Chapter 16 Chapter 15 Let's take Luo with me and try to be concentric

Jing Wan had just recovered from a serious injury, and the journey was extremely tiring. She was afraid that her father would be worried, so she held on and did not show it, but gritted her teeth and endured.When I finally got back to Qianping and got off the car, there was only a kind of tiredness left, as if the tiredness was so extreme that I didn't even want to say a word.Yin Chufan was worried all the way, and when he got off the train, he let out a long sigh of relief and said, "Finally home." The bustling voices on the platform, she has only been in Chengzhou for a few months, but she feels like a world away, as if the world is separated by a layer, dizzy, and she muster her energy to get off the train and put her feet on the ground , but my heart is still a kind of vain floating, without foundation.They sent a telegram long ago, and the driver at home seemed relieved to receive them all the time, and said with a smile on his face, "Master, Miss, you are back, my wife urged me to go out this morning."

Jing Wan only felt extremely weak and extremely tired. Sitting in the car, she just wanted to go home quickly. When she got home, she suddenly seemed to have strength. She got off the car and walked quickly to the living room. He ran all the way: "Mom! Mom!" Mrs. Yin had already come out to greet her, and she threw herself into her mother's arms, crying like a child.Mrs. Yin put her arms around her, and she just wailed loudly, as if she wanted to cry out all the grievances and sadness these days.Mrs. Yin couldn't hold back her tears, and said, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back..."

She hugged her mother's arm like the last piece of driftwood, nothing but crying.She had never been so weak, never been so powerless, never been so afraid.Mrs. Yin patted her on the back like coaxing a child, she sobbed exhaustedly and said: "Mom, I was wrong." Mrs. Yin said with tears: "Son, don't scare mom like this next time, mom can only You." Her tears flowed out uncontrollably, and her voice was almost inaudible: "Mom, I only have you." She slept very soundly that night, she was exhausted and her heart was just tired, after all she returned home and slept soundly all night without even having a dream.He didn't get up until noon and had lunch. Yin Chufan had been away from Ganping for a long time, and he was busy with business as soon as he came back.Mrs. Yin accompanied her daughter, as if she couldn't get enough of it, she just asked her about her situation in Chengzhou.She was afraid that her mother would be worried, so she only picked out some irrelevant words to say. The mother and daughter were chatting slowly when suddenly Wu Ma came in and said, "Madam, Miss, Young Master Xu is here."

Jing Wan only felt a jump in her heart, she didn't know what it was like, Mrs. Yin had already said: "Hurry up, call him in." Jing Wan sat there without moving, Xu Jianzhang was wearing a long gown today, and he seemed to have lost a lot of weight. Her expression was also very haggard, and she saluted Mrs. Yin from a distance: "Auntie." Mrs. Yin said, "Sit down quickly, I'll get you some snack plates." Mother stayed, but she still didn't say anything. Xu Jianzhang looked at her from a distance. There was only half a room between them, but suddenly they became far away, as if they were separated by thousands of mountains and rivers.He lowered his head slightly, Jing Wan turned his face sideways, the window was covered with dark green gold velvet curtains, with gorgeous golden tassels hanging from the lintel, when the wind blew over, a dazzling golden light appeared, as if the sun was shining on a river, and the water was sparkling. , but there was only sadness in his eyes.

There were just complicated feelings in her heart, like pity, like resentment, more like a kind of passivity that couldn't think deeply, which made her breathless.He finally opened his mouth with a hoarse voice: "Jing Wan, I'm sorry." She didn't make a sound, a strange force supported her, her fingertips unconsciously scratched the suede on the sofa, thin and soft Fluffy, slightly itchy and warm.After a long time, he said again: "I am here today just to apologize to you. I am sorry for you, but under such circumstances, I have no other choice. I don't expect you to forgive me, and I know that you don't want to see me. , but if I don't come today, I won't feel at ease for the rest of my life."

