Chapter 11 Chapter Eleven

Perhaps, it was from that night that winter came quietly. After that day, the weather became colder and colder. Yin Xiamo reduced Ou Chen and Yin Cheng's outdoor activities, and only accompanied them for a walk in the garden at eleven o'clock in the morning when the sun was most abundant, breathing fresh air.She seemed to gradually forget about Luo Xi, until one day, when Zhen En was helping her prepare steamed fish for dinner in the kitchen, she suddenly said hesitantly: "Luo Xi is leaving the entertainment industry, have you heard?" The fingers that were rubbing salt on the sea bass paused, Yin Xiamo slightly lowered her eyelashes, continued to rub salt, and said, "I heard."

That night, the phone kept vibrating, and the faint blue light on the screen reflected the word "Luoxi" that kept flashing. Yin Xiamo's body was as stiff as a stone. The pain in her heart seemed to be tearing, and she didn't know what to say to him once she picked up the phone.How can she make up for her debt to him with a few words? If she picks up the phone and says something insincere, will it hurt him again?And she is no longer qualified to hear his voice, she is already Ou Chen's wife, if she is sad because of another man, it will probably be a kind of harm to Ou Chen.

After the phone vibrated for about two or three minutes, it became silent, and she also sat silently on the edge of the bed, sleepless all night. "Oh." Jane glanced at her cautiously, seeing that her expression remained calm, and continued, "I heard that he will fly to the United States the day after tomorrow, and his company will hold a grand farewell banquet for him tomorrow night, unexpectedly... ...and even sent you an invitation letter, you..." "Tomorrow night?" Yin Xiamo asked without looking up after cutting the green onion into several sections and putting them on the plate.

"yes." "I happen to have something to do tomorrow night. I can't go. You can handle the invitation letter for me." Covering the pot, turning on the fire, Yin Xiamo turned on the tap to wash his hands. "Oh well." Zhen En looked hesitantly at the pot where the fish had been steamed, wondering if she should remind Xia Mo that she forgot to put ginger and garlic in the fish dish. After dinner the next day. The fire in the fireplace was burning brightly, and the warm flames crackled low.Xia Mo was missing in the room, as if the room suddenly became empty, Ou Chen on the sofa closed the album, and saw Yin Cheng sitting by the fireplace drawing, his face was still pale, even the orange flames could not reflect him red face.

Ou Chen frowned. However, although Yin Cheng's face was pale, he was in good spirits, with a smile on his lips and bright black eyes.He would stop from time to time while he was drawing, staring at the drawing board with a smile, in a daze with a smile, and then continue to draw. "What are you drawing?" Ou Chen stood up from the sofa and walked to Yin Cheng's side. On the drawing board, Xia Mo called him to have dinner with Xiao Cheng under the maple tree, the golden sunlight shone from the drunken red leaves, she turned her head to smile and say something to him while holding Xiao Cheng's arm.In the painting, her smile is so bright, as if it reaches all the way to the bottom of her eyes, so beautiful that people can't look away.

Ou Chen stared blankly. Has Xia Mo smiled like this before? It seems that since the day I met her, there has been more or less distance in her smile. "My sister is beautiful, isn't she?" Yin Cheng smiled and raised his head, with an unconcealable joy in his tone, like a child showing off his favorite treasure. Continuing to stare at the intimate three people in the picture where the sun shines on them, Ou Chen's eyes gradually flashed a bright light, he didn't hear what Xiao Cheng was saying, and after a long time, he asked in a low voice: "Can you tell me about this?" Give me a painting?"

"Okay, but it's almost finished. May I give it to you tomorrow?" "thanks." His gaze finally moved away from the screen, but Ou Chen's chest felt empty and lost.Xia Mo went out after dinner, saying she was going back to the old house to pack some thick winter clothes for Yin Cheng.Unknowingly, I have already gotten used to her being by my side, and even if I leave for a moment, I feel lonely. "Don't draw too late, go back to your room and rest early." Concentrating on recovering from the sudden trance, Ou Chen said to Yin Cheng, "I'm going to the study, you can call me if you need something."

"OK, all right." Listening to Ou Chen repeating his sister's daily advice, Yin Cheng smiled and nodded meekly.However, looking at the back of Ou Chen who turned and left, he suddenly remembered something, and shouted: "Brother-in-law, wait a minute!" Ou Chen turned around and looked over, only to see Yin Cheng took out a document from a stack of drawing papers and handed it to him. There were five bold characters on the document──"Divorce Agreement"! Staring at Ou Chen whose body suddenly became stiff, Yin Cheng said softly: "Take it away, it's not appropriate for me to keep it."

"You want me to..." His jaw was so tight that Ou Chen could hardly speak. "...Give it to Xia Mo with your own hands?" Finally, the day inevitably came.Like soap bubbles in the air, they are getting bigger and more beautiful, but at the moment when they held their breath and prayed that it would never burst, they shattered without warning. "I don't know." Yin Cheng said honestly. For a long time after he was discharged from the hospital, his confused thoughts made him unable to figure out what was the right thing to do. "I know that my sister married you to get me a Kidney, I hate you for using me to coerce sister and ruin her happiness."

