Chapter 19 Chapter Nineteen

I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at his face. Suddenly the carpet on the floor was very deep, reaching to my ankles, and the fluffy hair was like a ball of snow. I knew that I was only sending him to humiliate him. Sure enough, after a short period of silence, he suddenly laughed loudly: "Tong Xue, you really think highly of yourself. What do you think of yourself? A fairy? Do you think I can't leave you? You used to be so jealous of me." Lie, you have caused a lot of trouble just by committing suicide, I never thought that you would come and say such things to me because of your so-called friend."

I knew the result was like this. I didn't raise my head to look at him, so as not to embarrass myself more. I even moved the corner of my mouth, wanting to smile bitterly: "You're right, I really think highly of myself." I grabbed those contracts and said goodbye to him incoherently: "I'm sorry, Mr. Mo, to bother you." I don't feel regretful, I've thought of all the ways I can think of, and I've tried my best, even if all I got was humiliation. I thought a little exhaustedly, maybe Zhao Xing could think of other ways by himself. I took the elevator downstairs, and the neighborhood is full of high-end residences, and there are almost no taxis coming. I didn't bother to wait for the taxi, so I just walked along the road with my head down.

After walking for an unknown distance, someone suddenly grabbed my arm. I turned around and saw that it was Mo Shaoqian, his eyes became colder and colder in the darkness, and his voice became colder: "Who else are you going to find? " "No one?" I lost all hope, and felt ashamed. "My own fate is bad, and no one will help me." He threw my hand away, I don't know why he was angry, anyway, he wouldn't help me, I turned my head and took two steps, I looked back and saw that he was still standing there, the street lamp cast golden light on him, he was still He is well-dressed and meticulous, even standing under the street lamps without looking obtrusive. I don't know why he stood there still, and I don't know why he chased him down. I never understood him, he was too unpredictable, the information It's not something that ordinary people like me can speculate on.

As soon as I took a step, I was grabbed by him again, almost dragging my whole body into his arms, and before I could react, he had already kissed me hard. He would kiss me in the past, just like today, with a savage and plundering aura, the domineering sweep made one's heart palpitate. I closed my eyes and let him do whatever he wanted. Anyway, I endured it for three years, and it would be nothing if I endured it again. He stopped and I looked at him with wide eyes. "One month." There was a faint loathing in his voice, as if he was hating something, "you stay with me for another month."

"Look at the contract." I have no emotional ups and downs at all, "the three contracts are not that simple, why don't you ask your lawyer to have a look." His chest undulates slightly, I know I'm cheap, I don't think it matters anymore. He either needs me to anger Mu Yongfei, or he still needs me now. But my transaction with him has never been pleasant, from the beginning to the end Now. I am the daughter of his father-killing enemy. He threatened me with my uncle. In the past three years, we have been pretending countless times, suppressing the urge to kill each other in front of each other, until we tear ourselves apart in the end.

After Cutie died, in the hospital, we tore our faces apart, but I didn't think I'd have to come back and beg him anyway. I didn't expect him to treat me well, I've given up on myself anyway. To my surprise, he didn't touch me that night. He slept in the master bedroom and I slept in my own bedroom. I've been away from here for too long, and I can't sleep at all. The closet is full of my clothes, and even my cosmetics and combs are still on the dressing table. I thought he would have these things thrown away, but everything was still there. The vase on the table was filled with , full of purple hyacinths, Mo Shaoqian seems to like this kind of flower very much, but he has never had any flowers in his room, but my room has always been planted with this kind of flower for three years, I am tired of seeing it and have never changed it. Yes At that time, he was so domineering, insisting on branding everything with his mark.

Or he thought that I would come back, and even Yueying's matter was a mess. The capitalists are with the capitalists, and no one knows whether Yueying's father knows him or not. I don't trust anyone anymore. But even if it's a full set, I'm willing to do all of this. When I got up in the morning, Mo Shaoqian had already left. He hadn't read the contract, and he didn't leave a word. I felt very uneasy. Things weren't as I expected, and I wasn't sure at all. The driver sent I went to school and on the way to school I came up with an idea. After this day's class, I went to the pet market, but what I didn't expect was that Samoyed is so expensive, a small puppy costs more than one thousand, nearly two thousand yuan.

