Chapter 44 Chapter 44: I Can't Keep My Clothes (Part 2)

Because of my elder brother, I look forward to Xuanqing's return even more eagerly.When Huanbi and I faced each other, weeping and anxious, only thinking about how to take my brother back to Kyoto quietly for treatment. However, days are like years, and painstakingly looking forward to it, one month has passed, but Xuanqing still has no return date.Not only is there no return date, but there is no news at all, Prince Qinghe's Mansion doesn't know when he will return, Qingliangtai doesn't know when he will return, and even Concubine Shu Gui doesn't know, like a kite with a broken string, it has lost all news.

Ten days passed, fifteen days passed. My heart was extremely anxious, Concubine Shu Gui comforted me and said: "The road to the south of Dian is far away, thousands of miles away, and it is the most meticulous thing to observe the people's sentiments, I am afraid that there may be delays on the road." I was worried about my elder brother's condition, and he was alone in Lingnan. I couldn't help feeling anxious and bitter, boiling like frying, as if swallowing a big mouthful of yellow lotus juice in my mouth, making my heart, lungs and five internal organs bitter.I leaned against Concubine Shu Gui's knees, and the concubine stroked my neck, and comforted me softly: "Huan'er, don't worry. When Qing'er comes back, I will pick you up and leave here, and then I will take your brother to Beijing for proper treatment. Although insanity is a difficult disease, it is not incurable. There are many apricot forest masters in Beijing, and it will take at most two or three years to cure them. Don't worry too much." The tone of the concubine was soft and painful Xi, said softly: "It will be fine when Qing'er comes back, everything will be fine."

There was a cold, sweet and bitter scent of sandalwood on Toffee's Taoist robe, and its soft texture pressed against my cheek.It's already February.The weather is getting warmer, everything is recovering, the new grass is showing buds, the light yellow and light green stars are mixed with the February blue that blooms like stars everywhere, and the small blue flowers are so close. The warm breath of spring is approaching like this up. How can I not be burning with worry?If Xuanqing doesn't come back again... My face flushed slightly, and the nausea of ​​suffocation in my chest and abdomen hit me again. I couldn't resist the overwhelming feeling in my stomach, and finally couldn't help but turned my head and ran out.

Although the retching passed, the dizziness in his head did not ease.Concubine Shu Gui rushed out and patted my back, eagerly said: "What's the matter? But did something spoil?" I glanced at the concubine, and immediately lowered my head, a coral-colored blush overflowed my jade-colored cheeks.Concubine Shu Gui thought for a while, and said pleasantly, "Could it be... when did it happen?" I lowered my head shyly, and unconsciously twirled the fur of my cuff with my fingers, and said in a low voice, "It's been more than a month since he left." The concubine was overjoyed, "Okay! Seeing that I am going to be a grandmother." The concubine held my hand and said, "Huan'er, how many years have I been looking forward to it!" The concubine's eyes were slightly moist, "Okay My child, I just wronged you and wanted to follow Qing'er without a name."

I lowered my head slightly, and rested my chin on the pink-blue placket. A magnolia pattern was sparsely embroidered on the placket, and the tactile sensation brought by the fine stitches was very appropriate.I whispered: "What I value in my heart is not fame." The corners of the concubine's eyes were soft and bright, and she said with emotion: "My good boy, you are the most like me. In this world, after all, a word of love is more important than fame and wealth." I murmured in a low voice, "I wish to have a person with one heart, and never leave each other."

Concubine Toffee pulled me to sit down together, and asked Cumulus to put a goose feather cushion under her body, and said confidingly: "Huan'er, I don't know what Qing'er promised you. It's just that I know my son best. If he likes someone wholeheartedly, he will treat her wholeheartedly. Even if you have no status, he will not marry again. To the outside world, let him be a lonely King of Qinghe. As long as you can be together for a long time Together, don't be sneaky like this, it doesn't matter whether you live in the palace or the balcony. As a human being, the inside is always the most important thing."

Perhaps such a future can be expected.The first child was not born, and I couldn't raise it with my own hands.And now the child in my womb, my child and Qing's child, I can grow up with him personally, and feel the real joy and happiness of a mother. I was soft in my heart, Yiyi said: "The concubine can understand how Qing treats me and how I treat Qing. If I don't let him down, he won't let me down either." I shyly said, "If Qing comes back, Toffee don't tell him yet." The concubine smiled brightly like a spring breeze, and said: "That's natural, you young couples can just say it yourself. I'm just waiting to hold my grandson."

I stretched out my hand to caress my belly, which was still not showing the dew, and my heart was full of sweet expectations, as long as Qing came back, I just waited for Qing to come back. Time passed slowly while waiting, Huanbi gazed at me with occasional froze eyes, as if a stream of haze was drawn by the sky, staring at my lower abdomen. I can't understand her heart knot.I beckoned her to come over, held her hand and put it on my lower abdomen, and said in a soft voice, "Listen, it's your little nephew inside. Huanbi, Yuyao and Yurao are not here. I'm afraid we sisters will be alone for the rest of my life." .My child is also your child. Let’s raise him together from now on, shall we?” My tone was sincere and earnest, with the sympathy and love my elder sister felt for my younger sister.