"However, although your method is ridiculously wrong, I have to be moved by your feelings for her. I don't know who loves my sister more, you or Brother Luoxi, and I don't know who my sister will be happier with. But my sister is very happy during this time, she smiles every day, maybe living with you, she will be so happy forever." "Brother-in-law..." Yin Cheng raised his head and smiled at him. "...I'm so thankful that you made my sister happy again, and I'm glad you're my brother-in-law." Fold Xiaocheng's thick winter clothes and put them in the suitcase, and take some of Xiaocheng's favorite picture albums in the past and put them in.Yin Xiamo smiled, Ou Chen seemed to be fascinated by reading picture albums during this period, and actually spent more time reading picture albums than Xiao Cheng every day.He should be happy too if he takes these albums.

Pulling the suitcase and walking to the living room, she stared blankly at the empty sofa for a moment. She hasn't come back for a long time, and the place has become a little strange.After turning off the headlights, she looked around the room again before closing the door, and slowly walked down the stairs with her suitcase. It's snowing! Yin Xiamo walked out of the building and looked at the snowflakes in the sky in surprise. There was no sign of snow when he first arrived here, but at this moment, the ground was covered with a layer of pure white.The light snowflakes fluttered in the air, and the night became brighter. She put down the suitcase in her hand, and unconsciously reached out to catch a falling snowflake. It was crystal clear and melted instantly in her palm, leaving only the ice cold a feeling of. She was lost in silence. Is this snow seeing him off?Right now, he should be at the banquet held for him by the company, and tomorrow... It was the day he flew to America. I don't know why, on the night when he was about to leave, she suddenly couldn't stay by Ou Chen's side like usual, and couldn't show a calm smile like usual, she just wanted to be alone for a while, so she refused the driver's pick-up come here. The cold wind rolled snowflakes and blew towards her. Maybe it's not a bad thing for him to leave the entertainment industry for a while.He no longer needs to face so many cameras every day, no longer needs to live in public, he may live a happier and more casual life.Perhaps, he will meet a very good girl who loves him wholeheartedly, and his love for him is as deep as the ocean, and he will also fall in love with that girl and forget her completely. In the chilly sky, the faint twisting pain in my heart seemed to be negligible, Yin Xiamo looked at her own footprints on the snow and told herself silently that there is nothing in this world that cannot be forgotten.When the snow melted, even if a gust of wind blew across the snow, those footprints would disappear. So, he will forget her. All she had to do was never bother him again. Yin Xiamo walked in the snow in a trance, there seemed to be hurried footsteps behind her, but she didn't pay attention. The snow that had just covered the ground was very thin and slippery. In a daze, her foot slipped and her body fell straight backwards! A lamp was on in the study. Looking at the divorce agreement on the desk, Ou Chen's eyes became darker and darker, but there was a glint of hope shining faintly in his eyes.He stood up abruptly, walked to the french windows, opened the windows, and the night wind howled and snowflakes flew in. He always thought that the day when Yin Cheng handed over the divorce agreement to her would be the end of everything.The divorce agreement he signed was a verdict that would end everything. She would leave him, and this beautiful day was nothing but a bubble-like illusion. Yin Cheng returned it to him. Just like a death row inmate suddenly got a chance to probation, he suddenly felt a little helpless.Perhaps, he can let this dream continue and never wake up.This thought tortured him to the point of going crazy, he wanted to seize every opportunity desperately and keep her by his side! However, why is there always bitterness in my heart. Did he extend her sentence when he got a chance at probation?Is she really happy these days, or is it just her disguise... Snowflakes flew in gently. Ou Chen clenched his fingers tightly, not letting himself think about it any longer, or think about it clearly after a while, so that this dream can last longer.At this moment, he really wanted her to be by his side, with a warm breath and a peaceful smile. As