Chapter 90 There's always someone to blame

Arriving at the destination staggeringly like this, Yu Zhouzhou greeted Xin Rui and got out of the car first. The downstairs of my grandma's house has become a vegetable market since her third grade in elementary school. Many teachers and staff will come here to buy vegetables and cook at home after get off work. It is very lively every morning and evening. The government tried very hard to move the street vendors to the bottom of the shopping mall, but ultimately failed. The tug-of-war between urban management and street vendors lasted for a year, and the market returned to prosperity with trepidation.When she was a child, Yu Zhouzhou liked to eat sweet potato chips baked by an old grandma in a certain barbecue shop downstairs, so every time she saw a city management car from a distance, she would run several blocks to help the old grandma tell the news.

Grandma passed away last winter.Her son is still grilling lamb kebabs in the same place, but Yu Zhouzhou has never eaten it once. When I was reviewing homework on the afternoon of Saturday and Sunday, I could still hear the cries of "brush the smoke hood" and "buckwheat skin". At that time, I looked up at the sky, and there was a blue sky above the old house opposite. Both Yu Tingting and Yu Lingling moved away, and my uncle moved back again.It also echoed Yu Lingling's mother's words, "Didn't he say that the children should take care of the elderly by themselves? Then he moved in!"

Yu Zhouzhou also moved back to his grandmother's house.The house left by her mother was not sold, and it was left unused in the Haicheng community. Yu Zhouzhou hadn't been back for a whole year. My aunt has already prepared the meals, scrambled eggs with persimmons, green beans, and diced chicken with green beans.Zhou Zhou washed his hands and sat down at the table. "Try Auntie's chicken with green beans. First time." "it is good." "Don't have too much hope." After the uncle finished speaking, he was glared at by his aunt. "I understand." Zhou Zhou said, and was also glared at by his aunt.

During meals, they don’t talk much to each other. My uncle will talk about things in the union, and my aunt will also talk about the right and wrong of the office. Occasionally, Yu Zhouzhou will interject, and most of the time he will bury his head in the meal and be in a daze by the way. My aunt wouldn't let Yu Zhouzhou do the dishes, so she never volunteered.After dinner, my uncle went to watch the focus interview, and Yu Zhouzhou went back to his room to do his homework. The tradition of Zhenhua is not to leave homework, but to customize a lot of exercise books for students, and everyone will buy a lot of additional exercise books that they like in private, although most of them have no time to finish.Almost no one hides the exercise books they bought from others like Xin Meixiang in junior high school—even Xin Rui himself does not do this anymore.Those who got into Zhenhua were all good students, and they were well aware of this childish trick, not to mention that even if everyone had a copy of the cheat book, after all, not everyone was a prodigy in martial arts.

The political book was spread out under the bright eye-protecting lamp, and it was a little nauseating to read.Yu Zhouzhou fell asleep straight away when he was in politics class, leaning against the window sill, propping his chin with his left hand, lowering his head slightly, as if he was reading a book seriously. When get out of class was over, Yan pushed her and told her softly that the introduction and the first section of the first chapter were finished.The first philosophical principle is "the natural world exists objectively". When answering the questions, the philosophical principles, methodology, and "wrong tendency to oppose" should be written in order, and he copied all the specific content into his notes.

As he spoke, he pushed the clear and immature notes to Yu Zhouzhou's hand. She started to read from the introduction, and drew down some small but seemingly important sentences, because at the last moment of losing consciousness, she heard the political teacher say that the multiple-choice questions might grasp the small sentences on these books to form questions. Yu Zhouzhou browsed through the notes, and probably memorized them by heart, but when she started to do the questions, her thinking seemed to be blocked. It is indeed the philosophy on the political book.Yu Zhouzhou, who thought she had read a lot of history of philosophy and introduction to philosophy, actually spent half an hour on the 40 multiple-choice questions, which made her suspect that she had missed some secret while she was sleeping.