The wind was very strong, and the curtains fluttered. Jing Wan thought that Murongfeng's bedroom also had large western-style curtains, with fluffy balls hanging under the curtains. She stood in front of the window when she was free, and always liked to grab those The little ball brushed the palm fluffy, a little itchy.She was terrified, as if surprised how she could suddenly recall this.She thought Chengzhou was her nightmare, and she never wanted to think about it for the rest of her life.She raised her eyes in a little confusion, and Jian Zhang was looking at her, with only remorse and pain in her eyes.She looked a little dazed, but she collected herself and said, "I don't blame you."

He stood there motionless, his voice still soft: "But I blame myself..." She turned her head a little self-deceiving: "It's not your fault, I don't blame you." He called again: "Jing Wan. "She said: "It's my own fault, how can I blame you." His face was pale and terrible, although she was so close to him, yet so far away.After she said such a sentence, she immediately regretted it again, and stood there quietly, only looking at him with a bit of sadness.He remembered that she got into trouble when she was a child, or suffered some grievances, she was always like this, and his heart softened, as if there were gentle tears about to come, but he tried his best to hold back.

She took a step forward, and he stretched out his hand. She didn't want to think about anything anymore, and she didn't want to think about it anymore. If she continued to think about it, she would really go crazy.She is back, and she is going to live her own life.She flung herself into his arms, as if afraid of something unknown.She wanted him to be safe, and he wanted her to be familiar with him all the time. He had the most familiar tobacco aroma on him, but there was no such faint smell of gunpowder mixed in it.She couldn't think about it anymore, and she would be afraid if she thought about it again, she raised her face, tears glistened in her eyes.He also had tears in his eyes, she knew clearly that she couldn't go back, she could never go back to the past with him, but it was just a desperate stubbornness.She must be the same as before, she must continue her life.

He hugged her tightly, as if embracing a lost and recovered treasure. He never thought that he could easily get her forgiveness. A person like her, who is so proud, is now so weak that she seems to have no strength.There was a faint trace of fear in his heart, afraid that all this would come too easily, and it would not be as real.He thought that she would never forgive him for the rest of her life, but she is in his arms now.He hugged her tightly, as if this was the only way to prove her existence, her body was slightly stiff, or because she was still angry with him, he sighed and kissed her hair: "Jing Wan... I'm sorry... ..."

She looked dazed, and the part of her heart that was torn was aching again, she forced herself not to think about it, what she wanted was the comfortable life she should have.He will do his best to be nice to her, and she will be nice to him, and then forget about all grudges, forget about Chengzhou, and forget about everything that has disrupted her life forcibly. In July and August of Qianping, the heat was very hot. Although Jing Wan was sleepy, the days were long in summer. It was already past ten o'clock, and the sun was already shining brightly. The courtyard was full of flowers and trees, lush and lush. I didn't have breakfast, took a piece of cake, and read today's Spanish newspaper while eating.The newspaper was still analyzing Chengying's conflict in Zhengjiatun, talking about the deployment and strength of the two armies, and the foreign government's mediation... When she saw the word "Chengjun", she felt annoyed and threw the newspaper away. At the side, Mrs. Yin saw her reading the newspaper, so she asked, "What did the newspaper say, is there going to be a war?"