long as he could be by her side, his heart would be quiet. But why hasn't she come back yet? When she went out, she said she wanted to get some air by herself, and insisted on not letting the driver pick her up. Looking at the snowflakes in the night sky, Ou Chen's concern became more and more intense.So he walked out of the study, picked up the car keys, and strode out of the house. And at the moment when the car was started, Ou Chen's fingers holding the steering wheel suddenly stiffened, and the pale and transparent figure standing downstairs in her old past flashed inexplicably in her mind, would she meet... No, no! At this time he should be at his farewell party... A thin arm supported Yin Xiamo's body that was about to slip! And the moment that finger touched her, tens of thousands of snowflakes exploded in her mind like a "boom", and a thick white mist filled her eyes. Surrounding her is like the last petal of cherry blossoms falling in the snow, cold, transparent, and suffocating fragility... "So it was really you." The voice came from the top of her head, Yin Xiamo stared blankly at the snowflakes that were constantly accumulating on the ground, her right hand tightly grasped the handle of the suitcase, as if it was the source of her only strength. "I just saw you coming out of the house, and I thought I was wrong..." The voice froze for a while, and then he held his breath and said, "Why did you come here? Are you coming back... " The suffocating hope in that voice was like a knife, piercing Yin Xiamo's heart fiercely. She bit her lips tightly in pain, and slowly raised her head to look at him. "Aren't you... going to America tomorrow? Why are you here?" In the night, small crystal snowflakes fell silently on his shoulders and hair. Hearing her words, a wry smile appeared on his lips, and he stared at her with dark eyes. "I was always here." Yin Xiamo's chest stagnates. "Just now, I fell asleep in the car, but suddenly woke up, and then I saw you walking out of the house. I thought God finally gave me a miracle..." There was a thin layer of snow on the white BMW car in the distance, as if it had been parked there for a long time. "But maybe... I should just watch you go away in the car, instead of chasing you out..." Snow falls silently. The silvery white snowflakes were like the rays of light in the night, fluttering between him and her. Apart from the sound of falling snow, there was only a long silence. "I'm sorry, I've troubled you again by saying these words." After the silence, Luo Xi said bitterly, "I was confused just now. If you came back, you wouldn't leave with your suitcase." Yin Xiamo's whole body seemed to be frozen, and the dark pain in her heart made her feel that whatever she said was wrong. "Why did you come out alone without a driver to pick you up? If you don't mind, I'll take you back. It's hard to get a taxi now." Looking at her who had been silent all along, he finally moved his eyes away from her face and forced himself to smile He reached out and grabbed her suitcase. "No, no..." Yin Xiamo subconsciously took a step back, but her voice suddenly stopped, looking at Luo Xi's hand holding the trunk pole. Luo Xi's hands also froze. "I'm sorry, I was abrupt... If I send you back, someone will be angry, I am not suitable now..." Yin Xiamo didn't seem to hear what he said, but just stared at his hand in a daze.He followed her gaze, and the shocking scar on his wrist was still bright red. He was stunned, covered it with his sleeve, and said, "I'm sorry for scaring you." "Don't say sorry to me again." Yin Xiamo's chest heaved and his lips turned white suddenly, "I should be the one who should say sorry, not you." "But, I did a lot of things wrong." The snowflakes falling in the night were like his voice, light and transparent, "I always don't believe you. You explained to me several times, but I stubbornly refused you, even Deliberately use the scandal between me and Shen Qiang to stab you, break up with you, deliberately provoke you at the banquet..." He stared at her with pity and pain in his eyes. "During that time, it was the most painful time for you. Ou Chen threatened you with a kidney transplant, and I kept suspicious of you..." "How do you know?" Yin Xiamo was startled and looked at him in surprise! "yes, I got it." There was another long silence, and then his eyes dimmed, and he said softly: "When I just found out, I hated why you didn't tell me, why you made your own decision. But after staying here for many days, I finally thought Understood……" "At