Chapter 74 Chapter 74: The Scarred Past

My name is not Xue. The specific name is meaningless now, the name is just a code name. I especially remember that when I was very young, I was seriously injured. I fell asleep for a long time. In my dream, I seemed to see an angel waving at me. The angel looked like a person. I guess, if I had a mother, it would look like this, right? The angel's smile makes me feel like I am wrapped in a gentle halo, I run in my dream, wherever the angel goes, I will go there.I don't know why I have been running with her, I only know that if the angel is gone, the dream will be dark. From then on, I discovered that smiling is a magical expression.

Because it saved a boy's life. I think that when I grow up, I will also have a happy smile like the person in my dream. At that time, I always thought that angels smiled because they were really happy. If such a sincere, transparent and pure smile does not burst out from the depths of the soul, how can it illuminate the lives of others? I can't remember how long it was before I woke up. When I woke up, there was no one around. I slept on a big lace-studded bed. From the sheets to the quilts to the gauze curtains, the whole room was decorated in pure white. I stared blankly at Bai, and lay on the bed for a long time.

I waited for a long time, but still no one came. I would like to ask where this is, I thought, even a bird, I would like to ask it to tell me what my name is and why I am lying here. But I can't move. There is an invisible barrier that firmly imprisoned me on the bed. I tried various methods, but I was still unable to break out. The result of the struggle is the rupture of the wound. Fresh blood, with a strong spicy taste, burned plum blossoms on the white sheets. I think the owner of the house will be angry, right? My mind was empty, as if something had been sucked out of me, and I was terrified by the vacuum-like nothingness.

I am in fear, possessed by hunger. The door opened. A man walks in. I stood up and looked at him with difficulty, he was so good-looking, I am sure I have never seen such a beautiful man. I don't know how to describe his appearance, I think, maybe this is the so-called [perfect]! The man is young and he is tall and tall.He walked up to me and looked at me condescendingly. There seemed to be some dissociation and pity in his eyes, as if I was a wounded animal. I kept silent, waiting for him to take the initiative to tell me my past, or declare my future. He flashed an odd smile at me.

In fact, thinking about it now, it was his most sincere smile!The reason why it makes me feel weird is probably because he hasn't smiled for too long. What a pity that such a beautiful person lost his smile and the most beautiful thing in the world. He knelt down and took my hand. His palm was very icy, and only a trace of warmth came from his fingertips. He's not used to looking people in the eye and talking. So, he fixed his eyes on me, and asked me lightly, "What's the matter with the blood on the bed sheet?" I think his hands are so cold, so cold that I feel like I have fallen into an ice cellar.

I pulled my hand back, it was just a small movement, the wound got bigger, and I moaned in pain. He looks good even with a frown. He grabbed my hand back again, his voice was as cold as ice, "Don't move, I'll treat you." At that moment, a little bit of worry leaked out of his eyes, although it was just a little bit, it made me feel that I was being cared for. His fingers are long and slender. He told me to close my eyes, and I did. I saw golden light scattered in front of my eyes, and those tiny light spots danced on his fingertips, and gradually landed on my wound. Although the wound was still painful, I felt very at ease.

At that time, I said to myself, I will also be such a man in the future, a man who is reassuring, a man who can heal others, and a man who can be relied on. "Thank you, Uncle." I smiled and frowned at him with pain. He froze for a moment, neither nodded nor shook his head. I asked him again, "Uncle, do you know my name and where I come from?" He was silent for a long time, and there was a little melancholy between his brows.Then he stood up, turned off the lamp beside the bed, opened the door and walked out, before the door closed again, he said softly, "Xue, from now on you will be called Xue."

Snow. Very nice name. But, why, this name makes me feel so lonely. I lay in bed for half a month, and the wound was almost healed. When my uncle saw that I was recovering well, he came here even less. I am in the room every day, besides being in a daze, I am still in a daze. So boring, so lonely. I really want to go out for a walk, I want to see if the outside world has many different colors than this pure white room. That day, I was still in a daze in the room, and the servant brought the fragrant tea, watched me drink it respectfully, and withdrew respectfully, and then screamed excitedly outside the door, "Ah, he is so beautiful, He may be even more beautiful than His Royal Highness the Demon King in the future!"

