Chapter 7 Part7 A fresh start

Teacher don't call me. Some people accompany me as a student on duty. Someone remembers my birthday. Find me when you play hide and seek and come home, don't forget me every time... It's raining. Xinyi looked up at the drizzle falling from the sky, her eyes were very confused and helpless. It's raining and it's a bit cold, and what a blessing it would be to be inside with a hot cup of tea or a sandwich someone made that wasn't really that good! But she was walking alone on the silent street, her vision was blurred and her future was uncertain. Happiness is always far away from her, and love to her seems like a fairy tale in a dream.

"Meet someone who loves me, and I love him too." When will such a wish come true?Or, she can only chase in her dreams forever, chasing the prince who will never stop for her. "I choose Anna, she is the one I really love." Of course it was Anna, so what's the surprise?Didn't she know it from the beginning?Anna was his princess, she was just... a problem, a hot potato he had to take. It's good that he didn't hate her, she shouldn't expect too much. It's just... She just hopes that the dream can be longer and wake up later.She only asked for these few months, isn't that all right?

"Am I really unworthy of someone's love?" She murmured, asking about the sky, about the drizzle, and about the desolate night. Is it not possible?She just wants someone to love her, someone to pet her, someone to remember to find her, and not to leave her behind.She just wants that when she loves someone with all her heart, that person can love her too. Is such a wish too much? She huddled downstairs sadly, wrapping her arms tightly around herself.The night is very deep and cold, but not as deep as her heart, not as cold as her heart. "Cunxi, what are you doing? Are you dancing happily with Anna..."

He is looking for her. After sending Anna home, Ji Cunxi drove around the streets and alleys. The deeper the night, the more frantically he searched. "Stupid Xinyi, where have you been hiding?" He said to himself in annoyance, very angry that she ran outside without saying a word, did not turn on her mobile phone, and refused to contact him, "Do you know that grandma is very worried ?” He was worried, too, but he didn't want to admit it to himself.He told himself that he couldn't bear to let grandma worry about him, so he frantically looked for her. He is not the gentle man she said, he is indifferent and ruthless to irrelevant people.

He just treated her better by accident, but she gratefully regarded him as some kind person, how ridiculous! Does Jiang Mother Island specialize in such simple idiots?He pursed his lips in annoyance, remembering how stupid he was looking for in the car like this. "Shit!" He cursed in a low voice, clenched his fist and slammed on the steering wheel, venting his depression. Suddenly another car jumped out of the intersection. He was so uneasy that he almost had no time to step on the brakes. Fortunately, he managed to save himself from danger in the end. When the other party got out of the car and started cursing, he frowned impatiently, not noticing a ghostly shadow swaying by the side of the road, it was Xinyi.

He casually threw a business card to the other party, "Call me if there is a problem with the car!" After finishing his sentence, he continued to drive. That night, he and Xinyi actually missed each other several times, but neither of them knew about it.It wasn't until dawn and the rain stopped that he found her in a small park near Ji's house. She is squatting on the edge of a piece of sand, pinching the wet soil, making clay dolls, a man and a woman, a sweet couple. And a cute baby, she thought, digging up the dirt again.They can't be a couple without a baby. "I finally found you!" Ji Cunxi's voice sounded behind her.

She looked back in astonishment, unable to believe it. He found her!She thought no one would find her... He pulled her up and said angrily, "What do you think you are doing? Why did you run out without saying a word, without turning on your phone? Do you know that I... Grandma is very worried about you. " is it him?Was it really he who came looking for her?He really found her? "Cunxi..." She called hoarsely, reaching out her hand tremblingly to touch his arm, as if to make sure that he really existed. "You're so cold! Did you get caught in the rain?" Ji Cunxi suddenly grabbed her cold little hand, "Why are you so ignorant of taking care of yourself? Have you forgotten that there is a baby in your stomach?"

