Chapter 19 Chapter 19 Meet Again

I sometimes wake up and sleep, most of the time is groggy.However, after three or five days like this, my spirit gradually improved. I heard from Huanbi that Xuanqing's illness became more and more serious, and he had a high fever all day long. When Wen Shichu was asked why Xuanqing became so seriously ill, he was just vague and unclear.I didn't have the strength to tell him apart, so I had to raise myself first before talking. I took the medicine that day and felt better, so I leaned on the bed and closed my eyes to rest my mind. Huanbi sat next to me, picking herbs in front of the light.Looking at no one around, I asked all my doubts for many days: "Why is the prince suddenly so ill?"

The worry on Huanbi's face is like the hoarfrost that covers the withered grass in the morning, and it is also such a sallow and sallow color. He frowned and said, "Master Wen only said that he didn't take a good rest after catching a cold a few days ago. Miss is sick." During those few days, I didn’t eat and sleep well for several days and nights, so as soon as my body relaxed, the illness and death would be like a tiger. Therefore, I couldn’t restrain myself for a while.” I pondered for a while, and asked again: "Then how did the prince get the wind and cold?"

Huanbi lowered her head, her voice was as soft as a mosquito, and said: "Master Wen has already said that day, when the prince came to see the young lady in the Zen room, he wore fewer clothes, and it happened that the weather was cold that day..." I smiled slightly, then suppressed my smile, stared at her and said, "That's what Mr. Wen said. I want to hear your truth." I said in a low voice, "Huanbi, Wen Shichu naturally has a reason to hide it from me. Then What about you, are you going to lie to me too?" Huanbi twisted the corner of her clothes, bit her lip and looked at me, hesitantly said: "Miss, do you really want to know?"

The thin incense mist floats out from the blue and white incense burner, lightly scattered in the air, filled with a light fragrance of bergamot.The smell is sobering. As if I was still in a coma, there was a cold body embracing me, such a cold body, like ice and snow, made me gain a bit of coolness and comfort in the hot and stupor.I calmed down and said, "Naturally." Huanbi's face was slightly rippling, and she seemed to be in a daze, and said slowly: "That day, Miss had a high fever, and she was so hot that she started talking nonsense. Jinxi and I brought snow water and applied it on How many cold towels are useless. Even the cold water has warmed it up. Jinxi hurriedly asked me to invite Mrs. Wen, but Mrs. Wen happened to be called into the palace to treat Hu Deyi at that moment, so naturally he could not enter the palace to invite him I had no choice but to come back. I was so anxious that I could only cry. It happened that the prince took Ah Jin back to Qingliangtai at that time. He saw me at the foot of the mountain and went to the meditation room together. The doctor came, but it happened to be snowing heavily, blocking the mountain road, and the doctor couldn't invite him. The young lady's face was flushed from the heat, and her breathing was so urgent that we were going to be scared to death." Huanbi paused for a while After a pause, he said again: "Actually, Miss's illness is persistent and high fever. There is no doctor to treat her, and there is no medicine to reduce the fever. So..." Her face turned red, she hesitated and couldn't continue.

She was so coy, but I knew it in my heart, and I didn't feel like my face was on fire. When I was in a coma, the person who hugged me was Xuan Qing. Huanbi tugged at the silk in her hand, repeated it again and again, in a voice as thin as a mosquito, "The lord is only wearing a close-fitting little coat, lying on the ice and snow, and hugging the young lady after his body is completely cold. The high fever subsided. After the snow stopped, the lord carried the young lady to the balcony. In addition, the young lady was still in a coma, so the lord took care of her with Mr. Wen almost without blinking eyes. After so much hard work, it was hard to beat her body. Yes, I can’t bear it anymore.” Huanbi saw that I bowed my head silently, blushing to the point of bleeding, and hurriedly argued: “Miss, don’t worry, she was wearing clothes at that time.”