She said: "It's not just a few words. The foreign military analyst said that although the situation is very tense, it is estimated that there will be no war in the near future." I feel uneasy." Then he said, "Aren't you going to go to the park with Jianzhang, why haven't you gone out yet?" Jing Wan looked at the clock and said, "I'm going to Mingmingxuan to eat big dishes. Anyway, I'm going to visit the park every few days. It's the same as my own garden. What's the point?" Mingmingxuan is a western restaurant in Ganshan Park. It is very famous, Jing Wan has always liked the peach jelly there, so Jianzhang and her will have an appointment at Mingming Xuan soon. She didn't go out until eleven o'clock, and it was almost twelve o'clock when she arrived in the park.It was Sunday, and a Ming Ming Xuan was almost full.Because he was a regular customer, the servant came up to him with a smile on his face and said, "Miss Yin is here, Young Master Xu has been waiting there for a long time." Xu Jianzhang also changed into a suit because he came to eat western food. The sun was fierce at noon, and the long windows of colored mosaic glass leaked into colorful light spots. There was a pale yellow light spot shining on his face. Slightly squinting his eyes, the black hairline on his forehead was straight, and his gentle smile made her feel soft and comfortable in her heart. She asked with a smile, "Have you been waiting for a long time?" He said, "It's only been here for a while." Not long after the food was served, suddenly a loud noise came in from outside. There was a Russian band playing in the restaurant, and the noise even disrupted the music. Some people were talking loudly, and some were Asking questions repeatedly, many guests couldn't help looking around, the servant hurried past, Jing Wan stopped him and asked: "What happened?" The servant said: "The news has just come from the newspaper that Chengjun has declared war." Her heart sank suddenly, and for some reason, she seemed to be in a daze.It took her a while before she turned to look at Xu Jianzhang, a gleam of sadness flashed in his eyes, but it was quickly covered up by a kind of calmness.His voice also seemed to be very calm: "It seems that there will be chaos for a while." Jing Wan also gradually came back to her senses, and said nonchalantly: "Chengying has not fought a war for four or five years." They Even though the two of them were talking, Jing Wan, with a fork in her hand, scooped up a piece of pancake that was just served bit by bit. The people at the next table were discussing the situation loudly, and intermittent voices floated over, one said: "Murong Feng's move is unwise, Cheng Jun is already at a disadvantage, and he can't take advantage of it." The other said: "Ying Jun just won The morale of the Anguo army is high, if not for the mediation by the foreign government, they would have declared war on Chengjun's provocation a month ago." Another person disagreed: "I don't think so, Murong Feng and the Russians just After signing the treaty and then declaring war on Ying later, there must be something strange about it.” They chattered endlessly, Jing Wan didn’t want to hear it at first, but every sentence was like a cold little snake, whizzing away. Drill in your ears.Distraught, she unconsciously sighed. Xu Jianzhang suddenly called her: "Jing Wan." She raised her eyes to look at him, his face was still calm and serene, the spots of stained glass reflected on the snow-white tablecloth, the streamer of light fluttered, blurred like a chrysanthemum, swaying slightly The shadow is the tree in front of the window being blown by the wind.There were many ceiling fans in the dining room, but now they are turning slowly. The huge fans are like paddles, slowly stirring the frozen air.She had a premonitory shudder, and the crisp napkin made the palm of her hand wet with sweat, soft and pliable.His expression was still the same, as if he wanted to pick a flower for her when he was a child, and he said, "Let's get married." The ceiling fan above the head has a low and slight humming sound, there are soft laughter and voices all around, and there are cicadas in the distance, hoarse and exhausted.She didn't feel hot, but sweat soaked through her clothes and stuck to her body.There is only a kind of panic in my heart, like waking up when I was a child, the room is quiet, my mother is not there, neither is the nanny, the walls are quiet, and the clock on the wall is ticking.She was left alone in the room, panicking terribly. The noisy human voices in her ears vaguely heard someone speaking Russian. This blunt tone with a flick of the tongue was strange and familiar. She collected herself and found out that it was the conductor of the Russian band.The band played the tune again, "souvenirs d'enfance", very clear piano sound, every note seemed to be knocking on her heart, beating there one after another.She heard her voice clearly say, "Okay." Everything was ready for