Chapter 63 Chapter 62

I don't know what the result would be if the call continued, but the fact is that the call did not continue, because a person who was in the meeting slipped out of the meeting place to make a call, rubbing his hands and standing by the side, Shi Yan had no choice but to end the call in a hurry. For Huang Hai's call, he gave the phone to that person, and ran outside for a while before returning. After she came back, she wanted to continue calling, but no one answered, maybe Huang Hai went back to eat.She didn't want to call anymore, because she had nothing to say. She was sitting alone in that small study room, and the setting sun shone a beam of light through the window. She could see fine dust flying up and down in the beam of light. For some reason, this scene gave her a sense of remoteness and tranquility. , as if she came from ancient times, and she was the only one left in her era. She didn't know anyone in this era, and they didn't know her existence. They were all clamoring outside in some sunny place , Busy, she doesn't understand their hustle and bustle, and they don't understand her quietness and laziness.

After the sun went down, the room became very dark, but not to the point where you couldn't see your fingers.She didn't turn on the light, and she didn't know where the switch was. She just sat in the dark, motionless. It seems that in her life, there will be such a moment after a while, she will forget the current era and life, like a person who came from ancient times, with an old heart, who can't understand this noisy world, I don't understand why people are fighting so much, making a lot of noise, and I don't understand why men and women in the world are bothered by emotional matters. They just feel that everything is unnecessary and that there is no need to do anything. The true meaning of life is to let time pass through your fingers. trickle slowly.

Then she heard the voices of the participants, and knew that they had finished the meeting, but Zhuo Liang hadn't returned to the study, and she was probably talking to someone else, because she heard the voices of many people talking outside.She pricked her ears to catch the excellent voice, and she really caught it. She couldn't hear what he was saying, but she could recognize it was his voice.Suddenly, she felt a sense of stability and fulfillment in her heart, as if someone had finally walked into her ancient times.She knew he was not from her ancient times, but he was her only companion, the one she depended on for life.

She sat there peacefully waiting for him. If it was a day ago, she might be angry because he didn't come back to find her quickly after the meeting, but now she won't.She herself couldn't explain what was going on, as if she had half of her foot hanging in the air before, and she could walk and walk even if she didn't land on the ground. The feeling of suspension, as if the little half of the foot is always ready to be independent. Now she understands the importance of the so-called "unified pace". If the pace is not uniform, it will be chaotic. The large troops are all walking in one direction, but a small group of people are not actively keeping up, so they are delayed. The hind legs of the peloton.Now it seems that the little half of the foot has finally found its organization, just like everyone’s unifying pace, both feet have landed on the ground, and they are both facing the same direction, so whether they are stepping on the mud or on the glass, they can walk smoothly. In unison, without hesitation.

She likes this feeling very much, this feeling of fighting with one's back and no way out, no hesitation, no hesitation, a strong sense of direction, but she doesn't care about the destination, just go forward, go forward, no matter whether there is a mountain of knives or a sea of ​​fire in front, All go forward bravely, because there is no way out. No wonder the revolutionary had to throw away the house keys every time he went out, just for the feeling of no hesitation, only with that feeling can he devote himself to the revolution, not to mention that he is not afraid of the enemy coming, he is doing it on purpose The enemy group rushed in, rushed in, and died in battle, so as not to stay back without a key to open the door.

She found that there was always some pimples between her and Zhuoyue in the past, it was because she didn't throw away the key of Huang Hai, she wanted to charge forward, and she was thinking about her family, fearing that the key would be picked up by someone after the battle and opened her own door. plundered his own treasure.And because there is a way to retreat, they are not so brave when they charge forward. Instead, they look forward and backward, worrying about gains and losses, and comparing each other to see whether it is more cost-effective to charge forward or retreat. When she vaguely felt that Huang Hai was still in love with her, she thought that as long as she put aside Excellence, Huang Hai would welcome her with open arms. Lao Ai unconsciously compares the good places of Huanghai to the bad places of Huanghai, but when she retreats, she uses the good places of Huanghai to compare the bad places of Huanghai. The attitude is tougher, and there is a posture of "you can do it, you can't pull it down".

Now Huang Hai has completely lost the key, and there is no need to expect to flee back to the base camp after defeating the battle. No matter how her relationship with Excellence develops, Huang Hai has become a passing cloud, drifting away from her life forever, because He already has a girlfriend. If this girlfriend was like the one from last time, her little half of her foot would still be hanging there, and she would still think that maybe one day Huang Hai would be abandoned and come back to her again.But Huang Hai's girlfriend is - how should I put it - a crazy person, right?Huang Hai got involved with this woman entirely out of the psychology of saving people. To save people, he must save them to the end. This kind of relationship is stronger than any love relationship.Unless this woman recovers one day and kicks Huang Hai away, they will break up. Otherwise, Huang Hai must be "people are in the battlefield, and Huang Hai is crazy."

