Chapter 46 Section 44

Helen finally bought a round-trip ticket. BENNY said that the round-trip ticket was cheaper than the one-way ticket. Although she didn’t believe it, she didn’t want to argue with him, so let’s go back and forth. Since it’s valid for half a year, it should be able to give it to Mimi Make up a ticket. She drove them to the restaurant, and then drove back to City B to make a watch.The school said that whether it is to sign the I-20 or apply for a new I-20, it will take a week to wait.She was so anxious that she quickly said that she had already bought her ticket, and then she told her about her daughter's repeated visa refusals. She burst into tears, and the school immediately issued a new I-20 for her and signed it.

She was very grateful, and thanked the person who handled the form repeatedly, and drove back to City A, and went to get the air ticket first, more than 800 yuan, the ticket was bought in such a hurry, with this price, it was considered very cheap.She went back to the restaurant, ate the meal that BENNY cooked for her, and then worked in the store.After get off work, she went to Lily's place, because Lily asked her to bring things back to China, and asked her to bring them to Beijing and mail them to Shanghai. BENNY wants to go with her to Lily's place, but she refuses, for fear that JACKIE will check him better if he sees BENNY's appearance.He didn't force him to go, he just told her to drive carefully.

She took things from Lily's place, but she didn't want to stay any longer, so she drove back to her residence.She thought that in one day and two nights, she would go back to China, and maybe she would never see BENNY again, so she felt very sad and hopeless.She wants to love him well and fulfill all his wishes during this day and two nights, as long as she can do it, she is willing to do it, but she doesn't know if he has any "wish" for her. Sometimes she felt that he seemed to have that kind of desire for her, because he always talked about it and always looked for opportunities to get close to her.She has long thought that if he knocks on her door at night, she will open it for him immediately and give herself to him completely, he can do whatever he wants.However, I don't know if he didn't knock on the door, or she was too fast asleep, but she didn't hear anything anyway.

So she wasn't sure what he was thinking, maybe he was just joking with all his affectionate words and actions?Are you teasing her?But he is also a man, a man, who wouldn't want to do that?A man can have desire even for a woman he doesn't love, unless he thinks she is too old.As soon as she thought of this, she lost her courage. If he didn't come to her, he must think she was too old and stupid, and she knew that she was not good at bedtime. She had never cared about her "work in bed" before. To her, doing that was completely Li Bing's business, he was working and enjoying.She just provides a place for him to do that.There's no way, the Marriage Law guarantees Li Bing's right to use her, and she doesn't want to have conflicts with Li Bing every time.

But she never thought about what she should do to please Li Bing, so she has always had the attitude and posture of "finish early and rest early", and sometimes she can even lie there silently planning what to do the next day. But now for some reason, she suddenly started to care about her "skills in bed", for fear that she would not be good enough to please BENNY.She thought, it's better to postpone this until tomorrow, then she can secretly take a look at those pornographic magazines in the boss's room tonight, and maybe cradling her feet before death can have some effect.She also wants to be like the woman in that movie, so that he will never forget her in this life.

It's a pity that the novel didn't write how to make a man unforgettable for the rest of his life. She suddenly realized that she had been working for nothing for so many years. make others happy.The only gain is that she has a child, her lifeblood. She heard from the boss that his bag was taught by him with one hand and one foot. At the beginning, the bag was stupid and knew nothing.However, Baobao is diligent and studious, even the opportunity to eat bananas and popsicles is not missed. He studies hard and practice hard, and finally his hard work pays off.Later, I learned some heresy from miscellaneous people, and now Baobao thinks the boss is old-fashioned.

Thinking of doing this, she has a big heartache, because she gave birth to Mimi by caesarean section, and there is a scar on her stomach.A smart person like BENNY can tell at a glance that she has given birth to a child, and he will immediately know that she has been lying.Although she didn't directly tell that lie, after the boss guessed like that, she also acquiesced, so she was lying.If BENNY knew that she had been lying to him, he would definitely dislike her, and maybe he would scold her severely and never talk to her again. She didn't know if it was possible to say that the scar was left by some other operation. Appendicitis was definitely not an option. Li Bing had surgery for appendicitis, and the scar was on the lower right abdomen.Her caesarean section was performed by an acquaintance doctor. It was a transverse incision. They said it was more beautiful and she could wear a three-point swimsuit in the future.The problem is that this kind of incision seems to be only a caesarean section. If it is any other operation, the doctor probably only wants to save people, and will not care so much about the location of the incision.

