Chapter 58 Section 56

When Helen heard that BENNY was taking a bath, she immediately thought that he was taking a bath after finishing that thing, or that he took a bath to do that thing, anyway, it was related to that thing.Embarrassed and uncomfortable, she hurriedly replied that there is no need to bring a message, I——call later. She hung up the phone, feeling a pain in her heart, and the only question in her mind was: how could he have WIFE?How could he have WIFE? Although she didn't directly mention BENNY's name in these two calls, because few other people in the store can't take orders, so when it comes to "the boy who takes orders", it can only be BENNY.She figured that the girl who took orders in the store must be an American girl hired to take orders.Before she left, they were talking about finding someone to take the order at PARTTIME, and they even posted HELPWANTED on the glass door of the restaurant. It is estimated that this is how the girl was found.

She sat dazed for a while, feeling that she had been removed from the world of restaurants and BENNY.If the restaurant finds the girl who takes the order, she is no longer needed; if BENNY's WIFE is here, she is no longer needed.She seems to have fallen from the peak of being needed to a deep valley of being not needed. The restaurant and BENNY are still running on their own tracks, but she has become a TOTally redundant person. She was sad for a while, remembering that she herself had decided to leave him just now, so what difference does it make if he has WIFE or not?It should be said that it is a good thing that he has WIFE, because then he will not feel bad for her leaving, and she will not feel guilty about having to leave him.

Of course, she should think like this intellectually, and she can figure it out, but emotionally, she still feels very uncomfortable.She thought of the words he said, although he didn't say "I love you" directly, but at least it was TOTHATEEFFECT, right?How can a guy have WIFE and say those things to another woman?She felt the pain of being cheated, and it was hard for her to accept the fact that the only person in her life she thought worthy of love was a liar. Surely she thought right away that she wasn't doing the same thing?On the one hand, there is a husband, and on the other hand, he says "I miss you" or something like that to him.But she felt that her situation was different from his. She really loved him, and her husband was just a temporary problem that she couldn't get rid of. that kind of emotion.

But how can she say that BENNY is not "in Cao Ying and in Han" like her?Maybe he is also like her, he really likes her in his heart, why is it because of some unspeakable secrets that he maintains a husband and wife relationship with that woman?She felt that the woman seemed to be an American, because she spoke English very idiomatically, not only idiomatically, but her voice and sound quality seemed to be different from the Chinese, and she was completely American. Is BENNY's marriage just like the boss and that Fujian wife, just a fake marriage?For example, BENNY married that woman for American citizenship.But she immediately realized that this was "bowing behind closed doors - congratulating yourself", which was pure self-deception. BENNY has a green card. If he wants to become a citizen, he only needs to take an exam. Isn't the exam a piece of cake for him?

But she still couldn't help deceiving herself and thinking that maybe BENNY lost her green card status for some reason, so she had to find a citizen to marry to help her get her status back. Isn't that what the boss' father is like?I originally got a green card, but because I ran back to China to meet my lover, I lost the green card. It was the boss's mother who later issued it to his father.There is also the boss' younger brother, because he is about to be deported back to China, he looks for his possible child everywhere, because if he finds it, he can not be deported.If BENNY also faced the danger of being deported, then he might find an American wife in order not to be deported.

The thought of this possibility made her feel better, and she thought that he might not like the American woman at all, but married her for some reason.In that way, things seem to be easier, because she and him are equal in terms of marriage history, they can talk about things, and make plans after both parties have resolved their "trouble".Of course she was still ten years older than him, but in the face of his trouble with WIFE, ten years older seemed like a small problem. But when she thought of him, it didn't seem like a fake marriage, at least not the same as the boss's fake marriage.The boss didn't bring his Fujian wife here, the two of them "fighted a few battles" in a hotel in China, and after they took a photo together, the boss came back to the United States, and then made a fuss about his wife. Fujian wives apply for the kind of citizenship fiancée visit visa. I heard that it is best to apply for it. After getting married, it is not easy for the fiancée to apply for it. However, if the visa is not married within a certain period of time after the application, the fiancée will lose her status.

As soon as the boss's Fujian wife came to the United States, they registered their marriage, but the wedding was not held, because the Fujian people regard the wedding as more important than the registration.It is said that according to the customs of my wife’s hometown in Fujian, her marriage to her boss is nothing, only a marriage between her and someone is considered a real marriage, just like the former marriage of a medium. The boss and his Fujian wife have never lived together in the United States, because Baobao keeps a close eye on him, and because the Fujian wife is an "airport", the boss has no "sexual interest", and he will definitely not offend Baobao for an "airport".The Fujian wife once wanted to make this fake marriage a reality, but the boss refused, so the Fujian wife later found a Fujianese who worked together to hold the wedding.