She was shocked, and after a while, her eyes darkened, and she apologized softly: "I'm sorry." She shouldn't have neglected the baby. "Don't tell me you're sorry!" He reprimanded, and wanted to scold her again, but when he saw tears in her eyes, he suddenly couldn't bear it, and sighed heavily, "You wait for me here first, I'll go to the convenience store opposite to buy a hot drink for you." you drink." "En." She nodded obediently, followed him to the entrance of the park, and stood by the street waiting. He shouldn't let go of her, maybe if he didn't let go at that time, and didn't leave her alone, the tragedy wouldn't happen.

But he didn't know, so he let it go, so when he walked out of the convenience store, he could only watch a car speeding up, accidentally bumping into her who was in a trance. "Xinyi—" he roared wildly, watching her roll aside in horror, crimson blood kept flooding under her body... Everything that followed was like a dream. The ambulance took Xinyi away, and Ji Cunxi waited anxiously outside the operating room.The doctor told him the baby was aborted and she was seriously injured.He didn't care about the baby, he just hoped that Xinyi was safe and sound.A few hours later, the operation was over and she was admitted to the intensive care unit.

He stayed by her hospital bed for a day and a night. She finally woke up and knew that she had a miscarriage. She felt as if she had lost her soul and was speechless for a long time. Seeing her stunned, he knew she must be very sad, so he hurriedly comforted her: "Don't be sad, so what if the baby is gone? It doesn't matter, as long as you..." "What did you say? It doesn't matter if the baby is gone?" She interrupted him tremblingly, looking at his eyes full of resentment. He froze, "I mean..." "You mean, the baby is already a trouble, if it wasn't for him, you wouldn't have to be forced to marry me, and I wouldn't be able to pester you, right?"