I don’t have enough money in my card, and I’m still short of three hundred. After a long time, they refused to sell it to me. At the end, when I saw that I was about to cry, the boss laughed: “Forget it, forget it, you like this one so much. , I'll post some profit and sell it to you." I hugged the shivering puppy in my arms and rushed all the way back excitedly. That night, Mo Shaoqian didn't go back to have dinner, probably because of entertainment. The kitchen cooked for me, and I didn't think much about eating. I watched TV until twelve o'clock, but he didn't come back either.

I had no choice but to go upstairs to take a shower and go to sleep. I hadn't slept much when I suddenly heard movement downstairs. I knew it was Mo Shaoqian who had returned, so I quickly got up and picked up the sleeping puppy to greet him. I met Mo Shaoqian in the corridor, he walked unsteadily, obviously drunk. I've never seen Mo Shaoqian drink too much, so I was in a daze for a while. He also looked at me in surprise, looking at the dog in my arms: "Why are you here?" "I bought a Samoyed..." I picked up the puppy and showed it to him, "Look, it looks like cute when I was a kid, right?"

He suddenly turned his face: "Don't mention being cute! Who do you think you are---what do you buy a dog for? You want to use this to please me? You think I'm a fool? You know I will be a fool, you know I will be That's why you came to me, idiot." His eyes were dark with anger, and he seemed to have some kind of hatred for me, "don't deceive others too much, and don't be too complacent, I know I'm a fool, I don't need you to remind me !" I looked at him a little blankly, I didn't expect him to be angry. I thought he would like dogs, but he pushed me away as soon as he stretched out his hand: "Go away!"

