Chapter 118 Chapter 117

This is the first time Shi Yan has heard of the metaphor of "sawing in half", but she thinks it is very appropriate, just like that feeling.For the two sawn halves, the most uncomfortable thing for them is not necessarily the pain of the saw teeth biting the body, but the pain of not knowing what the other half is like.Maybe the two halves are together, and there are many sufferings in life, but because you can see, hear, and touch the other half, those sufferings are external sufferings, not sufferings between the two.When two people can endure it together, the external suffering is reduced by half.

"Not a whole", perhaps this is the most painful factor. When she is with Excellence, although they are together, they still feel two halves, and they can't hear each other, can't see each other, and can't see each other. Touch each other's halves.She doesn't know which kind of pain is more painful, whether it's people being together, but the heart is like a passerby, or the heart is together, but the body is far away, anyway, she has tasted both, and it seems that at least one will continue to taste. The two were silent for a while, and Huang Hai asked, "Teacher Zhuo—how is he?"

She was thinking about the "fellow traveler" and "fellow traveler", thinking that he was asking about Zhuo Liang's attitude towards their future, so she replied: "Him? He proposed on his own initiative—no longer contacting—for the sake of the child— —” "He's--in a bad situation, isn't he?" She talked about Joyo's situation, and when it came to Aunt Qiao's current situation, both of them were silent.Finally, he said with emotion: "It's really hard for me to imagine him working in the - printing factory - it's not that the work is - low - but this - the punishment method - has its own — insult meaning —”

She was also very sad: "He is indeed not a person with strong hands-on ability. Before loading and unloading a gas stove, he was covered with oil and his hands were injured. Now he is doing that work, and he is in a bad mood—— It must be like a year. Yao Xiaoping said that he made his hands and face black—” "I don't know if this matter will come out one day—" "Unless the fall of Wen—" "The downfall of the surname Wen may mean that no one will continue to persecute Teacher Zhuo, but a complete rehabilitation—my feeling is—difficult—it’s not like the Anti-Rightist Cultural Revolution in the past—in the eyes of the party—that It's all just a—a matter of moderation—and now this—"

"But he wasn't unlucky because of that. It's mainly because of his—personal problems—" "I'm afraid that when his mother collapses, they will bring up the incident in County M and say—" She also became worried, and felt that those people told Aunt Qiao about Aunt Jiang's affairs with such intentions, that they wanted to bring Aunt Qiao down, and then they could bribe those people in County M, issue false testimony, and completely bring down Zhuoyue. Throw it in prison and sentence it to ten or eight years.She asked, "Then—how?" "I don't know, maybe only you can help him—"

"How can I help?" "Take him out of the country?" "Me? I don't know the day and month when I go abroad, and I don't know if I can get out of the country. Even if I can go out of the country, I'm afraid it's too late—" The two sighed for a while, and Huang Hai said: "Maybe I thought things were too scary. People nowadays should be much more enlightened than they were during the Cultural Revolution, and they have a better understanding of political affairs. When things get worse, why bother? The world turns around, relying on pranking people to be proud for a while, and after a while, they will be pranked again, so it’s better to stay on the sidelines. My incident this time is an example. Everyone in our laboratory knows I definitely didn't go home with Xiao Fu that day, but we said that in political studies, and no one came out to expose our lies—"

"Maybe others believe it more—Xiaofu, right? In her situation, what she said should be—true and credible—" "It's possible, but those who know the relationship between me and Xiaofu, especially where we usually live, will definitely not believe it." "Is it possible that they're behind--to expose?" "It's possible, but I haven't had any trouble so far—" "Actually, the outstanding thing is not--it was exposed by the masses, like the rigorous ones--all of them are very protective of him--" "You're right, now it depends on when the surname Wen will step down. As long as he doesn't step down for a day, Mr. Zhuo may not have a good life-you said that others don't know your relationship with him-husband and wife-this is true You can take advantage of-"

"How to use it?" "If others don't know about your husband-wife relationship with him, you won't be implicated. You should be able to go abroad. When it's done, you can use your husband-wife relationship to send him abroad—" She listened to his tone, as if she had already gone abroad, and not only asked curiously: "But in his situation, how can the country—let him go?" "It depends on whether he has any acquaintances in the Public Security Bureau. If he does, he can get a passport. As long as he has a passport, I think his visa will be fine. I heard that the more persecuted in China, the better. visa--"

Thinking of this prospect, she felt an indescribable feeling in her heart, and she couldn't help asking: "The two of us are like this—you put Xiaofu out—I put out Excellence—what about us?" "Us? We will always be us. No matter where we are or who we are with, our hearts are together—I believe that everything will turn around after going abroad—I'm afraid I won't be able to go abroad—" "Why can't you get out?" "University A is very strict about going abroad. I heard that applications for TOEFL, GRE, etc. have to be approved by the president's meeting. In the past, each department could approve the application. Now it is tightened. Can I apply for the name? It’s still a problem. It is estimated that the teacher’s academy has similar regulations, so you are lucky to be transferred from the teacher’s academy in time—”

"But I have a three-year contract with Steelworks Children Middle School—" "No problem, from preparing for the TOEFL GRE test to actually going abroad, it may really take so long—" She suggested: "If you can't even register for the exam, then I can get you out first after I finish going abroad." He smiled and said: "Why do you ask me to go out? We are not a husband and wife, so we can't allow classmates to visit relatives—" She found that they had entered a dead end. If they stayed in the country, they might never be free; but if they went abroad, at least Huang Hai had to bring Xiao Fu with them. She couldn't bear to leave Excellence behind and suffer at home. Both of them took their spouses abroad, but they still couldn't recover their freedom. The future was really dark.Only facing the pair of mandarin duck stones, the two of them swore each other again and again, pinning all their hopes on time and luck.