"Xinyi, I'm not this..." "Stop talking!" she shouted hysterically, not giving him a chance to explain.Her heart hurts so much, it hurts like losing a piece of flesh, and it keeps bleeding.She lost her baby, but he actually said it's okay, he didn't care at all, the only person who cared was her, and it would always be her! "Stop talking, get out, get out!" "Xinyi..." "I ask you to get out! Leave me alone, let me be alone!" She covered her face and cried. He looked at her, completely at a loss, so he walked out of the ward silently, but he didn't dare to leave, and stayed outside the ward, just in case something happened to her. Anna heard that in order to take care of Xinyi, he didn't go to work or go home, so she rushed to the hospital. Seeing him looking haggard and lost, her heart sank. She advised him to go home and rest, but he refused and insisted on staying in the hospital with Xinyi. he's changed!The current him doesn't seem to put her first. Another woman has settled in his heart. Anna was flustered and angry, "Why do you only think about her? Why don't you think for me? I feel so uncomfortable seeing you like this. You have never worried me like this before. You... you are honest , have you fallen in love with Chen Xinyi?" Ji Cunxi was shocked, "I didn't!" He instinctively denied it. "Then tell me, what is she to you?" "She..." Ji Cunxi was in a daze for a long time before responding hoarsely, "She is like a post-it note." "Post-it notes?" Anna didn't understand. She is always there when you need her, and you are indifferent to her presence.But one day when you lose her, you realize that she is very important, very very important. Ji Cunxi sighed self-deprecatingly, and was about to explain, but Anna suddenly caught a glimpse of the door of the ward slightly opened. With a thought in her mind, she deliberately smiled and took his arm, "I understand what you mean, Chen Xinyi is like a post-it note. It's not important, right? Hey, if you said it earlier, then people won't misunderstand you. Well, you must be hungry? At least come to dinner with me, okay?" Ji Cunxi couldn't resist her, so he had no choice but to follow her and pull him towards the elevator. He didn't notice that Xinyi was hiding behind the door and watched them silently, with tears sliding down her cheeks quietly. The next day, when Ji Cunxi rushed to the hospital after a meeting in a hurry, Xinyi had already quietly left, leaving only the divorce agreement and a wedding ring. Ji Cunxi tremblingly picked up the wedding ring and stood there, as if he could hear Xinyi whispering in his ear—— I wish you happiness! Afraid of worrying her parents, Xinyi dared not go back to Jiangmu Island, but she had nowhere to go, so she had to carry her luggage and came to the "St. John's House". She stood at the door feeling disappointed, thinking about how to persuade the priest to let her live here for a while, and figured out where she should go. "Xinyi, why are you here?" Dai Lun's hearty voice brushed against her ears, "Are you coming to see the children? Or..." He stopped suddenly, looked at the luggage under her feet, frowned, "What happened?" She looked back sadly, "I left Ji's house." "You left? Why?" "Because I have no reason to stay there anymore." Xinyi simply told Darren about Anna's return and the ins and outs of her miscarriage. He froze, "I never knew there was another Anna." "She's been here all the time." Xinyi said with a bitter voice, "Actually, Cunxi and I signed an agreement from the very beginning, and we will divorce after the baby is born." Dai Lun was speechless for a long time before asking in a hoarse voice, "What about now? What are you going to do?" "I don't know." She shook her head sadly, "I think, I might go to the south and find a job..." "Do you want to go to Shanghai?" He interrupted her suddenly. She was surprised. "I plan to open an art gallery in Shanghai, and I will fly there in a few days, do you want to come with me?" "Me? Go to Shanghai with you?" She was incredulous.Shanghai, sounds like another distant world. "Master Zhongshan is also there. Last time I sent him a photo of your work, he admired it very much. Maybe you can worship him as a teacher and learn pottery." she?Worship Zhong Shanlong as a teacher? "how is this possible?!" "How is it impossible! You haven't tried it yet, how do you know he won't accept you as an apprentice?" "But..." She hesitated. "This is your chance to start a new life, don't you want to change?" Dai Lun tried to persuade her, "Xinyi, don't you want to try to see if there is another possibility for you?" can sheXinyi was shaken.She who is always inconspicuous, can she really transform one day? "Cun Xi!" The call came from the other side of the world, but Ji Cunxi didn't move, and turned a deaf ear. "Cunxi!" the man called out again. Only then did he come back to his senses, retract his gaze from the phone screen, close the phone cover, and turn around slowly, "Anna, you're here." Anna frowned, and Yingying walked in front of him, seeing that he was holding the phone tightly in his hand, his eyes darkened, "Why are you always out of your mind these days?" She said softly, "Chen Xinyi left, how does it affect you so much?" Is it big?" Ji Cunxi frowned, trying to maintain a deadpan expression, "I'm