and cast his gaze to an unknown distance. For this sentence, if I had just entered school, I might have reacted more violently than Zhu Yao.You read college textbooks every day and dare to say that, do you want me to die?However, day after day, I have seen all kinds of birds in Zhenhua, a forest surrounded by desks, and I have grown a lot. One of the signs is that I will never use my little standard of food and clothing to judge others Should I be content.

Under the same school uniform, a different heart beats. What's more, the other party is Yu Huai, how could I not understand. Yu Huai continued: "I lost my mentality because of the competition in junior high school. I missed the senior high school entrance examination and my grades were not satisfactory. Fortunately, it was the high school entrance examination. I could still go to Zhenhua. Although I was only in the ordinary class, what would I do if it was the college entrance examination? My English and Chinese is not good, and I don’t have that much confidence to take care of both sides like Lin Yang, so I think I should make a decision earlier.”

The top floor was empty, and every word he said echoed slightly, vibrating in the air and surrounding me. I suddenly realized that I don't know when I really became friends with him, otherwise he wouldn't tell me these things.He never explained anything to me, and Chen Xuejun was still forced by me.Every day he does questions that I don't understand, is busy with things that I don't understand, and worries about the confusion that I can't share.Only he helps me, when he has spare energy. But now he is willing to talk to me.While regretting his dilemma, I began to secretly enjoy this trust and closeness from the bottom of my heart. I suddenly turned my head and said to him boldly: "But you still don't want to give up, do you?" "Huh?" He was extremely puzzled. "If I were you, I didn't have much interest in competitions, and I knew that if I studied well, I would definitely have no major problems in the college entrance examination, then I would have given up long ago. I think that as long as there is a little bit of wanting to give up If you think about it, you will definitely give up. But you didn't." Yu Huai kept silent and listened to me quietly, not knowing what he was thinking. "That's why you study so hard, hoping to give yourself confidence and reasons to persevere. You must like physics competitions very much, right?" "I like physics." Yu Huai corrected. "So go ahead! I believe in you." He smiled and thanked me politely for the encouraging words. "No," I shook my head, "I'm not just saying nice things casually, I really believe in you." Yu Huai put away his smile. "Maybe you think it's meddling for me to ask you why you didn't take part in the rehearsal. Actually, I don't...I don't think you are selfish, I am...I can't accept it." "What can't be accepted?" He was even more curious. I don't know how I could say such a long paragraph of words that seemed to be quite fluent. Seeing him listening so seriously, I suddenly felt a drum in my heart. "I can't accept that you're not omnipotent." I stared at my toes, and felt a big stone in my heart finally rumbling down the stairs following these words. In my heart, Yu Huai should be such a boy: Joyful, there are many good buddies, with sharp opinions, no one cares about the unscrupulous, but warm-hearted, can take the first place in the class while picking up friends in get out of class, the teacher plays ball after get out of class, and is active in all activities Central, it seems that nothing can trouble him. Even if Lin Yang is a Super Saiyan, even if Chu Tiankuo is the first in the grade, even if Sheng Huainan is so handsome that I want to confess it... In my heart, Yu Huai is better than them all. It doesn't make sense to be powerful, but it is powerful anyway. I had too many expectations of him, and I was once so dependent that I felt that as long as he sat by my side, I would have a private tutor, and I could be taken to a good university together. That's why he felt extra sad because he skipped chorus rehearsals in order to prepare for the competition. It was actually my own fault. I told Yu Huai about my unrealistic expectations and unreasonable accusations, even though he was already blushing like a tomato by the side. "That's right," Yu Huai poked his neck, but didn't dare to look at me, "What you said is right, the young master is really awesome." I couldn't help laughing, and Yu Huai laughed embarrassedly after a while. "Hey, you won't look down on me from now on, will you?" He smiled for a while, then suddenly frowned and stared at me. "what?" "Geng Geng, remember, even if classmate Yu Huai is not as good as you imagined, he is still very good, much better than you. You should continue to worship him." Watching him look serious, my heart overflows with unimaginable happiness. "Of course." I nodded seriously. I just adore you. Yu Huai studied very efficiently in the stairwell of the administrative area, and I didn't want to disturb him, so I went back to class for the self-study of the last class, and handed over another notebook of Sheng Huainan that he had entrusted to me to Lin Yang. On the way back, I suddenly felt that Zhenhua’s teaching building looked different. Every floor tile and every corner became very