I was pushed against the wall by him, and the puppy woke up, its eyes wide open and whimpering in my arms. My shoulder was so painful, he didn't look at me again, and went straight into the master bedroom The door slammed shut with a "bang". I stood there at a loss, the puppy licked my hand, clicked, the hot little tongue, it struggled to squeeze its head out of my arm, I looked down at it, its dark eyes also Look at me. I really don't attract Mo Shaoqian's attention, even I'm so tired that he doesn't like it either. The next day, the housekeeper brought Xiangxiu back, and the puppy stayed in the lovely room. Xiangxiu liked it very much. After Xiangxiu talked a lot, I realized that the cute dog was hit by a car. Xiangxiu That day Xiu took her for a walk, but when she saw Mo Shaoqian coming downstairs, she suddenly broke the rope and rushed across the road. Unexpectedly, a car happened to pass by, and she was hit by a car. "Mr.'s complexion changed. He sent Cute to the hospital, but there was nothing he could do." I didn't know that Xiangxiu could speak Chinese, I always thought she could only speak English. Bathing the puppy is very fun. I am responsible for holding it down, and Xiangxiu is responsible for washing it.The puppy desperately grabbed my hand with its two paws, and when the warm water from the shower fell on it, it almost wailed, and looked at me with teary eyes, which made me feel extremely guilty: " Is it hot?" "Puppy doesn't like to take a bath." Xiangxiu said in her blunt Chinese, "After washing." After the bath, the puppy was wrapped in a big towel, soft like a baby, and Xiangxiu dried its fur with a blower.The thin puppy gradually turned back to its round and fat appearance.Xiangxiu suddenly said, "No name!" I also remembered that the puppy does not have a name yet.Because for three consecutive days, I didn't see Mo Shaoqian for more than half an hour.I was going to ask him to name the puppy, but he ignored me and the dog at all. On the third night, I was a little impatient, because I didn't know whether he would really help with the contract if the stalemate continued. I made up my mind to ask for a guarantee.He came back very late at night as usual, and I waited for him to enter the bathroom, then sneaked into the cloakroom of the master bedroom. I remember there was also a door leading to the bathroom. The door from the cloakroom to the bathroom was unlocked, so I changed my clothes in the cloakroom, and then put it on with his shirt.I remember that he slept in my room one night last year. In the morning, I picked up his papers and went to the bathroom. When I came out, he saw him. He pestered me and refused to get up, which made me miss half a day of class.I pulled the hem of the shirt nervously. Men's shirts are wide and big, so it looks tempting enough. I carefully opened the door a crack, and saw Mo Shaoqian lying in the bathtub with his eyes slightly closed as if he was asleep.He probably didn't have a drink today, so I quietly took off my slippers and walked over barefoot carefully. Walking all the way to the bathtub, I suddenly saw a flashing picture on the LED screen. It was "The King of Net", which was too funny. How could a big man like him watch this kind of movie?But I didn't have time to think about why Mo Shaoqian would watch cartoons anymore, because he suddenly seemed to have noticed something and turned around.His eyes were like knives, cold and ruthless, and more of a kind of indifference.I was a little embarrassed, standing there unable to advance or retreat. "Who told you to wear my clothes?" His voice was also very indifferent, "Get out!" I saw his hands clenched by the bathtub, and I didn't know if it was because of anger.As soon as I had a heart, I decided to go all out. Before he was going to fuck me, I decided to go all out.I flopped into the water like a duck, I originally wanted to catch his arm, but because of the buoyancy, I couldn't stand still, so I wrapped my arms around his neck in embarrassment and instinct.He tried to break free in disgust, we almost had a fight in the bathtub and we got soaked, I lay on my stomach like an octopus and he wouldn't let him go, he was so angry that his eyebrows were furrowed.I kissed him facelessly, from the chin to the neck, he was finally impatient with my kiss, turned back and held me down. In the end, I was so tired that I fell asleep in the bathtub, and I didn't even know how Lu Lu had just come out. Because I heard the hair dryer buzzing in my ear, the warm wind blowing on my face, and finally the warm hand brushed my face and gently turned my head in the other direction. I was very comfortable by the warm wind. When I was a child, my mother would also blow my hair with a hair dryer. She always said not to sleep with wet hair, or you will get a headache.This buzzing sound reassured me, as if I was at home when I was very young, I murmured to my mother, I thought I might be dreaming, and fell asleep again within a few seconds. When I woke up, I found that my neck was numb, because I didn't sleep on a pillow, but slept on Mo Shaoqian's arm all night.He still has a familiar and light fragrance, the kind of smell that I hate the most.And I nestled in his arms, unconscious, sleeping like a pig all night. I feel very shameful, maybe betraying myself again and again, I have become numb and even used to it, and now I feel it is natural.I quietly slipped back to my room without making a sound, changed my clothes and went to class.I backed up the bus twice and ended up running late.No one helped me to occupy a seat, and Yueying was not there, so I sat alone in the last row, feeling very lonely.I was a little absent-minded throughout the class, and I kept seeing the bodhi string on my wrist when copying notes.I remember the way Yueying spoke at that time, under the light of the ward, her side face was gentle and beautiful.I don't regret what I did, I think if I can really help Yueying, everything is worth it. I went back to the apartment at night, it was rare for Mo Shaoqian to be at home.The two