Chapter 9 Chapter 7 Don't go, don't come, think slowly

Sunlight poured in from the window, leaving mottled shadows in the room. The shadow has moved from one side of the mat to the other, but Yan Wei has been sitting on the mat without moving from morning to afternoon.Yan Wei was always playing with a piece of silk, on which were simple words: "We are leaving, staying here will hurt you, take care! Burn after reading." "There's only one person left..." Yan Wei sighed lightly. This is the third time, right?All without warning, all of a sudden.What kind of fate is this... Yan Wei lay on the table, fingering the small lacquer box, and sighed, "What's the use of more gold, gold can't speak..."

The shadow of the sun was covered by a figure, Yan Wei raised her head lazily, it was Lu Jin. "I just heard that you are safe and sound, so I immediately ran over to see you." Lu Jin said with a smile. "You're here? Sit down." Yan Wei said a few words dryly. Lu Jin said: "What's the matter, the fire is not lit, aren't you afraid of the cold?" Yan Wei watched Lu Jin busy lighting a charcoal fire, wanted to help, but was too lazy to get up, wanted to say no need to do it, but was afraid that Lu Jin would cold.Being taken care of like this, it seems that I haven't experienced it for a long time, and suddenly shed tears in a daze.

Lu Jin came to sit beside Yan Wei, took her hand, and asked, "What's the matter with you? Are you sick? Surviving a catastrophe, shouldn't be like this? You should be happy!" Yan Wei couldn't hold it any longer, and wept softly: "Gone... They're all gone... Lu Jin, you know, that year when my mother left, my father went to look for her and left without saying a word. It took three days and three nights to come back. At that time, I was still young and almost cried to death. Thanks to you and your mother for taking care of me. My father left suddenly a year ago and only said that there was something important. It always takes a few days for him to leave, but when he wakes up the next day, he is gone... This time too, they left without saying hello... Am I born to be unlovable...Everyone If you want to leave me... the River God Festival is the same, no one else will have an accident, but I will have an accident..."

Lu Jin lightly patted Yan Wei's back, and comforted him, "Don't think so, you survived the drowning, it should be the God of the River who blessed you." Yan Wei said: "I'm afraid even the God of the River would dislike me...he won't take me in...anyway, no one would be with me..." Lu Jin asked, "Who did you say left? That patient of yours?" Yan Wei opened her mouth, but stopped again.I thought it would be okay to tell Lu Jin the whole story, but I thought about the words on the silk, I was afraid that it would hurt Lu Jin, so I just nodded and said: "It's him, and the person who saved me, they are old acquaintances."

Lu Jin said: "I heard from Wu Hou that the man who saved you is tall and handsome, decent and rich." Yan Wei just lazily did not answer. Lu Jin added: "You don't have to worry about it. You don't want to repay people for saving lives. Even if they are ungrateful, it's a common thing and you don't need to worry about it." Knowing that she had misunderstood, Yan Wei pushed the small lacquer box over and said, "They are so grateful, they paid more for the consultation fee than my father received in his entire life." Lu Jin opened the lid and was surprised to see a small box of dazzling golden flowers: "There are so many?! Who are they? They are so rich!"

Yan Wei shook her head and did not answer, just sighed: "I took him in and treated him. I just treated him as a friend, not a patient, and never thought of repaying him. Since he came, the house is no longer deserted. , there is a patient who needs my care, I have something to do, and my heart is full. Especially when he first came here, he was seriously ill. To tell you the truth, I woke up in the middle of the night every day to check his breath, for fear that he would Died. Just watching him come back to life day by day, it feels so good! This is the first time I treat such a serious patient alone, and I used to help my father... Sigh! They don’t even say hello now Just left, it's really..." Yan Wei didn't know what to say for a while, and paused, "Even if I took in a puppy, it wouldn't be like this..."

Lu Jin said softly: "Don't be angry, they left in a hurry, maybe just like your mother and father, they have unavoidable difficulties, and they can't tell you clearly. Think about the best in everything, maybe after a while, we will meet again Unknown." Yan Wei thought of the last sentence Li Qichen said last night: "The days are still long, if you are not here for a day or two, what do you want to hear, I will tell you every day in the future." Feeling sad, she cried: "Maybe it's all a lie Damn, they will never come back again, look at my mother, she hasn’t come back after leaving for so many years, and my father never told me why she left.”

Seeing that she was sad when thinking about the past, Lu Jin hurriedly changed the topic and said, "You are so sad, you probably like one of them, right?" Yan Wei blushed and said angrily, "What are you talking about? I never thought about that." Lu Jin smiled and said: "It's time to think about it, you are almost sixteen years old, right? In our country of Yang, girls are allowed to marry at sixteen, and if they are not married at eighteen, they will be taxed extra." Yan Wei said: "This matter must always be decided by the father..." Lu Jin laughed again: "So, you really have someone in mind? Which one is it? The one who is sick, or the one who saved you?"

