Chapter 12 Chapter Eight Absurd Language

After Li Zhen left the fruit tree farm, he did not report directly to the City Electronics Research Institute. He has been thinking hard about a question: he is handsome, smart and wise, why is he being cruelly hit by fate time and time again?Back then, after he passed the college entrance examination of "thousands of troops and horses crossing the single-plank bridge", he got excellent grades but missed the ideal key university.After graduating from university, many students found ideal jobs in the city, but he was assigned to teach in a desolate fruit tree farm.He is a person who takes feelings seriously, passionate and infatuated, but the disappointment in love makes him extremely sad.The road to the world of mortals is still long, but Li Zhenxin is exhausted.Right now, he doesn't have, and can't find, the strength to support himself before going on.

He asked himself: Where is my future?If there is no future, then why should I waste time in this world of mortals.If I am really able to flourish before the age of 30, as my childhood fortune teller said, who can give me some advice?Feeling at a loss, Li Zhen thought of going to Qingliang Temple, a Buddhist resort in the north. Qingliang Temple is located in the northwest of Zhuolu County, Hebei Province, surrounded by mountains of Huangyang Mountain. The temple has fragrant hook flowers, towering pines and cypresses, beautiful scenery and pleasant climate. It is said that Qingliang Temple was built in the Han Dynasty and has a history of more than two thousand years.From the Wei and Jin Dynasties to the early years of the Republic of China, many eminent monks practiced here, so they became famous and known to everyone in a thousand miles.

In the early morning, Li Chen set off from "Qingning Fort" at the foot of the mountain and climbed up along the winding mountain road.At about two kilometers away, I saw a "big boundary stone". The "big boundary stone" is more than three feet high, and divides the road up the mountain into west and north.The mountain road to the west is called "Xiaopan", while the mountain road to the north is called "Dapan".Li Zhen chose to go up the mountain from the "big plate".He climbed up the stairs and finally arrived at Qingliang Temple at noon.

A nun, Huiming, who was cleaning the yard, welcomed Li Zhen into the mountain gate. Huiming is about twenty-eight or nineteen years old, with a handsome oval face, ruddy face, big eyes, beautiful and elegant.Li Zhen didn't expect that there was such a slim nun in the mountain temple, just like the goddess Luo Bin who just came out of the water and Chang'e fell into the world in the moon.When she wasn't paying attention, she couldn't help but take a few more glances. After passing through the mountain gate, Li Zhen followed Huiming to Qingliang Temple.But seeing the towering ancient trees and the blooming flowers in the courtyard, the chirping of birds came from time to time, which made the mountain temple extraordinarily quiet.When he came to the main hall, Huiming said to Li Zhen, please wait here for a while, the benefactor, and wait for me to inform the master.Li Zhen said, please trouble little master.

After Huiming left, Li Zhen looked at the Daxiong Palace.But I saw that the palace was tall, majestic and resplendent.In the center of the hall is the statue of Sakyamuni.The Buddha looked serene, sitting on the lotus platform.Ananda, Kaye and all the arhats are arranged on both sides of the Buddhist hall, giving people a sense of solemnity. . After a while, Yuan Zhen and Hui Ming, the abbots of Qingliang Temple, came out.Yuan Zhen looked to be in his fifties, and there was always a kind smile on his weather-beaten face.Huiming gave them a brief introduction.After the chatter, Yuan Zhen said that it was already noon, and the benefactor came from a long way away, so he must be very hungry.Huiming, take Master Li to the South Wing for some vegetarian food.

Huiming said, good.Master please go back to the Guanyin Hall to meditate, and I will treat Master Li well. Li Zhen followed Huiming, walked through the Daxiong Palace, climbed up more than 20 brick steps, and saw an exquisite and elegant small attic.Huiming said that this is the Buddhist scripture hall, which contains tens of thousands of volumes of Buddhist scriptures.I heard that there is a Song edition.Li Zhen asked in amazement, Song block edition, have you read it?Huiming smiled and said, why, I have only been a monk for a few years, and the books I have read are only one-thousandth of those here.Not far from the Tibetan scripture hall is the Guandi Temple where Guan Yu is worshipped.Appreciating the lifelike religious murals on the walls of the temple, Li Chen was deeply moved by the long-standing and profound Buddhist culture.

