Chapter 48 Section 48

The next day, CAROL went online early in the morning and watched the post about RUTH until noon before seeing that post.The tone of Chu Tian's narration is as plain as ever, but the shocking power of the story itself is more shocking because of this plain narration, as if a face holding back tears is more painful than a face full of tears. She can fully understand RUTH's despair, because her heart is often full of despair.She thought, Jason must be very sad now, because this post reminded him of that terrible past, she wanted to go to his side to accompany him and comfort him, so she walked to 206 and knocked on the door.

Both Amy and Fang Xing were there, Jason was writing something on the computer, and raised his head to greet her.Amy said, "Let's go to Carol." Then she said to Jason, "Don't be too tired, take a good rest." She took the two of them to her bedroom, and as soon as they sat down, Fang Xing said, "Amy, I don't think Jason should post about RUTH. You did it. Ask him to post it. If others know about him If your nails hurt, why don't you pinch them from time to time?" Amy disagreed: "You just said it wrong, posting this just to tell everyone that pinching painful nails is useless, because even if RUTH spent her life with her, she didn't get Jason's love, he just felt guilty, But that's not love."

Fang Xing couldn't argue with Amy, so he had no choice but to not mention it, and instead said: "I thought you wrote about how he got those scars on his body, but you didn't?" "I wrote it, but he deleted that part. Maybe he didn't think it had anything to do with the topic of the post. He just wanted to appeal to everyone to cherish life, and there was no need to bring up the imperfect legal system in China." CAROL asked carefully: "How did those scars come from?" Amy said, "It was the men who interrogated him." Carol felt his heart tighten: "How can this be? Don't you just talk about the facts and not the evidence?"

Amy curled her lips: "What facts are you talking about? It's a complete abuse of power. Once some people know that they will not be caught and punished for breaking the law, they will break the law recklessly. During World War II, many people robbed, tortured and killed Jews. Many of them are still teenagers, and they have no grievances with the Jews. Why do they treat the Jews so crazily? It’s very simple, because they will not be punished. The Cultural Revolution in China is the same, the Red Guards beat Smashing and looting, some people thought it was a revolution because of stupid loyalty, but many people simply thought about the addiction of doing evil and not being punished."

"Did the RUTH family tell them to do that?" Fang Xing guessed. "Probably not, RUTH's parents are responsible people. Those so-called law enforcement people use their power to torture others and enjoy cruel fun." Amy said, her eyes were red, "Fortunately, RUTH's parents found I got those diaries and handed them over, or—" "Amy, don't think about those things—" Fang Xing comforted. "Some things are not a question of whether you want them or not, but they will always be there, and you can't avoid them." Amy said, "JASON lived in my house after he came out of it. If you have seen him at that time, he must be forever will never forget..."

Carol imagined Jason's appearance at that time, he must have many new and old injuries, his beard must have not been shaved for a long time, his hair was long and messy, and his expression was numb, as if he had gone to hell.She couldn't help but asked, "Why didn't you sue those people?" Amy said: "His parents wanted to sue, but he told them to let it go, saying he didn't want to talk about it again. Then my parents sued those people. After a long time, a few people suffered a little bit. They say that their methods are inappropriate, but their intentions are good, and evil is like hatred. TMD, even if those people have no sinister intentions, they are at least legally illiterate. They don’t assume that a person is innocent until they are proven guilty, just right Instead, they presume a person is guilty until proven innocent. Such a person enforces the law, and there is no rule of law.”

Fang Xing nodded understandingly: "Having had this kind of experience, no wonder he couldn't forget it—" "Actually, the physical pain didn't affect him much. Many times, he stood alone on the balcony, staring at a distant place in a daze without speaking. I walked up to him and asked him if the wound hurt. He No, he said that when they beat him, he didn't know the pain at all, he only thought that it must have hurt when RUTH cut her wrist, and when she saw her blood flow out, she must be desperate and greedy for life. Before she cut the knife, she looked for him everywhere, which showed that she didn't want to die. But she didn't find him...

