Chapter 41 Chapter Forty-One

He got up and left. In fact, it was not the first time that I hadn't seen him for a long time. However, for some reason, I always felt uneasy in my heart, got up and wanted to sew a robe for him, but after a few stitches, my finger was pricked.A bright red drop of blood came out, and Huanbi hurriedly leaned over and said, "Why are you so careless?" I sucked my finger in my mouth for a moment, then forced a smile and said, "I don't know why, my heart is always frizzy today." Huanbi smiled and said: "I think it's because the prince will be away for a month." Her eyes were clear, and she said with a smile: "Why don't you go and see the prince off."

I quickly waved my hands, "How can this work? If someone sees it, it will be over." Huanbi came close to my ear, smiled and said: "I heard from Ah Jin that the matter of the emperor sending the prince out was not publicized, so there will be no court officials to send him off. Ah Jin followed the prince from Bahe Let's get on the boat." Her voice sounded provocative, "May I go, miss?" It was just a momentary change of mind, I got up and said to Huanbi: "Go and get my cloak." The snow had stopped for the first time, and the road was slippery and difficult to move on. No matter how fast I rode, Xuanqing was already on the boat when I arrived.

I didn't feel depressed, but Xuan Qing had already seen me from a distance, and a blush of surprise bloomed on his handsome face. Far away in the water, standing on the shore, watching off, Xuanqing's eyes are lingering, only staying on me, like a kite, flying thousands of miles away, there is always a thread to draw it. He shouted from a distance: "I'll be back soon." After speaking, he only smiled with infinite nostalgia. I know what he's going to say next? wait me back. Just like the alliance under the candle yesterday.He said, when I come back, we can be together forever.

So the bottom of my heart became infinitely joyful, as if the flowers in my heart were blooming one after another, endless joy and anticipation, just waiting for him to come back.So he responded all the time: "I will definitely wait for you, and wait for you to come back." I waved high, and the silk in my hand waved high, the apricot-yellow silk, just like my mood at the moment, although parting is imminent, but because there is eternal life to look forward to, it is also so bright and splendid.Suddenly the hand was loosened, the river wind blew up, and the silk flew out far away.

I was startled suddenly, seeing the silk fly out like a colorful butterfly, fluttering and fluttering in the wind, I couldn't catch it, so I had to watch it fly away, I couldn't help feeling so disappointed.But after thinking about it, it was just a piece of silk, what a pity, and my mood gradually calmed down. Seeing the sails go far away, the sunset is like a red river pouring down, and the sky is full of red and boundless, as if it wants to swallow people up. I stood on tiptoe and looked at his dark figure, his posture was very much like a earnest wife looking forward to her husband's return from afar.

As he went away, his heart became lonely little by little, and the loneliness reached the extreme. Every day, every moment, every thought and hope is that he can come back soon. The departure that Xuan Qing said was only a month old.The moon is full and short, and a month actually passes quickly. It's just that in my eyes and heart, if you don't see each other for a day, it's like three autumns.He has only been gone for three days, in my opinion, it is like March. Lovesick people are the ones you can't help staying away from.I am often lonely because of being far away, but this loneliness is because of the hope that he will come back soon, and it is also filled with crimson joy and anticipation in the desertedness.

So during the snowy and lonely days, I tried my best to add meals and take care of my body wholeheartedly. I only hoped that when he came back, he would not say something distressing, "You lost weight." In the winter on the outskirts of Kyoto, there is heavy snowfall, the boundless snow fields are connected with rolling mountains, the world is pure white, and the rustling snowflakes are flying in the air, like tears and frost.As for southern Yunnan, perhaps it is still the time when the seasons are like spring. And such a world of ice and snow is also my silently spreading miss for him.

Playing the piano and playing music in my spare time, I entrust my lovesickness with the Lingling seven strings of "Long Lovesickness". Jinxi was by his side day and night, occasionally adding a small piece of incense into the incense burner while listening to the piano, and the fragrance would slowly escape.In such a peaceful time, Jinxi said softly: "The so-called fairy couples, servants have only seen two couples in this life, apart from the current prince and lady, there are only the emperor and queen Chunyuan back then." I smiled happily, knowing that Qing and I were in love with each other, but I still wanted to ask: "Jinxi, in your eyes, what does it look like to be worthy of the words of gods and couples?"

