Chapter 95 Whose heart will the dust settle

"Have you listened to Jay Chou's new album? It's so good!" Chen Ting said to herself as she sat next to Xin Rui. When peeling the green oranges, the juice splashed into Xin Rui's eyes. She didn't notice Xin Rui's tearful left eye at all. , still talking to himself. "Now Ling Xiangqian and Yu Zhouzhou's scores are very close. Ling Xiangqian scored 145 points in mathematics, 5 points higher than Yu Zhouzhou, but Yu Zhouzhou's English and Chinese combined were 12 points higher than Ling Xiangqian. Personally, it’s about the same, but Yu Zhouzhou’s politics have failed—especially, it’s unimaginable. Ling Xiangqian scored 93 points, and she only scored 77 points. It’s hopeless now. How strange do you think, isn’t the teacher always talking about the comprehensive three Corey, is politics the easiest to learn?"

Xin Rui pursed his lips and said nothing. In the past few days, Xin Rui's addition and subtraction mental arithmetic has been honed to the speed of light.After adding up the total score, calculate it again with the score difference, forwards, backwards, addition, subtraction... No matter how you calculate it, it is impossible for her score to surpass Ling Xiangqian.No matter how you calculate it, the final result is the same.Mathematics is bad, Chinese is so-so, English is so-so, and the comprehensive score of Chinese is good, but not good enough to bridge the gap. Perhaps the only thing to be thankful for is that I never expected myself to be the first in the school year, so it is only natural that I did not pass the exam, and I will not be embarrassed or ashamed.

Xin Rui looked up at Ling Xiangqian's bright smiling face, wanted to send a text message to Yu Zhouzhou, took out his mobile phone, but his own face was reflected on the polished black screen, dark and hard, with the corners of his mouth drooping ugly. Turning her face away, she felt Chen Ting's orange juice splash into her eyes again. -------------------------------------------------- --- Lin Yang is very happy these days. Yu Zhouzhou is the second in the liberal arts year, and Lin Yang is the second in the science year. He wished he could stop everyone passing by and ask, "Is this combination a good match?"

Everyone was in a good mood, Lin Yang was proud, Ling Xiangqian breathed a sigh of relief, Chu Tiankuo was as usual, and Yu Zhouzhou remained calm.Lin Yang even thought of a song he had never heard before, "Our Life Is Full of Sunshine". Every day after class at noon, he would cheerfully run around the vicinity of Class Seven, and when Yu Zhouzhou came out, he would follow her not too far away, and when he was about to reach the cafeteria, he would take a few quick steps to pull her ponytail, posing A "what a coincidence" expression. Today's operation went as smoothly as usual.Lin Yang looked at Yu Zhouzhou's slightly tired smile with satisfaction, as if he was extremely helpless about this coincidence.In the past, Lin Yang would feel that such a smile made him hurt and angry, but now he sees the map in his heart clearly, and regards Yu Zhouzhou as a stubborn rock that needs a lot of energy to overcome like Olympiad Physics.Anyway, one day she will get used to him, one day, she will treat him as a relative, or someone else.

There was never any mystery about family affection, starting from ignorance, being together continuously, providing warmth and love continuously, and in the end, she would definitely be inseparable from him. To make up for the lack of family affection due to his unintentional mistake.Lin Yang firmly believes that such a lazy and indifferent Yu Zhouzhou needs to be rescued. It's just affection.As for other feelings, Lin Yang would blush even thinking about it in his heart, so he decided to put it aside for now. Lin Yang suddenly felt hands climbing up behind his back. Lu Yuning jumped out from behind Lin Yang like a ghost, and said to Yu Zhouzhou with a playful smile: "Sister, I finally let us find you. For more than a month, Lin Yang rubbed oil on the soles of his feet after class, brothers No, I came here to find you..."

Yu Zhouzhou's face was as calm as water, and he didn't react when he heard these words, as if Lu Yuning, who was alive and kicking, was just a still life sketch at an elementary level. "On behalf of our brothers, congratulations to you for becoming the third concubine after Ling Xiangqian and Jiang Chuan! Let me tell you, don't be angry, you are actually the luckiest one. The third concubine is in all novels and TV dramas, They are often the ones who are the most favored!" Lin Yang was taken aback, and kicked Lu Yuning to the ground, Lu Yuning still looked at Yu Zhouzhou with a smile and said: "Look, look, our young master is not good at this." Okay, you have too much temper, too much. However, dudes are like this, so you should take it easy."

Yu Zhouzhou leaned against the table and watched them fight quietly, smiling lightly.Lin Yang suddenly realized that this kind of smile had only one meaning, which was impatience. "Lu Yuning." Lin Yang stopped laughing, stopped suppressing Lu Yuning, and called his name with a serious expression. Lu Yuning froze for a moment, stuck out his tongue, turned around and ran away. Yu Zhouzhou and Lin Yang were relatively silent.Lin Yang felt extremely embarrassed. Just as he was about to force a smile to change the subject, Yu Zhouzhou said as if he had made up his mind: "Lin Yang, I only spent a total of 20 yuan on meal cards this month."

Lin Yang didn't expect that what Yu Zhouzhou wanted to say was this, he scratched his head a little awkwardly, "I just don't have the habit of letting girls spend money, or, if you think it's not good... you can swipe your card for this meal ?” "That's not what I'm talking about," Yu Zhouzhou didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "I mean, let's not have dinner together." "It's not on purpose." Lin Yang opened his eyes and said nonsense, "It's just a coincidence that we always meet. I eat by myself, and you eat by myself. It's okay to join a table."