Huiming took Li Zhen to the south wing, and set up the fast food.Li Zhen was already hungry, so he ate voraciously.Huiming said, benefactor, slow down, don't choke, be careful to be the first Buddha to choke to death? Li Zhen laughed so much that he spat out all the food in his mouth, saying that he could become a Buddha even if he choked to death. Huiming said that all living beings can become Buddhas, and Buddhism is not mysterious.The benefactor has heard the story of Nianhua Smiling.It is said that once, the Buddha picked a mandala flower from the Paradise of Ultimate Bliss, held it in his hand and showed it to his disciples, and everyone was puzzled.Only Kaye smiled knowingly, and he received the true biography of the Buddha and became the first generation master of Zen.

Li Zhen asked, according to the little master, is it very easy to become a Buddha. Huiming said that all things have Buddha nature, but whether they can achieve the right result depends on whether they have the Buddha's relationship and whether they are willing to realize it. Li Zhen nodded thoughtfully. Huiming also said that Buddhism only advocates a kind of spirit, a kind of realm, that is, great enlightenment.It does not teach us to be among the immortals, but only hopes that we can seek the true meaning of life in the world of mortals.The so-called one flower one world, one tree one bodhi.

Li Zhen suddenly interrupted Huiming and said, "I don't know how the little master awakened and escaped into Buddhism." Huiming suddenly fell silent.Li Zhen found that there seemed to be a trace of sadness between her brows, so he changed his words and said, since the master has something difficult to say, it is inconvenient for me to ask.I also hope that the master will forgive my previous rudeness. Huiming smiled faintly, Donor Li, ever since I first saw you, I have felt a sense of déjà vu.Since it is a predestined person, why not tell you. Huiming tells Lizhen about her sad past.

Her original name was Fu Cai, and she lived in a small village not far from the west of Zhuolu County. Her parents were both farmers.When I was six years old, the village carried out the "Great Leap Forward" and "People's Commune Movement", and the result was that the more "leap" I became poorer.In order to support his family, Fu Cai's father secretly raised a few chickens in the backyard.After other members found out, they reported it to the top, saying that he was clinging to the tail of capitalism.Fu Cai's father was condemned to death.In order to support her newborn brother, her mother sold her to a family in a neighboring village as a child bride-in-law for three buckets of millet.When she arrived at her husband's house, her in-laws were very harsh on her.The conditions of their family are not bad, but they feed her very poor food.Her husband is a boy who is two years younger than her. He often bullies her, but she dare not fight back.When she was seven years old, her parents-in-law asked her to chop firewood, cook, and work in the fields, ordering her like a girl, and beat and scolded her at every turn.Her childhood was full of sadness and tears.

