Chapter 22 Chapter 22 Jasper Song

I don't know how long it has passed, it seemed like a long time, and I didn't hear the sound of him going out, and I didn't dare to move, I just curled up in the quilt.The room is extremely warm, hugging the quilt tightly like this, a little sweat breaks out from the body, the heat of the vest is like a child lying on the grass wearing an apricot red singlet in the spring, and the newly grown grass leaves are tipped. Tender, just like this through the clothes. It was Huanbi's light sigh, like a butterfly slowly falling to her ears. I didn't open my eyes, nor did I move, I just asked softly, "It's alright, what are you sighing for?"

Huanbi's figure fell into my eyes from the green background, "I sigh that Miss is too cruel." She helped me up and took a cushion behind me. I just sat there, my heart was as cool as a leaf falling in the autumn wind, swaying unsteadily.I calmed down, took a sip of the sweet-scented osmanthus honey that she handed me, and said with a frown, "It's too sweet." Huanbi was puzzled, took a sip, and said, "It's not sweet." Huanbi put his hand on mine, with a pitiful and distressed expression, and said, "Miss is too bitter in her heart, so she can't stand even a little bit of sweetness." , always feel too sweet."

I looked at her, "What do you want to say?" Her eyes were a little dull, she was quiet for a moment, and said: "Miss, do you know what Wang Ye looked like when he went out just now?" There was a moment of coldness, and I hugged the thick quilt tightly, as if I wanted to use its thickness and warmth to absorb a little strength to support myself.I shook my head, "I don't want to know." Huanbi's stubbornness burst out at that moment, her eyes were bright, and she said: "Miss doesn't want to listen, Huanbi also wants to say something, the prince is so sad. The prince is so kind to the lady, why does the lady make him so sad?" What about it?" She was slightly lost in thought, "I heard everything Miss Cai and the prince said just now."

I made up my mind, "I didn't intend to hide it from you, so it doesn't matter if I hear it." I looked at her, with a sharp touch on the tip of my tongue, "Otherwise, what do you want me to tell him." Holding a pearl, such a white and moist spot, it has a faint reddish luster that fluctuates under the candlelight, reflecting the momentary turbulent gray misery and helplessness in my heart, but it was quickly calmed down by force, "except These, anything I said to him is wrong." I held her hand instead, as if comforting her and myself, "Huanbi, if there is no hope in some things from the beginning, it is better than being disappointed in the future There are many. Don't blame me for being cruel."

Huanbi's smile was ambiguous and bitter, "Miss rejected both Mrs. Wen and the prince." I bowed my head, and there were continuous patterns of "everything goes well" on the brocade quilt. I suddenly said: "Rather than Xuanqing, it is better to be Wen Shichu, after all, he can be calm and grow old without distracting thoughts." Huanbi's eyes were sharp and keen at that moment, like a sharp silver arrow pointing straight to the heart, "Does Miss really think so? In fact, it is reasonable that Miss doesn't like Mrs. Wen. Mr. Wen has never been the kind of man that Miss likes, and if he didn't like it before, he won't like it now. But Wang Ye, has Miss's sincerity for Wang Ye, has she never been tempted? "

I was stunned, I couldn't speak, I was speechless, for Xuan Qing's sincerity, have I never been half-hearted?For example, the evening face of the Taiping Palace that night, for example the last cluster of lotus flowers in the Taiye Pond after the night visit to Meizhuang, for example for my heart after losing my son, for example for his care and caring during my illness, for example, for that day, The name I called in front of him was "Qing".Am I really not half-hearted? I am afraid. Huanbi didn't finish her words, she spoke in a slightly relaxed tone, unconsciously stroking the soft and thick blanket under me with one hand, stroking it again and again, as if she couldn't control it, and said: "Actually, Master Wen has nothing to do with it." Not good, it's just out of place, always mentioning things like or dislike when the lady doesn't like it. But what about the prince, if in the past when the lady was not married, what the lady often expected in the boudoir, isn't it a man like Liu Wang? This is what Miss always says, as long as she still thinks like this in her heart, Liu Wang will always be the kind of man you like. I just said that Miss didn’t like it before, and she won’t now. I like it. In other words, what Miss used to like may not become disliked now." Her smile flickered like a flickering candle, "Miss just said that it is better to be Mrs. Wen than the prince. After all, it can be calmer. When you grow old, you have no distracting thoughts. I believe what Miss said is sincere, because Miss doesn't like Mrs. Wen, so she can be plain and have no distracting thoughts. If she likes it, how can she be plain and have no distracting thoughts?"

