Chapter 13 Chapter Thirteen

... The longest distance in the world It's not that I stand in front of you but you don't know that I love you But obviously love each other but can't be together The longest distance in the world It's not that we love each other but we can't be together But obviously unable to resist this longing but still deliberately pretending not to have you in my heart at all ... I have always been the most disdainful of these words, thinking that this is moaning for nothing, and always think that since love, it should be thorough.But now I deeply understand its meaning.I can feel warmth from every look that Yinzhen passed over my face, and I can also feel love from every sentence he pretended to be careless.But there seems to be an insurmountable gap between us. I can't get to his side, and he can't come to my side. We can only watch each other from the other side.

I can't think of the reason, and I can't think of what else can stop him now? There is something in my heart that I can't let go of, and I become more and more quiet. Sometimes I hardly say a word in a day, and almost all the time off duty is used to practice calligraphy.Seeing me like this, Cheng Huan no longer dared to act willfully and mischievously, and every time she looked at me, her eyes were timid.Hongli was surprised when he saw my words for the first time, but he didn’t ask anything. He just joked every time he came, saying that monks would divide the time when they recite scriptures. This happens every time, and every time I return a bleak smile.The way Qiaohui looked at me became more and more worried, and she would sigh softly from time to time.

No energy, no desire to bother.It seems that there is nothing else to love here except for reading and practicing calligraphy. After the great heat, half of midsummer has quietly passed, and the unbearable heat has also dropped a lot.A person continued to write in the room, immersed in his own world, completely forgetting himself. Seeing the lotus seed porridge on the table, she turned to thank Qiaohui, picked it up and took a sip, seeing that she had no intention of leaving, she walked to the table and sat down, saying, "Qiaohui, what's the matter?" ?" Qiaohui also sat down across from me, looked at me a few times, and hesitated to speak.Seeing her embarrassed look, she smiled lightly and said, "Qiaohui, if you have something to say, don't hesitate to speak up."

Qiaohui said: "Xiaowen, you were brought into the mansion by me, I don't want anything to happen to you." Seeing me listening quietly, she continued: "No matter what happened to you, whether you are in good health or not, you will suffer from it." Parents, you shouldn't spoil it." He was startled, then asked: "I ruined my body." Qiaohui said: "You have lost a lot of weight these days." Qiaohui sighed and grabbed my hand and said, "I'm a little scared. You look exactly like my second young lady before she died. You don't eat or drink, and you write day and night. I'm really afraid that you will be like that too." Like her, she went there at such a young age, and I don’t know much about it, but there are many people and things in life that are worth cherishing.”

The eyes are astringent, the heart is sour, and I have the urge to cry, but I don't want to cry, I have cried too much.Suppressing the tears in her eyes, she pulled out her hand and held Qiaohui's hand tightly, "Qiaohui, thank you." Qiaohui said with red eyes, "Xiaowen, I have always regarded you as a relative in my heart, You won't let me down." Looking at this sincere face, I nodded.Qiaohui got up with confidence and went to the layman, wiping the tears on her face as she walked. Walking to the mirror, he stroked his own face, with a pointed chin, dull eyes, and a wry smile in his heart.

Facing the mirror, I painted my eyebrows, lips, and cheeks to cover my pale face, and got up to walk outside. The afternoon sun was shining warmly, without a trace of wind, walking slowly along the path in the forest aimlessly, there seemed to be countless things mixed together in my mind, and when I thought about it carefully, it seemed like one thing nor.The whole person is empty, like a person who has been drinking, a little drunk, but a little sober. Shaking his head vigorously, trying to get rid of all these things.Suddenly a burst of talking and laughing floated over.Looking up, Yinzhen, Shisan, Hongshi, Hongli, Zhang Tingyu, etc. were sitting in the gazebo talking and laughing, a beautiful picture of the monarch and his ministers having fun together.He froze for a moment, then hurriedly turned around and walked back.

