Chapter 42 Section 42

Back home from the sports center, for some reason, CAROL always had the swimming figure of Jason floating in front of her eyes. She seemed to see him swimming freestyle with arms alternately touching the ground, or swimming butterfly with both arms touching the ground at the same time.She could almost feel the texture of the muscles on his body, full of elasticity.She really wanted to touch those scars on his body and ask him what was going on, and she was sure that every scar had a story. She remembered that in the swimming pool just now, he walked to her swimming lane and was about to jump into the water, and when she stood in the pool and looked up at him, she saw the hair on his legs.I have seen other men's body hair before, but it only gave her an uncomfortable and embarrassing feeling, but the fine hair on Jason's legs gave her a very strange sexy, which made her irresistibly think of when those two men How it feels when a leg rubs against her body.

That night, she was not in the mood to study, and said to herself, forget it, this weekend, let’s take a night off, take a rest, and work harder tomorrow.She just let herself lie on the bed, thinking wildly, thinking of how she felt when she saw Jason for the first time, thinking of the pain she felt when she thought he was a married man, thinking of the sweet and terrified feeling she felt every time she saw him , Thinking of the secret shudder I felt when I saw him "naked" in the swimming pool today.She was a little shocked at how she felt about Jason, like it wasn't what a good girl should be.

She thought of describing Liu Qing's different feelings towards different men: "I used to think that there are only two kinds of men in the world. One is that once he touches you, you want to take a shower ten times and even dig out the piece he touched; the other is that if he touches you, you won't Resentment, because he is your boyfriend or husband, it is reasonable, legal and natural for him to touch you; now it seems that there is a third kind of man, that is, when you see him and know that you should not touch him, he dare not touch him You, but you just long to be held in his arms..."

She felt that the three feelings Liu Qing mentioned were not comprehensive, and there should be a fourth feeling, which was the feeling she experienced now. A Jason in clothes gives her a sense of handsomeness. She likes to look at him, watching his every move, and thinks his every move is very handsome, very stretched, very elegant, and very calm.When she looked at him like that, she had an urge to hope that he would stretch out his arms and hold her tenderly in his arms. She felt that it should be a beautiful and pleasant enjoyment.But a Jason without clothes gave her a sexy, aggressive sexy.In the swimming pool today, she saw every muscle and every part of him except the part covered by the swimming trunks. Even the covered parts were only covered by the swimming trunks, and the shape could not be completely covered.

She suddenly understood what it was that women's longing for a male body was written about in some novels.When reading such a description before, she just thought it was another way of saying that the heroine loves the hero, but now she realizes that it is not the usual emotional longing, but a real physical longing, as if I hope that he hugs her hard and hugs her, crushing her bones to relieve his hatred. She thinks this feeling should be said to be the most primitive and vital feeling of human beings.Shame and morality are social in nature, but the attraction of heterosexuality in human beings is born with the birth of human beings, and will also exist with the existence of human beings.If one day this kind of attraction between opposite sexes does not exist, human sexual activities will no longer be human, but will become social and mechanical. In other words, human beings will not reproduce and renew, and will perish.

A man feels sexual impulse and enjoys the pleasure of sex. No one will say no unless he uses improper means to satisfy his sexual impulse.But if a woman feels the sexual impulse and enjoys the fun of sex, someone will call her "cheap" and "improper", and sometimes even she will feel ashamed. Isn't this too unfair?Could it be that those women who have no "sexual interest" in their husbands and only perform their duties as wives are not cheap and decent?Maybe they are decent from a social point of view, but from a human point of view, they are the ones who suffer and are forced to sacrifice. If not abnormal, at least they are inhumane.

She decided not to be ashamed of how she felt, but rather to be thankful for herself.If a woman does not feel this way about any man in her life, it can only be said to be a kind of shortcoming, a congenital deficiency, and an acquired misfortune.She thought about how she felt towards Dong Hao and Feng, and how she felt towards Jason now, and she felt that she was not a person who would be emotional without knowing who she was.With Dong Hao, it can be said that he has gone through hardships and has no sexual desire; with Feng, it can be said that he has been developed and can still be emotional; while with Jason, it can be said that a spark can start a prairie fire.