I made up my mind, sat up slowly, and said: "Huanbi, go get my coat and accompany me to see the prince." Huanbi said anxiously: "Miss is not in good health yet. Didn't she catch the wind and cold again after going out? It's definitely impossible." I coughed twice, waved my hands and said: "If there is no problem, the prince is very kind to me. Now that he is ill, I have to go and see him. You know my temper, so don't persuade me any more." Seeing that I was determined to go, Huanbi couldn't persuade me anymore, so she turned out a big woolen dress and put it on for me, tied up my hair, hugged the stove in my arms, and helped me all the way to the green field. Church to go.

The place where I live is not close to the road to Lvyetang. I am weak and have to walk and rest, and it took me a long time to get there.The Lvyetang is very old-fashioned. When Ah Jin saw me, he lowered his head and said, "The lady is here, but the prince is still asleep." I nodded slightly, and said softly: "I'll go in and have a look, I'll come out later." Then I asked: "Has the Concubine come here?" Ah Jin shook his head: "Why did you come back? The concubine can't go out of Anqi Temple in this life. The prince is still not feeling well."

I nodded, "Let's keep it secret for now, lest the concubine get anxious." The green field hall is sparse and bright, only a few pieces of gold teak furniture are placed, except for books, and there are famous swords and weapons of various colors hanging on the wall.I felt a little relieved in my heart, there was really no trace of a woman at all. He fell into a coma, his face haggard and torn apart from illness.She was dressed in plain white pajamas with plain and undulating willow leaf patterns on the neckline.His brows were slightly frowned, and even in sleep, he didn't look happy.

The sunlight was as thin as gauze, with a little pink color, and the mist-dyed white mist shone on his face through the curtain, with a slight soft light, that kind of light, as if a lamp was burning in his body.His big sandalwood bed was so dark that it made people feel that he was dressed in white like a dream. I approached him slowly.A vague memory during the illness, as if a tear from him fell on my face a long time ago, the warm touch; or this time, his cold body lying in the ice and snow came to cool my scorching sick body .Cold and hot memories entangled and melted in my heart, and because of his existence, the first flower bloomed in my heart that had been deserted for a long time.

I sat down in front of his bed, stretched out my hand gently, pressed the center of his curled brow, and stretched it for him gently.I always like to see him smiling, sincere and cunning, warming my cold and desolate mind. I turned my head away, and there was a pot of asparagus bamboo on the long table under the window. The leaves were like layers of green feathers and emerald clouds, slender and beautiful.I think, probably it is the ruthless plants that can be so green all the year round without withering or fading. And people are not grass and trees. I just sat quietly like this, looking at his sleeping face silently, with infinite peace in my heart.I just feel that it is very good to be so quiet and quiet.