Huanbi's words hit the nail on the head, and they were also heart-piercing words, like a cold ice cone piercing into my brain, making me speechless. I can't believe it. Huanbi's expression was a little dark and unpredictable, I've never heard her speak like this.She has always been docile and reticent. I know she is smart and careful, and always detects where others are not easy to detect.But she only kept her understanding in her heart, and rarely expressed it directly and clearly like today, and it hit my point. There was obvious coldness and resistance in my tone, "Huanbi, don't say what you shouldn't say, and you never say such things..."

Huanbi's response was not as docile as she used to be, her voice was as cold and sharp as plum blossoms outside the window, "Miss, I have never seen the prince so sad." She was taken aback for a moment, "Miss, why do you want someone who likes you to be so sad?" Sad? And it's not that you don't like him, so why must you say such things to him." Her tone was soft and sad, "Although the young lady said she was asleep just now, but she frowned so tightly, I knew that the young lady was also worried. Not having a good time." My mind finally fell down, and I couldn't help Huanbi's words with a little thought I was holding on to.There was a pot of narcissus on the long table under the window sill. The flowers with strange bones were baked by the indoor heating, but the fragrance was not warm, but only went deeper and deeper.

For such a simple flower, with yellow stamens, white petals, and green stems and leaves, I am envious for a moment in a trance.How wonderful it would be to be a human being like this narcissus.Simple to the extreme, understanding to the extreme, and the water is full of water, without being contaminated with dust. It's a pity that it doesn't work after all, whether it's in the palace, or the years of hiding in the Ganlu Temple, or the days of recuperating in Qingliangtai, my mind is always full of strange twists and turns.Sometimes it is better to be a flower than to be a human being.

I suddenly remembered something, "Huanbi, in the past you were the one who advised me to be careful with the six kings, why are you persuading me with irony today?" Huanbi was stunned, for a long while, only gathered clear eyes, in which there was a faint heartache and sorrow drifting away, "I just can't bear it, and I can't bear to see the young lady and the prince are sad." I closed my eyes dejectedly, "Huanbi, there's no need to say any more. The six kings are members of the royal family, and they are inextricably linked with him, so why should I provoke him?"