Tears glistened in Huanbi's eyes, like a pear blossom in the rain, and he said doubtfully and happily: "Is it true?" Her hand on my lower abdomen trembled slightly, but she was filled with joy, "The eldest sister and the prince's child are also my children." children." "yes".I solemnly promised, "Huanbi. Some things are a foregone conclusion and cannot be changed. Any change will only hurt others and yourself. But I will give you what I can give you." Huanbi lowered her head slightly, feeling sad like clear dew, "I know. You can't force things that are not in your destiny."

I put my arms around her shoulders and sighed in relief. The weathering of the mountain has removed the cold air, and it is warm and green.However, in such eager waiting, what was waiting was Wen Shichu's figure. On the day he came, the fragrant flowers in the courtyard were just blooming, and the old peach tree in the courtyard bloomed its first peach blossom.Jinxi was complaining: "The weather is really weird. It's still in February, and the weather in the mountains is a bit colder, yet the peach blossoms are so blooming." That peach blossom was blooming alone on the branch, pretty and trembling, standing on the branch against the wind.The color of the petals is red and thin, and it looks a bit bewitching and gorgeous from a distance.

Wen Shichu brought some anti-abortion and tranquilizing medicines, and said, "I newly prescribed this medicine for you. You can take it first." He looked at the bruises under my eyes, and said with distress: "Didn't you sleep well in the past two days? Didn't you tell you to take anti-fetal medicine regularly?" Huanbi said with a hint of worry: "The lord said he would come back after a month, but it has been fifty days since he left, and there is still no news of his return. The lady is inevitably anxious. I had a nightmare again last night. Did it happen again? Didn't sleep well." I brushed the soft and thick snow-white window paper with my fingers, smiled lightly like pear blossoms fluttering in the wind, and said: "Nightmare is not serious, Huanbi, he will be back soon." Wen Shichu had been sitting silently since he entered the door, when he heard this sentence, his eyelids twitched suddenly, he raised his head suddenly, and said suddenly, "He won't come back." I didn't hear clearly for a while, turned around and smiled: "What did you say?" Wen Shichu's complexion continued to turn gray, he closed his eyes hard, and suddenly said forcefully: "King Qinghe is dead, and he will never come back." His words pierced into my ears coldly, like countless gray bugs flapping their wings chaotically, buzzing in my ears, making me dizzy.My face must have lost all color, my whole body was cold, I turned my head in a daze, and shouted: "What nonsense are you talking about?!" My voice was shrill and broken, I couldn't believe it at all, and I questioned: "How can you curse him like that? ?Curse the father of my child!" Wen Shichu pressed my hand and said eagerly: "When did I ever lie to you when I grew up so old? Huan'er, I never dared to tell you. King Qinghe went to southern Yunnan and has not returned, and there is no news from the palace. The emperor sent people out of the palace to look for it, and the news they got was that the boat on which King Qinghe was riding capsized in the Tengsha River, and even the bones could not be found." I listened to him in a daze, and listened quietly. I felt as if my body was being rasped and sharpened by a blunt knife.I bit my lip, the sweet juice spread between the teeth in my mouth, and the blood in my chest was so surging that I couldn't restrain it.Wen Shichu chatted in vain, but I just kept silent, as if I had never heard of it. Qing dead!He just died!He left me so suddenly, without saying a word, and he died. Wen Shichu still said with tears in his eyes: "The water in the Tengsha River is so fast that even the iron boat was washed into pieces. Even if the body is found, it's..." There was a "cluck" in my heart, as if something had been severely cracked, some kind of pure white hope in my heart was trampled to pieces, smashed into powder, scattered all over the sky, and could never be replenished. At this moment, Huanbi was coming in with the boiled anti-fetal medicine. Hearing Wen Shichu's words, the medicine bowl fell to the ground and shattered, and the thick black concoction poured onto Huanbitian's blue skirt. A mess.Huanbi stayed there in a daze, ignoring the heat of the medicinal juice, and didn't wipe it off. She stayed there for a while, then fell down on the ground and screamed sharply.Her voice sounded shrill and sharp, one after another, like the sound of a fine piece of clothing being torn violently, it broke people's hearts. My tears fell drop by drop, winding silently on my cheeks.Just thinking about it, he died, and he won't even be able to see him for the last time! Wen Shichu shook my body desperately, "Huan'er! Be sober, sober! You can't come back from death!" People can't be resurrected after death?He didn't even come into my dreams with his soul!Thinking of this, the pain in his chest grew even bigger.The internal organs seemed to be forcibly torn and twisted by countless sharp claws.The bloody smell between my lips and teeth spread to my throat, and I couldn't help but vomited a fishy-sweet smell. When the scarlet viscous liquid poured out of my mouth, it seemed that my whole heart and lungs were vomited out in pain. The intense and painful despair made my body fall down involuntarily like the last leaf blown off a branch in the cold winter. (End of the fourth volume)