But BENNY brought his WIFE here, and he was busy with the rain as soon as he came, how could this be a fake marriage?It's more real than real! When she thought of BENNY's eagerness to see his wife, she felt heartache.When she thought of how charming his American wife was on the bed, she felt jealous and inferior.Americans, who knows how advanced the technology is?Still not fascinated by BENNY?The children born in the future will be as beautiful as they are. I don't know why, this is obviously something she should be happy about and feel relieved about, but she feels very sad, much sadder than when she decided to leave him.She didn't dare to face up to her heart, because she knew that there was a great vanity there, she could bear her leaving him voluntarily, but she couldn't bear him leaving her voluntarily.

Is there any difference in the results of the two?It was because they were not together, but thinking that she left him, she felt better. On the one hand, she felt that she was noble, and on the other hand, she didn't feel ashamed.If he had left her, it would be different. The noble sense of self-sacrifice was gone, and the humiliation of being cheated and abandoned was added. She had always felt that she was not a vain person in this regard, and if Li Bing wanted to leave her, she would definitely not care, neither did she care that he left her first, nor did she care that there would be no such person in her life from now on.Even before marriage, she felt this way about Li Bing.She didn't feel bad when Li Bing came, and she didn't feel sad when Li Bing left.

At that time, she thought it was love, love in real life.That kind of life-and-death, crazy love is only found in Qiong Yao's books.However, love begets fear, love begets jealousy, and love begets hate, all of which are incorrect loves. The correct love should make people noble, selfless, and brave. She once heard a girlfriend say that after her boyfriend dumped her, she spent several years ruining every affair with her ex-boyfriend behind her back while showing her unrepentant love in front of him , and finally her ex-boyfriend came back to her, and she rejected him when he proposed to her in front of many people.Although that girlfriend has never been married, she feels that she is very successful because she took a big breath of anger.