After walking a few steps, I heard Gao Wuyong's cry from behind, stopped and turned around, feeling a little helpless in my heart, how could I come here by accident?This farm was built by Yinzhen after Thirteen was imprisoned, in order to avoid suspicion and improve the relationship with Kangxi.And claiming to be a lame layman made Kangxi let go of his guard against him, and praised him: "Able to empathize with me, love me, sincere and sincere, can be described as sincere and filial." How about going in and out of the Qianqing Palace?Of course, for this reason, the farm was able to maintain its original appearance.

While I was thinking, Gao Wuyong had already come to me, and said respectfully, "Miss Xiaowen, the emperor let you go." I responded and walked forward, glancing at Gao Wuyong beside me out of the corner of my eye. He deliberately fell behind by half a step, and then laughed at himself fiercely in his heart, what the hell was he.Gao Wuyong said softly as he walked: "Master Zhang is an expert in tea tasting. He has already heard that you are a master tea maker in the garden. It was a pity that he was not on duty just now?" Walk over, give Yinzhen a blessing, and stand still.Yinzhen glanced at me and said with a light smile, "Tingyu, you are the one who is lucky in the end." Zhang Tingyu's beard and hair in front of him were a little gray, but he didn't look old. In my opinion, he was elegant, and his eyes It is sharp. Generally speaking, it is impossible for elegance and sharpness to appear on the same person, but when it appears on him, I don't think there is anything wrong with it.

Zhang Tingyu looked me up and down quickly, and said with a smile: "The blessing of the minister is also from the emperor's blessing. If it weren't for the emperor who has a clever girl by his side, the minister would not have such a blessing." The workmanship is really top-notch.Sure enough, Yinzhen laughed and said: "Xiaowen, hurry up and do it, I can't lose face." Responding gently, he walked towards the round table in front of him.There was already a cinnabar three-person pot on the table, and it turned out that they were going to drink Kung Fu tea.Seeing that the water behind the round table was almost boiling, I squatted down and looked at the water carefully after washing my hands.

Suddenly I heard Zhang Tingyu who was beside me say: "Crab eyes are more raw than fish eyes." He was indeed a tea-savvy person, raised his head and answered softly: "Swish, I want to be like the song of the pine wind." Zhang Tingyu showed a look of approval on his face.Looking down, the water has reached the heat. The white crane shower, the oolong enters the palace, the hanging pot is flushed, the spring breeze blows, the dream finds the fragrance, Guan Gong patrols the city, and Han Xin orders soldiers, all in one go since the ironing. Everyone present praised, Yinzhen, Thirteen, and Zhang Tingyu each took a cup to taste carefully, Zhang Tingyu held the cup in his hand and said: "The girl is from the south." She replied softly: "The servant is from the northwest." Zhang Tingyu was stunned for a moment. , Smiling at Yinzhen: "The minister has misread it." There was a flash of warmth in Yinzhen's eyes, and a faint smile appeared on his face.Hongli on the side said: "Master Zhang, Xiaowen has many ways to make tea."