She said: "In the past, my lady and the emperor absolutely could not afford to be a couple of gods and immortals." I lowered my eyelids, my expression became a little sad, and I said, "This is natural." "In terms of appearance and bearing, the emperor and the lady are naturally right. Of course, the prince and the lady are also a pair. The so-called gods and couples naturally have to be handsome and beautiful, and they complement each other. Married to Wuhan University. However, just matching in appearance is far from being a couple of immortals." Jinxi said: "Does my lady know why? The maidservant is a bystander, and although she has sincerity towards the emperor, she has more calculations; The emperor can't be said to be ruthless to his wife, but that love is very false. If it weren't for this, the lady would not be in the field today. What's more, the relationship between the lady and the emperor is too clear. It's not like the six kings, Facing each other frankly and sincerely, without discrimination of superiority or inferiority, without any suspicion, it is because each other has devoted all their attention to each other, and they are also congenial in taste and heart, this is a godly couple."

When she rashly mentioned the past between Xuan Ling and me, my heart was slightly shocked, but I was relieved, and smiled sideways: "Did Jinxi ever fall in love with a man? You said it so logically." Jinxi blushed and said, "Young lady is making fun of me. The servants have been serving in the palace all the time, and they can't easily see men. Now they are thirty-five years old. Where does the word of admiration come from? These words are just that the servants have lived in the palace for a long time. Yes, just what I heard and thought." I held down the strings with my hands and asked: "Did the Emperor and Empress Chunyuan think me and Qinglang are as good now?"

Jinxi said: "The emperor was still young at that time, Queen Chunyuan...she is a very, very good person." I didn't believe it, and asked with a smile: "But her sister..." Jinxi shook her head vigorously, and said, "Empress Chunyuan is by no means the same person as the present empress." Empress Chunyuan is my biggest hidden pain in the palace.I have never seen her, and everything about her is just a few rumors heard in the palace.However, this person has been her shadow during the four years in my palace. I suppressed the ups and downs in my heart, and said softly: "What kind of person is Queen Chunyuan?" She has been an infatuated and cold-hearted person all her life. Concubine Duan's pipa is so good that she has only a few authentic biography, and "Jinghong Dance" was adapted by her before it spread to the world. When I was young, I heard "Jinghong Dance" written by Queen Chunyuan "Inverts all living beings, and the viewers can't help but sigh. At that time, people also called it 'You have a woman's virtue, a beautiful house'." The more I said it, the more I was shocked. Is there such a graceful and beautiful woman in this world? "Jinxi, what kind of person is she?" Jinxi was slightly distracted, and seemed a little melancholy: "In the past, in the palace, it was absolutely forbidden to talk about Queen Chunyuan in private, and even the queen kept a secret, so that no one knew about Chunyuan except Concubine Duan, Lu Shunyi and Li Xiurong who entered the palace first. It's about the queen. In fact, the slaves and Empress Chunyuan have only met each other three or two times. I just feel that there is no more kind and scheming person in the entire palace than Empress Chunyuan." I smiled faintly, "You once said that I am a rose with thorns, and Empress Chunyuan is a lily in the water." Jinxi stood with her head down, and said, "Empress Chunyuan is like a lily raised in a deep boudoir who knows no sorrow. She is also a Lingbo narcissus, free from any dust from the world. In the words of the Empress Dowager, being an imperial concubine is a lifelong blessing and honor. " I thought to myself, what kind of appearance should such a woman be like, like a narcissus, like a lily, maybe like a fairy of Gushe. Jinxi paused, "So she is never suitable to be a queen, nor is she used to being a queen." I sneered slightly, but I also admired it: "When it comes to being a queen, there is no one more qualified than the current empress." Jinxi said: "That's right. When servants serve the lady in the palace, they often advise the lady to be cruel and decisive. That's why. Queen Chunyuan is kind, but she can't end well because of it." She said lightly: "Of course, this is what I said before. It is." Jinxi looked at me and said sincerely: "Miss has today, and she is free from the sea of ​​suffering. In the future, the prince will let the mistress escape from this sea of ​​Buddha and stay together for a long time, and the slaves will have no regrets." I nodded slightly, thinking of that day, my heart was full of joy and longing, and said: "Sure enough, there will be that day, and my wish will come true." Jinxi smiled all over her face, and said: "That day is coming soon, my lady, don't want your slaves and Miss Huanbi." I smiled, "The three of us share weal and woe, and we will always be together." Jinxi looked joyful, "If there is a day to serve the lady and the prince for a long time, it will be a blessing for the slaves." After finishing speaking, she broke her fingers, "There are still 20 days, and the prince will be back." The "Long Lovesickness" in his hand is the dream he insisted on at the beginning, and Xuan Qing's "Long Lovesickness" is the end of the dream.Looking back on the long journey, I am about to reach the end of my dream, and my heart is full of ups and downs.I only feel that the days when I and Xuanqing are together are the happiest days in my life. Thinking of this, I pluck the strings of "Long Lovesickness" under my hand, and the melody is mellow.