His Royal Highness the Demon King? Who is His Royal Highness the Demon King? "Knock knock knock." The door rang. I said, "Come in", thinking that it's only one o'clock in the afternoon, so it's not the time when my uncle will come, and the servants should be resting too. The door was pushed open with difficulty, and a small black shadow flashed and ran in. Before I had time to see who was coming, a small mouth moved close to my face and called out sweetly, "Brother!" I looked at him carefully, and saw that he had a round face, thick eyebrows, and slightly pursed lips arrogantly. He looked hundreds of thousands of years younger than me.

I think he looks like a person. "Brother Xue, Brother Xue~!" Regardless of my hesitation, he hugged my arm and shook it coquettishly. I couldn't help but want to laugh: the kid's eyes were so agile that it seemed that water would flow out at any moment, making people want to pinch his face. "Who are you? What's your name?" I asked. "My name is Liu, and I'm the future Demon King!" He looked proud, with dazzling golden eyes shining. "Brother Xue, you are so beautiful, why don't you go out and play with Liu!" He grabbed my hand and ran out.

The enchantment at the door was useless to him, so he dragged me out of the enchantment to a remote side entrance of the palace. There, a little monster with many heads is waiting. He happily ran towards the little monster and shouted, "Xiao Jian, Xiao Jian, I tell you, I have a friend! His name is Xue, from now on I will not only you, and you will not only me, Xue Brother will play with us!" The little beast raised all its heads to look at me, and made some warning sounds from its mouth. I see myself in their eyes. Lonely people always have many similarities. It's just that this little boy named Liu will run to find his companions, and I will just stay in the house all day. In the days that followed, Liu came to see me every day, and Xiaojian gradually let go of his guard against me. As Liu hoped, we became good friends. Decades later, I met Brin on the hill full of Senas, in the secret base exclusive to us. She is very timid, with thick eyelashes covering her big watery eyes, like a ceramic doll, as if if you don't hold her, she will fall to the ground and break to pieces. She is always so well-behaved that she hides behind Liu, half of her exposed body is covered by thick curly hair, and every time her watery eyes blink, people want to hold her in their hands and cherish her for a lifetime. She is used to stretching out her fleshy hands and tightly grasping the corner of Liu's clothes, just like a little tail that cannot be shaken off. Sometimes, Liu would pretend to be angry, hold her hand to ask her to let go, and pretend to complain a few words: "Let go, follower!" "It's annoying, I can't protect you forever." "Hey, you are a princess, you have to look like a princess!" Brin is the princess, and Liu is the future devil. And the uncle was called Joe, and everyone bowed their noble heads to him and called him "His Royal Highness the Demon King". How lucky I am. Although I don't have childhood memories, I have them. Just like Liu needs me, I also need friends. Liu is really important to me, but I never said it out loud. Uncle saved my life. But in my weakest time, it was the little boy who could act like a baby and brag with me. Over the years, we have grown up quite a bit. I no longer call him "Sexy Ghost", and he no longer calls me "Brother Xue". Because the adults have repeatedly explained from a long time ago that he will be the king in the future, the king aloft, and we can no longer nickname him anything else. And he can't call people "brother" at will. The adults said that this title will be used by those who want to, and it will threaten the position that Liu will take in the future. He seldom comes to play with me anymore, he has to learn a lot of lessons, and he has to pay his whole life for the noble blood flowing in his body. Occasionally, he would find time to come to me, and he complained without hesitation in front of me: "Xue, I hate class." "The teacher is so fierce, every day is so boring." "Xue, you study better than me and are more popular than me. How about you replace me and become king from now on!" When he finished this sentence, I clearly saw the crimson five finger marks on his cheeks. That was the first time I saw my uncle get so angry. Liu was grabbed by the collar and dragged out forcefully. I think I will never forget the look in his eyes. He told me with his eyes, "Don't plead for me, don't." I just stood there, facing the empty doorway, powerless until the moon came out. Later, Liu almost stopped coming. Even if he comes again, there will be a black wall between us, and many words can’t be said. Sometimes he will tell me the stupid things he did in class, and I will habitually move the corners of my mouth and tell him with a smile that I am very happy. happy. During that time, I was alone again. I took classes with the nobles, I was always ranked first in my studies, I was scouted, I