that time, what qualifications did I have for you to trust me? In your eyes, I was a completely unreliable person." "Luo Xi..." "If I had been patient then, wouldn't you have married him?" Luo Xi's eyes were as dark as pools, but there was still a faint fire flickering in them, "In that case, wouldn't you have married him?" Give it to him...isn't it..." The snow is getting bigger and bigger. The night was windy. Snowflakes like goose feathers are sprinkled down one after another. Both he and she stood blankly in front of the old building, with white snow on their hair and shoulders, like two white snowmen in the distance. "It's not like that," Yin Xiamo's lips were pale, "Even if we didn't break up at that time, I would still make this decision. So, it's none of your business at all, you didn't do anything wrong." "..." As if there was pain in his chest, Luo Xi suddenly burst into a low cough as if he couldn't breathe. After a long time, he stopped, smiled absently, and said, "Do you have to be so cruel? You can't even pretend to be deceiving me." Is it okay? Do you have to let me know so clearly that you can sacrifice me without hesitation, and you must completely shatter my last illusions to be satisfied?" "Because it's meaningless to talk about it now, I'm already married. For me, the most important thing is Xiaocheng's health and... and Ou Chen, the others are no longer important." His eyes fell again On his covered wrist, Yin Xiamo's fingers were tightly clenched by his side, "...don't hurt yourself anymore, that can only hurt those who care about you." "And you don't care about me anymore..." Luo Xi stared at her blankly, his eyes were blank, he lowered his head, slowly raised his arms, stroked the hideous and terrifying scar with his fingers, and said in a hoarse voice: "You blame me for threatening you with suicide, right? " She took a deep breath, avoiding his gaze, the heavy snow all over the sky turned the earth into a vast white world, the trees in the distance also turned white, paper-like snowflakes fell on her eyelashes. "Life is so precious, don't give it up for someone who is not worth it. In the future you will meet someone who needs you to cherish, and you will regret doing such a stupid thing." "No, I won't regret it." Luo Xi interrupted her, a snowflake-like smile gradually bloomed on the corners of her lips. "But there is one thing, you must know. The moment I lay in the bathtub, I just felt very tired and tired. I wanted to fall asleep and not wake up. At that time, I didn't feel that I was committing suicide, and I didn't want to use death. to threaten you..." "...Even if I really died at that time, I didn't have the slightest resentment against you. I am very grateful to God for letting me meet you and giving me so much joy and happiness... But thinking about it now, if I died like that, it would indeed be Irresponsible things, that may make you forever bear the cross that should not be borne by you... I am too willful, so, Xia Mo, I'm sorry..." "You are also a very cruel person, Luo Xi..." She suddenly laughed bitterly, and a moist mist flashed in her eyes. His last sentence of "I'm sorry" shattered all the sanity she had worked so hard to maintain! "You know that if you hate me, if you never forgive me, maybe I will feel better..." "I saw through you," Luo Xi held her breath and smiled, gently reaching out to brush off the snowflakes on her hair, "Yes, I want you to owe me and never forget me. The same cruelty..." "So we are not suitable to be together. You and I are both insecure people. Being together will only hurt each other." "I will change!" His fingers trembling slightly, he touched her cold hair, struggling to maintain a smile on the corner of his lips, "I will work hard to learn to let go of those sensitivities and fears, I think I have found a way , but, you refused to give me another chance..." "Luo Xi..." She bit her lip and turned her head slightly to avoid his fingers. Fingers stiffened in the flying snowflakes, Luo Xi looked at her and said in a hoarse voice: "But, will you be happy? The so-called marriage is just a transaction. If you are not happy, then..." "I am very happy." She said softly. "Did you not lie to me this time? Don't lie to me again, Xia Mo." "I didn't lie to you, I'm really happy." Yin Xiamo's eyes were as clear as the sea, "During this period of time, my life has been very peaceful, and I haven't lived such a peaceful life for a long time." "Is peace the same as happiness?" "For me, yes." Her eyes were peaceful. Luo Xi looked