Now that she thinks back on Zhuoyou's performance today, she is not so angry. Is he in a meeting, and he can't get the news of the fertility index on the spot when he calls out, and he has delayed the meeting, so he should be a little angry.There are many, many things, they are nothing, they are all forgiveable and understandable, the key is that if you don’t forgive him, so what?Did you eat him?Did you leave him? She reckons that she and Excellence will get along better from now on. This is the advantage of being an exclusive business. There is only one store and no other stores. Whether the goods are good or not, they are all at the same price. The sellers sell happily, and the buyers Even if the goods don’t match the price, you have nothing to complain about: it’s not that I don’t know how to bargain, but I really can’t bargain. It’s just such a family, what’s wrong?Can you still buy it or not?

She is very envious of the kind of people who would rather starve to death than buy food if the price does not meet her requirements, but she can't do it. When she has the conditions, she will pick and choose. I still want to eat, and those who are reluctant to starve to death, the price is unreasonable and unreasonable, it is better than nothing, better than starving to death. Zhuo Liang definitely didn't know about the earth-shaking changes that took place in her that day. He probably completely forgot that the two had a quarrel today, and even forgot about the birth index. The two went to a restaurant for dinner with the participants in the evening , and then stayed in a hotel, and did not go home until the next afternoon.

Along the way, their conversations were very harmonious. He was very excited about their meeting, she listened attentively, nodded constantly, and made a small sound in her mouth, indicating that she listened carefully and responded very well, although she did not listen at all. Did not listen.In the end, all the excellent topics seemed to be exhausted, and she also took the initiative to ask a question, which of course cannot be compared with the level of his conversation, it is very vulgar: "Why didn't you fall in love with your little junior sister when you were studying?" ?”

He said disdainfully: "What kind of relationship do I have with her? It's so ugly——" She was very happy to hear that, but she said hypocritically: "Nonsense, how ugly are others? It's not easy for a female graduate student to grow to that level—" "That's why I don't find a female graduate student as my wife—" he declared, "Don't be jealous of her, I won't even ask for it, she is my tutor's lover—" Shi Yan couldn't believe her ears: "She is your mentor's lover? How old is your mentor, how old is she?" "What does that matter, men, the older you get, the more you love young grass—" "Then when you get old, don't you want to find a tender grass to eat?" He chuckled: "I told you a long time ago, I don't regard women as my whole world, and risk my career future just to eat young grass? I'm not that stupid, and I'm not that sentimental—— " "Then you are saying that your mentor is very affectionate and stupid? Then why are you still so close to him?" "He is very smart and outstanding in other aspects, but he must be very stupid in this matter, and he will definitely fall into trouble because of this matter in the future—" "Then why don't you, big disciple, remind him?" He curled his lips: "Can others remind me of this kind of thing? It's like parents blocking their children's marriage, the more blocking the worse—" "Why did he fall into trouble because of this matter? Is it because he is afraid that his wife will find out the chaos?" "His wife lives in a mental hospital. Where did the trouble start?" "Ah? Psychiatric hospital? Was his wife driven mad by her husband's Xun Hua?" "You just made a mistake. His wife's mental illness has a family history. Professor Zheng took care of her for many years. In the end, it really affected her teaching and research, so she was sent to a mental hospital. Professor Zheng never left her mentally ill wife. It has always been regarded as a model of spiritual beauty—" "But he—doesn't he have a lover?" "Who knows that he has a lover? Only you and I know, are you going to expose him?" "Why did I expose him? What does it matter to me?" She asked tentatively, "I don't think it's a big deal for you to have a meeting. Why do you all travel so far from all directions to the meeting?" "We're all enterprising people—" "But I don't see what kind of business you're doing—" "You'll see someday—" "But the day I see it, isn't it too late? For example, you have already been arrested—" He comforted her and said, "No, we didn't do anything illegal. How could we be arrested? We were just discussing China's education reform together, and it didn't violate the law. Who would arrest me?" ?” "But I hear you sound like you're doing something—major business—" "Isn't education reform a big cause? If education is not done well and people's quality is not improved, no matter how developed the economy is, it's useless. The more developed the people's spiritual life, the poorer the people's spiritual life. The more developed, the more corruption—" She felt that what he said was correct from a general point of view, but it seemed to have no practical significance. How can we improve the quality of people?Is education alone enough?Her little mind doesn't like to think about these things, because she can't figure it out, so she might as well think about her own things.She thought convincingly that if everyone thinks about their own affairs clearly and manages them well, the country will also be run well.But she didn't want to argue with him, knowing that he was an unconvincing person, it was better for him to have these ambitions than just playing around, as for whether he could realize his ideals, it was up to fate.