Huanbi hesitated to speak, and stopped for a long time.She is not ignorant of all my helplessness and worries.For a moment, she looked at me, and she seemed to be consoling, and she said: "But the young lady already understands what the prince wants, and I'm afraid it will be awkward to meet you. I don't know if the prince listened to the words that the young lady rejected the prince just now. If you don't understand, I really teach you People are troubled." Outside the Xiaoxian Pavilion, the scattered and faint fragrance of plum blossoms came faintly. The plum branches outside the window were slender, and the sparse shadows were reflected on the window paper, as if I were confused and confused at the moment. It's really annoying!Huanbi's words fell in my ears, and I couldn't get them out. "We can't live in this balcony." I tightened my clothes and got up, looked around, and said, "Huanbi, go get a pen and paper." She replied: "Yes." Then she asked, "Miss is better, what do you need paper and pen for? It's such a trouble, and it will hurt your brain later." Although she was talking, she quickly found out the paper and pen and sent them to in front of me. The paper prepared in the Xiaoxian Hall is vanilla paper, with light blue patterns, and the sweet smell of vanilla can be faintly smelled. He was so thoughtful.I sighed, vanilla beauty is the wish of many men in the world. The soft nib was dipped in thick black ink, and I hesitated, what should I say?If the words are light, he may not be willing to listen to them; After thinking for a long time, the ink slipped off and landed on the snow-white rice paper, turning black. Huanbi said from the side, "What do you want to write on? This paper is dirty, let me change it for you." I shook my head, "No need." I picked up the pen and wrote down one stroke at a time. I wrote so lightly, as if I was afraid that I would scratch the paper with a little force, or that I was afraid of scratching the firmness of my support. "Little girl from Biyu's family, she dare not climb the noble virtues. Feeling like a daughter of the king, she is ashamed of her beauty." I finished writing word by word, and my strength was exhausted in a trance.I just feel dizzy and very unbearable. I barely managed to stabilize my thoughts, and supported my body on the rosewood table. The rosewood table was so stiff that it hurt my palms. I said, "We don't have many things. You pack them up, and we'll go back tomorrow." Huanbi worried: "But can Miss's body hold up?" I nodded: "Go and tell Mr. Wen, if the prince asks, he will say that I am already in good health, and I don't need to stay in the Qingliangtai to recuperate. I will ask him for some refreshing medicines, and I will accompany us back tomorrow." Huanbi pointed to the table and said, "Do you want to send someone to deliver it to the prince?" I waved my hand and said, "Forget it. The prince will not come these two days, but Tete sent it deliberately. Let it be placed on the table, the prince will see it when he comes back." The mood was agitated, and at the same time After some work, I just feel tired.Huanbi hurriedly helped me to sleep, put another handful of benzoin on it, and softly whispered in my ear: "Miss, take a good rest." I tossed and turned in the soft quilt, holding on to my gradually drowsy consciousness, and said vaguely to Huanbi: "Let's leave tomorrow, it's really hard to live here." When I got up early the next morning, the sky was overcast and rainy, and the sky was so dark that it was covered with low-hanging lead clouds.When Cai Lan came in with a decoction for me to take, she saw that I had already dressed up and was just sitting quietly in front of the dressing table. She caught a glimpse of a doraemon bomb bag on the cleanly made bed, and said with a quick smile, "Why did you pack the bag properly? Is Miss Huanbi going back for a few days?" She smiled at Huanbi, " Don't worry, girl, it won't hurt to go back for a few days, there will always be people waiting on the balcony, don't worry, girl." She looked at me, slightly surprised, then smiled at me: "Miss got up early today, servant girl It looks like he is in good spirits, and his complexion is much healthier." I used shavings mixed with sweet-scented osmanthus oil to brush my slightly frizzy temples, and said, "It's not that Huanbi is leaving alone, it's that she and I are going back." I smiled and bowed, "I'm here to trouble you these days. Caiping took care of her, she really took care of her." Cailan's expression changed, and she hurriedly said with a smile: "Miss, why is it so easy to say that this is coming? Miss's body is only a little better, how can she go back down the mountain in a boat and a car? It's absolutely impossible. Besides, does the prince know? ?” My smile stagnated slightly, "It's okay, the prince will know when he comes back." Cai Lan waved her hands again and again, "How can this be done? The lady said that, even if the prince doesn't know it yet, if he finds out when he comes back, even if the prince has a generous temper, the