"Did we happen to be?" Yu Zhouzhou interrupted him directly. Lin Yang was speechless and looked at her with some embarrassment. "Lin Yang, I want to say..." "I know," Lin Yang said anxiously, "I know you want to say that you don't blame me anymore. I don't care if you really don't blame me anymore. I want to tell you that guilt has tormented me for a year, and now I I don’t feel guilty anymore. It was just a coincidence. I didn’t know that meeting with me would delay your family’s outing, let alone knowing that something would happen to them during this period. I have no way to predict, and there is no way to prevent it. If it must To make up for it, I have no way to bring back everything you lost, but I can replace them...you."

His voice became smaller and smaller, and finally, his face was red as if bleeding. "Lin Yang, I...you don't have to make it up to me." Yu Zhouzhou's voice seemed to pour a basin of cold water on Lin Yang's head, "It's not necessary at all." "I was too impulsive on the phone back then, I hope you understand that I was hit too hard at that time, and I didn't choose what to say. I have already said that it is not your fault at all... It is not, and it is not my fault, I I have figured it out a long time ago, I am not immersed in any past pain, just like Shinji Ikari, a traumatized autistic child in EVA..." Yu Zhouzhou smiled, and wanted to make a joke, but found that the other party Not laughing at all.

"I'm fine. Maybe it's a little different from before, and you have to understand that I can't be as carefree as before, but I'm not a mental illness patient either. Give me time, and I'll recover slowly. I'm alive Well, you didn't give up on yourself, you didn't give up your studies, you don't need to blame yourself, and you don't need to make up for it like monitoring me." Lin Yang lowered his head and did not answer for a long time.After Yu Zhouzhou said these words, he didn't feel as good as he imagined. "Maybe I'm not making it up to you," Lin Yang raised his head, "I'm making it up to myself." "Lin Yang..." "I can't tell you the truth. But you are different from before. There is no enthusiasm in your eyes, you don't like to laugh, you have no vitality, and you don't have... no dreams... I want you to change back." Yu Zhouzhou smiled. How can she tell Lin Yang that her dream is dead.Yu Zhouzhou's only obsession since he was a child is to become better.Whether it is a story competition, or Mathematical Olympiad, or Zhenhua, it is just part of "becoming better".In the past, she never thought about why she should work hard to live a positive life, why she should study hard to be a good boy, just like Benben never thought about why she should be an idle bad boy.She just swore to herself that it was right. Only when the dream gradually became clear did she realize that she just wanted to let her mother live a good life.She couldn't change the first half of her mother's life, and even the marks of orphans, widows and illegitimate children had long been branded on herself in ways she could not imagine, but she could change the second half of her mother's life. For such a happy opportunity, she categorically rejected the invitation from the Duke Rabbit in the fantasy world, left behind the queen's glory and wealth, and followed her mother through the long journey step by step in the cold wind. Fate did give them a chance.Yu Zhouzhou thought that she didn't waste this opportunity, she was trying so hard to be happy.But after her mother passed away, she no longer had to struggle. When Yu Zhouzhou burns paper money, she never babbles about "Mom, take the money". She doesn't believe that there is a soul after death, so she doesn't believe in "Mom will watch you in the sky" nonsense. Lying on the bed late at night, she asked herself, what if she degenerates into a little girl now, or drops out of school to beg for food?What if Zhou Chenran and his mother reappeared at this moment? They confess or continue to abuse and laugh without Mom hearing. If mom can't hear it, she doesn't care. Yu Zhouzhou suddenly found that her life was free, so free that she could pick up her luggage and go wandering far away in the next second.She curled up on the bed, surrounded by fear and emptiness. For a whole year, life seemed pale to her.She seems to have turned off all her senses. If it wasn't for Chen An who never gave up on calling her, sending text messages, chatting with her every day, and asking her to tell him about the things in her life like before -- then would she Become the second Ling Boli? How could it be possible to change back?She stared at Lin Yang's face until her vision was blurred, and when she reached out to touch it, it turned out to be tears. She couldn't see the reaction of the person opposite, so she simply turned and walked away. ---------------------------------------------- Ling Xiangqian stood holding "When the Stars of Humanity Shine" and waited quietly at the door of Class 1. She was in a happy mood and smiled peacefully. It was hard for the students passing by to look at her more. Chu Tiankuo came out, looking sleepy. "Just woke up?" "Well," he slightly apologetically rubbed the creases on his face from sleeping, "Have you finished reading?" "It's over, thank you." She handed him the book. "By the way, congratulations. I heard that you got the first place in the exam. Although it's not what I expected, I still congratulate you." Ling Xiangqian seemed to see a flower blooming in her heart. "If you say that, how many times do I have to congratulate you? Congratulations are so boring. Whenever you miss, let us little people see a joke. I will definitely laugh at you when the time comes." "Miss? Well, it's best to catch up with the college entrance examination and let you watch a big joke all at once." Ling Xiangqian's face changed slightly. Is he mad? "No, no, I didn't mean that." "Huh?" Chu Tiankuo was confused by her sudden hasty denial, and Ling Xiangqian couldn't help laughing at herself after she calmed down. "I... I'm going back." Ling Xiangqian lowered her head and stared at her toes. "Okay, come find me if you have any books you like to read." She smiled bitterly, looking at Chu Tiankuo's back who disappeared at the door of the first class in an instant. Could it be that after many years, he no longer remembers her face, and only a string of lengthy book titles remain in his mind? Ling Xiangqian turned her head and strode away. All right, goodbye, Mr. Librarian.