of us had dinner together, and I was a bit clueless, and the extended atmosphere really made me feel out of place.I ran away before he woke up in the morning, not knowing what his attitude would be.But he kept ignoring me, and it was difficult for me to talk to him. After dinner, Xiangxiu came to say hello to us. She was going to walk the dog.The puppy even walks a little crookedly, and looks at people with moist eyes when drinking, with an innocent expression on his face.After putting on the collar, he was not used to it. He kept scratching and scratching with his paws. Xiangxiu tried to stop it, but it kept scratching. Mo Shaoqian looked at the dog with a frown, and I took the opportunity to ask him, "Should I give it a name..." He still had no expression on his face, but he finally spoke: "It's called annoying." I was a little embarrassed, I retracted and remained silent.Xiangxiu was very happy, thinking that hate is the same word as cute. I know what he means, he hates the dog as much as he hates me.But who asked me to ask him? The relationship between Mo Shaoqian and I fell into a kind of stalemate, he was lukewarm to me, and I seemed very guilty in front of him.Although he was not very kind to me in the past, he always had hypocrisy, which made me feel much better than the cold appearance now.What I'm worried about is that he refuses to fulfill the agreement. Although he used to keep his word, but he is such a ruthless person, it's easy to go back on his word. Anyway, I have been cheated by him too many times. Fortunately, the holiday is coming soon, and I offered to go out with him, but he didn't seem interested: "Whatever you want." I feel very discouraged, this month seems to be difficult.He seems to be very busy at work, I can't see him very much, because he comes back very late, and he doesn't pay much attention to me when I am at home, I am almost a little worried.When it was time for vacation, Mo Shaoqian finally asked me: "Last time you said you were going out, where do you want to go?" I am very knowledgeable: "Go wherever you say." pick up nine I didn't expect him to take me to the beach. I started to feel scared when I got off the plane. When I saw the beach house, I was almost shaking. The villa hasn't changed much from the last time I was here, I just don't want to echo what happened here, the sound of the waves makes me feel dizzy, and all the memories about this place make me feel uncomfortable.I reluctantly said to Mo Shaoqian, "I'll just live on the first floor, okay?" Unexpectedly, he said: "There is no bedroom on the first floor." I hated the bedroom on the second floor. Even though the floor-to-ceiling curtains were closed, when I first walked in, I still had the urge to escape. There are no servants in the villa here, and I have to do everything myself. I opened the suitcase and hung up the clothes. I didn't bring anything, but just a change of clothes.After tidying up, I mustered up the courage to open the curtains.Outside the window is the tranquil sea, and the faint shadow of the island can be seen as far as the eye can see.There are gulls walking on the beach, and the waves are covered with white lace, rushing to the beach, and then receding.I sat on the bed in a daze. Three years had passed, and I thought I would never have the courage to face the sea again.Or time is really the best medicine, let me forget everything I used to.The past started here, did he want to end here? Someone knocked moderately on the open door a few times, I looked back, and it turned out that it was Mo Shaoqian.Most of the time he is polite and like a gentleman.He had already changed into casual clothes, and he asked, "I'm going to go shopping, do you want to come together?" grocery shopping? The last time I came here seemed to be full of takeaways. I don’t even remember it. It was such an unbearable memory that I was forced to erase it from my mind. I dealt with all unpleasant memories in a way of forgetting. .I don't want to stay here alone, so I honestly go shopping with him. I never dreamed that capitalists don't have cars here, no, they still have cars.When Mo Shaoqian pushed the bicycle out from the basement, I was going to be stupid. He glanced at me: "You want to walk too?" So much sun, so much heat...well, I got on the back of the bike and let him ride me down the boulevard. Riding a bicycle on the tree-lined road with blue sea and blue sky sounds quite beautiful. It's just that Mo Shaoqian is riding the bike, and he's taking me with him, which makes people feel awkward no matter what. I didn’t ride very far, but it was a very long and big slope, not too steep, but it was always uphill. Although it was late spring, Mo Shaoqian’s T-shirt was sweaty and stuck to his body after a while. I always thought he would not Sweating - except in certain circumstances.But now there is a big area of ​​sweat in his vest, he looks like a freehand painting, usually he is too well-dressed, I feel so awkward seeing him like this. I couldn't help but gently pulled up the clothes stuck to his vest with my hands, the wind poured in from his collar, and his clothes bulged like sails.The wind blowing by the sea is very comfortable, and my skirt was also blown up. I pressed my skirt with one hand and pulled his skirt with the other. I thought it was funny and ridiculous. At first I wanted to hold back, but I couldn’t. After a while I couldn't help it anymore, I didn't laugh out loud, but Mo Shaoqian seemed to have eyes on the back of his head, and he asked without turning his head, "What are you laughing at?" "I've never seen you ride a bicycle..." The bicycle has already stepped on the top of the slope, and he seems to be relaxed, with a certain kind of joy in his tone: "There are so many things you haven't seen!" Before I could react, he suddenly let go.The car rushed straight down the slope due to inertia, the wind whizzed past the ear, and the salty smell of the sea hit head-on.The speed of rushing down like this was too fast, and all the trees retreated one by one, which scared me so