So she can't do it normally with BENNY, because she can't let him see the scar, she can only take crooked ways.Since he said that day that he would get nosebleeds watching her eat corn, he must not care about crooked ways, right?If this happened to Li Bing, she wouldn't think of doing crooked things if she was killed. It's disgusting and dirty.But because it is BENNY, she feels differently, she is willing to do anything, just afraid that her skills are not good enough to make him ecstatic. As soon as she got home, she took a shower.It is estimated that BENNY has settled the score, because he and two other people are watching TV in their room.She didn't disturb them, closed the door, and read pornographic magazines.When she moved in, she noticed that the magazines that had been scattered on the carpet were gone, maybe BENNY put them away and took them away.But when she went to hang clothes in the closet later, she saw the magazines on the top shelf.

She checked the latch again, and it was indeed bolted, and then she took a magazine down with confidence, and made a special note of where it was placed, lest she put it in the wrong place when she returned it later, and BENNY would find out She reads porn magazines.She quickly ran to the bed and lay down, hiding under the quilt and reading, as if someone would break into the door at any time to check what book she was reading. In fact, this is not the first time she has read pornographic magazines. When she was in City B, she also read one. It was obtained by Lily somewhere.She read the legendary pornographic magazine, but didn't feel anything.Those women are very naked, but the shooting angles and poses are also well mastered, somewhat artistic in it.The breasts were exposed because the wind flapped the front of the clothes, giving people the feeling that they were exposed inadvertently, rather than teasing on purpose.The figures of those women are also really good. After seeing them, she was very envious of their beauty.

There were no lewd pictures of men and women together in that magazine, there were very few men, and most of them were women.She doesn't know what it feels like for a man to see it. Her personal feeling is that no matter a woman or a man, she is beautiful to a certain extent. Even if she is naked, the feeling is envy and reverence, and she has no low-minded thoughts.I've heard people say that a body that is too perfect does not arouse people's lust, but arouses people's admiration and admiration, because lust is somewhat animalistic. The Chinese pornographic magazines that the boss bought back from New York are different, they are basically provocative and lewd.She flipped through it, but didn't see any technical introductions, but some descriptions of pornographic encounters. The nudity of those women is also very unartistic nudity, just to show you that piece, there is no plot, no excuses, yes The rawest, most unappealing nudity.