became a child actor, I released an album, and the sales were amazing. Everyone said, "Xue is so good! It's even better than Liu! Xue is more suitable to be a prince." This sentence was told to me by Liu himself. When he said this, he was just understating it, but my heart skipped half a beat. I think I was too sensitive. In my eyes, Liu will always be the younger brother who will hug me and act like a baby. There are complex emotions that I didn't have before, but for me, it will definitely not change. I started skipping classes, failed exams on purpose, and deliberately made low-level mistakes in class that made the teachers unbelievable. I thought, in this way, those gossips will no longer emerge endlessly, and Liu will not be hurt. However, I was wrong. Liu's fist was so powerful that it hit me in the face, making me dizzy for a long time. I looked back at him in surprise, the world in front of me was shaking violently, and it took several seconds for his face to become clear in front of my eyes. I was a little annoyed, and my voice raised several octaves than usual, "What are you doing!" "I don't want you to pity me!!" His eyes burst into flames, making his already resolute face even more angular. "I..." I just want to protect you. "Xue, I don't like you like this! I would rather lose to you than you treat me like a pitiful little bug!!" "I didn't see you as a bug." Blood dripped from the corner of my mouth, I choked, and my eyes were astringent. "You don't? Don't lie to me! I know you too well! Not only me, but everyone can see that you are deliberately letting me, so obviously, everyone is accusing me behind my back, saying that I must be suppressing you, Don't let you be better than me, and say..." I was dumbfounded, and what he said later was a buzzing echo in my ears. Some things have been worn down in the years, and it is impossible to return to the beginning. The Liu in childhood, the me in childhood, and the friendship in childhood, finally failed to outlast time. I continued to do excellent Xue, and he chased me behind me. That chasing is no longer the same as when I was a child. The day I graduated from the Academy of Magic, Breen hugged me. Her body is soft, which I never noticed before. "My brother has changed, I'm very sad." She circled me behind me, her voice was soft like a little sheep. "Xue, I only have you." She said again. I just wanted to comfort her, but she was already trembling nervously, "Xue, I like you, don't reject me, okay?" "it is good." Lonely people need each other to warm and comfort each other. Breen is a wonderful woman. Beautiful, gentle, intelligent, she has it all. I think, I really loved her, although not very much. The company knew about my relationship with her, and the agent Luna told me that this matter must be kept secret. I'm glad I wasn't honest with the people about our relationship back then. Uncle Joe's health suddenly became very poor. I heard the maids whispering from behind, "I'm afraid the king will die." At that time, what I was most worried about was actually Liu. Because when Qiao was critically ill, Liu had just lost a pet named Sarah. I didn't ask Liu why he destroyed a city.His magic power is so amazing that when Joe brought him back, all the demon people asked Joe, if Liu is so impulsive and so easily desperate that he can't control his magic power, is it really suitable to be a future student? king. It was this incident that changed the trajectory of the lives of the three of us. Nobody knew, Joe whispered me on his deathbed. I knelt on his bedside, in my empty fists, the wind carried his breath gradually weakened. He waved to me, "Xue, come here, come here some more." I moved closer to him. After so many thousands of years, this is the first time he allowed me to approach so closely. He took a breath, probably wanting to explain something, but he coughed blood endlessly! I was nervous about ringing the bell, but he held me down to prevent me from getting up, and murmured, "Don't move, Xue, listen to me, don't do anything." I said, "Okay," and smiled at him, thinking it would make him feel better. But I'm not an angel. An angel's smile can save a person's life, but I can't. He held my hand, and this time there was no warmth in his fingertips. Tears slid down the corners of my mouth, very salty and astringent, I bit my lips, thinking that I was still not strong enough. "Xue, I want to tell you a secret..." He stared into my eyes, which were full of deep sadness. "Uncle, tell me, I'm listening." "I... am not your uncle." He loosened his grip on my hand, and then squeezed me even tighter. I don't know how to react. I saw the breath of my father in his eyes. "Just once, call me father..." He said softly, as if he was talking about an ordinary thing. I held back the astonishment that overwhelmed me like a flood, and tremblingly called him "Father". "Xue...you are still more like your mother..." I raised my eyes, unable to suppress the excitement in my heart, "Mom, is my mother still alive? Where is she?" He looked past me