fine, Anna, don't worry too much." Anna didn't believe it, but she wisely stopped asking, and turned her eyes to a coffee table in the corner, where she found a scarf. "What is this?" She picked it up curiously, and she was not very good at crocheting the scarf, so she shook her head, "Cunxi, you bought this?" "You don't know this scarf?" He was stunned. "I don't know." She was also surprised. Ji Cunxi grabbed the scarf and looked at her thoughtfully, "Isn't this from you?" "I gave it?" Anna was puzzled, "I didn't!" Ji Cunxi frowned.If the scarf wasn't from Anna, why did the servant say that Anna had sent it by courier when it was brought to him?Could it be... Startled, he quickly opened the desk drawer, took out the birthday card, and compared it with Xinyi's handwriting on the agreement, only to realize that it was written by the same person. Why did Xinyi give gifts under Anna's name?Is it because he is afraid that he will be sad because Anna forgot his birthday?In order to comfort him, she would rather trample on her own heart? The fool!How could there be such a stupid person in the world?Ji Cunxi was terrified, and out of the corner of his eye, he saw traces of correction fluid somewhere on the agreement. He took a closer look, only to find that Xinyi had erased the amount. This agreement was what he asked her to sign on the day the two got married, and it stated that the two would divorce after the baby was born.He will give her a sum of money, and a fixed remittance of alimony every month, but obviously she doesn't want anything. She doesn't want money, doesn't ask for his love, why is she...so stupid! "There are too many things these days, and I keep forgetting to give you a birthday present." Anna suddenly put her arms around his shoulders and asked softly, "Honey, what do you want?" He looked at Anna's sweet smile in bewilderment, but what he saw was Xinyi's desperate expression when she learned that she had a miscarriage. "I don't want anything." He only wanted Xinyi, and wanted her back... Seeing his blank expression, Anna knew it in her heart, raised her eyes and stared at him steadily, "Cunxi, do you regret it?" He froze, "What did you say?" "Do you regret choosing me over her that night?" "I..." Ji Cunxi was speechless, he should deny it, shouldn't he?Why can't you say it? His silence made Anna even more hurt, "Is it because the relationship between you and me in the past few years is not as good as the short few months with her? You once said that you would marry me, have you forgotten?" Ji Cunxi's chest tightened, "I haven't forgotten." "Then don't think about her anymore, okay?" She cupped his cheeks, her expression was sweet and playful, "From now on, you can only think about me. Cunxi, I am your true love." Dear woman!" She is the woman he really loves, isn't it? Ji Cunxi looked at Anna helplessly. With a flash in her eyes, she suddenly grabbed his cell phone and quickly pressed a few keys. "What are you doing?" He snatched back the phone, and when he checked it, his face changed drastically, "You deleted the photo?!" "Don't be angry!" She shook his arm coquettishly, "Since you decided to be with me, you should forget about Chen Xinyi, right? You don't need to keep her picture anymore." Ji Cunxi remained silent, his face turning green and pale for a while. Knowing that he was really angry, Anna took a deep breath, "Cunxi, I love you, I can't live without you." She looked at him pitifully, "Don't leave me, I have nothing but you gone." "What do you mean?" He said solemnly, "Don't you go back to New York to dance?" "I can't go back." She whispered dejectedly, "I can no longer dance, my ankle was injured, in fact, I came back for rehabilitation, I don't know if I can recover..." "Why didn't you tell me earlier?" He was anxious, "Why did you tell me now?" "Because I have my pride!" she shouted, with tears in her eyes, "Cunxi, I don't want you to think that I'm trying to win your sympathy, I...I hope..." "I know, you don't need to say any more." How could he not know?How lost and panicked Anna would be if she lost the stage.He gazed at her tenderly, "Don't worry, you will be able to dance again, and I will accompany you." "Cunxi!" Anna threw herself into his arms excitedly. He hugged her and patted her on the back pityingly, but his expression was gloomy. He couldn't turn his back on Anna, so he had to let Xinyi down. Since he had already made his choice on his birthday, there was no room for regret. there is none left…… With Dai Lun's assistance, Xinyi rented a small apartment in Shanghai to live in.For a while at first, she was still in grief, and her mind was in a trance all day long.Darren didn't force her either, and often came to accompany her when he was free, took her around, and explored the streets and alleys of Shanghai. Gradually, Xinyi cheered up, felt very embarrassed, and asked to help Dai Lun's newly opened art gallery.In addition to giving her some administrative chores, Dai Lun also took the opportunity to introduce her to Zhong Shanlong. Master Zhongshan deliberately tested her, "Look at this work, what do you see?" "I don't know, because I didn't do it. If you teach me how to do it, I'll tell you." Xinyi's inadvertent answer made him very happy. With Dai Lun's strong recommendation, he decided