Chapter 3 Chapter two

During the days when she first arrived at C Provincial Normal University, Shi Yan hid under the quilt and cried almost every night. Province C Teachers College has let her down so much. It’s fine if the school is not famous, and it’s fine if you can’t learn anything. She didn’t expect to become a big climate here. Graduate students, admitted to a good school, feel proud and start a new life.But the problem of the Provincial Teachers College in C is far from not being famous, it is completely like a place of exile. How can it survive these four years? The predecessor of Provincial C Teachers College was D City Teachers College. Nowadays, the trend of university upgrading is prevailing. The two-year system has been changed to three years, and the three-year system has been changed to four years. The college, the normal college was changed to the normal university, the municipal office was changed to the provincial office, and the provincial office was changed to the national office, so the D city normal college turned into the C provincial normal college.But the name has been changed, but the internal structure has not changed much. It is still the same teachers and courses. Stay in D City.

City D is a mining city, only the part of the city hall looks like a city, once you get out of that part, it’s like entering a mine, the roadsides are full of hills, and they’re the kind of hills that don’t grow trees, the whole hills It is bare, and the mountain is covered with large expanses of horribly colored stones.I heard that the insides of those hills have been hollowed out by mining workers, they are crumbling, and often collapse, especially when it rains heavily, the rain can bring down half of the hills, burying vehicles and pedestrians on the road alive. To the north of City D is the coal mining area. It is not known who the coal lumps dug out were supplied to, but the coal powder must have been seen by someone, because there is always gray and black dust floating in the sky of City D.If you just polished your leather shoes and changed your shirt when you went out to the street, then when you come back, the collar and cuffs of the shirt will be black, but the leather shoes will change from black to gray. It's sticky.

When passing through the coal mining area, you can often see some miners with black clothes, black hands and faces, which can be said to be darker than authentic African blacks, but their teeth are not as white from head to toe as authentic African blacks, but Coal dust here and there, black and white like zebras. Unfortunately, the train station in City D is located there, so Shi Yan had to go there when she took the train home.Needless to say, the railway station was also exposed to the light of the coal mine, with black coal dust everywhere, the waiting room was dirty, the train carriages were dirty, and the toilets on the trains were even more dirty.Every time she went to take the train, looking at the bare hills near the station and the crooked sheds at the foot of the hills, she just wanted to cry, and she didn't know whether to cry for those miners or for herself.

Sitting on the train, she also sat all the way, nervous all the way, because most of her companions were miners who came to work in the mines from the nearby countryside.There are very few female miners in coal mines, so the mine is basically a "man's country".When those miners see a woman, no matter how old or young you are, or whether you are ugly or beautiful, they will try their best to get close to you.Shi Yan was almost frightened to death when she took the train for the first time, because along the way, men kept sitting next to her, squeezing her hard, and taking advantage of her napping to touch and pinch her, so scared that she dared not sleep anymore. Keeping her eyes wide open, she watched in horror at the miners smiling at her with zebra teeth.

When her parents heard about the situation on the train, they didn't let her take the train home alone. They looked for acquaintances, walked, and tried every means to find a car to pick her up during winter and summer vacations, and tried their best to find her when school started. The car to take her back to school is of course a van, the big "Jiefang" truck, because her parents can't afford a small car, but she already feels very comfortable, at least she doesn't have to worry about someone touching her. In the past, she always felt that the small valley of "Dongdongguai" was poor, backward and closed, and she only wanted to escape from that place.But she stayed in D city for a while, and when she returned to "Dongdongguai", she felt that the small valley was really beautiful, and everything was as clean as if it had been washed.Looking far away, you can see far, far away; climbing a bird's-eye view, you can see factories, farmland, green trees and red flowers, which is really picturesque.Unlike the one in D City, which always makes you suspect that you have a problem with your eyesight, because everything you see is gray.

She is looking forward to going home every time before the holiday, and she is reluctant to leave home and go back to school when school is about to start. For her, City D is a place of exile, and if she can spend one less day there, she will spend one less day. To the south of City D is the steel factory in D City. The steel factory is surrounded by workers’ residential areas. It has a beautiful name called "Steel Flower Village", but the workers' dormitories there are old, dilapidated and small, and the streets are narrow and dirty. Dirty, muddy everywhere when it rains, you have to wear high-top rubber shoes to walk there.Once the school stopped running water for a few days, Shi Yan and a classmate who lived in a steel factory went to the bathhouse in the factory to take a bath. .