Aunt opened the door and came in, a glass of milk, cold, and complained as usual, "You are in charge, drinking cold is not good for the stomach." Yu Zhouzhou smiled and said, "Thank you, auntie." Uncle and aunt went to bed around ten thirty.Yu Zhouzhou usually lasts until eleven o'clock, takes a shower, dries his hair, then gets under the covers and sets the alarm clock on his mobile phone. She called up the address book, found Chen An's number, and sent, "Good night." She no longer told Chen An about the details of life, and occasionally just sent a text message to express some thoughtless emotions, but she was sure that Chen An would understand.Saying good night has also become a habit, and Chen An even calls from time to time.Ever since Yu Zhouzhou knew that Chen An would definitely reply good night, he would always turn off his phone and go to sleep immediately before he replied, and when he turned on his phone the next morning, he would receive a text message saying hello.

Then there will be some thoughts throughout the day. It seems to be the only source of heat in life. However, tonight, I received another message from Lin Yang. "Have you saved my phone number?" I can even imagine that he looks a bit stubborn and rascal, as if he was a child. Yu Zhouzhou felt a little strange. "Saved, good night." Then, the other party's number was extracted and stored. Suddenly another message came in. "Isn't the poem recitation this morning... stupid?" Yu Zhouzhou was surprised. Lin Yang, poetry recitation? Yu Zhouzhou wore headphones throughout the ceremony except when the national flag was raised.All the songs are Chen An's favorite. She played these songs in a loop for a week, and the whole day ended.

She used his favorite singing voice to tie knots to keep a diary. "It's pretty good." Yu Zhouzhou could only lie indiscriminately and turned back. Long time no reply.Just as she was about to turn off the phone, the screen lit up again. "Tomorrow at noon, do you have anything to do?" "No, why?" "I'll go to your class to find you after class, let's have dinner together." For a long time, Yu Zhouzhou felt that nothing was necessary and that it didn't matter.However, this time, she still faintly wanted to refuse. "Okay." She sent it out, turned off the phone and went to sleep.

Since she just said it this morning, she didn't blame him.So some compensation must be made to free him from guilt, and then he will not default on anything. This can be regarded as compensation for her mistakes this year.Prove it to him, she really doesn't blame him. Have you really not blamed it? Sometimes you always need to find someone to blame, right?It's not him, it's me. At midnight, when Yu Zhouzhou woke up again, he still didn't scream.She just opened her eyes abruptly, staring at the ceiling in a daze, and it took a long time before she accepted the fact that she had woken up.