She thinks it's not a matter of age, it's not because she was asleep before and now she's awakened, because she's seen Feng Chao in shorts more than once, but she doesn't feel any desire, it's just I saw a naked body, two bare legs, that's all. She didn't know how Jason would feel when he saw the women's bodies in the swimming pool without their usual wrappings. If he wasn't gay, then he should also feel it.Today she is wearing a swimsuit with a low opening on the back. Although it is not bikini-style, it still portrays her body exquisitely and protrudingly. Jason once stayed in the same swimming lane with her, could he turn a blind eye?Could it be that he is lying on the bed and thinking wildly now?Amy said, "If he was GAY, would he dare not touch you?", that means he avoided touching her because he dared not touch her, why didn't he dare touch her?Of course it's because there's a reaction when you touch it.

She thought that boys should be more likely to have a physical reaction. A man and a woman embrace and kiss. When the girl is still feeling the sweetness of the spirit, the boy is often already male and angry, ready to cross the Yalu River and go to North Korea to join the war.Maybe Jason is now...? Out of nowhere, she called Jason and asked him if he wanted to go for a drive.He is sorry to say that he is not free tonight, there is a PROJECT that will be due soon, and he is DEBUG a CODE.She hung up the phone in disappointment, feeling as if he had slapped her across the face, as if he had already seen through her mind and knew what she was thinking now, it was almost like throwing herself into his arms and being pushed away by his palm .

I heard that when boys don't have girlfriends or wives, they will jerk off while looking at pictures of beautiful women every now and then.She thought Jason must be like this too, since he doesn't have a girlfriend, his daily needs are naturally self-reliant.Maybe he is taking pictures of himself "DEBUG" in front of a beautiful woman right now.Thinking of this, she felt unspeakable regret in her heart, why?Why would you rather waste a bullet than use it in battle?If you got married earlier, you might have created several little Jasons. It is a waste of precious resources and energy. What should I do?