The steel factory is also a "man's country". There are very few female workers working in the steel factory. The male young workers in the factory are also more "hungry" women. When they see young girls passing by, they will boldly come up and make fun of them. The bathroom took a shower. If you don't go to these places, it doesn't mean you are cut off from these two places, because the coal mines and steel mills are the economic lifeline of D City, and D City is prospered because of these two, so it can be said that D City is the coal mines and steel mills, Coal mines and steel mills are D City.Things like teacher colleges are completely foreign or superfluous. City D can exist without a teacher academy, but city D cannot exist without coal mines and steel mills.

Therefore, most of the people in City D are workers in coal mines and steel mills, or their families. The people of City D are very "deceitful", as if they regard City D as their own kingdom, and treat outsiders as if they were foreigners who invaded their territory, with a kind of natural hatred. City D is only more than a hundred kilometers away from City E, the capital of Province C, but the accents of the people in City D are completely different from those in City E. Spiritual feeling. But the people of D city defend their accent like defending their own country. Although they try their best to speak E city dialect when they go to E city, you, a foreigner, will inevitably be made things difficult when you come to D city.When you go to a store to buy something, if you speak Mandarin, the salesperson thinks you are showing off; if you speak your native dialect, the salesperson thinks you are old-fashioned; if you speak D City dialect, the salesperson thinks you are laughing at him.All in all, every time Shi Yan went shopping in the city, things went wrong, and she didn't dare to go there afterwards, and her only entertainment and enjoyment as a girl were also deprived.

If you don't go to the city, you just live in the school, and life is not easy.Sixteen girls lived in Shi Yan's dormitory, with eight bunk beds, and the dormitory converted from half a classroom was full.The school's bathhouse is only open for a few months in winter. It is open for girls on Mondays and Wednesdays, and for boys on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays.There is no toilet in the bathhouse, but when people enter the bathhouse, they hear the sound of rushing water and the hot water stirs them, and they want to pee, so everyone solves it on the spot, making the bathhouse always smell of urine.In summer, the bathhouse is not open, and everyone takes a bath in the toilet in their own building. There are two toilet pits in the toilet on each floor, which are filled up and made into a bathroom for everyone to take a shower, but there is no heat in the building. For water, I have to go to the boiling water room to fetch hot water, bring it back and mix it with cold water for a shower.

The food in the school cafeteria is also terrible (if it is not bad, it is not called a university cafeteria). When Shi Yan lived in high school, the food was not very good, but she can go home every week to bring some food to eat. It's too far away, so I can't bring food home often, so I have to eat in the canteen.It can be considered a blessing in disguise, she has always maintained a slender figure. At that time, she was filled with despair at the thought of staying in Provincial Teachers College for four years. She wished she could drop out of school and go back to study again. Especially after a year, she heard that some students who did not pass the exam last year went to live with relatives in other provinces. So, she borrowed a year from the local high school, and this year she was admitted to the famous A University, B University, and E University. She regretted it too much.If I had known this earlier, I really shouldn't have come here to study.He studied this year and entered a prestigious school.She also studied for a year, but it was just from the freshman of D University to the sophomore of D University.

