Chapter 35 Chapter 35 Heartbreaker

After this incident, I exchanged feelings with him, but I also let it go, and just got along as usual.After visiting Beijing, the weather gradually cooled down, so I drove back to Zhongjing without mentioning it. In the cold winter season, there were a lot of banquets in the palace, Xuanqing could not come here often, but he came occasionally, but it was only for half a day, and he had to go back in a hurry. When I woke up that morning, I saw Xuanqing standing outside the door with his hands behind his back. He was wearing a cloud-white soft satin long gown with wide sleeves and rolled back patterns, with an autumn-scented blue silk sash tied around his waist, and he folded it leisurely. A handful of green plums in hand.The rising sun in the winter morning was a pale white halo, which cast a layer of melting light golden halo on his body.

He stood in the halo, and when he saw me coming out, he smiled all over his face, "You're up." I was taken aback and said, "Why did you come here so early? Is it cold to stand outside like this?" His smile seemed to be the first ray of light in the sky, "I rode back to Qingliangtai early in the morning, and saw the first bunch of green plum blossoms blooming, so I specially brought them for you." I took it with a smile, took a sip, and the elegant aroma made my internal organs transparent, sweet and fresh.I smiled and said, "Come in, you've already eaten."

He smiled: "I ran over early in the morning, and I'm hungry." In the room, Huanbi was setting out several dishes, including a bowl of hot porridge. I smiled slowly and said, "There's nothing delicious, I'll treat you, just fill your belly." He held the porridge bowl to warm his hands, picked up a chopstick and ate pickled melon, looked at me with a smile on his face, and said: "I just think that it is very reassuring to be able to eat a little side dish with you and have a sip of hot porridge." I glanced at him, and said with a smile: "The mouth is so sweet, it seems like it has been smeared with honey." He smiled and said nothing, and I said again: "But did something happen in the palace?"

A trace of melancholy flashed across his eyes, and then he smiled and said: "What's the matter, it's just that in June, the emperor's brother got a new favorite, Fu Wanyi, and it's inevitable that the government and the harem will be neglected." I couldn't help wondering: "This is an anecdote. It's common for the emperor to have a lot of pets, but it's rare for the emperor to neglect the government because of her. Is she a beautiful woman?" He was stunned for a while, and the corners of his lips slowly curved slightly, and said: "Beauty is beauty, but there is no soul."

I laughed and said, "This is amazing. Why does the emperor like her so much?" Xuan Qing shook his head slightly, "I don't know either, Brother Huang always has his reasons." I am very calm now, although I still feel resentful towards Xuan Ling, but talking about his relationship with other women is as calm as talking about any insignificant person. Xuan Qing calmed down, and said: "I will accompany you today, okay?" There is a stove in the room, which is full of warmth, which makes the smell of sandalwood soft and warm, and loses its freshness.He sat in front of me, took a pen and drew a long picture, drawing my figure sitting sideways.I chose the volume of "Taiping Guangji" and read it leisurely, and flipped through the pages lightly, and there was a faint shadow of cigarettes floating in the room, faintly like a wisp of light mist.On the spur of the moment, I reached out to tease him, but saw that he just lowered his head and concentrated on painting.

Can't help laughing: "Hey, how can there be a painter like this, who doesn't even look at people, just bows his head to draw, does it look like it?" Xuan Qing raised his head and smiled faintly, "Let's see for yourself." I poked my head over to take a look, and saw that the brushwork was delicate and smooth, and every detail was clearly visible, so I couldn't help but praise: "It's really good!" Then I annoyed him, "But you didn't look at me just now..." He laughed loudly, pinched my nose and said: "Although I didn't look at you, your appearance is in my heart, why can't I draw it."

I turned away, "Pu Chi" smiled and said: "I can just talk nonsense..." Before I could finish my sentence, I felt that something was moving around me. I don't know when Wen Shichu lifted the curtain and came in. He stood quietly by the door, his face as white as the cleanest tissue paper. My heart turned cold, Wen Shichu didn't know anything about my relationship with Xuanqing, and I didn't intend to tell him.But Xuan Qing has been in contact all the time, but has never met Wen Shichu.As for the closeness between Xuanqing and Xuanqing just now, he must have seen it, but I immediately said with a smile: "You are here."

