Chapter 15 The Lonely Mirror

The day she comes and leaves. That afternoon, the time passed extremely long, so long that every second was subtly placed before my eyes. Before entering the operating room, assistant doctors Li Xueer and Xiao Yuan were scrubbing their hands and arms by the sink in the sterile area. There was originally a calm sound of running water, but Xiao Yuan and Li Xueer pushed their shoulders, and the pair of eyes exposed from the mask were mysterious "Hey, that woman just now is Dr. Jiang's fiancée, right? Otherwise, she can joke around, why can't she make jokes when she's here, but it's very strange. If it's true, why don't you introduce it generously? Could it be the first time?" Three?"

Li Xueer gave him a blank look, "Xiao Yuan, if you have the ability to ask Dr. Jiang, you will die!" Xiao Yuan's eyes widened, and he deliberately lowered his voice, for fear that Li Xue'er would not believe him, "I just saw our Doctor Jiang running very fast, and he just walked up the stairs when the elevator didn't come. I greeted him, but I didn't see him." Just like me." "when?" "An hour ago." Li Xueer suddenly realized that it was not long since she left his office, in other words, she must have gone after that woman. After Xiao Yuan finished disinfecting, his eyes slipped to Dr. Jiang, who was wearing a blue hand sanitizer and a mask, came over, quickly shut his mouth, and walked into the operating room first.

Dr. Jiang lowered his head and carefully scrubbed his hands.With strong curiosity, Li Xueer looked up at the doctor Jiang in the mirror who was superb in medical skills and was "pretending to be calm" in the operating room. "Doctor Jiang, that lady just now is your fiancee, right?" The other party was so calm that he couldn't even breathe. He raised his head and looked at her with dark eyes in the mirror, "Don't forget, it's time for surgery soon, Dr. Li." It's like this again. But compared to her own words being always directly ignored, the senior sister who pursued him in the past seemed to be even more miserable, and she always remembered that story.

"Doctor Jiang, your fiancee, is she pretty?" "What college did she go to, did she get straight A's in college?" "Her family background is good?" "Or does she have a better temperament than me?" At that time, she and Xiao Wen, another resident doctor, secretly hid in the corner of the rooftop to watch the show of the brave confession. "She's just a normal person." Even eavesdroppers like Jiang Zimo found Jiang Zimo's answer boring. With the attitude of the senior sister pressing every step of the way, he thought that Dr. Jiang, who has always spoken amazingly, would give a shocking answer.

"Ordinary people? Doctor Jiang, that kind of worthless ordinary person, how can he be your fiancee? There are so many excellent people around you... Just like me, don't you even have a chance?" Li Xueer still thinks of Dr. Jiang's turned eyes, which made the midsummer weather feel suddenly cold. "I like it, but it's useless. I don't think you're qualified to say it." Senior sister's pale expression has already proved the lethality of these words. Li Xueer still remembers Xiaowen's conclusion after watching the play: "Offend the sky, offend the earth, don't offend Dr. Jiang, no, she is Dr. Jiang's future wife."

If she remembers correctly, the senior who died heroically should have been transferred away. After Xiao Yuan left, Li Xueer also finished disinfection, and when she went to the operating room, she couldn't help muttering in her heart, it's not like she didn't see anything... When she and Xiao Yuan went to his office in the afternoon, the woman she saw sitting on the sofa was not the legendary fiancée? Otherwise why would it be like that? The atmosphere was so embarrassing that it was obvious that the young couple were having a fight. As soon as the woman left, she went in and found Dr. Jiang sitting there straight. As soon as she stepped in, he quickly turned his head reflexively, his eyes were full of... Li Xueer didn't know how to describe it, like It was anticipation, it could be seen that it was her, but it quickly dimmed.

The pen in my hand fell to the ground without knowing it. The pen just turned and stopped at her feet, motionless, but he lowered his head, just immersed in his own world.She picked up the pen and put it on the table, telling him, "The operating room is ready." "You go out first." She saw his frown and stiff shoulders. Li Xue'er shook her head, who knows, if it's really the arrival of his fiancée, why would there be such a flaw in his calm and calm appearance in the face of danger, making people feel so depressed and helpless, like a wandering teenager. Not long after the two of them entered the operating room, Dr. Jiang, the object of their gossip just now, finished disinfection and entered the operating room with his arms raised. His black eyes were as calm as usual. After the nurse put on the surgical gown for him, the operation was about to begin.

Xiao Yuan quietly whispered into Li Xueer's ear, "Did you ask him during the disinfection?" Li Xueer responded in a low voice: "I can't ask." But as soon as the words fell, Dr. Jiang who put on gloves scolded him in a cold voice: "You two, does the patient have to wait for you to finish talking before performing surgery?" The two wearing masks drooped their shoulders at the same time. Who let them participate in the emotional gossip of the surgeon? Turn on the shadowless lamp, and the operation is in progress. At the beginning, the anesthesiologist did not control the blood pressure very well, it was too high. Dr. Jiang required the blood pressure to be kept within the range of 120/65mmHG. Although the tumor was very large, the operation went smoothly and the patient's physical signs were also stable.

The weather is calm, and the exquisite and subtle operation process is like carving. The youngest and most promising sculptor in neurosurgery is not in vain. After the 6-hour meningioma operation, he rested for a while before going to the ward round. Although he was hungry, he didn't feel hungry, only tired. Back in the office, he washed his face with cold water at the sink. The cold water in his bangs flowed down his eyebrows. The sound of running water in his ears sounded far away. He looked up at the tired eyes in the mirror , A long period of loneliness and regret came to him. After so many years, he finally saw her.