When I got out of bed, I found that the curtains were not drawn.The white moonlight casts a piece of tenderness on the ground, and wherever it touches is a cold illusion.Yu Zhouzhou walked to the window and looked at the mess on the street. The intersections are piles of ashes.Tonight is the 15th day of the seventh month of the lunar calendar, which is known as Ghost Festival among the folks, and everyone will burn paper money for their dead relatives around this day.Yesterday, that is, the night before the start of school, Yu Zhouzhou, led by his uncle and aunt, stood at this intersection to burn paper money for his mother and uncle Qi. The weather has begun to turn cold, and the evening wind is chilly. My aunt is a bit of a superstitious woman, and she has been muttering that this wind is brought by ghosts who came to collect paper money. Under the guidance of his uncle, Yu Zhouzhou drew a circle with a stick and left a door, then poured low-quality white wine along the edge of the circle, and lit the first piece of paper money in the center. She couldn't cry, she just stared indifferently at the jumping orange flames, and the warm breath that came to her face was like a mother's touch.Yu Zhouzhou stood stubbornly at the virtual "doorway", waiting for the wind that couldn't be grasped. My aunt followed the old rules and kept muttering when she was burning paper money. Sister-in-law, come and collect the money. My daughter is doing well. Don’t worry, don’t worry, just stay there... Can you shut up, can you shut up. Yu Zhouzhou was not angry, she was just afraid of the feeling of having a serious conversation with her mother, so she kept silent from beginning to end. Only at this time, she will feel alive.Yu Zhouzhou has not felt any emotional fluctuations for a whole year, as if she had hibernated, but at this moment she was awakened by the warmth brought by the burning paper. An emotion called hatred filled her body, causing her to regain consciousness. Come alive. Hatred gives strength.Hate makes people want to live. Yu Zhouzhou would rather hate someone, someone who can take revenge.Yet the object of her hatred is so rare that it remains to be seen whether it exists. It gave Yu Zhouzhou the most perfect and blazing happiness, and then put an end to this happiness in front of her. "They stopped at the happiest moment, Zhou Zhou." Did Chen An say it?Yu Zhouzhou's memory of that time was so chaotic, when he looked back, there were only fragments of words left, and he couldn't even find the sequence and the owner of the words. It seems that I forgot on purpose. Did she say anything when she was agitated and chaotic?What extreme and decisive words have you said?Cursing fate, cursing everything, saying that she is dead, that life is meaningless, or is it all her fault, that she killed her mother and Uncle Qi, or, put all the blame on Lin Yang? Whenever she thinks about it, she can only hear a commotion. "If it wasn't you back then, if it wasn't you back then..." Did she say this to Lin Yang? She couldn't remember what she said, but only remembered the helpless silence on the phone. Yu Zhouzhou stood barefoot on the cold floor, his head raised to bask in the quiet white moonlight. Lin Yang was right from beginning to end.There are two tour groups starting on the 17th and 23rd, but because of an awkward invitation call from Lin Yang, she told her mother and Uncle Qi that we should start on the 23rd. Let's start on the 23rd. At that time, Yu Zhouzhou was in high spirits, and she wanted to add three hundred taels of silver here, "Actually, I don't really want to go, but that classmate insists on...", Uncle Qi, she already called "Daddy" sweetly. The man looked at her with clear eyes, suppressed a smile, patted her head and said, yes, that classmate is really annoying. The exaggerated and teasing tone made Yu Zhouzhou blush.At that moment, she raised her head, and wherever she looked, there was happiness. Chen An said, none of you are wrong, it's just a coincidence. Yu Zhouzhou struggled for many years, for her and her mother's happiness.Now Chen An told her that it was just a coincidence. She fell in Chen An's arms, her face was pale and she couldn't cry. Yu Zhouzhou once thought that misfortune was a coincidence. Now she understands that the real coincidence is happiness.The rarest coincidence in the world. Yu Zhouzhou went to and from school as usual, studying and taking exams.Life is a mechanical movement, because she knows that it doesn't matter whether she works hard or not, is excellent or not, and is happy or not. She eventually crawled back into bed, curled up to warm her cold toes, and drifted off to sleep. ============================================ I was not late in the morning and saw Benben at the school gate. "Morning." Yu Zhouzhou smiled. Benben has grown taller, fair and gentle, and his handsome skills are becoming more and more natural.He is well-known in the branch schools of the main school, but Yu Zhouzhou rarely asks about his situation.She doesn't care much about what kind of person Murong Shenzhang is in other people's hearts, anyway, Benben never acts handsome in front of her. "How does the new class feel?" Benben's questions were all in the tone of declarative sentences. "I don't think so. The teacher in charge is very fun. She looks very sloppy and stripped, a bit like Zhang Min from our junior high school. Oh, there are many beauties in the class." "Beauty? At our age, real beauties haven't appeared yet. The ones you see just use foundation a few years earlier than your peers, and put more thought into hair and clothes. They look better than you. This clear water noodle looks good." Benben's ability to appreciate beauties has also become stronger.Yu Zhouzhou also learned that Ben Ben's new girlfriend, Liu Lian, was the beauty in the white Cadillac through the gossip of Xin Rui's classmates that day. Yu Zhouzhou suddenly thought of something, "By the way, I really met a very beautiful girl. She is really beautiful, not because of her hairstyle and clothes. She is not in our class, but we used to be classmates, named Ling Xiangqian." Benben had a suddenly realized expression on his face. "I know, Comrade Xiaohua. I chased after her when I was a freshman in high school." There was actually a childish look on his face. "Oh," said Yu Zhouzhou, "it seems to have failed." "It's not very uncomfortable, anyway, I chased many people at the same time." "That's right, you can't put all your eggs in one basket." "Smart," Benben smiled, "Zhou Zhou has always understood me best." In the end, Benben did not resist his parents' spending money to send him to a branch school.Since Yu Zhouzhou is here, it's good for him to come too, although the contact between the two will become less and less. Just as Yu Zhouzhou was about to turn around and walk towards another road, Ben Ben suddenly stopped her. "weekly!" "what?" Benben was silent for a while, but finally he raised his face and smiled, "It's nothing. Zhou Zhou, smile more often." Yu Zhouzhou froze for a moment, then nodded. He didn't look back when he left. Just as she was stepping into the classroom door, she suddenly heard a loud noise. A girl with a somewhat rebellious expression threw the basin on the ground, pointed at Director Li and shouted, "You fucking meddle too much!"