Chapter 5 Chapter Four

Shi Yan couldn't help asking: "Then you are going to give up your major like Lu Xun...but Lu Xun..." Huang Hai looked at her with great interest, and asked, "Do you think I'm not as talented as Lu Xun, and I can't do anything if I give up my major?" "I don't mean that, I mean...this is not the time of Lu Xun, he could make a living by...freelance writing, now you...if you don't have a unit...you can't do many things...I'm afraid The accounts are all problematic." "My parents said the same thing," Huang Hai said approvingly, "Don't look at your young age, you're quite considerate, better than me."

She was a little embarrassed: "Where, I'm just... as a bystander... besides, I'm also... relatively unambitious..." He didn't say anything about her self-evaluation, only said: "Then I'll listen to you, I'd better get the degree, find a job first, and then talk about it when I have a unit..." He suddenly changed the subject, "I will come to your school. How about teaching?" She was anxious: "What are you doing at our school? I'm graduating soon, and I'm going somewhere else after graduation..." He smiled slightly and said nothing.She realized that she was showing her feet a little bit. He said that he came to teach at the Provincial Teachers College in C, but he didn't say that he came for her. It's none of his business whether she graduates or not, and whether she leaves or not?Doesn't that mean she thinks he's chasing her?She immediately stated: "I mean...our school is too broken...you...a graduate of such a famous university...it's a pity to come here. Even me, a member of the provincial teacher's college in C, doesn't want to Stay here, what are you doing here?"

She didn't know if these words covered the horse's feet, but at least he didn't smile that much anymore, but asked her with concern: "Then where are you going to go after graduation?" "I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination, go to a better school, and improve my... grade..." "Then let's go to A University!" She really hadn't thought about being a graduate student at University A. She felt that the professors at University A must have valued her "bornness". How could they think highly of her, who graduated from a provincial teacher's college?But she also didn't want to go to a school like Provincial C Normal University to go to graduate school. She originally went to graduate school to wash away the "shame" of C Provincial Normal University. for what?

She is a bit like "not high enough to be low enough", so she is aiming at schools like University E, which are also top-notch in the country, but not as "first-class" as University A, so they should be among the top fifteen in the country.Even if it is E University, she is not sure, so she also aimed at G University, which is also in E City. It is a normal university and relatively famous, but not as good as E University. She muttered, "How can I get into University A? Stop dreaming..." "Why is it a dream? I think many people in A are inferior to you..."

"You're talking nonsense, your A big moves are all champions from various provinces and cities, how can you still compare to me?" He was in a hurry: "Really! Don't think that they are the champions of all provinces and cities, but they are all based on luck. They are really not as good as you when they study. I have studied with you for several years and know you very well. , I have also studied with them for several years, and I know them very well. You still don’t believe what I said? I’m really not as good as you...even I am not as good as you..." Even if these words were lying, they sounded quite comfortable, not to mention Huang Hai's expression of absolute sincerity when speaking.Shi Yan felt nourished in her heart, but she was still retorting.

Huang Hai interrupted her and said, "That's it, I'm going to take the postgraduate entrance examination of University A. As long as you want to take the examination, you will definitely be able to pass the examination. What major do you want to take the examination for? I'll help you find out information and get information when I go back." She quickly evaded: "Don't do it, don't do it, I haven't made up my mind yet, I really don't dare to take the postgraduate entrance examination at University A..." "What are you afraid of? I said if you can pass the exam, you will definitely pass the exam!"

"Then your professors at University A...would...discriminate against students from other schools?" "How could it be? University A is trying to put an end to inbreeding. It just wants to recruit students from other schools." Her heart was moved, and she said hesitantly, "Then I'll... try it." "Okay, it's a deal! I'm also going to be a graduate student at University A..." She was a little embarrassed, as if she had heard some confession of love, she lowered her eyes, scratched the table with her fingers and said nothing.Huang Hai said in a statement: "I have no other intentions, I just want to... encourage you to take the postgraduate entrance examination of University A, just like running with you in a race, just... just... to promote..."