He's always asking 'Why didn't I notice it at all? 'I asked him, so what if you realize it?He said, I can save her, I can persuade her not to go that way, since she said she loves me, she will definitely listen to me.But I didn't see anything. When she came to tell me her decision, I thought she was joking, and I said to her, "You walk in front, I'll heel", did she really listen to my words? ? His mother saw the wound on his body, hugged him and cried.He said, 'I'm just a little wound on the flesh, and it will get better soon, but think of RUTH's mother, she lost her daughter forever, I don't know how sad she is'. Jason's mother didn't want to see RUTH's mother again, and didn't let Jason see RUTH's parents again, but he went to RUTH's house later, and RUTH's mother gave him all RUTH's diary, because they were all written for him of.I don't understand why the case man would return the diary to RUTH's parents, I'd rather they keep it on file and never let Jason see it. "

"Have you read RUTH's diary?" Carol asked. Amy shook her head: "No. But I know that RUTH is a very infatuated girl. She was four or five years older than him, and she was twenty-six or seven at the time. Because of this, she felt inferior and dared not confess to him directly. Try to figure out his mind, test him in a joking way, feel sad if she doesn't get the answer she wants, and be happy if she thinks there is some hope. Her understanding of love is too pessimistic and narrow, thinking that there is only one love in a lifetime, and This time, it must last forever. If you can't do it by living, then you can only do it by death.

Jason said that the description of Liu Qing imagining herself flying to Xin Ming's window is from RUTH's diary.She used to sit in her own room and listen to him play, and shed tears every time she listened to it.She also often stood on the balcony at night and watched him sleep from his window. Jason said that after reading this, he couldn't sleep well at night for a long time. He always felt that RUTH was standing at the window, so he always opened the curtains at night, lest she would not see him and would not go back to sleep. " CAROL felt a chill down her back when she heard this, she could almost feel the secret love in RUTH's heart, that hopeless love, that unattainable distance, that worry that even if she got it today, she wouldn't know how long it would last , weighed heavily on RUTH's heart, and also on her own heart.She thought, I am not completely desperate now, otherwise, I really don't know what I would do.