at her... In fact, he already knew that no matter what the reason she chose to marry Ou Chen, once she married Ou Chen, she would try her best to become a competent wife.Ou Chen is already her family member. In her mind, family member is far more important than love. So he already knew he had lost. Not at this moment, but when she decided to marry Ou Chen, he had already lost completely. "So... have you ever loved me..." Among the crystal clear snowflakes, Luo Xi stood straight, her voice seemed to be squeezed out of her throat, her lips were as white as paper.Yin Xiamo's heart was sour, she was silent for a long time, she whispered: "I loved it." Snowflakes swirled wildly in the air, pieces of crystal clear and transparent, her words echoed in the quiet snowy night, Luo Xi's eyes gradually glowed like tears. "Even if it's comforting, I'm also very happy." As long as there are these words, he can live a good life without her in the future. She once loved him, and really loved him. "Thank you, Xia Mo." "Forget me, okay?" Yin Xiamo stared at him quietly, snow fell on her long hair again, reflecting her face as white as jade, "Start a new life after arriving in the United States, forget me, okay? " "...Is this what you hoped for?" "yes." "Okay, I will forget you," Luo Xi looked at her with a smile, his eyes were as dark as a pool of mist, "but you have to promise me one condition." "Tell me." She listened intently. "Don't forget me, no matter how much time passes, never forget me." He looked at her, as if he wanted to engrave her appearance deeply in his mind, "Even if you just put me in a very small corner." In the crystal snowflakes flying all over the sky. Luo Xi stretched out his arms and hugged her gently. Snowflakes are pure and transparent. The two of them were softly covered by thin snow, he hugged her lightly, like a friend who would never see each other again, and his voice was also very soft, whispering in her ear-"Xia Mo, bless you." Trembling, she closed her eyes, gently raised her arms, hugged him back like a friend, and said, "Bless you too, Luo Xi." As if lightning came from afar, in the snow-covered field, a dark blue Lamborghini car drove towards the two, and the two bright lights illuminated her and him who were hugging in dazzling beams!Yin Xiamo subconsciously covered the strong light with her hands, but Luo Xi had already protected her behind her, watching the car in front of her slowly stop. In the snowy night, it was impossible to see the appearance of the person in the car, but Yin Xiamo pushed Luo Xi away in a daze, she knew who that person was. The door opens. The snow seemed to be getting bigger and bigger, and the snowflakes fell on Ou Chen's black hair. He was wearing a black coat and a dark green wool scarf, and his feet made a "squeak" sound when he stepped on the snow on the ground. There was no expression on his face. Any expression, but the eyes are dark as night. "Have you packed your things?" Ou Chen stared at Xia Mo who was stunned, and asked in a deep voice. "...Okay." She paused, then raised her head and said, "Ou Chen, Luo Xi and I just..." "Then go home." Ou Chen patted the snowflakes off her shoulders, took off his coat and wrapped her up. He didn't seem to want to listen to her explanation, so he pulled up her suitcase in the snow, which was already covered with a thin layer of snow .He hugged her shoulder with one hand and walked towards the car expressionlessly. While walking, Yin Xiamo suddenly stopped. "Goodbye." She turned her head and said softly to Luo Xi who stayed behind, her voice was as soft as a snowflake falling. However, Luo Xi heard it. Ou Chen also heard it. At that moment, Ou Chen's hand on her shoulder became as stiff as a stone, but he didn't say anything, just led her to continue walking towards the car. The dark blue Lamborghini disappeared at the end of the snowy night. The night suddenly became very quiet, and the snowflakes were still falling gently, but he was the only one left in the world.Stretching out her palm, just like when she just walked out of the building, Luo Xi looked at the crystal snowflakes gently falling on her palm, but the snowflakes never melted, lying there quietly, with a small touch of cold and clear shine. Snowflakes will be so stubborn... Luo Xi took a deep breath, clenched her fingers, and silently looked at the set of footprints she left in the snow. The white BMW car was driving on the empty street, Luo Xi silently looked at the snow-covered road ahead, pressed the speaker, and a song she sang