At the age of thirteen, the little husband who was preparing to consummate the house with her died of smallpox.In order to keep her a free girl and hope to have someone to take care of her in the future, the parents-in-law recruited an educated youth surnamed Liu who returned home for him.That educated youth was ten years older than her, and one of his legs was injured by the rebels when he was criticized.However, he treats Fu Cai very well, often asks her how she is, and helps her with housework.The time with the educated youth has become the best memory in her life. Faced with the violence of her parents-in-law, she said to the educated youth more than once, let's go and escape far away-the educated youth said, they are kind to me.If they didn't take me in, I can live to this day?Hey, bear with it.He was too kind, but also too cowardly.In those years when right and wrong were turned upside down, he had no intention of participating in a life-and-death struggle.Unexpectedly, the "rebels" and "royalists" pointed their finger at him almost at the same time.Fu Cai's parents-in-law secretly escaped in the middle of the night in order to get rid of the relationship.The educated youth were burned to death by the raging fire—the euphemistically named "fire of the proletariat". From then on, Fu Cai washed her face with tears all day long. After all, she and him already had a deep relationship. The two mu of land allocated to Fucai in the village was occupied by a second nephew of her parents-in-law. In desperation, she embarked on a wandering begging road. One day, she fainted from hunger on Huangyang Mountain, and was rescued by an old nun and brought back to Qingliang Temple.After experiencing many hardships and bitterness in the world, she no longer has the heart to miss the world of mortals, so she decides to escape into Buddhism.That old nun became Fu Cai's master, and she was Yuan Zhen, the abbot of Qingliang Temple. Li Zhen's eyes were already filled with tears. At this time, he noticed a strange color flashed in Huiming's eyes. Indeed, when it comes to emotion, Huiming always stared at Li Zhen. Her eyes seemed to want to tell him something. In the afternoon, Huiming took Li Zhen to the Guanyin Hall where Yuan Zhen lived. The lively and lovely boy Shancai and the princess Longnv stand on both sides.Boy Shancai frowned slightly, thoughtful, while Princess Longnv had elegant blue hair and a high spirit. Seeing them coming, Yuan Zhen, who was meditating, put down the wooden fish in his hand and said, how is the benefactor resting?Li Zhen said that the mountain temple is so cool and cool, it is true that the noise of cicadas makes the forest quieter, and the bird singing temple is more secluded.After eating the vegetarian meal, I fell asleep soundly, and when I woke up, I realized that two hours had passed. If I could also devote myself to meditating here, wouldn't it be a beautiful thing in the world. Yuan Zhen said, benefactor, your fate in the world is not over, and the road to the world of mortals still has a long way to go.Li Zhen asked, what do you say? Yuan Zhen said that it's hard to say a word, and the words are not well thought out, and they are afraid of offending.We are about to chant scriptures, let Huiming tell you in the evening. At night, the curtain has just been pulled down, but Hua has already fallen asleep soundly in the ravings of the wind.Perhaps, only the cricket knows my loneliness and sighs in the weeping grass. In the evening, with doubts in his heart, Li Zhen went to look for her in the Maha Temple where Huiming lived, but she was not there.Li Zhen searched all over the temple, and finally saw Huiming in the back garden.She looked at the starry night sky and was in a daze. Li Zhen said that Master Huiming must have remembered his unfortunate life experience again.In fact, I really appreciate what the Buddhists said, things can be seen, and all sorrows and depressions can be forgotten.In fact, all living beings are ordinary people, who doesn't have some sad things? Huiming turned his head and said, according to what Li benefactor said, probably you also have some sad things. Li Zhen spit out the bitterness in his heart: When I took the college entrance examination, my grades were very good, but I was admitted to a very unsatisfactory school.After graduating from university, he was assigned to teach in a desolate fruit tree farm.When I was young, I had the ideal of "economics for the country and the world".Therefore, after I came to the fruit tree farm, I wanted to join the party and submit an application for joining the party to the cultural and educational party branch of the commune where the fruit tree farm was located.But since then, it has been like a stone sinking into the sea, and there is no more information, and three people who work in the unit have all joined the party. Some of them came to the fruit tree farm later than me, and two of them even applied for joining the party as a follow-up.I couldn't be more angry, so I asked the organization committee member of the party branch to discuss it.But the organizing committee member said, don’t worry about this. You were the first person I mentioned at the first party branch meeting. You are young and energetic, good at teaching, high in work efficiency, and good in teaching. You should be the first to be included in the list of party activists and However, at the second branch meeting, the secretary said that Li Chen's teaching work has always been good, but many people are not used to him, he is too arrogant, does not respect leaders and comrades, has too long hair, wears He wears suits and leather shoes. People think that he wears exotic clothes, sings popular Hong Kong and Taiwan capitalist songs, and his stance is not firm. He has bourgeois tendencies. .Of course, there is another reason, that is, the relationship between you and the secretary is not handled well. I just can't figure it out, is it written in the party constitution that young people are not allowed to wear new clothes, have new hairstyles, and fall in love?Joining the party should be based on personal work performance and ability. How can there be so many personal relationships and emotional components