Wen Shichu gave a soft "hmm" and said coldly, "It's not a coincidence for me to come." I glanced at Xuan Qing, and simply said to Wen Shichu: "It's really a coincidence. But Qing is not an outsider." Wen Shichu sneered slightly, "Qing?" He put down the curtain and said, "Sister Huan, come out, I have something to tell you." I trembled slightly in my heart, I actually didn't want him to know, and I didn't want to make him sad.However, since he saw it, I ruthlessly said with a smile, "Okay, then go out and wait for me first."

Wen Shichu suddenly walked out, Xuan Qing tugged at my sleeve, frowned slightly and said: "Master Wen seems to be very angry." I smiled slightly, "There is some misunderstanding in it, I'll just go and clear it up with him, you just wait here for me." Xuan Qing nodded slightly, I walked out slowly, the air outside was icy cold, I suddenly came out of the warm room, I felt my body shrink back, my scalp was slightly numb from the cold. Wen Shichu stood by the rock in anger, his face dark and blue. When he saw me coming out, he said bluntly: "Sister Huan, you once told me that you have despaired of the relationship between men and women after several years in the palace. You also told me that King Qinghe He is from the palace, and he is the younger brother of today. So what are you and King Qinghe saying now?" His tone was angry and sad.

I calmed down and said, "As you said, I have said this before." "You..." Wen Shichu said sadly: "Does what you said before count for nothing?" I shook my head gently, and said softly: "Brother Shichu, it's not that what you said once is nothing. It's that the changes in the world are often unexpected, and the past can't be regarded as forever. Just like once, I am To be the favorite concubine of today's son; as before, my family was prosperous and prosperous; as before, I was Zhen Huan who didn't know much about the world, and could only stand on the bow of the boat and sing with a lotus in my arms. Brother Shichu, those are already in the past. Even I hope that it will not pass, after all, it will pass.”