When he woke up, it was already an hour later. The moment he opened his eyes, surprise burst out like a burning cloud, illuminating his entire face that was dull due to illness. He struggled to get up and said, "You're here, are you alright?" I smiled, "I can already get up to see you, have you agreed?" He shook my hand, "It's still so cold." Then he asked, "How long have you been here?" I withdrew my hand, "It's only an hour, I don't want to wake you up because you're sleeping well." I asked him, "Qing, do you want some water?" He could hardly believe it, he was stunned for a moment, and murmured: "What did you call me?" I stood up slowly, brewed a cup of white chrysanthemum tea and handed it to him, with a slight smile on the corner of my mouth: "Qing, can I call you that?" "Yes, of course!" He sat up suddenly, with a long smile on his handsome face, and held my hand tightly, "Huan'er, I never dreamed of that." This time, I didn't withdraw my hand, but said softly: "Things in the world are often unexpected." I brought the tea to his mouth, "Let's moisten your throat first." He took a sip of water, but was not in a hurry to drink it down, he just kept it in his mouth, and looked at me quietly, with deep affection in his eyes. His low tone was like a gentle and bright light, "You are wearing white clothes today." I lowered my head, and I was wearing a moon-white brocade gown, with delicate pear flowers embroidered with light silver-white thread.I was a little embarrassed, and smiled slightly: "I have never worn such clothes since I entered the Ganlu Temple." I said in a low voice: "This is what Aunt Mo brought to me. I just took it and wore it casually. I know you are also wearing white." His thick palm was attached to the back of my hand, and even the touch of the palm lines was warm and meandering."I've always believed in sympathy," he said. There is a bitter cold wind outside the window, whistling like a dragon with a heavy chill.The room is as harmonious as spring, I looked at him with a smile, and my heart was also peaceful and joyful. After a long time, I was about to ask someone to come in to help him wash, but I heard the chaotic footsteps outside, Ah Jin hurried in and said: "Your Majesty, Your Majesty, Concubine Jing, and Hu Deyi are here." Xuanling!I suddenly heard this name, and my heart was shocked, as if countless thunder and lightning flashed in the sky together, and there was a crash.Xuan Qing also changed color slightly, said: "Why is the emperor here?" Ah Jin winked at me vigorously, I stood up in a daze, and said, "I'll go out and avoid it." Ah Jin said anxiously: "It's coming in outside, and it's about to bump into it when it goes out!" Xuan Qing immediately calmed down and said: "There is a screen behind my bed, let's go behind the screen and take shelter first." Without further ado, I immediately hid behind the screen. Just as I stood firm, I could faintly hear the sound of pearls and emeralds, and the fragrance of rouge, and said in a broad and manly voice: "Sixth brother, no one has come to treat me with this illness. Let’s talk about poetry and painting.” That voice was still familiar, hearing it so suddenly and without defense almost chilled my body.It was so cold, as if it was the last time I met him in Tangli Palace, that kind of coldness and determination like a blade captured all my consciousness in an instant.I held on to the screen tightly, feeling sore and having a headache. It was the voice of Ah Jin supporting Xuan Qing and saluting: "Long live the emperor, Jin An." Xuan Ling held him down, and said with a smile, "Since I'm sick, why should I pay attention to etiquette?" Concubine Jing's voice was familiar, but after meeting Xuan Qing, it was a very delicate and sweet female voice, "Hi Wang Ye is well." Xuan Qing coughed twice, and said with a smile: "Brother Huang is in a good mood today, even Hu Deyi came out together. It's just why I thought of coming here." Xuan Ling said: "It's rare that the snow has melted, and the weather is good today, so it's boring for them to be bored in the palace all day. I heard that you were sick, so I came out to see you." He looked at Xuan Qing carefully, "There are still people Sick, but the spirit is still good, rosy as if people are refreshed on happy occasions." Then he turned his head to Hu Deyi and said: "Yun Rong, you are now restrained. When I saw you before, you called 'Six Cousin', but now you are down." No more words." Hu Deyi covered her mouth with a smile and said: "The emperor made fun of me for being ignorant. Now the concubines are the emperor's concubines, so naturally they put this in the first place, and they have to observe the courtesy of the emperor and ministers when they see the sixth prince. How can they just call 'Biao' first?" Brother'?" Concubine Jing said with a smile: "Sister Hu is so sensible, yet the emperor said she was restrained, I really wronged my sister." Suddenly a little childish voice said sweetly and softly: "I heard that the sixth emperor uncle is ill, so Ozuki specially came to pay his respects to the emperor uncle." The sound was soft and soft, and my body shook