Fang Xing sighed and said, "I think RUTH has gone into a rut, maybe he's mentally abnormal." CAROL's "big detective complex" came to the fore: "It's possible that RUTH is terminally ill and knows he can't be cured, so he uses this method—" "Have you thought about it?" Amy shook her head and said, "Don't guess, those who have dissected the corpse, there is nothing, a 'healthy female corpse, the hymen is intact'. This is what I hate those people the most, At first, they suspected that he made RUTH pregnant and abandoned her, but the autopsy results came out long ago, and they still didn’t let him out, and they suspected that he killed RUTH, in short, they just refused to admit that they arrested the wrong person.” "JASON hasn't dared to approach girls since then?" CAROL asked curiously. Amy smiled bitterly and said, "Not exactly. It may be his inborn temperament to be afraid of girls being sad. Do you remember that a female writer named Siyue once wrote a funny series, one of which was The one who wrote about Chutian, called, although she has never met Chutian and doesn't know about his past, but she has figured out this side of his character based on what he wrote on the Internet, which shows that he is really literary. Just like a person. Siyue’s post contains such a passage: "But there are too many MMs, and I can't fall in love. Chutian only has one heart, so he slams it on the ground every day, picks it up when it breaks, and gives some MMs when he sees them. When he sees a MM crying, his heart hurts." Yes, but seeing the grievance of the crying MM, I can't help but feel a pain in my heart. In the end, I circled myself into the MM pile, and somehow became a MM confidant." CAROL asked Amy: "Did you not play tricks to get a piece of his heart?" "Of course there is. But Jason has always believed that love can only have a succession in time and cannot coexist in space, so he will not break his heart and separate people, and he will not have several at the same time. Girlfriend, if he is a polyamorous person, there will not be so many girls like him. Girls are not blind, no one will love a playboy. Jason's fatal wound is soft-hearted. If a girl tries to trick him, He was worried about her and couldn't bear to refuse, but he couldn't love several at the same time, so he chose not to have one, thinking that would be worthy of everyone. I was less than twenty years old at the time, and he was only three years older than me. I was still studying for an undergraduate degree, and he was about to graduate from a graduate school.He is my father's most proud graduate student. My father said that he is talented, thoughtful, well-read, outstanding but not arrogant, and he is very good at English, and can read original Russian and Japanese with the help of a dictionary, so he will definitely be in comparative literature. world emerges.My mother works in English, and praised his English skills very much, saying that he is good at listening, speaking, reading, writing and translating everything.You think, he is handsome, he can play the violin and guitar, and he can dance very well, so he is already very eye-catching, and with the compliments from his parents, I won’t fall into it like a top-heavy person? But he must have not noticed me then, because I was just a little girl to him.So I force my parents to invite him to my house every week, let him tutor my English and help me practice oral English.When he came, I would hang on to him, let him take me to the movies, to the park, to dance, anyway, I caught it once and used it as much as I wanted.Then we became lovers. " Fang Xing laughed: "You must have seduced him. You perverted guy, can you let him go—" "Hey, I can't say it's seductive, but I shed some tears, and sleeping pills are often kept by my side. He didn't think about being my boyfriend at first, because my father was his mentor, and he felt awkward. But he couldn't stand it. I cried, and cried a few times sadly, and he gave in. I think he really loves me, because those who chased him before were all sisters who were several years older than him, and they all spoiled him, only me I'm younger than him, he can pet me with confidence, and he likes to pet girls by nature." CAROL couldn't tell what was going on in his heart, he seemed to be happy for Amy, sad for himself, or relieved for Jason, after all he can still have a girlfriend like a normal person.She hesitated and asked, "Then, have you—" Amy put on a look of "what's the point of asking", and said a little proudly: "Of course I did. Sometimes we hide in my bedroom, and my parents are outside in the living room, which is very exciting. And sometimes, He stayed in my bedroom overnight and slipped away the next day. Sometimes my mother bought it early and came back early, so I ran out and took a lot to the bedroom for two to eat. I doubt my mother knew he was there, but because she liked him, Don't talk about it. I also went to see him where he lived, and sometimes the two of us stayed in his bedroom for a long time without coming out. RUTH must have seen it, maybe this is one of the reasons for her despair, but I will not feel guilty like Jason, because it is not my fault, who told her not to dare to pursue boldly? Jason is as gentle on the bed as he is off the bed. At first he was a little shy and he couldn’t let go, but his shyness was very ecstasy... Then he let go slowly, and he was like dancing Latin dance when he was passionate Wild and enthusiastic... Let me tell you, if a boy is very considerate of girls when he has sex, then he is really gentle... We were not under the age of marriage at that time, otherwise we would definitely be married. " "Then you later—" "After what happened to RUTH, he changed, as if he could no longer cheer up to love someone. In the past, he was just afraid of hurting those girls who confessed his love to him. He also has to worry about the girl in his life. He always wonders if someone has a crush on him, but because he didn't know, he didn't solve it early, which made her go to a dead end. In fact, a girl like RUTH is impossible. One thing, if a person meets once in a lifetime, it is already an adventure, how can there be a second time?" Carol said, "He himself said: Any kind of emotion, if it is too much to the point where it cannot be extricated, is dangerous and may be fatal. But isn't he too guilty?" "You haven't heard that doctors don't heal themselves. It's easy to persuade others, but difficult to do it yourself." Fang Xing asked, "Is this why you broke up?" "He went south and I knew he wasn't coming back. He said he was sorry for me, sorry for my parents, but he wanted to go somewhere where no one knew him and he didn't know anyone. Completely forget about the past." CAROL asked: "Then you have been waiting for him like this?" "It's not like waiting for him, because I know he is already DAMAGEDGOODS. It's hard for him to see me and not think about the past, so I don't have any hope. I have made a few boyfriends, but how to say ?Maybe GETOVER him, but not OVER to the point where I can GETUNDER other boys, it will take some time. You may think that I chased him because he was in C University, but it’s not like that at all, it’s just a coincidence. He came to C University because the comparative literature major here is very good, and the reason I came to C University is the same as most people who come to C University, it is very simple, because C University gave a full scholarship." Fang Xing said: "If you hadn't broken into C University, I might have captured him. But from this point of view, the one he really loved was you." "No one knows who he really loved. From a very early age, there are some girls around him, so that he only has time to think about how to respond so as not to hurt any girl's heart, and he has no time to understand himself. Who to love. In his words, if there is only one person, he will love her and live happily with her, but if more than one person loves him, he can only choose no one, because he is afraid of choosing this , will make that sad. No one will choose, no one will be sad. But sometimes MMs will not let him choose no one, they will always force him to express his opinion, and when he is forced, he will run away. So I say he is A career fugitive." CAROL remembered something, and asked Amy: "Hey, is that 'angel with broken wings' who posted his picture online?" "No, what's the matter?" "How did she have a photo of Jason? He once told me he had a girlfriend, could it be an 'angel with broken wings'?" Fang Xing said: "Probably not, you can't tell that the person in the photo is not Jason? If it was her girlfriend, he would give her a photo of someone else?" Amy analyzed: "The photo is probably obtained by 'Broken Wing Angel' from other places. Maybe she is a Chutian fan and doesn't want other MMs to fall in love with Chutian, so she posted a picture of JD's Chinese cousin to scare her. It scares people. Who knows that after posting, many people said that the person in the photo is very handsome, so she quickly removed the photo. " Carol thought of Amy's story, thought of those fans, and wondered, will Jason run away again? (NOTE: For the story of RUTH, please refer to Huang Yanfa’s original work, so I won’t repeat it here. The original text quoted in this article comes from Xin Xing, hereby thank you)