Chapter 44 Section 44

One evening in mid-April, SALLY ran to CAROL's room and said seriously, "Come with me to the window." She followed SALLY to the window, and SALLY pointed to the woods behind Building R, and said, "I saw Jason walking towards the woods over there, you go follow him, but don't disturb him, just follow him. That There is a railway in the woods. There may be a train passing by at this time. If you see a train coming, try to get Jason to get out of the track. He is a little-absent now. I'm afraid something will happen to him. I'm leaving now If not, I have to trouble you."

"What's the matter with him?" Carol asked anxiously. "What happened?" "Actually, it's okay. I'm not afraid of ten thousand, just in case. Today is the death anniversary of one of his friends. He talked with that friend's mother on the phone. He might think of the past and feel bad. Just follow him. There are still people in the woods. There's a lake, and if he gets too close to it, call him. If he's all right, don't let him know you're following him." Carol was relieved to hear that it was just a friend's death day, and guessed that Jason would have no problem.He is a very mature person, not like the kind of extremist who wants to follow the dead, and if he wants to follow, he should have followed long ago, and he will not wait until the situation has passed before he suddenly thinks of following.Might just be in a bad mood and go for a walk.

This stalking task made her excited and excited, isn't it as exciting as a mystery novel?A handsome guy in a trance, a quiet and secret woods, an ancient railway, and an unfathomable big lake, all of these are a little dangerous, a little weird, a little romantic, and even a little sexy.She didn't even have time to change into her slippers, so she chased them out. She saw Jason sitting on a stump at the edge of the woods, smoking a cigarette, and she moved away so as not to disturb him.If he woke him up and he turned and went back to his bedroom, then the stalking would not work.After waiting for a while, I saw him standing up.Huangtian paid off, he continued to walk into the woods, and she also followed in quietly.

She saw him walking between the two rails of the railway, with his head down, as if he was counting the sleepers one by one.In the twilight, his figure was like an oil painting, protruding tenaciously from the background, exuding the temptation of a mature man, which made her almost run up, took his arm, and walked side by side with him.Fortunately, she still remembered what SALLY confessed, and didn't run up to wake him up. She thought, if only a train came now, I would not call him in advance, lest he hide himself outside the railway.I waited until the train was approaching, and then rushed forward, desperately throwing him off the railway, and the two of them rolled under the roadbed together.How thrilling and romantic that is!

She doesn't remember how many movies have this scene, usually wait and wait, until the train is very close, until it is almost too late, the hero jumps out, rushes forward, and throws the man on the track. out of the road.In the next shot, the two must be in shock, but they looked at each other and smiled, and all kinds of thoughts and feelings were conveyed to each other in this pair of eyes.Seeing the truth in the midst of crisis, the shock is still unresolved, and the following stories are all unbearably romantic. Strangely, after walking for a long time, no train came.When she used to sit behind building R and listen to him play the guitar, a train would pass by every now and then, making it difficult for her to hear the sound of the piano clearly.Now I want it to come to a train, but it doesn't come.Once or twice, she heard the whistle of the train, but she didn't see the train after waiting for a long time. It may be that she had an auditory hallucination due to her eagerness.She thought, could she throw him off the railroad track without a train?But she quickly denied this approach, fearing that he would call her crazy.

The railway slowly turned into a railway bridge with guardrails on both sides.She didn't know how deep the river was under the bridge, but she could tell that the bridge was erected high. If she jumped off the bridge, she would fall to death or half to death.She thought, if he approached the railing of the bridge now, it would be really dangerous. It would be easy to jump him off the rail, but it would be more difficult to pull him back from the railing, because the action of "fluttering" has the momentum of rushing over, and then With its own weight, it can be done relatively successfully.But running up to pull him back from the guardrail is much more troublesome. Maybe he will be pushed down instead, or both of them will fall.

Fortunately, he didn't approach the guardrail, but walked straight ahead.She followed him, down the tracks, into a clearing in the woods.Now is the time to put her stalking skills to the test, as there is nowhere to hide around.She found a small tree, but she couldn't hide her person, so she hid symbolically behind the tree. She saw him sit down on the grass and start smoking.After waiting for a long time, I didn't see him walking towards the lake. I thought to myself, it seems that he will not jump into the lake, and the hope of saving him has failed again. I have to wait until I walk back to see if I can meet him. There is a train, otherwise this tracking will be in vain.

While she was thinking about it, she heard him calling her: "CAROL, come and sit down, aren't you tired standing there?" She thought, is he tricking me out?But he said it again, and he said it in her direction. She thought that the small tree as thick as her arm couldn't cover her, so she got out from behind the tree, went to him and sat down. . "Did SALLY call you here?" He put out his cigarette and asked with narrowed eyes. She nodded.He chuckled softly and said, "She misunderstood. I just came to see this forest. I'm writing something and I will use it."

"Do you need to go to the woods to learn how to write on computers?" She asked curiously. He laughed and said, "Students who study computers can't write woods? Maybe I can write a game, just call it." "Then how do you play this game? One hides and the other chases?" "A professional fugitive and an amateur detective? Huh, good idea!" She laughed: "I've only heard of professional killers, where are professional fugitives?" She was about to ask about his friend, but saw large red pimples on his arms, and asked worriedly: "Are you allergic? Are you overly hungry? Or is your stomach cold?"