before floated in the car. "... if crying and begging If you pretend you don't know you've always loved her if i get on my knees and beg you can you stay for me ..." It was already a gift from God to him to see her for the last time before leaving.What else could he do? He pushed happiness away with his own hands and pushed her to someone else's side.No amount of persuasion may only make her fall into a more painful situation, and he will not hurt him by hurting himself. Then, maybe all he can do is leave. It's just why at the moment when Ou Chen took her away, when she said goodbye to him for the last time, his world would be so painful that it would become dark and cold forever.Snowflakes hit the window glass soundlessly, and Luo Xi clenched the steering wheel tightly. From now on, he will never see her again... Because without him... she will be very happy... "... i can pretend i don't know you love her i can cry and beg you If kneeling in front of you can soften your heart or even if i die you won't stay either ..." Her singing was very quiet, as if it came from a distant place, Luo Xi listened blankly.The car was driving in the deserted street. In the night, the white color of the car was as lonely as snow. "Ou Chen..." Accompanied by the sound of heavy footsteps going up the stairs in the house, Yin Xiamo couldn't help calling him again.All the way home he drove the car stiffly, his jaw tensed in silence. As if he didn't hear anything, Ou Chen walked up to the second floor in silence. There was only a dim wall lamp on the wall in the corridor, and his figure was reflected on the carpet, looking extremely lonely and cold. "Ou Chen..." She bit her lips tightly, and she took a few steps to catch up with him, trying to make him stop, but he stubbornly ignored him and continued to walk with big strides.So, she had no choice but to reach out and grab his arm, and said anxiously: "Luoxi and I just met there by chance, not by appointment." Ou Chen stared forward stiffly. "I know." "Then... are you angry?" The sadness in his tone made her heart tighten. "Angry..." Ou Chen tightened his lips, and slowly turned his head to look at her, "...Do I have the right to be angry?" "..." Yin Xiamo was stunned. "As the despicable destroyer who single-handedly separated you and Luo Xi," there was a deep darkness in his eyes, "do I have the right to be angry?" "Why do you say that!" Yin Xiamo looked at him in disbelief, "We're already married, aren't we? I just ran into Luo Xi tonight, if I knew he would be there, I would never..." "Never?! Will you never hug him?!" There was suppressed pain in the voice, and there were bursts of empty echoes in the corridor on the second floor at night! "Meow---" The black cat downstairs seemed to have been awakened from sleep, Yin Xiamo's heart trembled, and she couldn't help worrying that the conversation between her and Ou Chen would wake Yin Cheng up.For a moment she almost wanted to give up talking to Ou Chen, she was in a very chaotic mood now. Before she could completely calm down from the shock of seeing Luo Xi, she was about to face Ou Chen's sadness, and she was surrounded by a sense of powerless fatigue.At that moment, she suddenly wanted to escape, and wanted to bury her head deep in the sand like an ostrich. But…… She cannot escape. She can't destroy the peaceful life she finally got, and she can't hurt Ou Chen after hurting Luo Xi. "Let's talk, shall we?" Yin Xiamo's hand slid down his arm, she said softly, holding his cold fingers.Under her touch, Ou Chen's palm trembled slightly, but she didn't seem to notice it, and pulled him towards her bedroom like a gentle wife. The bedroom door closed softly. This is the first time Ou Chen stepped into her bedroom.The wedding night was at Swan Castle, and he and she slept in two bedrooms separated by a door.Because the Swan Castle was too big, they lived here after being discharged from the hospital, and he had never entered this room before tonight. Her bedroom is blue like the ocean, with light blue floral wallpaper, a blue round bed, a bouquet of white lilies in a vase on the bedside table, and two picture frames beside her, one of which is her and In Yin Cheng's group photo, another frame is stacked behind, and the photo inside is not very clear. "Luo Xi is leaving here for the United States tomorrow." Gently letting go of his hand, Yin Xiamo turned and stared at him with eyes as clear as water, "The hug you saw was just a farewell, and I will never see it again he." I will never see Luo Xi again... That's how