She knows that there are many boys, sometimes not necessarily because of love, but just because of physical desire, they will find a girlfriend to tide them over.She thought of Liu Qing's love for Xin Ming, the depth of love, the depth of love, to the point where she wanted to tide over difficulties for Xin Ming, even if it was only his "pool full overflows" object, she was willing.She thought, of course I am willing to help Jason like that, but now it seems that not only helping him, but also helping myself, or even wanting him to help her.She said to him from the bottom of her heart, although you are a doctor of computer, but there are some codes, maybe I will help you debug better than your own DEBUG. She felt hot all over her body, exactly like having a fever with a cold.She rolled to the inner side of the bed and pressed her whole body against the cold wall.She knew that across this wall was Jason's bed, and she saw that he had placed his bed against this wall, so she also placed his bed against this wall, which was equivalent to sleeping on a big bed with him , but separated by a wall.She scratched the letters JASON on the wall with her fingers, and said in her heart: JASON, COMEHERE! I want you! I LOVE YOU! Later, she slowly sank into a half-asleep and half-awake state, she heard Jason's voice in a trance, and she thought, am I having a sex dream again?But she heard SALLY's voice again, thinking it might not be a dream, she struggled to wake up, it was really not a dream, it was Jason talking in the living room: "Find some clothes to wrap him up." She quickly jumped out of bed, ran to the living room, saw Jason holding Duoduo, walking towards the door, she asked: "What's the matter?" "Duoduo is short of breath and has to be sent to the hospital. You close the door and go back to sleep." He ran out while talking, and quickly disappeared outside the door. SALLY ran out of the bedroom with a handbag, hurriedly said: "I'm sorry for waking you up." She also ran out. She couldn't care about anything else, grabbed a coat and ran out, closed the door with her backhand, stumbled downstairs, and shouted as she ran, "Wait for me, I'm going too!" She had never seen Jason driving so brutally, regardless of the red light, he went straight all the way. Fortunately, there were no cars in the middle of the night, but it must have been captured by the automatic camera at the intersection.At two intersections, there were other cars blocking in front, so she had to stop and wait for the red light. She heard him curse through his teeth: "DAMNIT!" SALLY hugged Duoduo and cried loudly.Duoduo's breathing sounded like a bellows, short and strenuous, hissing, as if there was only exhalation but no intake.She also realized the seriousness of the matter, looked at Duoduo anxiously, and saw a little life struggling desperately to maintain the oxygen needed in the body, she wished to help him inhale a few mouthfuls, and said in her heart: You work hard, Inhale hard, how can you live if you don’t breathe in oxygen?But she heard that Duoduo's throat or lungs seemed to be blocked by something, leaving only a very thin slit, and it might be completely blocked at any time. When they arrived at the hospital, Duoduo entered the emergency room, and the three of them waited in the corridor outside. SALLY refused to sit down, but stood by the door of the emergency room, eagerly asking every doctor and nurse who came in and out about Duoduo's situation. CAROL looked at Jason and felt that he looked anxious and pale. The air conditioner in the hospital was on low, but there were still beads of sweat on his forehead. She was really worried that he was sick too.She walked up to him and asked softly, "Are you all right?" Jason said, "I'm fine. Go over there, hold her hand, don't say anything." She hurried to SALLY's side and held SALLY's hand. SALLY gave her a grateful glance, held it tightly, and fixed her eyes on the glass door of the emergency room, although she couldn't see anything from there. When Duoduo came out of the emergency room, he seemed to be fine, his breathing was steady, and he was smiling, making people think that he had just had a nightmare. On the way home, SALLY reviewed herself again and again, saying that she should not let Duoduo swim for such a long time, and that she should not buy a car, which made Jason troublesome every time. Jason said: "Don't think like this. I advise you to buy a car, but I just say that it is more convenient to take Duoduo to McDonald's or something. When you encounter such a thing, even if you buy a car, you should still call me. If in case I’m not at home, let’s call her Jingqiu. She’s been driving for many years, and she’s calmer. She’s safer than a novice driver. In the future, I’ll buy insurance with more coverage. It’s a bit more expensive, but it’s good for the children. " Back home, Jason took Duoduo upstairs, put him on the bed, and said to SALLY: "Give me the prescription, I'll go get it now, I know there is a 24-hour pharmacy, but it's not in the one we just came back from." on the way." "You're tired too, you'd better get it tomorrow." SALLY said shyly. "I'm fine. I'm going to State S tomorrow. I'll have an INTERVIEW over there next week. I'll bring the medicine back today so you won't have to ask someone for help tomorrow." SALLY gave the prescription to JASON, and CAROL said, "I'll go with you too." She was afraid that he wouldn't let her go, so she hurried to the door. Jason followed, but he didn't tell her to go back. The two of them went downstairs together and came to his car.He opened the car door for her, saw her get in, put his hand on the car door, and said to her: "Thank you today, you have helped a lot. YOUAREAKINDGIRL!" She didn't say anything, because she was a little ashamed, and she ran after him because she wanted to be with him.She thought, when he said that she helped a lot, he probably meant that she held SALLY's hand, and that was something he couldn't do well, so she helped a lot.She felt a kind of joy after doing a good deed. It turns out that it feels so good to help others. No wonder Jason is an old helper. While waiting for the medicine to be dispensed at the pharmacy, she asked, "Why didn't you put it in the car today?" "Oh, when SARA was in the car the day before yesterday, she replaced it with her favorite CD." "You have been practicing some time ago, why didn't you practice during this time?" He asked curiously, "How do you know I was practicing some time ago?" "Because I sat on the lawn behind Building R and listened to you playing the guitar every day." She said frankly, "When I heard your music, I thought of the author Chu Tian's exposition on the beauty of love's imperfections, and often inexplicably I shed tears. You must not have known at the time that there is a person sitting outside your window in the cold wind and listening to you playing the piano." He turned his head to look at her, and she looked at him bravely, without shrinking her gaze at all.She found that his eyes were very strange, neither the elation and joy when someone showed love, nor the disgust and annoyance when someone imposed a love. She couldn't tell what it was. It was a bit like the one when he was waiting outside the emergency room of the hospital just now. The gaze seems to be a kind of worry, a kind of pain, and even a kind of sadness. He looked at her for a while, then turned his head and said, "I have a girlfriend." She didn't understand why he said such a sentence suddenly, and it was at this time, so she said angrily: "What does it matter to me that you have a girlfriend?" He seemed embarrassed when she contradicted her like this. He hesitated for a while and said, "It's none of your business, it's just for bragging. Vanity." She became even angrier, and said without hesitation: "What's there to brag about? What's wrong with you having a girlfriend? When you lied to me before that you had a wife and daughter, I loved you as well. Now don't say it's just A girlfriend, let alone just a subjunctive!" He looked at her with a painful expression on his face, as if someone was stabbing his heart with a knife.After a while, he said helplessly: "It's just that I used to shout 'wolf is coming' too much, but now that wolf is really coming, you don't believe it anymore." (The original text and stories quoted in this article are from Huang Yan, hereby thank you)