servants will not be able to bear it." She persuaded: "It's better to be a lady Rest for two days, and it will not be too late to go back when you feel better." My chest was still a little stuffy, but I got up early and asked Huanbi to dress me up, there was no lack of rouge and powder, the depiction was exquisite, and I took a large dose of refreshing medicine, which covered up my usual sickness, and it was unusual. In good spirits.I pointed to my complexion, and half-jokingly said: "Look at my complexion, Miss Lan just said that she is fine, why is she still sick? I have been bothering you at Qingliangtai for a long time, and I came here uninvited. Now my lord There are a few days of delay in the palace, and we can't specially ask him to come back to say goodbye, it's too impolite." I turned to look at Huanbi, "Didn't Mr. Wen say that he will come immediately? Why is there no one?" Cai Lan was shocked when she heard the words, and hurriedly asked: "Miss is going to leave immediately? Why are you in such a hurry? Please also let the servants send someone to the palace to report to the prince, and then arrange a carriage to take the lady back." I smiled and pressed her hand, and said softly: "It's been a long time since you and Caiping took care of me, I appreciate it. It's just that the arrangement has been made, and Mrs. Wen will come to pick her up in person, and it's not good to change the date. " I got up, "I want to say goodbye after all, I may not have the chance to come to Qingliangtai again, but I will always remember Miss Lan's kindness and care." I took the medicine bowl in her hand, raised my head and drank it in one go, and said with a smile, "I have to trouble you to wait for me to drink the medicine for the last time. I'm really sorry." I called Huanbi to come forward and said, "Cailan take care of me." Let's play..." Huanbike approached Cailan politely and took Cailan's hand, "Miss Lan has taken care of our master and servant for so long, not to mention Miss, I am very grateful. Please come down to visit us more often in the future, Miss Lan is not in good health. Well, I'm afraid I can't go to the cool terrace more, please forgive me." While talking, Huanbi stroked the pearl between the clouds, put it in Cailan's hand, and said with a smile: "Miss and I are both worthless. This pearl is the dowry of the former lady, and now it is given to me, and I will pass it on to the girl, so please don't dislike it." Cai Lan said again and again: "How can I say this, Miss Fushi and the girl should be rewarded, and should not be rewarded by the girl." While pushing back, there was a cold wind piercing through, but when I turned around, I saw Wen Shichu lifted the curtain and came in.He was wearing a maroon-colored silk-cotton brocade robe with a dark red pattern of five bats and flowers. As soon as he came in, he put his hands on his hands to keep warm, and said, "Is it tidy? It looks like it's going to snow outside, so hurry up. Otherwise, as soon as the snow falls , the mountain road becomes more and more difficult to walk.” Huanbi pursed her lips and said with a smile: "I just said, why didn't your lord come here, and told us to wait. We have packed up and waited for your lord to come." The tip of Wen Shichu's nose was slightly red from the cold, I just glanced at it and couldn't help laughing.Wen Shichu said with concern: "Put on more clothes, it's cold outside." As he spoke, he shook off a bundle in his arms, took out a cloak from a squirrel with a rusty red feather gauze surface, azurite carved silk, and wrapped me around my head and face. , he looked at me with a smile and said: "This rust red color looks a bit like Zhaojun." Huanbi frowned slightly displeased, and said, "The rust red color doesn't look like Zhaojun, Zhaojun has a red cloak when he goes out of the fortress." I didn't say a word, and I was lazy to talk.In fact, I don't like rust red the most. I always feel that it looks like a village. It seems that people's skin is dull for no reason, and the whole person is depressed and listless from beginning to end.But Wen Shichu always praised this color for being calm and generous, able to suppress the scene.It seems that I often saw in the picture scrolls sent by Xuanqing that Meizhuang also likes to wear rust red clothes, but Meizhuang wears rust red clothes, which are really calm and generous, dignified and beautiful, but better than me Much better looking.I saw that Wen Shichu's nose was red from the cold, and it was cloudy outside, so it must be the cold.It is a must to wear on the body to keep out the cold, how can I be picky about the color and style, I have to wear it honestly. The wind and snow were coming outside the car, and I sat in the car with Huanbi, only feeling the chill.In the gloomy sky, I accidentally raised the curtain and looked back at the beautiful scenery of Qingliang Terrace, feeling empty in my heart, and I will never see you again. For example, for some things, it is more acceptable to look up. What I can't bear, what I can avoid, should be avoided.