Chapter 25 Chapter Fifty-Four

Although Oda Shingen, an old Japanese priest, is not an easy guy to get along with, he still has some real skills, otherwise he would not have been sent by Kato Kazuo to accompany him to protect the only direct descendant of the Kato family. Although I have already noticed that the yang poison is crazily invading my body, but because I am in the situation, I still have the last illusion, thinking that I will not die, and maybe I still have the ability to rescue Zamao Xiaodao.However, Oda, as an outsider, mercilessly pointed out my illness directly - I won't survive the Lantern Festival.

In other words, I have less than two weeks to live. At this moment, I am scarred and bruised, and I can't get angry at all, like a useless person, what can I do to save Zamao Xiaodao?Come to think of it, because Mao Tongzhen and the others had expected this, they did not intensify their search efforts and sent people around to investigate, but quietly waited for the news of my death.Because in their eyes, I am already a dead person. For dinner that day, I didn't eat much. Even Katoya specially ordered Yunnan rice noodles, and I only ate a few bites without any appetite. I have never been as desperate as that day, feeling that all my support is gone.No matter what I do, I can't use my strength, I can't use my strength, and I feel the ubiquitous pressure, sweeping from all directions, making me collapse.After falling into despair, my thoughts began to run wild.I even thought, should I use the Golden Silkworm Gu to create a large-scale plague, and then use these patients as a threat to ask Mao Tongzhen to heal my wounds, and let Zamao Xiaodao and me go free?

As soon as this extreme thought appeared, my heart began to flutter. That's right, I'm a real Gu master, why would a person like me compare his skills and magic weapons with those old masters of top sects?Isn't the field I am best at, poisonous poison?These top masters have the secret method of anti-gu, but ordinary people don't.If I threaten the lives of these people, will Mao Tongzhen compromise? After a hasty dinner, I went back to my room and sat by the window thinking carefully. At the beginning, my mood was extremely violent, and there seemed to be a voice in my heart that kept shouting: Why should I be patient, why should I give in, why should I make myself so embarrassed?Where are the lives of those ordinary people so precious to me?Even if I want to die, I will drag tens of thousands of people to be buried with me, so that those who play tricks behind me can see that it is their suppression that caused these innocent people to die!They, those high-ranking officials and lords, should bear the inescapable responsibility for the deaths of these people!Let those bastards, when they are cornered, how a little person like me will fight back!

I sat by the window and thought about it for a while, my heart was so violently burned with anger, the pleasure of revenge hit me in waves, I felt like my blood was on fire, I wished I could go out right away, and give birth to someone near Hongbin Villa Poison, that's refreshing. At this moment, there was a knock on my door, and Kato Aya's voice sounded outside the door: "Lu Sang, can I come in?" I was undecided, and said in a muffled voice.The door opened, and Aya Kato came in with a cup of tea and a plate of snacks. She walked and said, "Lu Sang, is there something on your mind? You... ah, what's wrong with your eyes?"

I was so excited that it was hard to calm down, but I still said, "What's wrong?" Katoya also put the teacup and saucer on the table, then pulled out a mirror and handed it to me.I took it over and looked inside, only to see the man in the mirror, with a ferocious face, arrogance and arrogance, a pair of red eyes, oozing blood, so strange that I didn't even recognize him. I rubbed my stiff and sullen face, took a deep breath, and was startled in my heart, thinking how could I become so terrifying?Constantly rubbing my face and taking deep breaths, I felt a lot calmer. Katoya also helped me to sit down, and then sat on the bed opposite me, staring at me with her deep eyes, and said softly: "Lu San, are you sad?"

In front of Kato Aya's breeze-like smile, I didn't hide much, put down the mirror in my hand, covered my face with my hands, leaned back on the chair, took a greedy breath, felt uncomfortable, and sighed again , said: "Oh, my life is already wonderful enough, and I didn't live in vain. I just thought greedily, if I can live forever, it's actually pretty good. In this world, I have too many concerns, and I can't let go of my worries." .” Katoya also asked cautiously: "Lu Sang, who are the people in this world that are worthy of your concern?" Her question made me a little unprepared, I rubbed my face and smiled wryly.After thinking for a while, I began to count: "First, parents, family members, and Duo Duo, Xiao Yao, and my Golden Silkworm Gu; then my friend Lao Xiao and my friends in the south and in my hometown. Of course, there are also Everyone who has helped me, such as Miss Kotoe, you."