She lowered her head, and her heart was beating a little, thinking that he was too smart, too good at observing words and expressions, and he could guess every thought in her heart.She could feel his gaze, so she raised her head bravely, and said in a businesslike manner: "I know, I just don't want to delay your career, aren't you going to be a reporter?" "I want to be a reporter, but it doesn't affect me to be a reporter. I can write articles for the newspaper in my spare time. It just so happens that my parents want me to be a graduate student. Now they... are happy..."

He sent her back to school that day, and she told him to just send her to the station, and he didn't object.The two of them walked to the Fourth Road Station together. Although it was already around ten o'clock in the evening, there were still more than ten people waiting for the bus, and they were still standing in the middle of the road.After a while, the car arrived. Actually, the car was quite empty. If they got on one by one, they might all be able to get a seat.However, the people of City D seem to be used to being crowded into cars. No matter how many people there are, they don't line up, but squeeze up desperately, and they squeeze up without waiting for the people who get off the bus to get off. The result is extremely chaotic.

Shi Yan usually didn't squeeze the bus very much, and didn't want to look too "ladylike" in front of Huang Hai, so she waited behind, hoping to wait until everyone got on the bus.But what I didn't expect was that before she got into the car, the driver drove away.She yelled twice, but the driver didn't stop.She was so angry that she almost chased the car and yelled at the driver. Huang Hai came over to comfort him and said, "It's okay, we'll wait for the next trip. Maybe the driver saw that you didn't squeeze along and thought you weren't getting on the bus. Maybe this is the custom in City D. We should do as the Romans do, and squeeze along on the next trip."