She wants to drop out of school, and then, like those classmates who repeat the exam, find a relative to live with, and go there to take the college entrance examination, just pretend that she didn't skip the level, and the age should not be too old to take the exam again.However, in order to ensure the quality of middle school teachers, Provincial C Teachers College has very strict regulations on the management of student status. Students are not allowed to drop out of school without a valid reason. If they leave school without authorization, they will never be allowed to take the college entrance examination in the future.She inquired about what a "good reason" was, and found that there were hardly any good reasons, unless you were terminally ill and dying. It's all over now!She felt as if she accidentally signed a contract of prostitution with someone, and was sold into a brothel from then on. Moreover, this brothel is not an ordinary brothel, it is completely a government-run brothel, and you can't redeem yourself even if you have money.Even if you escape from the kiln privately, no one dares to take you in, because the government has already greeted all parties, just like putting gold on your face, everyone knows that you escaped from the kiln of the government If you come out, no one dares to take you in. In the end, you have to obediently return to the government's kiln. One misstep will cause eternal hatred! Her only hope now is to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and the only object of complaint is Huang Hai, because Huang Hai is also suffering and hating like her, and has endless bitterness.But in Shi Yan's view, Huang Hai's suffering is not really "suffering". After being admitted to University A, living in a big city like City F, and the campus of University A is so beautiful, what pain does he have?It's really unsatisfactory.If she had gone to such a good university, she would have been grinning from ear to ear, so why complain? She guessed that Huang Hai also scolded her in her heart for "moaning without illness". Maybe in Huang Hai's view, she was not clamped by forceps, the bones of her face were not deformed by clamping, and she did not experience the blow of broken love. What is she suffering?It's really unsatisfactory.If he looked like her, he would already be grinning from ear to ear, so why complain? On the one hand, she regrets the lack of communication between people, and on the other hand, she makes full use of this lack of communication, because the purpose of her complaints is not to let anyone understand her and comfort her, but to vent her anger and make a mouthful happy.If a student from a famous school came to comfort her and explain her, she might feel disgusted: "Of course you can think about it, anyway, it's not that you live in such a crappy school, who can't sing high notes? When you fall into my situation, Then tell me what to do with all of this." But if it was a student from a broken school who came to comfort her, she would feel miserable again. The chick knew how to be ambitious, and would she be complacent after being admitted to a broken school?Then what great good fortune can there be in this life? So she gradually alienated many of her classmates, but she kept in touch with Huang Hai through letters.Thinking about it carefully, it may be because other students complained about sweetness, and only Huang Hai complained about bitterness.All of Tian's classmates went to better schools than her, so whenever those classmates talked about their own school, she felt very uncomfortable, as if they were showing off to her. She couldn't summon up the energy to answer their letters. What?Tell me about your school life too?What is there to say?Even if it gets better, it's just a provincial teacher's college in C. How can it be compared with A University, B University and E University?What's more, it didn't go to the sky well, but went to the ground badly.She doesn't want to praise her school out of conscience, who is it?Don't others know how broken your school is?She also didn't want to express envy and jealousy to other schools in the letter, let alone express her sincere appreciation for other schools.All in all, she doesn't want to know that there are so many schools in the world that are better than Provincial C Teachers College. Unfortunately, she already knows some, so she at least doesn't want to hear people describe those schools over and over again. She often waited a long time to reply, and she only said a few simple words when she replied, and often she didn't reply.Gradually, everyone stopped writing to her.When she was a sophomore, among her old classmates who were admitted to prestigious schools, only Huang Hai was still writing to her. This made her feel a lot of emotion: I used to hear that "the poor live in the busy city and no one cares about them, but the rich have distant relatives in the mountains." At that time, she thought that people were really so clinging to power and currying favor with the rich.Now it seems that is not the case at all.It’s not that no one asks the poor. In fact, everyone still likes to “ask” the poor. At least they can show off their wealth to the poor.And the rich man lives in the deep mountains, if he doesn't show off his big house and wealth, who will know?Of course, try to invite everyone to play with him, so it seems that everyone is willing to deal with rich people. She is now "poor living in the mountains", so subjectively and objectively she is unwilling to associate with people.Huang Hai was the only relationship she had with a prestigious school, because the letters Huang Hai wrote to her were very special, and he never comforted her.Later, when their complaints were almost finished, their correspondence gradually became divorced from themselves and reality, and