and to the far east, "Your mother is the Queen of the Snow Country. You were attacked by demons when you were very young, and you were seriously injured. Your mother kept getting sick after giving birth to you. She couldn't save you, so she came to beg me, begged me to take you in, begged me to save you. And I made cruel conditions for her..." "What...conditions?" I couldn't hold back my smile anymore. I thought I had cultivated well, but at this moment, I still had to throw away my mask. "I want her to promise me never to see you again, and...to erase your childhood memories." He rolled his eyes, his face was stained with the blackness of death, "Xue, you are Liu's real brother, if you If you are willing, I want to make you the next Demon King before he dies. Liu is still immature, he is still a big child, I have thought about it for a long time, he can not take the position of Demon King, if possible, can you..." "I can't." I pulled his hand away and told him word by word, "I'm just snow. I've been snow since the beginning. It's too late for you to tell me this now. You have wiped away my childhood at will." Go; Liu's childhood, but I hope he can forget everything! Except status, what have you given him? All he has left is the title of 'Future Demon King'. Are you going to take away what is left of him? ?” "Xue, it is destiny to be born as a descendant of the royal family. It is also destiny that Liu is not suitable to be a devil king." I couldn't help laughing, "It's suitable, it's not suitable, it's just a short sentence from you." Maybe it’s because I’ve always been obedient, and Joe was surprised by my resistance. After a while, he sighed, his expression was so serious that he couldn’t see his emotions, “Well, I won’t force you anymore, but you have to swear to me , now that you already know your identity, and since you have given up the position of Demon King, you can no longer fight or think about everything about Liu in the future, even if it is something that should belong to you, if Liu wants to If you want, you have to give it to him willingly, if you think you can’t do this in the future, you might as well reconsider my suggestion.” I was angry at his calmness, the kind of calmness that belongs to the emperor made me clenched my fists annoyed, "I swear, I will not snatch everything from Liu, even if it is mine, if he likes it, I will be willing." handed over to him. In this way, can you feel at ease?" He raised the corner of his mouth with difficulty, and smiled faintly at me, "Very well, I feel relieved." After speaking, he vomited blood again and again. I closed my eyes to cut off all the air mixed with his breath. Life can be like a soap opera. I am the son of the Demon King. Perhaps, it would be more appropriate to say illegitimate child? Liu became my own brother. So, what about Brin?How should I open my mouth to tear her already extremely fragile heart? I know that she will never let go no matter what. Under her weak body, she has a stubbornness that ordinary people can't imagine. I have thought of countless excuses, despicable, shameless, high-ranking, impeccable... all kinds of excuses My brain was filled with excuses, and without exception I drowned in her spring-like eyes looking at me. On the day of Joe's death, I excused my illness and did not accompany Liu and Brin to see him off for the last time. Immediately afterwards, Liu succeeded to the throne, and I was behind him, looking at his back, smiling from the bottom of my heart, happy for his more and more mature behavior. Joe is gone, and the day goes on. I no longer want to see Brin. Even though she cried into tears outside my hall, even though the servants kept begging me to go out and have a look, she never moved my footsteps. I admit that I am a coward. I always avoid things that I don't know how to face. Father, you have excellent insight. You must know that Brin and I are in love. You told me what to do and what not to do in the future, but you didn’t tell me how to treat Brin. Brin's feelings for me are much deeper than I imagined. Liu came to me more than once, and he said that he had no objection to my breaking up with Brin, but he wanted me to give Brin an acceptable reason. I can only smile. Acceptable reasons, acceptable reasons, acceptable reasons. I can't give it. So, Liu, I can only smile... In the days that followed, Brin still insisted on coming to me often, and the guards couldn’t stop her, and they didn’t dare to stop her. At first, she always asked me countless questions. Ask that one, "Why?" I answered her, again and again, "Because I don't love you anymore." Sometimes she would cry, sometimes she would leave silently, but she always said to me softly, "No, I don't believe it." She won't understand, maybe as long as she asks one more time, I will hug her tightly and never let go. Fortunately, she didn't ask that one more time. I should be glad. A girl appeared in my darkest days. She bared her teeth under my silver whip and said, "I tell you, don't call me a pet, I, my name is Mi-Xiao-Ai!"