It was not good, but Hongshi in front of Hongli said, "Of course the fourth brother knows that the relationship between the fourth brother and Xiaowen is so close." His heart trembled, and he quickly looked at Yinzhen, only to see his eyes gleam. Leng, glanced at Hongshi, Hongshi saw this, hurriedly lowered his head, and muttered: "Is this the truth? I saw them scratching and making trouble a few days ago." The voice was not too loud, just enough to let everyone people heard. Zhang Tingyu seemed to feel that the atmosphere was not right, so he hurriedly changed the subject.But everyone already had their own thoughts in their hearts, and the scene suddenly cooled down.At this time, Thirteen, who had been silent all this time, said indifferently: "Brother Emperor, the Mid-Autumn Festival is coming soon, and the funeral of Emperor Father has passed. Do you want to have fun with the ministers this year?" Yinzhen put away his stern expression and said in silence for a while: "It's been three years, and I really should have some fun with the officials. Hongli is not young anymore, so I'll leave the arrangement of the palace banquet to him." Hongli hurriedly got up and agreed, but Hongshi's face was flushed and he was extremely embarrassed.After hearing this, Shisan still said indifferently: "Brother Huang has been here for a while, and he must be tired, so let's take our leave first." A group of people filed out, only Yinzhen, Gao Wuyong and I were left in the pavilion, and Yinzhen was still sitting there, not intending to get up.Silence, another silence.Although I have long been used to this way of getting along, but today I always feel that there is an invisible pressure swelling in my body, and I desperately hope that I can escape here immediately. The mind is useless, and when the mind is disturbed, it will always make mistakes. Just when I feel overwhelmed, the teacup in my hand falls to the ground with a bang and shatters.Yinzhen glanced at the cup on the ground and said: "What Hongshi said is true." A little dazed, he said: "Will the emperor care?" Hearing this, Yinzhen got up and walked in front of me, staring at me and said: "No Make me." Concealing his sadness, he chuckled lightly and said: "How dare a servant girl force the emperor." Yinzhen suddenly grabbed my shoulder and repeated: "Don't force me." He was so angry that he didn't want to recognize me , How can I force him, the grievances I have suffered these days suddenly rushed to my heart, I shook his hand vigorously and said loudly: "Si elder brother is just a child to me, just like Cheng Huan, he belongs to someone I care about." Son. Are you satisfied?" He misunderstood me so much, I misunderstood him, or he didn't understand me at all.A little desperate, with a miserable smile on his face, he walked out quickly.After walking for a long time, I saw a dense forest beside the road, so I plunged into it without thinking.The scene in the forest was a bit dark. Taking advantage of the sunshine from the gaps in the leaves, I found a clean place, sat down, and poured out the tears I had endured for a long time.I have worked so hard for myself for so long, and also for the love I have persisted in for so many years. The rosy red of the setting sun was eroded by the twilight of the sky bit by bit, the forest was already pitch black, leaning quietly on the tree, my heart was extremely peaceful, and I asked myself over and over again in my heart, is there any value left behind ?Another voice responded from the bottom of my heart: "No more, no more..." Looking at the edge of the forest from a distance, the last light also disappeared.Get up and go out, thinking about how to escape from here in your mind.Get away from it all, get away from it all.There was a vague black figure on the side of the road. Hearing the voice from here, he turned around.It turned out to be Hongli, who gave him a solemn blessing, and immediately walked forward, Hongli was a little stunned, probably never seen me treat him so solemnly, he hurriedly stood in front of me and said: "Xiaowen, what's the matter." Looking at him quietly, he said, "Si elder brother, I'm sorry, I made you embarrassed today." Listening to my respectful words, Hongli was a little flustered, he said: "Xiaowen, I don't care about these things at all, and you don't need to blame yourself." A warm heart asked: "Do you really not care?" Hongli Slightly smiled and said: "Huang Ama won't do anything to me just for a gossip." I was surprised in my heart, I didn't expect Hongli to be so frank.He hesitated in his heart, but still said: "Si elder brother, can you do me a favor." Hongli put away the smile on his face and stared at me: "If it is to help you get out of the palace, then don't say anything." I was even more shocked. This young man, whom I had always regarded as a child, had grown up all of a sudden in these days, which surprised me and made it too late for me to accept it.Looking at my expression, Hongli smiled again: "Don't look at me like that, you put Cheng Huan and me in a team with wishful thinking. I am a grown man, maybe this year or next year, Huang Ama will propose marriage to me." Sighing, secretly laughing, yes, it is indeed my own wishful thinking. Hongli said again: "If you really can't find your home in the future, I can provide you with a title." Seeing that there was no joking on his face, he was a little moved in his heart and said: "Si elder brother, you are not afraid I'm old." Hongli's expression changed and he laughed loudly: "You are already old, I'm not interested in older women, I'm just giving you a title, I'm afraid no one will want you in the future, don't think about it It's over." After that, he ran forward quickly, his face was a little uneasy, and he ran after him with fists.