"No," he said with a smile, "maybe there is a sense of guilt," he said after thinking for a while, "actually, the sense of guilt is not accurate, it should be a sense of guilt. Let's go, let's go back." After returning from the forest that night, she went online as usual to see if Chutian had posted any new posts, and also to see if he had answered her "whispers".When she opened it, she was surprised to find that Chu Tian had already started to paste the lower part.Today is only April 18th, and there are still twenty days before May 8th, which he set himself. She doesn't know why he started the second part earlier, but she is very happy, because from now on, she can watch it every day again.

During this period of time, she has been "whispering" with Chu Tian, ​​sometimes talking about code characters, sometimes talking about the characters in the movie, and sometimes writing a few nonsense, in short, she doesn't want to stop the "whispering" with him ", like a child flying a kite, pull the string from time to time, lest if you are not careful, you don't know if the kite flies away. She felt that she seemed to have developed a habit, that is, she had to go shopping a few times a day to see if Chutian had written anything, and to check "whispers".Sometimes I wrote him "whisper words", and if I didn't receive his reply the next day, I would look forward to it anxiously, or suspect that I had written something bad last time, which made him angry.Sometimes after two or three days without a reply, she couldn't help but write a letter to ask: "Are you angry with me? Is there something wrong with what I said?" In such a situation, Chu Tian would always reply a letter quickly, saying that he was busy because he didn't reply, how could I be angry with you?Is it because you girls are more angry, so you suspect that we men are also angry?No matter what you say, I won't be mad because I don't get mad at anyone. After reading his letter, she was relieved, and felt that her worries were unnecessary.But next time he didn't reply in time, she would guess like that again. She was very worried about herself, because she found that she cared about both Chutian and Jason. If she couldn't see Jason for a day, she would feel depressed and feel restless;She thought, maybe fate is using this method to make me understand "that man"?Let me realize for myself that it is possible to love two people sincerely at the same time?But is it right to love two people at the same time?It should be wrong, so I have a heavy ideological burden, and I always feel that I am not a good girl. She decided to talk to Chutian about this matter. It is not easy for her to discuss herself, because in that case, both Jason and Chutian will be pulled out. She only briefly wrote the story of her parents, especially the part about Xiuzhen. Then came up with my own question: "Do you think one person can love two people at the same time, IMEAN, sincere love?" Chutian replied with a relatively long "whisper": "You said 'may', in my opinion, there are two interpretations, one is 'possible', the other is 'allowed' or 'should'. Let's start with 'maybe'.Is it possible for a person to love two people at the same time, and both are true love?I think it is possible.From the story you told about your parents, I believe your father's love for both your mother and Soo Jin is genuine.I guess you may also genuinely love two people, which is why you are asking this question. If a person falls in love with two people at the same time, it may be because the two people are complementary. If there is something in one person that the other person does not have, then this person may fall in love with this point in A and that in B. a little. Another explanation is that in many cases, a person loves a type of person, as long as he falls in that type, he may fall in love with it, and which one of this type of person he falls in love with depends on the timing Yes, that is what we often call fate.If a person finds that two people have the kind of characteristics he likes at the same time, he may love both and cannot choose. Say 'should' again.Should a person love two people at the same time?In fact, feelings do not obey the command of what should or should not be.Reason tells people what they should not do, but emotion makes people especially want to do it.So if you love two people in your heart, you don't have to feel ashamed or guilty. No one can judge it for any crime that exists in your heart. Finally, there is the question of how to deal with these two feelings.The story of your parents taught me that the fact that one person "may" love two people does not mean that both loves can be put into practice.A person's behavior is restricted by society, morality, and law, and it is impossible to do whatever he wants.So when personal feelings conflict with these constraints, it is often personal feelings that become victims.Regardless of whether this sacrifice is reasonable or inhumane for the person concerned, we should always think of those who will be affected by our actions, such as children. Your mother is a person of great wisdom. When she found out that your father had Jane, she was very brave and left him. It was the wisest move. So she has her principles. She cannot tolerate infidelity and betray.But instead of turning love into hatred, denying her past or hating your father, she tries to understand your father, believing that it is due to his human weakness, that he does not seriously consider the consequences of his own actions for others. What effect, his love is unwise. In the face of sincere love and admiration, it is difficult for people to be completely unmoved.Your father moved his heart and put it into practice, so he had to bear the consequences of his heart.Your mother understands him but doesn't forgive him, so I think she is very smart and brave.The reason for not forgiving is because she has her own principles of being a human being. Now that he has had an affair, she will not accept him again; understanding him is to not get entangled in a fact that is done, so that she can live her own life well.She didn't teach her children to hate that father like ordinary divorced women. She took on the double responsibility of father and mother herself and raised you into an outstanding girl.You should be proud of your mom. As for your father, if you see him as a normal man, not as a father and role model, you may also understand him.Understand that your father is trying to keep your life from being ruined by his fault, because it's hard to live your life with resentment. Of course understanding is not forgiveness :)” After reading his letter, she felt that she had a clearer understanding of this issue for the first time, "Understanding but not forgiving", he said it really well, that's exactly what my mother did, and I should do the same. She wanted to ask him a personal question, and although it was a little too much, she couldn't help but send it to him: "If you were in my father's situation, what would you do? If you don't want to answer or it's inconvenient to answer :)" He quickly wrote back to her: "Thanks to your story, it made me see very deeply and vividly how our personal decisions can profoundly affect those around us, especially our children. So if I was in his situation, I would use Your story is a reminder not to make the same mistakes as your father, because that will only cause pain to yourself and others."