At that time, Helen felt that she would never worry about who left or who abandoned whom.Now that love doesn't exist anymore, what difference does it make who said to break up first?It doesn't matter if you say it first or he says it first, anyway, he doesn't love you anymore. But her girlfriend said: Whoever mentioned the breakup first is very different.It was you who broke up, you are the winner, there will be no scars on your heart, your self-esteem will not be hurt, and you can walk into another love without any burden.But if he abandons you, you will lose face, you will only have hatred in your heart, you only want revenge in your life, and you will not have the heart to enjoy another love. Afraid that she would also become a person who loves to hate, she immediately confessed to herself: He has an American wife, which is his happiness, which shows that he is not a fugitive, and it also shows that his future is very bright, so she doesn't have to replace him Worry about it. Of course, while he had a wife, he had expressed his love for her. She should believe that he had his reasons, and certainly not malicious or despicable reasons. Maybe it's because he grew up in the United States, he is more open about sexual issues, like a boss, he can sleep with his Fujian wife while loving the bag; Help her out in life; maybe he is nicer to people and she misunderstood him.All in all, definitely not a bad reason. She tried to cheer herself up, played with Mimi, and tried to forget about it.But while looking at her daughter, she thought that from now on, she could only depend on her daughter for life, and felt very disappointed. She comforted herself and said that misfortune comes with blessings, love is frustrated, and visa is successful. Since she got such bad news before the visa, Mimi's visa must be fine. On the day of the visa, Helen was in the queue at the window of a male visa officer.Although she was very nervous, she held the certificate she had already signed in her hand, and felt at least 80% hopeful that she would sign in.When the people standing near her heard that she had come back from the United States and that she had already signed for the return visa, and now she was here to sign for her daughter, they all looked at her enviously and said that it would be no problem for someone like her. She saw so many people anxiously queuing there, each one worried that they would not be able to sign, she suddenly felt so happy, remembering how she felt when she got a visa last time, she was like these people, anxious before signing, and ecstatic after signing .She has been in the United States for a year, and she seems to have forgotten the feeling of the last visa. From time to time, she complains about her situation in the United States.Coming back now, I tasted the anxiety when I got a visa again, and felt that I was really blessed to be able to sign the visa.It seems that I should come back every year in the future, taste the difficulties of visas, review the anxious expressions of everyone in the visa hall, and maybe feel very relieved that I can study in the United States. The interview with her by the visa officer was very simple and ended without asking many questions.When the visa officer returned her passport, materials and a piece of printed paper, she thought she had signed in, and stood by the side for a long time before she felt something was wrong, because she remembered the time when she signed in. , did not get back his passport, and had to go to another window to pay. Her heart was beating wildly and painfully, she covered her chest and barely read the words on the paper before she knew that Mimi had been refused the visa.Her tears flowed down big and big, and she slid along the wall to the floor, sat down on her buttocks, covered her mouth and cried bitterly. Several people gathered around to look at the piece of paper in her hand, and one of them said tactfully: "Immigrant tendencies, then you are hopeless—" She squeezed to the window where her visa was refused just now, pointed to the item that was ticked on the paper, and asked loudly, "Why? Why? She-sly achild!" Seeing that she was crying pitifully, the visa officer did not immediately ask someone to drive her away, but explained: For all people, we first assume that he has the tendency to immigrate, and if he can provide sufficient evidence to overturn our As soon as it is assumed, we will sign him, otherwise we think he has the tendency to immigrate.You have not provided evidence that you have an inseparable connection in China, so we cannot sign you. She still wanted to ask "isn't my husband inseparable?", but there were already two staff members on duty to pull her.She saw that Mimi was clinging to her, and looked at the two staff members in panic. She was afraid that they would scare her daughter, and she knew it would be useless to ask, so she picked up her daughter and walked out of the visa hall in a daze. She knew that Mimi would cry loudly in the visa hall every time she was refused a visa. She didn't understand how the visa officers could be so cruel, and they were not moved when they saw such a pitiful scene.But this time Mimi didn't cry, probably because she was frightened by her crying.She wiped away her tears and said to Mimi: "Come on, let's go eat." She found a small restaurant, ordered some of her daughter's favorite dishes, and sat there waiting.Mimi asked: "Mom, I didn't sign in again?" She nodded, and tears welled up in her eyes again.Mimi wiped her mother's tears with her little hands, and asked, "Why - America doesn't like me?" She quickly explained: "America doesn't dislike you, it does—it doesn't like Dad—" "Why don't they like Dad?" Mimi guessed, "Is it because Dad likes to smoke?" She nodded, and Mimi said, "Then let's tell Dad not to smoke anymore—" Wanting to divert her daughter's attention elsewhere, she suggested, "Let's go play in the park today." "I still want to go to the zoo." "Okay, then let's go to the zoo to play." After eating, Mimi asked again: "Mom, are you still going to America?" She didn't dare to answer, and it took her a long time to say: "Mimi, Mom has applied for Canadian immigration for you, which is a Canadian visa. Mom has to go back to the United States to wait for the visa. If she gets it, Mimi can go to Canada. , then you can go to the United States to see your mother from there.” Mimi actually understood such a complicated curve to save the country, probably because she talked about it too many times.Mimi dipped her hands in water, drew two circles on the table, pointed to one and said, "This is Canada," then pointed to the other, "This is America. Mommy is here, and Mimi is in that frame The two are next to each other, and when Mimi jumps, she jumps into the mother's frame." She hugged her daughter and burst into tears.The waitress at the restaurant probably has seen such a scene, and said kindly, "Don't be sad, there are many people who have been refused visas." Then she shook her head in confusion, "I really don't understand, why do you want to go to the United States? I heard that the food over there is terrible." When playing in the zoo that day, Mimi was also very happy, but the visa issue seemed to come to her mind from time to time. In many situations, Mimi mentioned the United States and her mother.Seeing a big monkey hugging a little monkey, Mimi said: "Mom, look at that big monkey is always hugging the little monkey, even when it climbs the tree." She didn't know if Mimi was in love with the situation. Thinking of her mother leaving her to go to the United States, she couldn't hug her all the time like a big monkey hugging a little monkey.She said, "Mimi, if you don't want Mom to go to America, Mom won't go." Like a little adult, Mimi said in an orderly manner: "My first favorite is to go to the United States with my mother, my second favorite is to go to China with my mother, and my third favorite is—" Mimi didn't say what the third favorite is, probably the third can't be described as liking. When the two were resting on the grass, Mimi looked at the sky, pointed to the clouds in the sky, and said to her mother, "Mom, I really want to be a cloud in the sky." She asked, "Why?" "If I were Yun, I wouldn't need a visa, and I would float to the United States to see my mother." She couldn't hold back her tears anymore, hugged Mimi, sobbed and said, "Mimi, mom—no—went to America, just—stayed in China, with Mimi."