The next bus didn't come until around eleven o'clock, and this time there were more people waiting for the bus, probably because the workers in the middle shift of the steel mill had left work, or because it was the last bus.All the people waiting for the bus were eager to return home, eager to fight, and they had the momentum not to give up until they squeezed into the bus.Shi Yan had no choice but to let go of her ladylike airs and follow her to squeeze the car.She found that Huang Hai was also following her, and she asked, "You... get in the car too?" "Let me see you off, it's too late, and... it's not easy to get in the car..." After squeezing for a while, Shi Yan no longer knew who was squeezing whom, but she couldn't help but follow everyone's crowd. When she got to the car door, she managed to climb a step, but she couldn't squeeze anymore. One foot was on the car, and the other was clamped under the car for a long time.Then she felt that the car was moving, and she was afraid that she would be dragged to death by the door, so she shouted anxiously: "Wait a minute! Wait a moment! I haven't gotten in yet!" No one paid attention to her, the driver was still driving, and no one made room for her among the people crowded by the door. She was in a panic when she felt someone push her from behind, and she got into the car with both feet.She heard Huang Hai say from behind: "I'm sorry, I have to do this, otherwise... I won't be able to get in the car..." She guessed that he had been watching her squeeze herself into the car just now and didn't help her because he was too embarrassed to touch her. Now that he was at the end of his rope, he had no choice but to abandon his gentlemanly demeanor and push her.She turned her head and looked, and found that the car door was not closed. He was standing at the open car door, holding on to an iron railing on the car with one hand, and the car door with the other hand, probably not wanting to fall, but also Trying not to cling to her.She was very moved and said, "Stand up a little bit, and be careful not to fall down." He moved a little closer and the door finally closed.The two of them were huddled against the car door, and she could feel the warmth of his body.This was the first time she was so close to a boy, the first time she was protected by a boy like this, and she felt a warm feeling in her heart. After driving for a while, the compartment slowly loosened, and the two of them finally left the door and squeezed into the compartment.Huang Hai consciously moved a little further away, but still stood on the other side of the aisle, resisting other people's push and push, creating a safe island for her.When approaching Provincial Teachers College of C, there was finally an empty seat, Huang Hai motioned for her to sit down, while he stood by her seat, with his hands on the armrests of the two rows of seats, helping her move those crowds out of the way. separated. She sat on the seat and saw the sweater he was wearing from his open clothes, sometimes it was too crowded, his feet were still standing in the aisle, but his upper body was squeezed to the side of the seat, his sweater sometimes After wiping her head and face, she smelled a boy-specific smell on his body, and she felt a little dizzy. She thought to herself: So boys smell like this, it smells good. I used to think that They all stink. When the bus arrived at the station of C Provincial Teachers College, it was not so crowded anymore, but the two of them did not dare to neglect, and still squeezed to get out of the bus. It was not until the bus drove away in a man-made and unnecessary chaos that the two met each other. He smiled and let out a big sigh of relief. Huang Hai said: "It's really thrilling, I didn't expect the four-way bus to be so crowded. It's not easy for you... When you go there, you still... squeezed up..." She blurted out, "Actually... when I went today, I took the No. 15 bus..." She was afraid that he would guess why she took the 15th road, but she heard him say: "Then you are too smart, the 15th road doesn't seem to be so crowded..." He suggested, "Now...it's very quiet, I will send you Go to the door of the dormitory." She didn't object, one reason was that the campus was really quiet and no one moved around, another reason was that she seemed to want to stay with him for a while longer.The two walked silently to her dormitory. When they reached the downstairs of the dormitory, he stopped and said, "If you have time, I would like to invite you...to come with me to interview a family of a coal miner...that worker has... Died in a mine accident, only my wife and children are left, it’s not good for me to go to the interview alone, I want to invite you...to go together...if it’s not convenient for you..." "when?" "What day do you think you will be free?" She thought for a while and said, "The day after tomorrow, I have no class in the afternoon..." Seeing that she agreed, he seemed very happy and overjoyed, and said repeatedly: "Thank you, thank you. Then I will pick you up at school the afternoon after tomorrow? The steel factory will send a car..." She was hesitating, and he added: "I can't get out in the car..." Seeing that his heart was like a mirror, she was so frightened that she didn't know what to say.He changed the subject and said, "Okay, then we've made an agreement. I'll come here to pick you up at three o'clock in the afternoon the day after tomorrow. Thank you." That night, Shi Yan didn't fall asleep for a long time.Over the years, she has been thinking about how to get out of this ghost place, and she has never thought about feelings, because she doesn't want to get involved with the boys around her, and the boys in the distance have no chance, and she doesn't want to "climb" those The boys in school are better than her.The boys around her knew that she didn't seem to care about it, so no one came to do those useless efforts and court her, and the boys in the distance were also scared away by her indifference, so her love life was completely blank. The advantage of being blank is that you don't know what feelings are or what the opposite sex is.If you don't know, you're not interested. But the "contact" with Huang Hai in the car at such a close distance today made Shi Yan a little curious about the opposite sex.She recalled the stories of those female classmates in the class, and she felt suddenly enlightened.In the past, I often saw the older girls in the class have their husbands or boyfriends visiting. If they were husbands, then the wives would be very generous, and they would go directly to a very simple guest house in the school to book a room. Came back to the bedroom.The other girls in the dormitory chatted chatteringly, and sometimes they lowered their voices so that the younger ones would not hear them, saying that they were afraid of leading them down. When the girl whose husband came to visit returned to the class the next day, the older girls would chirp and joke about that girl again, and sometimes even the boys in the class would join in the jokes, but they were just pretending They shy away from these little girls. Shi Yan saw those husbands eagerly hugging their wives in the dormitory a few times. At that time, she felt very disgusted, because most of those husbands were from the countryside. servant, sweating, she couldn't understand how those girls would tolerate such a man to hug her. She still remembers one time when she saw a girl whose trousers were not buttoned properly. At that time, there was no way to zipper or open the front, so the girl only had a slit on the side of the trousers, exposing the underwear inside. In Shi Yan's view, this is a great shame, especially in front of boys.So she hurriedly called the girl aside and whispered to her that her trousers were unbuttoned. The girl asked indifferently, "What are you afraid of?" Shi Yan said in surprise: "You HUSBAND is here, aren't you afraid to let him see your...underpants?" As a result, the girl said loudly: "He is my husband, why hasn't he seen mine?" After she finished speaking, she burst into laughter, and went to tell her husband about it, which made Shi Yan very embarrassed. Tonight, she recalled the scene where Huang Hai helped her squeeze the car, and she seemed to have a little epiphany.