she explained it, so he shouldn't mind anymore, right?He is married to her, everything is a foregone conclusion, with her character, she will never have anything to do with Luo Xi again, so he is the winner, Luo Xi is the loser, why should he care so much... When Yin Cheng handed over the divorce agreement to him, there was a fantasy hope in his heart, maybe this marriage could go on, maybe he could be with her forever.However, at the moment when she saw her and Luo Xi hugging in the snow, those self-deceiving fantasies were finally completely shattered... ... "Even if I break up with her by such despicable means, will she like you? Ou Chen, let me tell you, Xia Mo won't like you! Never before! Never now! Even if you coerce her to be with you Married!" ... "Maybe it's me you shouldn't see again." Her throat was a little hoarse, Ou Chen looked into her eyes sadly, her eyes were peaceful, but it seemed too peaceful, she lost the vitality that she should have when she was young. "Sometimes I think, maybe I'm too strong and domineering. Would you be happier if you didn't have me in your life..." "no." She was slightly startled and shook her head. "If I hadn't met you when I was eleven, Father Yin might have lost his job, and Xiaocheng and I might have been sent back to the orphanage. I don't know what kind of family we would be in; if we didn't meet again in five years If it comes to you, Xiao Cheng may not be able to find a suitable kidney source." She looked at him tenderly. "Ou Chen, without you, I might have fallen into despair and had nowhere to go, so I am very grateful to fate for allowing me to meet you again and again." "But..." Ou Chen's breathing was stagnant, but his rationality prevented him from sinking completely. He said in a hoarse voice, "You once wished for me to die, but this time I coerced you again, using a kidney to force you and me to die. Marriage, you should hate me." "Those are all my fault." She looked up and said apologetically, "If I could have done better, if six years ago I could have convinced you that there was really nothing between me and Luo Xi, maybe those Unfortunately, nothing will happen, so what qualifications do I have to condemn you..." "..." Ou Chen was stunned. "Also today, although Luo Xi and I just met by chance, and the hug you saw was just a way of saying goodbye, but if you see it without knowing it, you will definitely be hurt." Her eyes were dim After a moment, he tried to smile again, stared at him and said, "I would like to apologize to you for what happened tonight, can you—can you forgive me?" Ou Chen was stunned by this sudden apology! She was not angry or dissatisfied because of his jealousy, but instead explained to him so gently that this was not something that the calm and somewhat proud her before could do. "You don't need to apologize to me, you didn't do anything wrong, it's me who has been..." He clenched his fingers, his back stiffened and straightened. "Because I don't want to make you suffer anymore, and I don't want to torture each other anymore." She interrupted him with a soft and beautiful smile, "Ou Chen, we are already married and we are a family. Live in peace from now on, okay?" is it okay…… The bottom of his heart was hot, Ou Chen stared at her deeply, her smile was so bright and warm, like sea water under the sun, he couldn't help but want to reach out and hug her.However, her eyes were extremely peaceful, as if something was buried in the deep seabed and would be buried forever. "So, are you happy?" The hoarse voice echoed in the bedroom, Ou Chen couldn't believe that he actually asked, but the sudden quickening of his heartbeat made him understand how much he was afraid and eager to know her answer. "very happy." She answered him quickly, as if she had answered this question countless times. "why?" "Because I have a family, I can be with my family every day, and my life is peaceful and warm, and I am so happy that I am in heaven." She said with a smile, her eyes bright. "Is this enough?" "yes." "Even if you marry me, do you still feel happy?" "yes." Hearing her answer, Ou Chen closed his eyes, unable to tell what it was like in his heart, there was a scalding turbulence, a touch of bitterness, and a pain that was spreading more and more. "Even if, I will ask you to do something you are not willing to do..." Opening his eyes, there was a faint burning flame in Ou Chen's eyes, he stretched out his hand, fingers stiffly touched her slightly curly long hair, and then Move to her white cheeks. "Do you feel happy