Later, Shi Yan talked to Yao Xiaoping about going abroad. Yao Xiaoping said: "You are really lucky. Now many universities have formulated policies to control going abroad. Some schools have even more evil teachers. They stipulate that anyone whose family members are stranded overseas will not return. , are not allowed to take the TOEFL GRE test - if our teacher's college has this rule, I will never even think about going abroad, because my brother is abroad - " "Really? Is this also going to implicate the nine clans?" "Yeah, they think it's going to force people stranded overseas to come home—" "This is really—too much—then you—do you still want to go abroad?" "I don't think too much about it now, the main thing is rigor. What can he do abroad if he studies sports? If he doesn't do well after going out, it will be very hard to rely on me alone. We want to transfer to E University Go, leave City D, this way—less trouble—” She felt that it was a bit of a fantasy to transfer from the teacher's college to the E major, but it was a bit possible to transfer from the E major to the teacher's college.But Yao Xiaoping seemed very optimistic: "I am in contact with the High School Attached to E University, they are very interested in me—" "But what about rigor? He's also transferred—to the High School Attached to E University?" "Let's see if he can get into the sports department of University E. If he can't—then he has no choice but to get into the middle school—" "He will?" "He is willing, he said as long as he can be with me-is it the same thing to teach middle school and university?" She was very happy for Yao Xiaoping, but also a little worried that Yao's mother would follow her daughter to City E, and then she would have to find another nanny to take care of the child.She tentatively talked about her plan to help Zhuoyue go abroad, but she didn't expect to get Yao Xiaoping's firm support, although the reasons for her support were completely different from what she thought. Yao Xiaoping said: "Yes, I also think you should promote Excellence. Think about it, when Huang Hai takes his wife with him, if he can't sell it there, shouldn't he take care of it himself? And his wife saw the momentum. No, that's not the case with the former lover, she has no one else to rely on, and Huang Hai may have turned into a handsome boy abroad, so his wife will let him go? Then you will be alone Seeing other people's couples being intimate and sweet, and being alone—" She felt that if this was the purpose of going abroad for excellence, then she would rather not do it. Who said she was alone?Doesn't she have a son?With her son, she will never be alone.She said what she meant, and Yao Xiaoping changed her mind again: "If you don't want to be with Excellence, then why do you want him to go abroad? Once you get him out, you don't want to get rid of him. Now he is alone If you propose to sever ties, if you don’t seize such a good opportunity and want to sever ties after leaving the country, isn’t that—seeking skins from tigers?” She felt that Yao Xiaoping's worry was justified, but if she had that ability but didn't make Excellence go, she couldn't bear it: "I just think he stays in China—it's very pitiful——" Yao Xiaoping comforted her and said, "Don't worry about him. After this period, he can transfer to another job, or quit his job and go elsewhere to be self-employed——he won't be bullied by that Wen—" She is also willing to think the same way, and feels that going abroad is still far away. Now that school has not started, she is very busy. When school starts, she has to prepare for lessons and take care of her children. How can she have time to review TOEFL and GRE?It’s better not to sing too early about these boundless things, and don’t rush too early. It’s not too late to think about these things after you pass the TOEFL GRE test. Unexpectedly, just a few days later, I heard the news of Zhuo Liang's injury. His hand was crushed by some machine, he lost one finger, and two others were injured.She ran to see him when she got the news, and saw that his hands were wrapped in white gauze, his face was also very pale, and his expression was very depressed. When he saw her coming, he stretched out his good hand to hug the child, and the child behaved obediently. cry.He held the child in one arm, supported it with the other arm, and watched the child cry. Shi Yan's heart softened, her nose became sore, and tears overflowed, she walked up to him and said, "You—resign and quit—" He choked up and said: "I can't quit—I want to quit too—but the problem is not clear—they will say if you leave You abscond in fear of crime-China is their world-wherever I go-they can find a way to mess with me-" "Then let's find a way to go abroad, they can't control foreign countries—" "I am like this, how can I go abroad?" "Maybe I can help you." She talked about Huang Hai's plan, but did not mention Huang Hai's name. He looked at her with tears in his eyes, unbelievable: "You—would you like this—to help me?" Seeing her nodding in affirmation, he said emotionally, "Yan'er, it doesn't matter if you can help me or not. If you speak, you can support me—to survive—I—for the rest of my life—will never—forget your kindness to me—”