mixed in?How could the pure socialism in my mind be so dark? After hearing this, Huiming sighed and said, maybe this is the so-called impermanence of the world. For some reason, Li Zhen vaguely felt that every time Huiming saw him, his eyes always showed a kind of emotion, whether it was anticipation, or—— Li Zhen avoided Huiming's gaze and asked, Master Yuanzhen kept secret when talking about my future in the morning, so can Master Huiming give me some advice. Huiming said, I see that the benefactor is very generous, and he must have a bright future in the future, but—just what? , Destroyed in Tang (Mountain), his wife is not Yang.Although Li Zhen is a materialist, he is worried about his future in Zhangjiakou, and he is still a little dubious. Huiming also said that behind the Forbidden City in Beijing, there is a large mansion of Li Lianying, the chief executive of the Qing Dynasty. In the compound, there is a basement leading to a well. The water in this well is connected to a line on the central axis of Jingshan Park Longmai, by observing the changes in the water in this well, one can know the rise and fall of various dynasties. There are two books in the basement of this mansion. If the benefactor can get them, he will soon be prosperous. At the age of thirty-eight, you have a hurdle. If you can overcome it, you will have a safe life. You can become a deputy prime minister. According to the master, how sure is it that I can overcome this hurdle? Huiming said, "With all due respect, I don't have a lot of confidence. I see that the benefactor is very close to Buddhism. Why don't you abandon the world of mortals and devote yourself to practicing Buddhism?" Li Zhen said that when I was young, the fortune teller also said that I would reach the glory of life in my thirties, and now my master also said this.In this way, there are still many things waiting for me to do in the world of mortals, so how can I escape from the empty door.Besides, since I have the appearance of a prince, why didn't God bless me to survive that disaster in my life.Huiming said, this is just a suggestion from me, and I will not force the donor.It's getting late, the donor should go to bed early. Li Zhen saw that the incense candles on the table had been burned out, so he said, Master, please change the incense candles for me. When reciting the scriptures the next morning, Yuan Zhen noticed that Huiming was absent-minded, so he snatched her "Diamond Sutra" while she was not paying attention.But there is a note in the scriptures, which reads: Bodhisattva will die when the silk is dead, and the incense candle will turn to ashes and tears will dry.At the beginning, she vaguely felt that something was wrong with Huiming, but now, she fully understood. Yuan Zhen did not blame Huiming, but said meaningfully: "The body is a Bodhi tree, and the heart is like a mirror stand. The Buddha's nature is always pure, so it will not attract dust. Now that you have escaped into Buddhism, you should abandon all ordinary thoughts and worldly thoughts." How can you be greedy for the world of mortals and fall into unnecessary emotional entanglements? Huiming, Li Shi is leaving. You and I will send him off together." Yuan Zhen and Hui Ming sent Li Zhen out of the mountain gate. Yuan Zhen took out a relic from his arms and said to Li Zhen that the mountain temple is poor and there is nothing to give as a gift. Please accept this relic as a benefactor.It was left by Master Yanhui in the Tang Dynasty when he passed away, and it can bless the benefactor to turn bad luck into good fortune and smooth sailing.But pay attention, there is a Zen saying in this relic: When Tang meets Tang, everything is absurd Li Zhen asked, how do you say this? Yuan Zhen said that the secret of heaven should not be leaked, and the benefactor will naturally understand in the future.Li Zhen came to Huiming's side and said kindly: I'm leaving, take care of yourself.Huiming said, I hope the donor will have a smooth journey, and the poor nun will be sent away not far away.I hope that the auspicious benefactor will have his own fortune and become famous in one fell swoop in the future, and we will meet in the future. Li Zhen saw that Huiming's eyes were filled with tears, but he couldn't say anything or do anything.He waved to Yuan Zhen and Hui Ming, and left in a hurry.Huiming looked at the back of Li Zhen, and the sky seemed to echo the voice of the Buddha, "A century-old couple is the frontier, and God's will is ingenious and comprehensive. Just look at personnel, birds, fish, plants, and trees, each has its own reelection..." Li Zhen knew that he did not belong here.The empty door is like this.If you don't have Buddha affinity, you can't get in even if you want to.But once you are in, it is more difficult than ascending to heaven if you want to step into the world of mortals again and return to the mundane world.Only after becoming a nun can I realize how pessimistic it is! Li Zhen always carried that relic with him.It protects Li Chen through the ups and downs of his life one after another, and gradually reaches the pinnacle of his official career and life.However, Li Zhen, who was arrogant and arrogant, did whatever he wanted, and finally fell heavily.In Tangshan, he came to the end of his life.When Tang Shi meets Tang, everything is absurd.Probably this is the reason. Maybe the world is like this. What you get through hard work is not what you want. It is only in a lonely moment that you discover the true meaning of life. When Li Zhen only wanted to have a warm home in prison, many people still wanted to It's good to live like him for a day, and there are poor literati who say "vertical absurdity and wildness, life is so rare"! Li Zhen left Qingliang Temple with a feeling of apprehension.He repeated silently: Winners must leave Zhang (Jiakou), losers must leave Zhuang (Shijiazhuang), ruins are in Tang (Shan), wives do not belong to sheep.However, he misremembered "the wife is not Yang" as "the wife is not a sheep". Will things really develop as the nun predicted? With the master's warning and with a heavy and complicated heart, Li Zhen returned to Zhangjiakou.Walking hard on the road of life, ready to start his new work life.