close, as if I knew it better. I am very happy. Whether it is Yu Huai or this school, they are no longer a distant place that cannot be pursued in my eyes.In our respective ranks, we struggle together and work hard together. I went to the floor where the second class was, and stopped a long-haired girl from their class who was about to go out. After a closer look, it turned out to be Ling Xiangqian. When her beautiful phoenix eyes looked at me, a girl like me was a little nervous. "Student, what's the matter?" She asked with a smile. "Uh, oh, can you help me find Lin Yang?" "Okay, wait a moment." She turned around and yelled into the class, "Lin Yang, come out and someone is looking for you!" It revealed her real acquaintance, and it was completely different from the vicious teasing of the big sister who was guarding the door to clean the glass when I went to Sheng Huainan that day. Same. After shouting, she smiled at me and walked away.Ling Xiangqian was holding a book, and she was wearing a loose sports school uniform top like me, with the hood of the wine red hoodie turned out from the neckline, and a pair of dark gray skateboard pants underneath. Nike sneakers.At first glance, it looks like a very casual student style, but for some reason, even from the back, it is more beautiful than everyone in the corridor. I look down at myself. Her hair is half-length and not short, and some locks are always curled up. Every day, her hairstyle depends on her sleeping position the night before; she has a red sweater, jeans, and hiking shoes attached to a bear on her chest. I think it's not just about the face. I looked up again at Ling Xiangqian's back. Even if Ling Xiangqian and I were beheaded and placed side by side on the ground, everyone would still be able to tell which one was the beauty.Why? "Nephew and daughter-in-law? Nephew and daughter-in-law?" Lin Yang appeared at the door with a smile on his face. I quickly looked back and handed over the notebook: "Oh, Yu Huai asked me to help you with this note." Lin Yang took it and thanked him: "This kid is really good at commanding people. Hey, what were you watching just now?" He squinted his eyes and looked in the direction of my gaze just now, and I followed nervously, for fear that he would find that I was staring at the beautiful woman just now - but the weather was unpredictable, Ling Xiangqian didn't go far at all, and stopped next door Near the back door of Ban, Chu Tiankuo was giving the book she had just held in her arms to Chu Tiankuo with both hands. "I'm not gossiping, as long as it's a good-looking person, everyone wants to see more." I quickly explained to myself. "Oh." Lin Yang sighed. yes.I also sigh for Lin Yang in my heart. It's so inhumane to rob you of the first place, rob your small band, and even rob your class flower. "Can I ask you a question?" Lin Yang asked suddenly. "ask!" "If you have a good friend and fall in love with someone, but you always feel that there is no result and you will get hurt, should you persuade me?" "You mean that Chu Tiankuo fell in love with Ling Xiangqian but Ling Xiangqian didn't like him, and Chu Tiankuo didn't hit the south wall and didn't look back, should you persuade him? Or... the situation is the other way around?" "No, no, no, you, you, you answer the question first." Without even thinking about it, I replied, "No need to persuade me." "Why?" Lin Yang tilted his head and looked at me condescendingly. "I advise you not to follow Yu Zhouzhou, will you listen to me?" Lin Yang's face turned blue instantly: "Who are you talking about following...my situation is different..." "Everyone thinks their situation is different." Lin Yang stopped talking, and after a while he smiled and said, "Thank you, Geng Geng." you are welcome.I waved him goodbye. You don't listen to persuasion when you like someone. Do you think I didn't persuade myself when I was treated coldly? Yu Huai came back when school was almost over, I said hello to him after I packed up my things, and left before I arrived at the school gate, only then did I remember that I had left the fruit lock lunch box that Aunt Qi brought me on the desk this morning, Quickly ran back to get it.When I went up the stairs, I looked up and saw Yu Huai walking down, still some distance away from me. I was about to say hello when a girl chased Yu Huai from behind and stopped him. It's Wen Xiaoxiao. I lowered my head and walked slowly against the flow of people, because there were a lot of people going downstairs, so I walked very slowly. It wasn't intentional, it wasn't. As I passed them slowly, I heard Wen Xiaoxiao's gentle voice with a smile, serious and nervous. "Today I asked your deskmate where you were, but I didn't want to blame you. I don't know what you heard. I just hope you don't misunderstand." Actually, I didn't mention anything to Yu Huai, Wen Xiaoxiao. "I heard that you are going to be busy with the competition, you don't have to participate in the rehearsal, I don't mean that no one will notice. I always think you are very good, you...you work hard, the competition is important. Well, come on .” I didn't hear Yu Huai's answer.No matter how slowly I walked, I couldn't hear clearly at this moment. Wen Xiaoxiao's girlish thoughts were drowned in the noisy sound field in the stairwell.I don't know if Yu Huai heard or not.