Yan Wei said anxiously: "Sister Lu Jin! She is unhappy, and you still come to make fun of her." Lu Jin said: "If you don't like it, then it's just a business. You treat people, and they leave money for the consultation. We meet by chance, and we don't owe each other, so there's nothing to be unhappy about. If you like it, it's okay if you like it. It's natural to feel unhappy, no one can solve this matter, you can only solve it when you forget him or like another person." Yan Wei was stunned by what she said, thinking carefully, did she really like someone, and that's why she was so troubled?It doesn't seem to be, or is this what I like?

Lu Jin continued: "It's as if we fell in love with a piece of cloth, and after a moment of hesitation, it was already bought by someone else. At this time, we always think about the pattern of that cloth, think about finding the same one again, or looking for more. Take a few glances, trace the shape, and weave it by yourself. After a long time, you will be stunned. In fact, what you want is not the cloth, but the feeling that you can't get the cloth. It's like it was originally yours, but it was snatched by others. Gone. In fact, you forgot that it wasn't yours from the beginning."

"He was not mine from the very beginning..." Yan Wei repeated this sentence.That's right, she is the son of Xiangguo, and she is just a commoner girl. To put it bluntly, she is just the daughter of a deposed official, and she has no status... Seeing that she was still out of her wits, Lu Jin said, "Why don't you go and stay at my house for a few days! It's also lively to be with me, but it's deserted here, and it's easy for you to think about things by yourself, which is not good." Yan Wei pondered: "How are you tomorrow? I have to clean up tonight. Wu Hou said that there was a waiter in black looking for me and told me not to go out. It's getting late today, so I probably won't come. I'll wait tomorrow morning." They go again." Lu Jin said: "It should be a reward from the king, it's nothing important, you accept the things, and they can go back to do business. Why don't you go there tonight and come back tomorrow morning." Yan Wei said: "That would be too troublesome, I'd better go there tomorrow." Lu Jin was a little worried: "Can you go alone tonight? How about I stay here to accompany you?" Yan Wei said: "No need, it's not the first time I'm home alone, you're pregnant, you'd better go back earlier, the road is hard to walk when it's dark." Lu Jin nodded: "Then you must be careful!" After sending off Lu Jin, it was getting late.Yan Wei just felt a little hungry. She hadn't had any water or rice for a day, and her headache from the wind and cold was much better.She looked at the silk piece in her hand again, finally made up her mind, closed her eyes, and threw it into the charcoal brazier.The silk piece ignited with a chirping sound, and instantly turned into fly ash without leaving a trace. Yan Wei seemed to put down a big rock in her heart, put away the box, and prepared to cook some porridge to eat. "Dang! Dang! Dang!" Someone knocked on the door vigorously. Yan Wei was overjoyed suddenly, could it be that they came back again?Like the wind, he ran over to open the door, only to see two waiters in black standing outside the door, like two sections of black wooden stakes, serious and unsmiling. Yan Wei collected herself and asked, "Who are you two looking for?" One of them said coldly, "Is your name Yan Wei?" Yan Wei nodded, feeling that there was something wrong with the atmosphere, the faces of these two people were as heavy as water, and they didn't hold any rewards in their hands. "Then come with us!" There was impatience in the voice. Yan Wei asked: "Walk for a while? Where are you going? Who told you to come to me? What's the matter?" "Go to the palace in the inner city, you will know when you go." It sounded like a tone of sarcasm and contempt. Yan Wei's heart sank, and she forced herself to say calmly: "It's already so late, how about going tomorrow?" "Hmph! This is beyond your control, let's go!" The visitor replied with a sneer. At this time, another waiter in black who had not spoken all this time said: "Don't ask, quickly put on your clothes and go with us, we are just doing errands, if you have any questions, just meet the master and come back." Ask! Don't make it difficult for us." Seeing the situation, Yan Wei had no choice but to take a trip, and couldn't help but feel uneasy, wondering what was waiting for her in the dark night outside the door, and in the forbidden palace in the inner city. Yan Wei followed the two servants in black and walked up the long street. The two of them didn't speak, they just walked quickly, and Yan Wei almost had to trot to keep up.Seeing that the two of them were not obsessed with themselves, nor were they afraid of running away halfway, and they didn't seem to be asking for their own guilt, Yan Wei was slightly relieved. Come to the gate of the inner city "Yingmen", pass the customs defense, and go straight to the north.When you come to the "road gate", you will find the harem of the inner city inside.Yan Wei was handed over to two eunuchs, and they took her to the east. It was already dark, and I saw two lamps in the hands of the eunuch illuminating the ground ten feet below.The strange palace was like a huge labyrinth, Yan Wei only felt uneasy and helpless, she just wrapped tightly the deerskin short jacket around her body, and said softly: "Excuse me... two father-in-laws, where are we going? " One of them turned his head and smiled, his deeply wrinkled face was a little horrified by the light, and his smile also looked very strange: "Don't worry, girl, we're here, be careful with your feet..."