She is too lazy to look at those pictures, everyone is female, who doesn't know a few things?She just wanted to find some written materials, which were more instructive about crooked ways.But she didn't see this kind of article. There were a few instructive ones, but they all talked about the positions of men and women, and they were accompanied by pictures. It made her feel like they were doing gymnastics or acrobatics. She didn't believe that. Can get things done. She had no choice but to read a few articles about the affair, the text was very general, and there was no storyline.After reading a few articles, there is a general feeling that the women in the story really want to do that thing, even if they don't want to do it at first, they will be eager to be "handed down" by men. She thought that these authors might be men, so they wrote about women so "thinking" about that matter.For her, "thinking" is mainly a psychological activity, a spiritual thing.But these stories don't seem to think so, and directly say that some part of the body is "itchy".She suddenly remembered that BENNY once asked her: "I hold you like this, you don't want at all?" She didn't know what he meant by "want", considering that he was a man, and he was a man who had read pornographic magazines, Nine out of ten of the "thinking" he said meant what he meant in the magazine. So he's been treating her like that all along?Think she'd "want" to do that, like the women in those magazines?She felt a little offended, was that what she was acting like?She felt that she had never thought about it. She liked him, was willing to be with him, and was willing to satisfy him and make him happy, but it was all out of love, not lust.She felt that she had no lust, and a woman without lust was a good woman.But she understands his lust very well and agrees very much. If he doesn't have lust for her, then she will die of grief. She doesn't feel at all that she has double standards for men and women in this matter, which seems normal and justified to her.She doesn't believe that women are like men, thinking about that thing all day long. If a woman thinks about that thing all day long, it's abnormal.She used to think that it was abnormal for Li Bing to think about that thing all the time, but after working in the restaurant, she had been subtly influenced by them, and felt that it was normal for a man to think about that thing all the time. Before she finished a magazine, she heard someone knocking on the door. She held her breath and asked, "Who is it?" She heard that it was BENNY outside: "It's me, are you asleep? Forget it, I saw you haven't turned off the lights—" She hurriedly said: "If you haven't slept, come—" She hurriedly put the magazine back to its original place, ran to the bathroom to wash her hands, and then ran to open the door.When she opened the door, he was no longer there. She stood there looking around and saw him coming from the refrigerator, holding a white bubble teacup in one hand and something like an envelope in the other. . Seeing her open the door, he came into the room and put the cup on the table with a straw already stuck in the lid.He asked: "Do you drink sweet tea? I don't add much sugar, so I won't gain weight." She was feeling thirsty, and this cup of tea came just in time. She picked up the cup and drank a few swigs, thinking that he might have brought it back from the restaurant on purpose.He smiled and said: "It's over, you fell into my trick, I did something in the tea." "Really? What did you do? Put 'drugs'?" He laughed: "Put 'drugs'? I told you a long time ago, I don't like that set. If I want to put it, it must be 'lovepotion." He handed the envelope in his hand to her and said, "Put this Take it back to the mainland for use.” She took a look inside the envelope, and found some US dollars, all of which were twenty yuan each. She didn't know how many there were in total.She asked in surprise: "What kind of money is this? Salary?" "It's not wages. The wages will be paid to you by the boss. I don't know how he calculates them. This is for you to take home. Your mother is sick, so it must cost a lot—" She stated: "My mother has public health care and doesn't have to—" "Then you can use it yourself." "Where did you get so much money?" "Don't worry, it's all from legitimate sources. It's the money that restaurants make today." "How can you give me the money from the restaurant? Does the boss know—you're to blame?" He smiled: "Look at you, the money is made by the restaurant today, but I got it out of my wages. I have been working for several years, and I have never received wages. I put them all on the boss How dare he say that he can use some money occasionally?" Seeing her looking at him stupidly, he said, "Don't be afraid, I don't mean anything else, I'm just afraid that you haven't worked for a few days, and you don't have enough money. It's okay to bring more money. If you don't have enough money, you will be in trouble." .If you find it inconvenient to carry money, you can exchange it for a banker's check or money order—" She resolutely does not want his money. She feels that once she accepts his money, what she wants to do with him will deteriorate. By the way, that was not her original intention.She shoved the envelope into his hand and said, "I really can't take it. I never take money from others—" He stood up and said, "Then you can rest. If you have to do something tomorrow, you don't have to go back to work. Do you want to buy something to take back?" "I'll get up early tomorrow to go shopping, and I can still get back to work." "Don't panic, it's not too busy in the morning, and the boss will be back tomorrow, so don't worry about shopping." As soon as she heard that her boss was coming back tomorrow, she somehow felt a sense of urgency to put her plan into action today.But she really didn't know how to make him understand what she meant, so she couldn't just say it straight?If he meant that, it's okay to just say it. If he didn't mean that at all, if she said that and he refused, would she still be alive? She didn't know what to say, and sat on the bed silently.He also stood there and didn't go away.She looked up at him and saw that he was also looking at her. She thought he stretched out his hand and pulled her over, and the two of them would have nothing to say, but he stood there firmly, and she felt his eyes Talking, just don't know what he's talking about. She wanted to ask him to sit beside her, but she heard Ah SAM yelling from the opposite room: "BENNY, come here quickly, it can't be done." He didn't move, just replied loudly: "You can't figure it out, what's the use of calling me?" Those two guys came running over, Ah GAM seemed to realize it suddenly, and said: "Oh, Auntie is leaving? I am so reluctant. Don't you want to ask Auntie for a big picture, BENNY? Don't you want it soon? If you don't want it, just Otherwise." He explained to Helen, "BENNY said, he wants you to send him a big photo." She said shyly, "Why does he want my big picture?" Ah GAM said: "It must be for masturbation." BENNY reached out to knock him, and he ran away in a flash. She was even more embarrassed, and said to BENNY: "Go and help them." He obediently walked to his own room, and said to her in English: "I-ll be back soon." Sure enough, he came back soon and asked, "Are you willing to give me a big photo of you?" She asked cheekily, "You——asked for the photo, and it was really for—that?" He salivated and asked, "Can I ask you?" "Is there any use for me to say? I can still control what you want?" She thought, people are so weird, if someone said this to her, she must feel insulted.But because BENNY said it, she felt that it was her glory, because her photos could make him feel impulsive. She wanted to find a photo to give to him, but she remembered that there was a photo of her daughter in the album. She was afraid that he would be suspicious if he saw it, so she said, "The photos are all in the box. I will look for them later and give them to you tomorrow." "Are you really willing to give it to me? You are not afraid of me—" She boldly said: "I'm not afraid, let alone a photo, it's the person you're facing me—" He looked at her for a while, as if wondering if she was telling the truth or joking, and then he walked up quickly and put his arms around her, and whispered, "You fool, who is facing you, how can I still Will you be willing to waste bullets? I want a photo, just so that I can see you from time to time—I'm afraid you won't be able to sign it—" He picked her up and walked to the bed. She was afraid that she was too heavy, so she struggled to get off the ground and walk on her own. He threatened her: "Don't move around, it hurts my hand—" She didn't dare to move anymore, thinking to herself, fortunately she lost the weight during this period, otherwise he would be overwhelmed.