Wen Shichu said in a daze: "Don't tell me this, just say, what's going on between you and King Qinghe?" I took a deep breath, the cold air cleared my mind, I held my breath and said: "It's nothing, I like him, and he likes me, that's all." Wen Shichu's expression changed drastically, and he said desolately: "Good! Good! Good! You are only willing to tell me the truth until today." I apologized in my heart, and said softly: "Why did I want to hide it from you? In my heart, you are like my elder brother. You are old friends. I should have told you earlier. It is not something that can be publicized everywhere. Second, I don't know how you feel about me, and I'm also afraid that you will be sad and embarrass each other." Wen Shichu was stunned and said in a daze: "How long have you been dating like this?" I bit my lip and said, "Is it very important?" His gaze fixed on me, and he said slowly, "It's very important." I bowed my head, "Half a year." "So how long have you known each other?" "Six or seven years." Wen Shichu's eyes hurt sharply, as if he was about to ooze blood, he said in a hoarse voice, "You have known him for six or seven years, but you and I have known each other for more than ten years, it's a friendship since childhood!" I was very sad in my heart, and said in a low voice: "Some things are not about how many years we have known each other and how many years we have been together." Wen Shichu stared at me in a daze, with broken pain: "Yes! Some things are not about the year, but you said that you have despaired of the relationship between men and women, let alone he is the emperor—the younger brother of your former husband! Why? If it's him!" Wen Shichu's words pierced my wound sharply in an instant, exposing the bloody past.My heart ached slightly, and I said in a cold voice: "If you know why, I will tell you why. Because I am desperate for love between men and women, because I am desperate for my life, because I am a person who is addicted to pain." , It was him, it was Xuan Qing, he made me start to have hope in everything, made me willing to believe in what I pursued, so that I could not care about his royal status, do you understand?" I spoke in a hurry, my voice slightly lost the tone of the past, and my heartbeat was clear and abrupt, like the sound of an evening drum in the mountains. Wen Shichu's eyes were sad and sad, "But if you are with him, I'm afraid you will suffer a lot in the future, even the most basic status!" I smiled sadly, like a flower trembling in the bleak autumn wind, "With my current status, even if I am with anyone, I will not have a status at all. Then, Mr. Wen, can you give me Fame? Or, do you think fame is what I want most?" He was speechless, just looked at me sadly, "You will be very hard..." I leaned on the rock wall and stood up, "What I worked hard, he also worked hard. It's just that you are afraid of my grievances and hard work, and I am willing to do it. Since I am willing to follow him, I naturally think about it. Whatever I encounter, I am willing." In the world, no matter how hard it is, no matter how hard it is, it can't match a willingness. Wen Shichu's expression calmed down slightly, and he murmured: "I am willing, I am also willing to you, and I will never hesitate to die!" I gently shook my head, approached him and said, "Brother Shichu, that's different. You treat me well, and I'm grateful for it. But Qing and I are in love with each other." I'm determined And earnestly, said: "I know what you want to discourage me. It's just that now, I'm not afraid to tell you that even if it was a mistake for me to choose Qing, I'd rather make a mistake and never regret it." I looked back and met Xuanqing's tender and eager eyes behind me, my heart warmed up, and my whole mind could be put down.He only stood far away with a clear attitude, not approaching.I couldn't bear Wen Shichu's sadness and shock, and said softly: "Brother Shichu, to be honest, do you think it's more important to be with me, or is it more important that I'm really happy?" These words are meant to be tempting. If he is selfish, maybe I can be more frank.The moment he opened his lips, I suddenly hoped that he might be a little more selfish. Wen Shichu said: "In my heart, I always hope that one day I can get you, and being with you is the most important thing. But sister Huan, I know clearly in my dream that you don't like me, you You can't really be happy when you're with me. Well, your genuine smile is more important." His words hit my heart and lungs in an instant, and I was so touched that I couldn't be more moved.Wen Shichu, he treats me so well, treats me so sincerely.His sincerity is no less than Xuan Qing's love for me. However, no matter how much you are moved, it is only a touch, not a feeling. I bent down to support his body, and said softly: "Brother Shichu, thank you for treating me so well." Wen Shichu's eyes were red, he raised his head, tried his best to hold back his tears, and said, "I'm not good to you, I just said so fiercely about you just now. Sister Huan, I've never said so loudly about you before." I nodded, my eyes were slightly astringent, and I said: "I don't blame you. Brother Shichu, now I have found a person who is in love with each other. Although I am happy, I hope you will not be sad. You are always my real friend." Brother Chu, are you okay?" Wen Shichu raised the corners of his lips slightly, but there was a deep sadness in his eyes, and said: "It's useless to persuade you. Well, since you have made up your mind, as long as you are happy." He stared at Xuanqing standing far away. In the place, the voice was slightly cold, and each word was as clear as broken ice, exhaling snow-white heating, "Sister Huan, he can have your willingness, you don't know how much I envy him!" I forced a smile, and said in a soft voice: "There is nothing to envy, brother Shichu, in the future you will meet a good woman who is willing to treat you." "No more." Wen Shichu smiled sadly, "Sister Huan, as long as you are well." He turned and left, his gentle figure looked extraordinarily lonely in the vast cold of winter.His dark red robe was wrinkled by a gust of cold wind like ripples on the surface of the water, as if his whole body was wrinkled sadly, out of place in the blue-gray surrounding mountains. I stood still at the wind, the cold wind hit my face one after another, and even the eye sockets were hot. I deeply felt that some of the feelings that had persisted by my side for a long time had been deeply hurt by me.Even if I couldn't bear it any longer, I was still hurt after all. Xuanqing's temperature wrapped around my body with the soft cloak, gently wiped away the tears that were about to come out of my eyes, and sighed softly: "Physician Wen likes you very much." I raised my head, forced back my tears, and said with a bewildered smile, "It's a pity that I won't be able to repay him for the rest of my life." Feelings in the world, there is gain, there is loss.Some people are happy, some people are sad and lost.Yu Wen Shichu is, Yu Huanbi is, and Yu Wo, Yu Xuanling, and Xuanqing are not. Xuan Qing's eyes were gentle and understanding, "Huan'er, you can repay him with a lifetime of friendship." I nodded, "I will." Xuan Qing's low sigh lingered in my ears, "Huan'er, you just said willingly and never regret it, do you know how shocked I am?" I shook my head and said in a low voice, "I'm just telling the truth." There was endless joy and emotion in his expression, and his tenderness almost overwhelmed me, "Huan'er, Doctor Wen's love for you is no less than mine, but I am so lucky to be able to hold you in my arms. You are my whole life." People who are looking forward to it!" I have been expecting it all my life, and for me, Xuanqing is not like that.I lowered my eyebrows and bowed my head in his tolerant and warm embrace in the cold wind.Only his hug made me feel so at ease. As cold as winter is, it will eventually pass.