the engagement ceremony, and it was delayed last time because something happened to Jianzhang, so it wouldn't be too much trouble to rearrange it now.Marriage matters, although it is a new type of society now, but it is inevitable that the old customs are still followed, and both families buy dowry and dowry. Jing Wan never knew that there are so many things about marriage. Although her parents take care of it for her, she still has to test many things by herself.Jianzhang drove the car himself early this morning, and the two went to Da'an foreign company to look at the diamond ring. Originally, there were very few customers in the foreign firm, especially on this morning, when the two of them walked in together, there were only a few Indian guys in the store, so they greeted them very attentively.She showed them all kinds of diamonds, and said: "If you don't like them, we still have loose diamonds here, and you can make custom ring settings." Because they are used for weddings, Jing Wan is extraordinarily solemn, and chooses them carefully. Pick, those rings are all ordinary shapes, after choosing for a long time, there is nothing particularly satisfactory.The guys took out the loose diamonds and showed them, those diamonds were supported on the black velvet base, sparkling like stars in the night.The man saw that he was a big customer, so he was very flattered, saying: "We have an excellent swiftlet here. Yellow diamonds are rare in the first place, and this three-carat yellow diamond is even rarer." A small peach-shaped box was brought out and opened for them to see. When Jing Wan saw the swiftlet's diamond, she couldn't help thinking of the bracelet that Murongfeng had given her, which was densely inlaid with diamonds, so radiant and brilliant, it almost burned people's eyes.The expression on her face couldn't help being stunned for a moment, Jianzhang had already seen her expression in such a split second.He also instantly remembered the first time he went to see her after she was injured.In her hand was a three-to-four-inch-wide bracelet inlaid with swiftlet diamonds, shining like stars under the light, extremely dazzling.At that time, I was only worried about her injury and didn't think much about it, but when I recalled it now, the light of that bracelet seemed to still flicker between people's brows. He remembered that when she first returned to China last year, she saw a foreign princess wearing that kind of diamond bracelet in an English magazine, and she was very impressed.But this kind of priceless rare jewels, rich merchants can't afford it easily. He looked at the light of the diamonds flowing from the swiftlet, and his heart sank straight down. His hands suddenly became cold. Jing Wan smiled and said to him: "I don't like this kind of yellow diamond. It looks dim and not as good as ordinary diamonds." He also smiled at her. There was a box, so I asked: "Is this also a yellow diamond?" The man said: "This is a pink diamond. A few days ago, a customer liked it. Because he thought the setting was not good, he changed the shape and re-set it. He has already paid for it." Deposit." Jing Wan snorted, and the clerk had already opened it for them to see, it was also a diamond of about three carats, it was inlaid very delicately, and Jing Wan liked it very much when she saw it. Seeing that she liked it, Jianzhang asked the clerk to bring it over. She tried it on her finger, and found it was not too big or too small. The clerk smiled and said, "Miss has long and slender fingers, so this style looks the best." Jing Wan looked at it more and more. The more I like it, Jianzhang said: "Since someone ordered it, let's order another one like this." The guy laughed and said: "You know, these pink diamonds are priceless now. Today's fire oil diamonds and pink diamonds are extremely rare. As far as we know, the domestic supply of pink diamonds is very tight. If you want it, we'll send a telegram to the head office and ship it from abroad, just to trouble you to pay some deposit." Jianzhang said: "The deposit is not a problem, but how long will it take?" The man replied: "Originally, we could come in by railway, but now that Chengying is fighting, we have to come by sea with the cruise ship. If it is faster, the diamonds will arrive in three months. " When Jing Wan heard this, she couldn't help being disappointed, their wedding date was set in one month, Jian Zhang hurriedly asked: "Can't it be sooner?" The man spread his hands and made a helpless expression.Jing Wan said: "Forget it then, I'll just choose another ready-made one." Taking off the ring and putting it back into the box, the pink diamond has a faint red color, like rose dew, clear and bright, which makes people always Can't look away.Seeing her reluctance, Jian Zhang couldn't help asking the guy, "Is there really no other way?" The guy raised his head and said, "What a coincidence, the person who ordered this ring is here, why don't you two discuss it with him?"