suddenly. All my energy and soul were attracted by that small sound, and I couldn't help but look out.The screen is carved and painted with four leaves of primrose wood, and the four sides are five inches wide and carved and hollowed out. I carefully covered the corner of my clothes and poked my head to look. As far as my eyes could see, a child about two years old was held in the arms of Concubine Jing, and she grabbed two round double glasses, each decorated with two pearls. She was dressed in a pink brocade bomber jacket, with a pair of big black eyes on a small white and sweet melon-seeded face, as black and bright as two balls of black mercury. I only took one look, as if the blood in my whole body rushed to my heart, even though I have never seen a portrait of Ozuki, just looking at it, I knew it must be my daughter.The eyebrows, eyes, mouth and nose all look like me, only the outline of the jaw is very similar to Xuan Ling. I can only hear my own heart, thump, thump, beating faster than the next, and my heart almost jumps out of my chest, Ozuki, this is Ozuki that I miss and think about day and night.My heart was so hot that I almost cried. Ozuki, I really want to hug my Ozuki.She is so cute. However, I can't go out, how can I go out?I pressed against the screen, trying my best to restrain the tears that were about to burst out of my eyes. On the other side, Xuanqing stretched out his hand and said with a smile: "Hazy Moon is here, do you want Uncle Huang to give you a hug?" I know what Xuanqing means, and I can see him most clearly from his position. Obscure Moon smiled and said: "Uncle Huang is ill, it's not good for Obscure Moon to quarrel with Uncle Huang." As she said that, she rubbed left and right in Concubine Jing's arms and did not live for a moment. Xuan Ling laughed loudly and said, "This girl is a ghost. She knows that you are sick and refuses to be hugged by you, and she has to find a way to pretend to be sensible and say that she is afraid of disturbing you. This cleverness is exactly the same as that of her mother and concubine. " As soon as Xuan Ling finished speaking, everyone was quiet for a moment, and what Xuan Ling was referring to was naturally not Concubine Jing.However, Hu Deyi smiled and said: "Yes. Speaking of it, don't look at the silent concubine Jingfei, but there is nothing to say when it comes to cleverness, otherwise how can I say she is wise and stupid. Only the emperor knows that my sister is like this Smart and generous, that's why he loves his sister and Empress Obscure Moon so much." Hu Deyi's soft and charming words relieved her embarrassment.Xuanling clapped his palms and said with a smile: "It's Yunrong who can talk after all." As he spoke, he put his arms around her shoulders. Hu Deyi became more and more charming, and said: "Yes. Yun Rong is the emperor's concubine and the emperor's cousin. She is a little closer than others, so she naturally understands the emperor better." Concubine Jing smiled lightly at the side: "Sure enough, it's not unreasonable for the emperor to dote on sister Hu like this. I heard that after the next year, I will give my sister Ronghua the position." Hu Deyi smiled and said: "Sister Jingfei is just joking. Sister Jingfei has Diji Ooyue, and naturally mothers are more expensive than daughters, so the emperor loves them very much." Concubine Jing laughed and said: "My younger sister has Hebei Diji, Diji is very cute at a young age, she really looks like a younger sister, and she must be a beauty when she grows up." Concubine Jing and Hu Deyi were chatting and laughing, my eyes fell on Hu Deyi, the so-called Xuanling's new favorite, the noble family was only surpassed by the empress in the palace.She has a pink face with goose eggs, big rectangular eyes looking forward, pink face and red lips, and she is also very petite. Her upper body is a rose purple satin water red brocade jacket, embroidered with dense patterns, and the skirt is inlaid with pearls and emeralds. Collar, outer jacket with gold-rimmed pipa, and a silk satin skirt with pink brocade and lotus root, the whole person is just like a bright peach smiling in the spring breeze, very delicate and charming.A golden hairpin with eight treasures and pearls on the spring bun is dazzling, and it is embellished with countless pearls and emeralds, which is full of jewels.The whole body is luxurious and noble, which compares to the concubine Jing who is wearing a royal blue brocade dress embroidered with winter plums and Douyan by her side. However, Hu Deyi, who is so wealthy and beautiful, also has her shortcomings. Presumably Concubine Jing knows it well, so she smiles so calmly. Xuan Ling was asking about Xuan Qing's illness, and how it was cured.Xuanqing only answered one by one according to the etiquette.Xuan Ling said: "There was a time when you didn't come to the palace, and even I was so bored. If you didn't come, there wouldn't even be anyone to talk to me about poetry and poetry. If she was still there..." Xuan Ling His expression changed slightly, he shut up immediately, and didn't say any more. I really want to see his expression at this