to accept her as his apprentice. Xinyi couldn't believe that she really had the opportunity to worship under the famous teacher. She trembled and studied hard, but the master was strict with her requirements. After several setbacks, she thought of running away. She quietly packed her luggage and was about to flee back to Taiwan when Dai Lun appeared in time to stop her. "Where do you want to go?" he demanded. Xinyi lowered her head guiltily, not wanting to speak. "Do you want to escape back to Taiwan? Didn't you say that becoming a ceramic artist is your dream? It's just a few failures, and you want to give up?" "I don't think... I can't do it." She whispered timidly.Growing up, she didn't do a single thing really well, and she was always a disappointment to those around her. "You haven't tried hard at all, how do you know you can't do it?" Daeron reprimanded severely, "Yes, you are very inconspicuous now, just like this clay, nothing, but after some skillful shaping, It can be turned into any beautiful work. Of course, this process will be very difficult, just like firing pottery. Been through this pain. How do you think Ana became a successful ballet dancer?" anna!Mentioning the woman Ji Cunxi loves the most, Xinyi's body trembled violently. "She was able to dance so beautifully on the stage, but in private she fell hundreds of times and endured so much pain. Do you think you can transform from a caterpillar to a butterfly without having to suffer this kind of torture?" "I……" "Do you want to lose to Anna? Do you not only lose to her in love, but also in fighting spirit?" Xinyi was stunned, remembering what Ji Cunxi once said to herself - life is like a gamble, it is impossible to win everything, but as long as the chips are in hand, there is always hope. He said that fate is in his own hands, and he asked her not to look down on him in the future. "I don't want to lose!" Xinyi suddenly shouted excitedly, staring at Dai Lun's eyes with a rare light of determination, "I want to try, I will work hard, I want to prove myself... More than that." She doesn't want to lose to the woman Ji Cunxi loves, she wants to prove to him that she is not a "post-it girl", she can also shine brightly and walk out her own path. After making up her mind, Xinyi immediately went to the studio to knead and burn pottery, and stayed up all night, finally breaking through the bottleneck. But she knows that this is only the first hurdle, and there will be more hurdles waiting for her in the future. She must muster the greatest courage to break through one by one. Then one day, when she was concentrating on drawing the design of the new work at her residence, Darren came to see her with a box of pizza. "You haven't eaten yet, have you?" He asked with a smile, "I brought pizza, let's eat together." "Thank you." Xinyi stopped writing and made a pot of coffee for the guests and herself. They chatted while eating. Darren told her that he planned to focus his future career on Shanghai, and would not fly around the world like before. "Are you going to settle down?" Xinyi was surprised, "I remember you said that you like the feeling of wandering and don't like staying in the same place for too long?" Darren's parents died when he was young, and he grew up in an orphanage. With his own hands, he made a fortune and became a well-known art broker, purchasing and appraising various treasures for collectors from all over the world. Jungle Adventurer is a very willful man. Unexpectedly, such a man would actually want to settle in Shanghai. "Now that I think about it, it's not bad to stop." Dai Lun glanced at Xinyi thoughtfully, "And I think Shanghai is very interesting." "Really?" Xinyi didn't see the deep meaning in his eyes, and joked casually, "Could it be that you want to get married?" "If someone is willing to marry me, marriage is not bad!" "As long as you are willing to propose, which woman will not nod?" "Then would you like to?" "Me?" Xinyi was stunned, "Are you joking?" "What if I'm not?" Daeron smiled half-smile. Xinyi shook her head, "You must be joking." She concluded, "And I'm not suitable for you, and I don't want to get married at all now." "Aren't you afraid?" Daeron asked intentionally or unintentionally. Xinyi was perplexed and did not speak. Darren stared at her for a moment, "The last time I went back to Taiwan, I heard that Anna opened a dance classroom." "Really? Did Anna stay in Taiwan?" She paused, then smiled faintly, "Then they must be getting married soon, that's great, Cunxi must be very happy." Dai Lun frowned, "Xinyi..." "It's okay." Xinyi understood that Dai Lun was worried about herself, and made a gesture to reassure him, "I thought about it a long time ago, and I also want him to be happy. He has his happiness, and I should also find my own. happiness." "That's right!" Darren was very happy that she thought so, "You have to control your own happiness, don't rely on anyone to give it to you." In the past, she was always looking forward to a prince charming to save herself, so she was always played around by men.Xinyi smiled wryly and shook her head, she would not be so stupid anymore, from now on, Chen Xinyi would no longer be that disrespected "post-it girl" before. "Dylan, I just designed a new pattern, can you give me some advice?"