too?" Her eyelashes trembled slightly, but her body remained motionless. "Why don't you answer me? Is it unacceptable at all?" "impossible." Ou Chen's eyes tightened, and his breath became hot. "Then what if it's like this..." Seeing that her breathing was getting faster and faster, he couldn't help approaching her, the distance between the two of them was only a paper-thin breath, her lips exuded a warm breath, and the warmth made his heart thump. , The emotions that have been suppressed for a long time burst out like a volcano! "If it's like this..." Slowly, he tried his best to restrain the burning fire in his heart, and just slowly kissed her!He could feel her body trembling suddenly, and then she seemed to use all her strength to maintain calm, but the moment he was about to kiss her, she suddenly closed her eyes, her lips were also frozen Get up! "You said yes!" The fire gushing out of his heart was like being poured by ice water, and Ou Chen's eyes were full of deep anger and despair!The severe pain of falling from heaven to hell forced him to kiss her desperately! Like a raging fire, the kiss deepened, her body stiffened and trembled in his arms, and he kissed her passionately!Kiss her desperately!As if he wanted to kiss her into his body and never let her go!To rub her into his body, turn her into him, turn him into her, even if he and she are dead, even if they are turned into ashes, they will be together forever! "Ou Chen..." 在那欲窒息般的亲吻中，尹夏沫努力试图唤醒他，然而被紧紧地箍在他如铁的双臂中，唇间被他狂乱绝望的气息充满，挣扎的低喊只能破碎成断断续续的碎音。 直到“砰”的一声，在窒息的眩晕中她重重地仰倒在床上，他继续吻着她，火热得能将空气燃烧的烈吻，天花板仿佛也旋转了起来，她无法挣脱他，在床上，他绝望地痛楚地吻着她，那个吻的尺度越来越超过她能承受的范围，空气也如电火般噼啪地燃烧起来！ “欧辰──” 天旋地转般的混乱和恐惧让她开始奋力地挣扎呼喊，脑中却一阵一阵的空白和眩晕，氧气变得异常稀薄，他越吻越烈，她能感觉到他的身体热得就像正在喷发的火山！挣扎慌乱中，她的手摸了床头柜上某样冰凉的东西，于是慌乱地抓住它想敲醒他让他清醒过来！可是他猛地伸手握住她，半空中，她手指只得无力地松开──那冰凉的东西跌落在床单上！ 深蓝色的窗帘被夜风中微微扬起。 雪花在窗外静静地飘落。 睫毛颤抖地闭起，面容苍白的尹夏沫渐渐放弃了挣扎，仔细想来这种挣扎也是毫无意义的不是吗？她有什么资格去拒绝呢，早在结婚的第一个夜晚这一切就应该发生了，他已经给了她足够多的时间。 而欧辰却停了下来。 他呆呆地看着淡蓝色棉质床单上的那件东西，那是一个镜框，里面的照片是他和她。他穿着黑色的新郎礼服，她穿着雪白的新娘婚纱，在教堂外面的草坪上，他将她横抱在怀中，低头深深地凝视着她。 她竟然── 将这张照片摆在床头柜上。欧辰心底霍然一热，像一股暖流在冰凉而绝望的血液里无声地流转。也就在同时，如同做了一个梦，他骇然发现自己竟将她压在床上，她头发凌乱面容苍白…… 他在做什么？ ! 惊愕和羞愧在他脑中轰得一声炸开！ 尹夏沫也怔怔地望着那个镜框，照片里的他和她是新郎和新娘，他和她已经结婚了。他是她的丈夫，是将要和她共渡一生的人，片刻之前她还在口口声声地告诉他，即使嫁给他，她还是觉得很幸福，她知道作为丈夫的他会要求她做怎样的事情…… 那么，怎么可以这么快就将他伤害呢？而且他是她的丈夫，她是他的妻子，早在结婚的那一天，她不是就已经心甘情愿地接受了吗？ "Sorry……" 尹夏沫拉住欧辰的胳膊，阻止住他试图离开的动作，她的声音很低，恍若是缭绕在他的耳侧。 “该说对不起的是我。”他苦涩地哑声说，努力克制住体内依旧在燃烧的狼狈火焰，拉开她的手，想要离开她的身体。 “对不起，我刚才……是事情发展得太快，我一时没有准备好，”好像没有听见他说的话，她的胸口起伏了一下，仰起脸对他微笑，唇角笑容轻微的不自然被她掩饰得完全看不出来，“……现在可以了。” "you……" 欧辰惊愕地望着她，无法相信自己听到了什么。 尹夏沫没有再解释。 她拉下他，吻住了他的双唇。他的嘴唇初吻上去是冰凉的，然而里面的血肉似乎有永远在燃烧的火焰。她的这个吻只是将他点燃的星星之火，她轻轻地吻着他，慢慢地，两人之间蔓延起熊熊的燎原之火！ “你知道你在做什么吗……” 极力控制着体内汹涌的火焰，欧辰从她的唇上抬起头，眼神深黯地望着她。他混乱得完全无法分辨自己的情绪，想要给她幸福，哪怕看着她离开，可是，又那么那么想要留下她，哪怕只是夜晚的这一刻。 “我知道……”她两腮嫣红，眼睛却如大海般澄澈，“……我是你的妻子。” 深蓝色的窗帘被夜风吹得露出窗户的一角。 The snow was falling heavily. 屋外晶莹透明，有白皑皑的雪色，有美丽飞舞的雪花，屋内温暖如春，有缠绵的香气，有如醉的低喃…… 百合花在夜色中静静芳香。 她宁静地睡着，海藻般的长发散乱在枕头上，洁白的手臂露在被子外面，她睡得很沉，两颊染着淡淡的红晕，身体像孩童一样蜷缩着，双手抱在胸前。 欧辰倚在床头望着她。 这个凝望她的姿势已经保持了很久很久，他的眼睛黯绿如深夜的森林，想要去碰触她圆润洁白的肩头，想要为她轻轻盖上被子，然而她无邪的睡姿又仿佛任何一种行为都是对她的亵渎。 一切都是真的吗…… 那种深入骨髓的欢愉，那种如天堂般的缠绵，这一晚，她真正成了他的妻子。有一瞬间，他以为他会随着那幸福的极至一同融化掉，如果时间停止在那一瞬间，就真的可以永远幸福了吧…… 而现实又渐渐回到他面前…… “即使用这种卑劣的手段使我和她分手，她就会喜欢上你吗？欧辰，我告诉你，夏沫不会喜欢你！从前没有！现在也不会！哪怕你胁迫她跟你结了婚！” ... 曾经以为，只要能留住她，将她禁锢在他的身边，无论什么样的手段和方法他都是不在乎的。从小时候，到相隔五年后的重逢，他也一直是这么做的。他相信只有他能够给她幸福，只有他能够让她快乐，所以当他清除掉每个阻挡在他和她之间的障碍时，从来没有犹豫过。 那么是从什么时候开始，他渐渐没有这么肯定了呢？当洛熙自杀、小澄拒绝做换肾手术，她几天几夜高烧不退昏迷在病床上时，他才知道，原来他的强势可以将她逼到如此痛苦的地步，甚至可以使她死去…… "So……" Luo Xi stared straight at him, her eyes were deep and dark. "Is she happy now?" ... 她现在幸福了吗…… 黑夜里，欧辰长久地望着睡梦中的她，她睡得很沉，洁白的双臂抱在胸前，眉头轻皱着，仿佛正在做着不太好的梦，整个人蜷缩得像一只小小的虾米，而她的手腕上，系着那条长长的颜色有些发旧的绿蕾丝。 ... 许久以前庭院里的青石台。 月光中，他打开盒子，里面有一条绿色的蕾丝花边，长长的，华丽的花纹，被夜风一吹，轻轻飞舞出来。 “以后，每天扎着它。” "why?" “只有在我面前，你才可以散下头发。”他从她手中拿过蕾丝，轻轻俯身，将它扎在她的头发上。 ... 一直以来他对她都是这样的霸道，因为不想让除他之外的任何人看到她散着头发的模样，就命令她必须把头发扎起来。望着她睡梦中无意识地轻皱的眉心，欧辰心底的黯然越染越浓，他以为可以给她的幸福，真的能够使她幸福吗？ 他有什么权力去强迫她…… 当一个人的生活失去了自由选择的权力，怎么可能会真的幸福呢？这样简单的道理，是他如今才终于想通，还是始终逃避去想呢？ 雪花静静在窗外飘落。 睡梦中的她不安地颤抖了一下，手腕也挣扎地动了动。欧辰俯过身去，轻轻伸出手，没有吵醒她，轻轻将那条绿蕾丝从她手腕解开，然后轻柔地将被子拉上来，慢慢在她的眉心印上一个吻。 他，是她的。 而她，是自由的。 清晨的阳光透过窗帘柔和地洒照在尹夏沫的面容上。 她坐起身，怔怔地出了一会儿神，身体略微酸痛的感觉让她明白昨晚并不是一场梦。 欧辰已经离开了，房间里只有她一个人。 穿上衣服，她下床走到窗户边，拉开窗帘。雪已经停了，外面的世界是白皑皑的冰雪天地，空气格外的清冽，她深呼吸，微笑了起来，内心一片从未有过的平静。 转过身，正准备下楼为小澄和欧辰准备早餐，忽然，床头柜插满百合花的花瓶旁有件东西让她停下了脚步。 她疑惑地走过去。 清楚地记得床头柜上并没有这样类似文件的东西啊，难道是欧辰留给她的。 手指将那份文件拿起来── 雪后的阳光反射在纸面上，有微微的刺眼，“离婚协议书”五个黑体的大字仿佛从纸上跳了出来！ 尹夏沫呆呆地怔住。 一时间心底闪过无数种滋味，良久，她低下头，发现系在自己手腕的绿蕾丝也不见了。 Ou Chen... 握紧那份文件，她闭了闭眼睛，迈步走出卧室。 走过二楼的走廊。 走下楼梯。 她对欧辰太了解了，她知道他在想些什么，她会让他明白，昨晚的事情并不是一时冲动才…… “澄少爷──！” “澄少爷──！！” 突然，一阵女佣们惊慌的呼喊让尹夏沫骤然大惊，她急忙顺着喊声从楼梯望下去，只见画架和画笔散落了一地，而小澄正面色苍白地在壁炉边的软椅中晕厥过去！