moment, but Xuan Qing's body blocks it, and I can only see the hem of his bright yellow clothes.Such a bright yellow color, I just glanced at it, and I already felt cold and dazzling, so I immediately lowered my head. Xuan Qing said: "Back then when Chunyuan Huang's sister-in-law first entered the palace, it was often seen that the emperor's elder brother and the emperor's wife talked about poems and poems, and sang together. At that time, the minister was only five or six years old, and he had just learned about human affairs, so he was always very envious. " Xuan Ling was silent for a moment, and said with emotion: "Later, only Mrs. Zhen was able to say a few words to me, but it's a pity that she is too uneducated." At that time, Ouyue was playing with a hydrangea ball, upon hearing this, she asked curiously: "Mother Concubine, who is Zhen Shi?" Concubine Jing was in a dilemma, and couldn't speak for a while, so she just looked at Xuan Ling.Xuanling hugged Yunyue, kissed her on the forehead, and said with a smile: "A person you don't know. Don't ask, ask your concubine to hug her." My heart suddenly choked.Ozuki, she never knew there was such a mother as me.She has so many mothers and concubines, and her father has so many concubines, but he deliberately hides it from her, preventing her from knowing my existence. My own daughter, when she asked me, I was just a stranger.Even if I pass her by one day, I will be just a passerby after all.For a lifetime, they can only be strangers. Hu Deyi said charmingly: "It turns out that the emperor has always disliked us for being stupid and speechless. Sister Jingfei has a good temper, and the concubine will be angry." Xuan Ling scratched her nose and said with a smile, "You are the only one who is stingy and coquettish." Then he said to Xuan Qing: "This is the first time I have come to your Qingliangtai. I have always heard that it is very good, but now I see it is indeed exquisite. .It is better to build it on the top of the mountain, where you can see all the small mountains and have unlimited scenery.” Xuan Qing said with a smile: "If you like the emperor, you can come here often." Xuanling sighed: "How can there be such a good fortune to come out often? It's so difficult to go out of the palace, so many officials are staring at it." He said with a big laugh: "Your balcony is good, but it's still missing. A hostess. Last time, the young lady of Peiguo's family and the queen mother were very nice, but you refused in every possible way, so you had to let it go. It's just that you are not young, and it's time to accept a concubine." Xuan Qing smiled lightly, "Let's talk about it later. If there is someone I like, I will regard her as the mistress of Qingliang Terrace and love her for the rest of my life." Xuan Ling said: "It's good if you have your own ideas. In the end, you have to be cautious about the important things in your life. The most anxious time has passed, so let's choose carefully." He half-jokingly said, "If you like it, The next show girls will pick a few good ones for you to keep." Xuan Qing just smiled faintly: "Brother Huang was joking." Xuan Ling yawned, and said: "It's getting late, and I still have to read the memorial when I go back. Sixth brother, take care of yourself." Xuanqing hurriedly struggled to get up, Xuanling held him down, and said with a smile: "No need, it's important that you recover from your illness." So they brought Jingfei and Hu Deyi, and the group meandered away. After a while, I heard that they went far away. Xuan Qing came over and took my hand, and said softly: "He has already left." I let out a low "huh", and the tears that I had held back for a long time finally couldn't bear it anymore, and rolled down.He patted my back lightly, and comforted me in a low voice: "Even if Brother Huang refuses to admit it, you are Ozuki's mother after all, and no one can change this." The weakness and sadness in my heart are entangled and entangled, like silk, twisted around my heart, so tight that I can hardly breathe. After a while, I raised my head, broke away from his embrace, slowly shook my head and said: "It's okay if Ozuki doesn't know, a mother like me will be a shame to her." Xuan Qing frowned and said, "Nonsense! It's her greatest pride to have a mother like you who always thinks about her." I sighed, "It doesn't matter if I know or not, as long as she lives well, I can feel at ease." I wiped away my tears and called him again, "My lord..." He was stunned, "Huan'er, why don't you call me by my name?" I lowered my head, looked at the pot of bright green asparagus bamboo, and said lightly: "I just called the prince's name, it is indeed Mo Chou's disrespect. I make mistakes occasionally, please forgive me. I also ask the prince to be as good as before." Call me the same." I deliberately re-clarified the difference between me and him. In fact, there is only a difference between me and him, which is far more than a world of difference. My life, the life I escaped from the palace so easily, how can I have any contamination with him who came from the palace.I can't help it, I can't have it anymore. Xuan Qing's