On such occasions, she sat among a group of people and participated in a blind date with others. In the underground parking lot, he just sat in the car numbly, watching her and Dr. Lu come in talking and laughing. He lowered his head, suppressed the waves in his heart, and drove past them. He still saw the picture from the rearview mirror, and Dr. Lu's face was almost pressed against hers. She came to visit him, in the name of a classmate. He regretted that when he opened his mouth, it was so cold that there was no warmth. That was not his intention. She actually asked him if he was doing well?After so many years.

Jiang Zimo looked at the mirror in front of him, which was as lonely as him, and said softly, "Xiao Wei, the answer you want is that I am fine. Or in front of you, pretending to be fine?" She has changed. But he hasn't changed. She can stop liking him, but he can't. It's just that he doesn't understand, love is clearly the only one, a person can only love one person in a lifetime, why would she go on a blind date with others?She doesn't care about him anymore, is it time for her to change? Lu Erhao will always pretend to show off his blind date in front of him these days, "This Jiang Wei is actually quite cute, she dares to take me to play in her bedroom, but there is the most shameful person in her bedroom I really admire her courage." "But I think she looks familiar, she looks a bit like the photo in your wallet." Seeing that he was silent, Lu Erhao finally couldn't hold back one day, "Why didn't you respond at all, at least you want to ask me for her phone number?" Jiang Zimo paused, "She is your blind date, why do I need her phone number?" "You are... stupider than I imagined, really stupid." So he went on to deliberately stimulate him, "Jiang Wei is my focus on development, maybe we can get married this year." Unexpectedly, Jiang Zimo turned around and left with a calm expression. Lu Erhao was a little caught off guard, and asked after him, "You really don't care?" Jiang Zimo glanced back at him, and seriously said, "I care." Lu Erhao patted his head, smiled and shook his head.He was obviously joking, but looking at Jiang Zimo's eyes, he clearly meant it. Lu Erhao didn't feel any guilt at all. On the contrary, he felt that it was very interesting to tease Jiang Zimo like this. No matter how high his IQ was, Jiang Zimo's IQ seemed to drop below zero when he encountered relationship problems. Playing tricks on a fool in the emotional world has always been his greatest pleasure. But I didn't expect that Jiang Zimo really didn't like to answer him for a while, and greeted him from a distance, but he didn't even see him. Only when he and Jiang Zimo took the elevator together that afternoon did he seize the opportunity and asked persistently: "Since you care about her, come to my wedding to snatch her. You know that I like exciting scenes the most." He remained silent. "Hey, you don't feel more sad than your heart dies, do you?" Jiang Zimo didn't even look at him. Lu Erhao wailed in his heart, didn't he, this buddy no longer considered him a friend, and completely despised him like air. On this day, all his plans to keep making fun of him were shattered, because he really lost interest and couldn't bear it. At 5:00 p.m., Jiang Zimo tried his best to rescue the woman with severe brain injury caused by a car accident, but she was still declared dead. Lu Erhao heard the nurse muttering, "Dr. Jiang is too pitiful. He was relied on by his family. He obviously tried his best. You didn't see him in the operating room. Blood splashed all over his face. Everyone panicked..." "The possibility of being able to be saved is too low, too low. How could Dr. Jiang say that he could be saved? It's really strange. Dr. Jiang was also confused this time. It is simply unheard of. Reassurance for family members depends on the situation. what." The nurse said in a low voice: "Haven't you heard that Dr. Jiang's parents used to be doctors in our hospital, if it wasn't for Dr. Jiang's mother who threw Dr. Jiang under her body and protected her tightly, Dr. Jiang It might be gone..." "There is such a thing? Then this, isn't it exactly the same as back then? This is too pitiful..." When Lu Erhao saw Jiang Zimo, the husband of the deceased was blaming him, while the son of the deceased grabbed his trousers and begged him to save his mother. The scene was chaotic, the nurses came forward to comfort him, but the expression on Jiang Zimo’s face was clear. It was as if I had lost a loved one, guilt and pain were all written on my face. He scolded Jiang Zimo angrily: "You are still a so-called famous doctor, and you have no professional ethics at all. How can you promise to your family that you will save them? Now that the person is dead and cannot be saved, do you want to order you to pay for it?" , Has your latest IQ been taken back by God?" That night when the wind was blowing on the roof, Lu Erhao blurted out: "Here, I have Jiang Wei's phone number here, you should call her quickly, the person she likes in her heart is you, I used to tease you, you are now a ghost It looks like...you need someone to enlighten you." Jiang Zimo lowered his eyes, looking at the busy traffic in the city, "I don't need anyone to comfort me." Lu Erhao was furious, "So, you are planning to give up on her completely, the operation failed, and your life also failed, right?" Jiang Zimo didn't seem to hear him, and said to himself, "I thought I had come out, but I found that I still haven't come out." Only then did Lu Erhao know that Jiang Zimo didn't give up, but lost confidence. He could imagine how deep the shadow in Jiang Zimo's heart was, so deep that even he himself could not predict it, so that when similar incidents happened, he would fall into the abyss and experience the most unbearable pain in his life again. Extricate yourself. After an unknown amount of time, Jiang Zimo turned his head and looked at him, "I don't want her to bear this." That's why he didn't want her consolation. In the past, she didn't have the courage to walk to him, but now it's him, he doesn't have the courage. "Then you have waited for her for so many years, is it not for nothing? Don't tell me that you are not waiting for her, or you won't keep her picture in your wallet. I said, wait for someone for so long, does it worth?" His answer was very concise, "Where in this world is worth it or not, only you are willing or not." Lu Erhao patted his forehead, he really did not misunderstand Jiang Zimo, he is an out-and-out fool. Perhaps, such Jiang Zimo knows love better than anyone else.Or maybe he is the one who doesn't understand love the least.