much that I hugged his waist. But Mo Shaoqian whistled very easily, I have never heard him whistle, and I have never seen him so relaxed.He's right, there's a lot I haven't seen. I don't know most of the various seafood in the market. Although I have eaten a lot of food with Mo Shaoqian in the past two years, I only know what those things look like after they are cooked, and I often don't match them.Mo Shaoqian is pretty good at picking seafood, and he is really ruthless when he chops. I think he may have used all his business negotiation skills, and finally the hawker called him big brother. I like the vegetable market, it is much better than the supermarket, and the food is fresher, all of which are supplied by nearby fishermen.The place where we live is too remote, dozens of kilometers away from the city. On the way back, of course, Mo Shaoqian took me by bike, and I was carrying several black plastic bags, which were full of fish, shrimp and crabs, as well as a large handful of green lettuce.There is also a bag full of oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, giving me the illusion of playing house.It's just that Mo Shaoqian is the object of the play, which is too weird.But I don't know why I feel better.Maybe it’s because the place is so blue, the clouds are so white, the sun is so bright, and the space is so fresh; maybe it’s because the moment I rushed downhill when I came here, the wind brushed my face, which made me feel like letting go. Happy and free and easy. When Mo Shaoqian let go of the car again, I grabbed the corner of his clothes and laughed out loud.I haven't laughed so easily for a long time, I put aside all my troubles for a while, under the blue sea and blue sky, under the bright sun, all my worries were evaporated. When I got back to the villa, I was drenched in sweat and tanned. I forgot to put on sunscreen and went shopping with him.After I took a shower, Mo Shaoqian was already busy in the kitchen.I am not surprised at all that he can cook, Mo Shaoqian is omnipotent, he can ride a bicycle, he can whistle, he can bargain with vendors, he can do everything. I felt ashamed to sit back and enjoy the rest, so I moved a rattan table to the yard, and then carried out two chairs.Eating dinner outside is cooler and better than turning on the air conditioner.Sure enough, after a while Mo Shaoqian saw me tossing through the floor-to-ceiling windows, and he gave me another instruction in the midst of his busy schedule: "Light the mosquito coil first." It has always been a so-called candlelight dinner, and there has never been such a thing as a mosquito coil dinner.But the facts proved that Mo Shaoqian was wise, because there were indeed mosquitoes, and I was asked for several bags after lighting mosquito coils. Mo Shaoqian's craftsmanship is good, of course it's far behind a professional chef, but it's much better than mine.I was overwhelmed by this meal, but Mo Shaoqian has a very good appetite, and so do I. We ate a large sea crab, two catties of shrimp, a piece of steamed sorghum, and even the fried lettuce. Eat up. After eating, Mo Shaoqian gave another instruction: "Go wash the dishes!" I honestly went to wash the dishes. This task is not difficult to do. There is a dishwasher in the kitchen, just put the dishes in it.It's just that the kitchen was messed up by him, and there were dishes and water stains everywhere. I couldn't help picking up a rag to clean it up.Halfway through packing, Mo Shaoqian walked in, and suddenly hugged me from behind.He had already taken a bath, and there was a light fragrance of bath liquid on his body, and his movements were almost gentle, which startled me.If you are not sure, turn around and kiss him proactively, or just let him hug you. The kitchen faced the sea, and the sun had already set into the sea, but there was still a purple glow all over the sky, and it was getting dark.The view here is very beautiful, even the kitchen has such a good sea view.I stood there motionless, my body was a little stiff, he turned my face away, and kissed me very tenderly. We have kissed countless times in the past three years, and he has never asked so tenderly, holding me in his arms, holding my waist with both hands, the entanglement of lingering lips and teeth is almost like water, which can drown people.I finally remembered why I feel happy today - because of Xiao Shan, Xiao Shan and I used to have such days in the distant city of T.Our happiness at that time, our scene at that time, is almost a kind of relive. I can't see through it, Mo Shaoqian's eyes are very dark, very dark, and I can even see my own reflection clearly in the pupils, I suddenly feel scared, not the usual fear of him, but another kind of inexplicable Fear, as if some catastrophe is coming.No matter what it looks like, I just feel like a black hole, very scary, a black hole that can swallow everything, and when my thinking gets a little closer, I shrink back in fear.I closed my eyes, but I couldn't help trembling slightly. He has always been very sensitive, so he stopped immediately and asked me: "What's wrong?" I forced a smile at him: "Nothing." It must be ugly when I smile, because even his face has changed.After a while, he sneered: "Can't pretend anymore?" I don't want to explain anything.The last ray of wandering disappeared on the sea, without turning on the light, the light in the kitchen gradually dimmed, and her whole body fell into that kind of confusion, but his voice was clear and almost cold: "Even if it's just perfunctory, you Also perfunctory with snacks. Oh, I forgot, you don’t have new—you don’t have new at all. Didn’t you tolerate it before? Can’t bear it in just a few days? There are still twelve days, don’t you Have you been enduring, pretending? Why, can’t bear it anymore? I really don’t have any patience? I haven’t signed the contract yet, so you can’t bear it? If you can’t bear it, get out now, you Go wherever you want!" He turned around and left. I stood there blankly, and heard the sound of him slamming the door from a distance.