astonishment and shock did not subside, and he became even more puzzled, "Is it because of Brother Huang?" I shook my head, holding the small hand stove in my arms, drawing a little warmth, which can support my strength, "The unexpected arrival of the emperor just woke me up. I was confused for a while, so I offended the prince regardless of dignity." He frowned and said with a wry smile: "He has never been to Qingliangtai before, and I didn't expect him to come here so suddenly. But he came here out of curiosity, but for me and you..." "Things in the world are often unexpected." I slowly lowered my head, carefully hiding the teardrops in the corners of my eyes, and there was no trace of warmth in my voice. He was still smiling, but there was a trace of sadness in his eyes: "It wasn't like this when you said that just now." This sentence, I said just now, is full of warmth and expectation.Together with my body, it is my heart that has been dusty for a long time.However, Xuan Ling's sudden arrival made me aware of the freezing weather of this season.At this moment, it is already a completely different state of mind. My fingers clenched the snow-like dress, as if I was holding a handful of cold snow, "Since the lord believes that there is a heart-to-heart connection, then at this moment, he must also understand my thoughts. Why do I need to say more." My indifference once again built a solid wall for me to resist his care and warmth. I would rather live in such indifference. Xuan Ling, he always pours a pot of cold water to wake me up from my sweet dreams, making me bone-chillingly cold. The corner of Xuan Qing's mouth was full of bitterness, "I almost hate Brother Huang, if he doesn't come..." My tone is dead silent and desolate, as cold as the howling mountain wind at this season, no matter how bright the sun shines, it is always not warm.I interrupted him, "Whether he will come or not, some dreams will eventually wake up." When I saw him standing barefoot on the ground, I felt distressed, and said: "The prince is not well yet, so let's take a good rest. Mochou Say goodbye first." I straightened my clothes and left reservedly.Xuanqing's voice was full of melancholy and firmness, "I know, just now, the wind in your heart was blowing towards me. Even if it was only for a short moment, I was very happy. I will wait for you, wait for you in your heart. The wind blows towards me again. As long as you want, I will always walk beside you, and as long as you turn your head, you can see me." I stopped, my heart softened, and I almost burst into tears, but I said: "Does the lord care about this cousin Hu Deyi?" He was surprised: "What?" I said quietly: "If the prince cares, please remind Hu Deyi not to show that you know the emperor very well when talking to anyone in the palace. At least, the emperor will be very disgusted, which is very unfavorable to her status in the palace." Xuan Qing was taken aback for a moment, and immediately said: "I will try to remind her." I said lightly: "Hu Deyi's temperament may not be able to listen to the prince's persuasion, the prince will do his best." After finishing speaking, I turned around and left. Xuanqing called Huanbi to come in, and said: "Your current residence is really inconvenient. I have ordered someone to clean the Xiaoxian Hall for you to live in. You... If you are free, my lady, go and see if it suits you." I leaned forward and said, "My lord is still taking so much trouble for me when I'm sick, I'm really sorry. In fact, it doesn't matter where you are." His complexion was as white as his pajamas, and he said, "Go and see if you like it." How can I resist his grand affection?I was speechless, I just bowed my head deeply and walked out slowly. The sun is shining outside the hall, and such a good sun in winter is really rare.The moment the sun shone on me, I almost felt like a world away, as if everything just now was a dream.Huanbi helped me go back steadily, and warmed up the medicine for me to drink. When the bitterness of the herbal medicine hit the tip of my tongue, I felt like returning to reality.Huanbi said softly: "The emperor came up just now." "Ok." Huanbi asked cautiously: "Miss, have you seen him?" The bitterness of the concoction stagnates on the tip of the tongue, lingering, "I didn't see it." Huanbi breathed a sigh of relief, patted his chest and said: "That's good. Just now I saw the emperor entered the Lvye Hall, I really sweated, but fortunately I didn't see it." After Huanbi finished speaking, he put a candied plum Put it in my mouth, and said: "The medicine is too bitter, Miss, eat a plum to get rid of the bitterness." With a plum in my mouth, I was silent for a moment, and said vaguely: "If you don't want to see it, you will never see it." Huanbi wanted to say again, "Then the concubine Jing is holding her, but our Obscure Moon Empress..." I lay down tiredly and fell asleep, "Huanbi, I'm tired." I just want to have a good sleep, sleep so deeply that I don't feel anything. Xuan Ling, can't I escape my life with him? Huanbi didn't dare to say any more, she covered me softly with a quilt, and quietly retreated out.