When I said this, I was polite in response to the occasion, but Kato Aya's dark eyes suddenly dimmed, and she seemed a little shy, and said cautiously: "Lu Sang, Qin Hui's life was saved by you. And , you are Yuan Er's last entrustment and his most trusted friend, I should help you, I should do." The yin and yang are coordinated, and when I heard Kato Yaya's words with a weird accent, the anger in my heart was released bit by bit, and I seemed to feel a lot more relaxed.Although she has some misunderstandings about the relationship between me and Yuan Er, I don't intend to clarify.Many things, different positions, there is no absolute right or wrong.After chatting for a while, Kato Yaya suddenly blushed and asked me: "Lu Sang, don't you have a girl in your heart that you don't want to part with? How many times have you been in love?"

I heard it, and then looked at the beautiful and pure girl in front of me, and my heart swayed for a while.However, thinking of his illness, he couldn't help but feel sad, and recalled it with a wry smile. Before Xiaomei, I had two relationships.The first part was first love. At that time, I just came out to work and fell in love with a girl named Jiang Ying. I fell in love with a girl named Jiang Ying, but I didn’t know anything at that time, and I couldn’t give that girl the happiness she wanted. In the end, she Finally followed someone else.Afterwards, I let loose, playing with the flowers as the workers said, but it didn't last long, so it's not worth mentioning.The real second paragraph is a girl who is two years older than me. She taught me a lot, and she has deep feelings, but she was hurt even more deeply. Since then, I have restrained myself, and then I met Xiaomei...

I am a very introverted person, I don't like to express my emotions at will, I do more than talk, so even the miscellaneous trails have never heard what I said.But in this dying night, facing a foreign girl as beautiful as the moon and as bright as water, I feel like a chatterbox, slowly telling the past of my youth. When talking about these things, in my heart, there is no grief and sadness that I felt at that time, only a touch of regret and a deep sense of gratitude.I really want to thank those friends who have left traces in my life, they make my short life more colorful.Those faces that were either clear or blurred, and the past that was either strong or indifferent, now seemed to have turned into a soft sigh.

After talking about my emotional experience, my interest remained undiminished, and I talked about my friends, Lao Jiang, A Gen, Yang Yu, Ma Haibo, A Pei, Kong Yang, and those workers I knew during the working years...they are all ordinary people , but gave me so much care and warmth; I talked about the teachers who taught me when I was young, the partners who played around all day long, and many old friends.When talking about this, I suddenly felt strong guilt for my decision just now. If a person vents his personal anger on innocent people because of his own grievances.So, what is the difference between this kind of behavior and that of a beast?Everything I do is not for those guys in high positions, but for the ordinary friends around me, for the beauty and kindness of the world.How can I be lost?

At the end, my forehead was burning hot, but my back felt cold for a while. I looked at the beautiful woman Ruyu in front of me, looked at the elegant beauty outside the window, thought about my ordinary and extraordinary life, and sighed in my heart, if I die now, then so be it.My heart is at ease, why bother?No shame in my heart, even if I die, there is nothing to regret... It’s been a long time since a man as strong as me confides like this. At this dying moment, in front of this woman who can understand the world I’m talking about, I talked a lot like a child talk.Later, I couldn't even remember what I was talking about, I just remembered that I talked less and less, and my mind became more and more dizzy. Because of the attack of yang poison, I became confused, and felt that the woman in front of me also began to become blurred, for a while it became my first love, for a while it became Xiaomei, for a while it seemed to be Xiao Heitian and Chi Limei, And Xue Rui... and Xiao Yao?or something else... In short, many women I have met in my life have appeared in turn.Drowsy, I feel like I'm going to die. In the end, I seemed to see Huang Fei in front of me, tears brimming with white teeth biting her red lips, full of infinite temptation.I couldn't help but think of the apartment with Huang Fei in Xinjiekou in our county, where I went crazy overnight, playing with dragons and phoenixes, all the passion and inappropriateness for children rushed into my heart.I took a deep breath, afraid that I would frighten the beauty in front of me, but my eyes were fixed on those delicate red lips. The owner of the red lips spoke, and she seemed to be asking me: "Do you like me?" I was so burned that I lost consciousness, and said in a voice that was almost moaning: "I like..." Immediately afterwards, I felt my lips being tightly sealed by the same fiery warmth, which was as passionate as fire.