became like editorials. They were all general talks, and their complaints were no longer about specific sufferings, personal sufferings, but abstract sufferings. , the suffering of the masses.Huang Hai usually complains about the suffering of ugly people, while Shi Yan complains about the suffering of exiles.The two laughed and cursed, acting recklessly, as if they were writing a diary, as if the only reader was themselves. At that time, I had never heard of e-mail, and the correspondence between the two was handwritten and mailed. All letters were sent to the gatekeeper of the dormitory building, and then the recipients picked them up by themselves.So everyone knew that Shi Yan had a boyfriend who was studying in a prestigious school. She stated several times that she was not her boyfriend, but everyone didn't believe it. If it wasn't her boyfriend, who would have the leisure to write a letter every week? Everyone is very envious that she has a boyfriend from a famous school, but everyone is not optimistic about this matter, saying that if they are like them, the boyfriend will get rid of her sooner or later, because men spend money, especially this kind of prestigious school that lives in a busy city. Boyfriend, how many girls should be around? She was too lazy to explain to those people, and she no longer declared that Huang Hai was not her boyfriend. Anyway, he was so far away, and Huang Hai was just a student in a prestigious school. He wrote a letter a week unshakably. How romantic and poetic! Everyone agrees that her boyfriend looks very HANDSOME.At that time, the word "handsome" was not popular, and no one among the girls dared to admit that they were lustful, so even the word "handsome" was embarrassed to use it.Relying on the fact that they have learned foreign languages ​​for a few days, all the words that cannot be spoken will be replaced by English, so that the Brits will blush.So everyone said that her boyfriend was very HANDSOME, but unfortunately, many students in the class couldn't pronounce the HANDSOME sound, it sounded like "stupid". Shi Yan had Huang Hai, a "stupid" boyfriend from a prestigious school, as a shield, which saved her a lot of trouble, and her male classmates quit. So she has been in school for four years, and no more than three boys have pursued her.One was because of lack of information, she had to chase after her twice before she heard about her boyfriend from a prestigious school.Fortunately, the man corrected himself when he knew his mistake, corrected his front sight, and turned his gun to shoot someone else.The other one was a stupefied young man, stupid and bold, who didn't believe in the evil of a famous school student, so he rushed up and gave chase, but after sitting on the bench for a few times, he also ran away.There was also a man with a wife. I don't know what he was thinking, but he came to get her idea. She gave him a moral lesson and threatened to tell his wife. As a result, the man turned against her. She lived in the envy and jealousy of others under the aura of a "silly boyfriend from a prestigious school". After a long time, even she herself became confused, feeling as if there was really a student from a prestigious school chasing her.When she wrote letters to Huang Hai, she often imagined him as a movie actor she liked very much, and she was sitting there, talking with him with a pen.When she read Huang Hai's letter, she also imagined him as a movie actor she liked very much. After a busy day of filming, she still remembered to sit down and write a few words to her at night, and she felt a sweet feeling in her heart. Everyone speculates that Huang Hai looks very "stupid", probably because his handwriting is very beautiful, because everyone knows Huang Hai, that is, his handwriting, and the few lines on the envelope, nothing else .Huang Hai writes fluent running script, no matter how many pages he writes, it is so beautiful from beginning to end.But she is different. Her handwriting has no style. If there is a style, it is her own "stone body".And she has a handwriting problem, the first few lines are neat and beautiful, but as the time goes on, her handwriting becomes more and more sloppy, the structure becomes looser, and the font becomes bigger and bigger. Her handwriting was almost completely illegible. She often apologized to Huang Hai for her handwriting, saying that she didn't know why, and the writing was messed up as she wrote. Huang Hai analyzed: "Some talents are full of thoughts, and their pens are not as fast as their thoughts, so they will write more and more 'flying'. Others follow the rules, step by step, and follow the rules. Such people may be able to write from beginning to end. Well, but their minds are clearly not as sharp as those of the former category.” This analysis made Shi Yan very happy, and later she had even more reason to write like sand and stone. Receiving letters from Huang Hai every week, and writing letters to Huang Hai every week, seems to have become a part of her life.But she never looked forward to Huang Hai's letter, because he didn't say any news that must be known in the letter, or any complaints that must be heard, and she knew that he would write a letter every week, so she had no fear.Besides, she didn't care about what Huang Hai was thinking at all, and she didn't worry about her image in his mind. Even if he stopped writing to her sometime, she wouldn't feel regretful. Suddenly, one day, she received a letter from Huang Hai, saying that since he heard her description of the coal mines and steel mills in D city, he has become very interested in these two places, and now he is going to D city to do social work. Investigate, and ask if I can drop by Province C Teachers College to see her. She was as frightened as Ye Gong heard that the real dragon was coming.